Is It "suicidal Thoughts" When I Hold And Stare At A Sharp Serrated Knife For An Hour, Routinely Pressing

Is it "suicidal thoughts" when I hold and stare at a sharp serrated knife for an hour, routinely pressing it against my wrist or throat just to see if it accidentally slip the wrong/right way, but eventually just sigh and drop it back in drawer and turn over to cry myself to sleep?

who here was on tumblr 4+ years ago

STR. 10

INT. 17

WIS. 15

DEX. 17

CON. 12

CHR. 16

 It was fun but not sure, those seem awful high heh

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heres my fucking embarrassing textbook nerd stats