Crying On The Floor As I Add Post-game Cured Astarion Ideas To My Web Of Lore. My Poor Immortal Tav Is

Crying on the floor as I add post-game cured Astarion ideas to my Web of lore. My poor immortal Tav is in mourning already. (I haven't even gotten to moonrise yet)

Anyway I'm off to listen to Nobody loves you by reuben, and sob. (I should be doing poisson distribution)

Given that Az asks if caffene is calming, does this suggest that Az has tried/has been willing to try drugs (poor anxious angel) to calm himself down. Does the fact that he indulges in alcohol also suggest he is open to substance use as a celebratory/ casual thing.

They've been through history, they were around when class As were perfectly legal and even medicinal.

My point is, past Aziraphale has probably done cocaine.

(Or at the very least drank it in old cola)

Current Az has probably ran into a stoner that tried to/ managed to convince him weed will reduce his anxiety.

Yet another comment on the sunglasses, but it has to be said.

Crowley is at his most vulnerable when he doesn't have the glasses on, so when he does, he can pretend everything is okay. This is why him putting them back on at the end is so tragic because he CANNOT just go back to being casual friends/acquaintances with Az.

Crowley is CONSISTENTLY at his most jokey/sarcastic when he does have his glasses on. This is him having is walls up, but is also him being a silly little guy and being in total denial about how much he'd sob if his love was unrequited.

Everyone was so happy about him taking his glasses off more in s2 but that's really the tragedy of it. He loves and loves and only loses when he confronts the truth, at his most vulnerable. He only fully realises how broken his and Aziraphales relationship is when he tries to be open.

They may be circular but they are 6000% his heart shaped sunglasses and the lenses are more rose tinted than the NGC 40 nebula.

Iiiiits metaphor time!!!

So, it's been shown a few times that Crowley and Aziraphale are opposite but similar, different sides of the same coin, ect, etc.

One very important metaphor for this is the yin/yang. Its been mentioned in interviews multiple times and I think its very true "little bit of a nice person"/"just enough of a bastard" fit this SO well.

But those lines are s1, they fit together because they both represent one side and everything is balanced. They fit together, they dine at the Ritz.

In season 2 however, they don't. At all. Aziraphale makes a point to do more "good deeds" even if they arnet in line with heaven. The whole "very good at forgiveness" and him being visibly upset in the Edinburgh minisode where there are no solid lines to be drawn for morality indicate a bit of negative development on his part. Perhaps the fact that he no longer reports to heaven makes him feel like he has to do more good to make up for it. Hence why Az gets defensive about telling Crowley the good things he's done in the coffee shop scene.

I mean, he was almost about to get Crowley to kill a child in s1, his ability to bastard has decreased.

On the opposing side, Crowley is better this season. Infact I'd say he isn't good or bad. Bad for heaven sure but he is just entirely indifferent to the humans for the most part.

At least that's what I thought until I rewatched it. It's in the way he let's Maggie and nine out of the shop without hesitation, even when he could be mischievous. Its in the way he guides the shopowners out the bookshop trying desperately to stop people getting hurt. Hell, even in the minisodes (ESPECIALLY THE EDINBURGH ONE) he's just floating somewhere between chaotic neutral and chaotic good. (Possibly even neutral good).

While he does also do good in s1, he denies it much more strongly, so perhaps being distanced from hell has allowed crowley to just, do whatever he wants (which just so happens to be good).

There is a point here, let's get back to it.

So, using the colours black and white as in the yin/yang symbol. They both get more white. Obviously, this causes an imbalance. I reckon, crowley pretty much becomes his own symbol, having equal good and bad in him (lets be honest, the "bad" is just him beign a silly little guy). Now I'm deffinetly not saying he doesn't need Az at all, only that he functions as moraly independent. His biggest flaw is that he wants to get away from things instead of fixing them, probably becaue3 he's to scared to try.

Az on the other hand, still refuses he can be bad at all. He's an antihero at worst, doing bad things for perfectly good reason, (hiding Gabriel to PROTECT him). Its this inability to compromise that eventually leads to him blurring the lines between actual good and heaven good, causing him to be delusional and fall back into his old way of thinking at the end.

Pair this with the whole "they want the same thing but are going about it in diff ways", "they don't talk", ect.

They are no longer the yin and yang, they no longer fit together as a pair because Crowley is trying to make himself whole and Az is either ignoring the problem altogether, or trying to be only good. He is trying to have a calm life on earth without letting go of the divine good of heaven and its just not going to work.

I have a feeling that next season Crowley is going to be shifting between emotional and nilhistic (just because he's more moraly stable doesn't mean he is emotionally, bless). Az is going to have to struggle with trying to fix a system that is broken in the name of the one leading the system (god). HOPEFULLY these cause them both to reevaluate their flaws (crowleys running away, Az with his inability to do so) and just erase the moral obligations altogether.

I've finally realised why I hate songs written about romantic exes. It's not that I dont like them, just none of them meet my standards.

The standard, of course, being SIX THE MUSICAL.

HOLY SHIT I WATCHED IT RECENTLY AND IT WAS SOOOOOO GOOD, THE VOCALS, THE PERFORMANCE, THE OUTFITS.

L TO THE SWIFTIES BUT HER SINGING ABOUT BREAKUPS AT THE ERAS TOUR COULD NEVER.

Also I'm well aware that it's just part of the performance but Katherine Howard winked at me and she was very pretty and im not getting over that for a good week so yeah.

THE FINALE!!!

I love it in the same way that poisonous plants are beautiful, that fire is cozy and the way that the unfathomable vastness of space is comforting.

Bittersweet does not begin to describe my feelings it was done SO well and though devastating is 100% agreeable in terms of character development.

The writing and acting for this season have been so wonderful but that last 20 minutes especially made me feel emotions I did not know existed.

Oh, and Michael Sheen?? Smiling that hard in the release day video??I just know he is enjoying the mass suffering of ep6 and to be honest I cannot fault him.