Wisconsin Takes Shit Seriously (Im Somewhere In There Losing My Mind!)

Wisconsin takes shit seriously 🤘🏻 (I’m somewhere in there losing my mind!)

The Rave/Eagles Ballroom- Milwaukee, WI- 2/20/16

📸 Credit to the photographer👌🏻

To any of my followers who are struggling, please know that life does get better. Happiness is achievable. Don’t give up on yourself. Please don’t hesitate to message me if you need someone to talk to. I’m always here :)

To Anyone Struggling With Depression

Depression. It’s a shitty thing. It’s a debilitating thing. It makes us think things that we don’t want to think. Last night, I had a mental breakdown. I have many things going on in my life and so many things that I have to manage and fix, that I just let the wall fall down. I thought things I haven’t thought in two years. I didn’t understand. I was doing so well… I couldn’t fall asleep. I was just laying in bed and looking out my window, thinking why am I still trying? After that, I realized that I can’t just let myself think this. This. Is. Not. Me.  I had to get fresh air. The oxygen in my room was choking me.  I went and sat outside for a half hour or so and looked at the stars. This took me back to the time of my last breakdown. I did the same exact thing then. I sat outside and looked at the stars. The difference was that last time I did this, I realized why I was alive. Why I was  we were put on this Earth. I didn’t want to forget this moment, so when I went back inside, I wrote in my journal.

“The night sky is so beautiful. I went and laid out there tonight. Us, as humans, get so distracted with the bullshit that goes on constantly, we don’t take time to soak in the beauty of life. What we’re surrounded by. Only the realest of minds do. Gazing at the stars, I realized that we are just experiments. We’re given the opportunity of life not to win or lose, but to simply try… Try to establish happiness, what we seek to fill the void. The idea of reincarnation is up for debate, but in this lifetime, we have one mind, one body, and one soul. We’re given such things to conquer our “impossibles.” Maybe our souls move on to new bodies, but the body, the life we have right now, is only for once. We must live this life to take struggles as they are and opportunities when they’re presented. Life isn’t short. Life is only short when you sit and wait. Take what’s given and live life with bravery and doubtlessness. Happiness comes when you want it to, not when you wait. Life is about living. Don’t dwell in the past or fear the future, take the present by the wheel! You’re on a roller coaster that only goes up! You have your life to live.”

So to any of you who are struggling with depression or just life in general, please keep holding on. You and I, we may not have reached happiness yet, but we will. Nothing can stop us except ourselves.

Have a great & happy day, everyone :)

Photo by Jason Ogulnik

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