I AM TRULY BUILT DIFFERENT TONIGHT.

I AM TRULY BUILT DIFFERENT TONIGHT.

I don't draw for months and come back with something genuinely pleasing to myself. Let's. Fucking. Go.

My phone is now Death Family themed with Phil as my home screen and Chayanne and Tallulah as my lock. Very happy about it :D

Too fucking real dear lord lmao

these two months of 2024 have been five years respectively

if every website i use to talk to my friends could stop eating shit and going to hell that would be great

The biggest thing with this is to remember that while you supported a shit person, You. Didn't. Know.

No one knew this person was so awful while we were creating stuff. I completely believe in not shaming my past self for stuff I didn't know. It's entirely unreasonable and unhealthy to shame your past self for not knowing someone would turn out to be a shit person.

The fandom and fan created works typically end up existing outside the original creator or actors very very quickly. They become their own thing more often than not. It's always your decision to do what you want with your work, but I will always encourage archiving or orphaning stuff first. Go through the notes on the fic and delete any mentions of your username or other socials. Let it just exist in the abyss of the internet.

this might just be because i'm a bit older than your average mcyt fan, but it makes me kind of sad to see all these younger fans scramble to wipe their mcyt fanworks off the internet the second a content creator is revealed to have done something awful.

don't get it twisted, I'm a big believer in rescinding financial support to ccs you no longer agree with or admire by unsubscribing, deciding not to buy merch, or refusing to give them ad revenue by watching their content. if you don't feel comfortable giving someone money, don't give them your money. material support isn't what i'm talking about here - I'm talking about fanfic, fansongs, fanart. yknow, content that fans create for themselves and each other, stuff that's not for ccs.

in the past year (and especially the past week, obviously) i've seen tons of mcyt fans saying they're planning to delete their art (or that they already have deleted) because they don't want their work to be associated with content creators who behaved badly, and that they want "a fresh start." I've seen fan writers say the same thing about their fics. and like, this is fine, do what you want with your stuff, but i'll be honest...it does make me sad that so many younger fans seemingly have been made to feel such a high degree of responsibility for ccs that they're unable to enjoy fandom (a thing that is FOR US! FOR YOU!) or take any measure of pride in their past fanworks.

again, at the end of the day you should do what you want with your own shit. but what i will say is, if what you want to do with your work is delete it, at least think first about why you're considering the nuclear option. you aren't responsible for a cc's behavior, and that goes for literally anyone who's ever had a hand in making anything you like: books, movies, games, anything. you shouldn't be made to feel ashamed of having created fan content for a piece of media that a shitty person was involved in making. straight up, this kind of shame isn't something i believe should exist in fandom, because it's parasocial in the same way that positive emotions towards media/creators can be parasocial.

and also, as someone who's been involved in fandom for a long time, i can say with confidence that creators will keep disappointing you like this. there are shitty people out there. if you're searching for a piece of media with zero shitty people ever involved in the project, you will not find it. i'm not saying this to normalize shitty behavior on the part of creators, I'm saying this to emphasize that bearing the shame and guilt of every creator to this degree is not sustainable or healthy (and it's not how fandom used to operate, but that's a conversation for another day, perhaps.)

i understand why so many folks are considering deleting their fanworks, and if that's you...think about it before you do it. that's all i'm asking. you don't want to create a habit of divesting yourself of all evidence of having been passionate about art created by someone who sucks, because if you do get into that habit, then your chances of ever truly enjoying a fandom again are, unfortunately, pretty slim.

I don't know how or why this connection has been made in my head but Tallulah gives Strawberry Shortcake vibes.

Like the good Strawberry Shortcake versions not the most recent one.

doodle of tubbo with his god kids

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