Please Understand That I Don't Hate Socialising In The Way That Allistics Understand It. I Like Learning

Please understand that I don't hate socialising in the way that allistics understand it. I like learning about people. I like the flow of a good chat. I like laughing and finding a soulmate. I like discovering a friend.

What I don't like is that none of it happens for me without a great deal of literal pain and exhaustion that can last for days.

Eye contact can literally give me a headache and make me feel nauseous.

Banter is confusing for me and can halt the conversation.

Monitoring my volume, tone, and facial expressions in real time is so tiring that I feel ready for a nap after 20 minutes.

And so much more is happening to me during a simple interaction. Let alone the rumination that occurs afterwards where I have to go through everything said to check for Social Interaction Anomalies™ that may make me a further outcast.

I like you. I do. I'm just so tired from last year still.

A silly little adventure

I’m posting this on behalf of my sister this time. Something happened that made her lose her entire check from work from this pay period, and since I have a Tumblr and PayPal and she doesn’t, I’ve elected to be the one to collect the money on her behalf.

She needs to raise 750 dollars. As always, my PayPal is tyrazaurus [at] gmail [dot] com. Whatever you can donate would be much appreciated.

just for the record i would have played wolves with you

Coat blanket, that’s the whole post