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paper rings - gojo satoru genre: fluff | notes: event/song fic | 1.0k words - prompt: “I like to give you all the shiny things in the world, but I would marry you in paper rings.”

years from now - itadori yuuji genre: fluff and comfort | notes: self indulge fic | 0.4K words - in which yuuji itadori promises to love you million years from now.

would be a lie - gojo satoru genre: angst | notes: manga spoilers!, angsty gojo supremacy | 0.9k words - those three words that he saw as curse.

old fashioned lovers - kuroo tetsurou genre: angst | notes: slight mention of cheating, hbd kuroo, angst, twilight reference, falling out of love | 0.7k words - where you and kuroo fell out of love. extra: Hey! everyone, it's been a while, I've been busy and facing a huge self decision whether i should change my username or not erm--yeah, but i hope everyone is doing good and i'll try to be active, stay safe

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You and Kuroo have a lot of differences and sometimes these differences were overlooked because you two were the perfect couple -- was the perfect couple.

It happened on the night you met Kuroo, and despite the differences in yours and his personalities, you two looked forward to the date set in the morning. For months and a year Kuroo followed you, he followed you to get your heart, to get you to say yes. And you did.

The first night he spent with you was your second anniversary with him and that night he realized he loves you more than anything and would do anything for you, including breaking your heart. Kuroo knew how hard a relationship can be, he knew it first hand seeing his parents fall apart, seeing everything he adores fall apart, but that change when he met you, because of you he finally had hope, he had courage, and felt the love that he longed for a long time, he knew that it was good having you by his side, in fact, he believed that it was too good, too good to be true, and it was.

The third year in the relationship was buying a home with no one just you and Kuroo, the third year in the relationship was you having a secret language with him and him having a secret favorite scent that reminds him of you. Kuroo looked at the bedsheets as he rest his hand on your cheek.

This was too good to be true.

“Tetsu, why are you awake, it’s too early…”

“Sorry, I woke you up, baby. Go back to sleep, I just like watching you sleep.”

“Are you pulling an Edward Cullen, now? You should go back to sleep too, Tetsu..”

And there he stared at you, sleeping peacefully.

This was too good to be true.

The fourth year in the relationship was the first and last fall of the glass. The glass was no ordinary glass, it was a glass filled with passion and love, and that first fall ruined the night, that night he think of someone while holding your hand but he didn’t tell you about it cause he believes that made him more of a good guy. But he was wrong. The first time the glass fell wasn’t only his fault, it was yours too.

That time when he uttered another name while holding you, you think of another person other than Kuroo. You wanted to scream at yourself for thinking like that, as you remind yourself, you love Tetsurou, but when you met his eyes that time, his eyes were pleading something, something you could not give. And that time Kuroo wasn’t the only one who dropped the glass, you did too.

That night, was the last night.

The last night Kuroo saw your face, the last night you held Kuroo’s hand, the last night Kuroo held you like a fragile glass, the last night you kiss Kuroo a ‘goodnight’.

The night was so painful, that it was true.

The last night wasn’t a painful farewell, it was the sweet goodbye, you two knew that you danced too much these past years together, you two loved too much together.

“I’m sorry--I couldn’t keep my promise of spending forever with you..”

“It’s okay, Tetsu. I’m sorry too.”

Some would say they are the perfect couple --- they were the perfect couple. They were so perfect that even their differences took part in that perfect piece but not all the time perfect wins.

You and Kuroo part ways but a part of him stays with you and a part of you stays with him.

You are his greatest love and his calming pain.

And he is your sweetest serendipity and soft goodbye.

And just like the first night you and Kuroo met, you saw the differences between you and him, but this time it was the last night.

This was too good to be true, he reminded himself once again.

He kissed your forehead and you returned it with a sad smile.

“We met but it was never destined.”

That’s the last piece of glass, and you and Kuroo were nothing more but old lovers.

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would be a lie - gojo satoru genre: angst | notes: manga spoilers!, angsty gojo supremacy | 0.9k words - those three words that he saw as curse. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Upon meeting Gojo Satoru at his prime, you knew that this man would be your greatest enemy and greatest home, meeting Gojo Satoru isn’t like a tea in winter, it’s not like an iced tea on summer, meeting Gojo Satoru is like tasting a mint chocolate ice cream for the first time: that is meeting Gojo Satoru, you don’t know if you like the hint of sweet or like the hint of mint, because he is nowhere in between that two flavor.

But meeting him was one of your greatest cheers in life, you knew Gojo’s past because you lived in it, you were a part of it. You knew Geto Suguru became his first and only best friend as well as Shoko being his friend and human diary. But something made you feel closer to Gojo, because of all the pain he went through, he still chooses to be back to you, whether you may play a big or small part in his past he still chooses to go back to you.

You smiled at this thought because indeed, you knew Gojo more than you planned too: on how would you explain to him that you’re thankful that he let his guard down as you bring him an embrace, on how much you adore his body warmth to yours, on how you would catch him staring at you despite his blindfold, on how his mood suddenly shifts whenever you’re there, oh, and how could you thank him on how he would allow himself to fall asleep next to you when the night is chilly.

Such a cliche love story, if some would say but that’s just the thing, Gojo never really made it clear who you were, who are you in his life: because not even you could not explain if he’s toying with your emotion or just being him. You never knew what’s written on his mind, despite the fact he’s letting his guard or infinity around you it doesn’t mean the wall that he built is gone too.

Gojo was a man, having ten steps in his mind, ten steps onwards to the future, ten steps before you could even move. Despite the mixed signals he gave. You never seem to notice on how his blue eyes tend to show such sadness, that behind that strong persona he puts on, him: Gojo Satoru, is more than a jujutsu sorcerer, that person behind his blindfold and upholded persona is the one you wish to love, and you helping him to replace that sadness that he holds for too long, that you wish that hole in his heart will be replaced by you.

“Then, tell me..what are we Gojo? Cause--”

That was the question you asked him, to which he didn’t know what to say and you bet he thanked his students for calling him that time. You wished that he forgot that question but deep down you bid the gods that he will answer you with the answer you wish to hear, because how would you explain the deep embrace he give to you, how would you explain the long intertwining hands whenever you two are alone, how would you explain those lost and deep nights where he only showered you with taste of love? What is it, then?

When Gojo heard you asked the question, he felt his heart skip a beat, because you’re the only person he never wished to lie to. He thanked his students for saving him from your question. He trembled for a moment, for the thought that maybe you don’t want him anymore, you don’t wish to be at his side anymore. He feared that maybe you would find someone, but no, you wouldn’t do that.

Throughout the whole day he spent his time thinking of how he would answer you, because in the end of the day, in the middle of the night, he knew he would want to spend it with you. Because he knew, he was in love with you.

When he was about to go home, he felt your eyes staring at him when he first years arrived at the school, he saw your eyes lit up the moment you saw him, he saw you lit up all of the sudden when you saw him that made him calm and made his stomach feel those butterflies.

But that hole of sadness is much scarier, he thought that every moment he can lose you, just like how lost himself back then with his best friend. He engaged a deep sigh, shaking his head and believing that he is the strongest that he can protect you but he couldn’t shake the fact that maybe, some day, you will leave him and there’s nothing he can do. He loves you so much that he would do anything to protect you.

Love is indeed the most bitter curse, this is the taste of curse, because he already felt it, he tasted it already. He just wished to be happier, but this is too much, and when the night left the both of you, he finally answered your question.

“Cause, I love you, Satoru.”

Ah, this is where he wished to be himself, that he wished he lived like a normal man living with you. But just this once, he would like to lie, because you were the important piece in his life and he couldn’t bear to lose you. He sighed and when you heard him clear his throat, you knew you lost in this gamble, you lost in this taste of love or more like curse.

“[Name.], If I told you those eight letters...three words..it would be a lie.”

And maybe he did lose you after this night.

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left to run - kuroo tetsurou genre: angst | notes: ft. you | 1.7k words - nothing held kuroo back when he first saw you but now everything is holding him back to go back to your arms,

deja vu - kuroo tetsurou . ( part I ) genre: fluff to angst | notes: song fic and ft. kenma | 1.0k words - kuroo fell in love with someone only to get deja vu of you.

mr. perfectly fine - kuroo tetsurou . ( part ii ) genre: angst to relief(?) | notes: song fic | 2.5k words - part two of kuroo’s deja vu: where he came back to you

among us - kuroo tetsurou genre: fluff | notes: among us with nekoma, event fic | 0.9k words - prompt: “Let’s pretend you didn’t say that because I want confess first.”

old fashioned lovers - kuroo tetsurou genre: angst | notes: mention of cheating, hbd kuroo, twilight reference | 0.7k words - where you and kuroo fell out of love.

《《 not much but here's a dabi playlist ---

• follow (the playlist), reblog and likes are very much appreciated.

• artist present in the playlist: simple plan, twenty one pilots, zayn, and many more

• shiggy's playlist with gojo's playlist will be posted nextweek uwu

• perfect when you're on a dabi lockdown

• or when reading reader insert fic

• or you just hate enji

• or you just love dabs

one step forward, three steps back - bakugou katsuki genre: angst | notes: song fic, interactive song (fic)? !toxic relationship! | 0.6k words - loving bakugou is like moving forward but also three steps back,,

--- extra notes: - the following is inspired from Olivia Rodrigo's 1 step forward, 3 steps back (from SOUR album) - if you see this symbol make sure to play the song " ►"

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Katsuki Bakugou was indeed a man with a lot goals, that includes him being the strongest and the number one hero; some even say he worked too much but to him it’s just a stepping stones despite what he believes you already knew that he was more than enough, you believe that or rather you already knew that but what amazes you the most is his burning passion of being a hero.

[► PLAY THE SONG HERE ►]

It adored you on how he kept on pushing himself towards his goals, and you love him for that---you loved him for that. Not until everything was falling apart between you and him.

Called you on the phone today Just to ask how you were.. All I need was speak my mind Somehow, I still struck a nerve..

You wanted to remain blind to what is happening, you seem to not realize or you rather choose not to realize that Bakugou made you doubt yourself so much if you’re pretty, or even if you’re fun and by now you somehow hated that he kind of has that power over you. Loving him, indeed, is a complete bliss, until you make him mad.

Bakugou never noticed how you would strive harder just to be with him, for he was always moving forward, and you kept following me from behind. However, he knew you kept on following him so he never really turned around to see if you’re still around. He kept on climbing every wall, every mountain, and walked every obstacle for he believed you were always there right behind him.

It's always one step forward and three steps back Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand No, I don't understand…

You never heard him say some sweet and enticing words, you never saw him stop and look at you, but you hoped it was because of his nature but what makes you break more is how you sometimes wonder which love will you get today, Is it the lover who will walk you by the door or the lover who will send you home crying? Because Bakugou is sometimes the latter and sometimes neither.

Despite the fear of falling apart you still push to one step forward but as you see his eyes piercing to you, without a doubt you take three steps back, you were his, you keep on reminding yourself you were his, but somehow you never knew if he loves you, want you, or even hate you, you will never understand him.

Always going back and forth, because you keep on wondering if you said something wrong, going back and forth as you wonder about the things you said, going back and forth wanting to tell him it’s his fault instead, that was loving Bakugou and you wished you knew that, you wished that you never even bother him, or knowing him.

Because like from the start it’s always..

One step forward and three steps back And I'd leave you, but the roller coaster is all I've ever had Yeah, it's one step forward and three steps back

You called him and somehow he was mad, you kept saying that you hate him, every inch of your relationship was just a bunch of messed up rollercoaster, you told him that you wanted to end it. But still, for the first time he said something, he talked to you about something.

“I need you..”

And somehow he said that you heard it with hesitation and just this once you stood up for yourself as you replied with tears and a smile on your face.

“Do you love me, want me, hate me?....I don't understand. No, I don't understand.”

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