Ok Im Not The Type For Relationships But Im Seeing A Lot Of Really Cute Guys And Today Some Students

Ok I’m not the type for relationships but I’m seeing a lot of really cute guys and today some students from Ukraine came and did a performance and there’s this guy. Hear me out.

Like if I’m thinking of having something serious I want to achieve it just with my own dedication or whatever but it’s quite impossible to flirt on the internet without looking like a creep so maybe I’ll use the perfume method but still I feel like it’s cheating. ‘Cause I wanna be liked and loved for who I am not because of some otherworldly power but guys that I like never like me back and I have just been with guys that I didn’t even think about. So maybe I should give it a try. Ok I’m done venting.

But like, today I decided to put on a really good outfit, do my hair and look more than decent, ‘cause when I have a lot of tests I try to not dress to extravagant like I usually do, today I didn’t have any and I dressed gothic, done my hair, just shitty makeup but still looks kinda good. And today I saw that guy, I feel like it might be a sign but I’m not too sure. I wish things weren’t so confusing. I believe in the power of the universe and signs, so I take this as a sign but it still feels kinda off. I still prefer logical thinking so I’m stuck in both these worlds and don’t know what to believe.

Time is really slow when you’re waiting for their text.

The way the perception I have of my body would change if my boobs were even just a little bigger.

I think I might have a thing for blood.

Having a crush is so draining.