'suicide Is A Permanent Solution To A Temporary Problem'

'suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem'

I think it's past temporary when I've felt the same for 10 years now

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

You be unbearably clingy and I’ll be violently protective.

I’ll doll you up and take you out. I’ll parade you around town in the most cute and slutty outfits for the world to see how gorgeous you are. I’ll take you to parties, restaurants, clubs and show you off before using you in front of everyone. I just need them to understand that you are mine and I will do what I please with your body.