I Wanna Talk About Jungkook

I wanna talk about Jungkook

So yes, I’m nothing and I barely use tumblr but that thing makes me wanna say something so bad. First, I can relate to Jungkook in so many ways one would be surprised, 3 years ago me and my anxiety made me end 3 friendships, and you know how? I made them feel bad with my words, bc I’m a big mess and even now 20yo I can’t express myself right, that’s where I’m different from him, he learned how to express himself.

Y'all keep saying that his age shouldn’t be an excuse and a lot of other things but yeah, try to see his point, he was really young and alone in a big city starting a whole new life, he was dealing with new interactions, new persons and a lot of them at once. Anxiety is a shit thing that makes you think a lot and makes you fuck up a lot too, I’m not saying he wasn’t wrong, oh hell he really was, but let me tell you abt myself. I didn’t and I don’t know how to express myself, I also don’t know how to read ppl, that’s why all my friendships tends to end badly bc they think I’m rude, YES, back in high school ppl only related my name to the word rude, so when I met Jungkook and I started to know abt him I saw myself a lot.

I’m a Jimin stan and I felt bad when I first watched the videos, really sometimes I wish I could be there to just make Jungkook shut up bc if he didn’t know how to act he should be quiet right? I’m assuming here that we have a lot in common, and just like him when I don’t know how to act or what the other person is trying to express towards me….I say dumb things. Humans are scary and when you’re not used to them around it’s even worse. Jimin was clearly that one person Jungkook couldn’t figure out, but also he couldn’t just ignore, he didn’t want to, make fun of him came easy first so he adjusted himself in that skin and continued, that was a mistake, a bad one bc he was thinking abt his own comfort not jimin’s, then again, he was young and when you’re young you tend to be selfish, like “I’m the only one suffering in this world” agenda that I’m sure your 15yo self once did.

Did you ever stopped and thought abt his shift personality? He was there, making fun and all, but at the same time he was saying that Jimin was the hyung he would go for comfort, that he was always avoiding him bc he didn’t know what to do with that affection, that “of course he is handsome is just for fun”, he is the last one on visual rankings but he has cute toes and pretty eyes, and when he was directly confronted he’d say that ofc he likes Jimin, and he would say that with that tone like “isn’t that obvious?”……boy, no it wasn’t.

He got older something clicked, and it wasn’t Jimin getting more and more beautiful, that was probably his own self analysis. Jimin once said he wasn’t like that when the cameras were off, and I believed that, doesn’t make it up for his actions but, by the way he talks now, the way he says often that Jimin was there to call him out back in trainee days, you can see that they were close off cam, and Jungkook values his presence. So he was mean, he realized, he put effort in changing. Jungkook himself said he used to be selfish, you don’t know how proud I am of him bc the way that guy changed wow, I wish I could be more like him, but no, recently I made his mistake, I was flustered with myself and started to shoot this all on someone, I was rude af and realized that way too late, she was my friend for 2 years, we don’t talk anymore. Jungkook is obviously more well solved and adult than I am and that goes for Jimin too. Park Jimin is one hell persistent person, he knew Jungkook wasn’t like that that’s why he waited, Jimin obviously felt bad but he is such a mature person, mature enough to know that wth was going on with Jungkook there was a chance that he could change.

Oh and there was something abt Jungkook only seeing Jimin after he starved himself and became sexy, well, Jungkook did the same for Jimin to notice that thing wasn’t healthy remember?. Jungkook figured out himself and how Jimin is important and where he was ugly failing and changed that, now he doesn’t hold himself, he treats Jimin the way he wants to, he says the things he sees in him, he called him his catalyst bc he realized Jimin were always there. He failed, he realized, he changed, and he still changing. To be realistic I wish I could be like him, or else I wouldn’t lost ppl.

ANYWAY, that’s it, If u wanna judge someone remember you were never on their skin, I have social anxiety and I hate when someone keeps telling me how I should act bc it’s not easy, most of the time I’m rude without noticing, I’m not saying he has the same problems that I have, but I can relate with his behavior, and I know how it is to be judged, to know u were wrong, but can’t do smth abt it, and he did. I’m proud of him, I’ll learn like him, and I think there’s no other person right now better than him to be around Jimin, as his best friend, his partner, his whatever.

I Wanna Talk About Jungkook

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