Im So Sorry For The 3 People (and Multiple Bots) Who Might Have Been Eagerly Waiting For My Jin Fic,

I’m so sorry for the 3 people (and multiple bots) who might have been eagerly waiting for my Jin fic, but I think I’m gonna table The Season for now…I just can’t seem to work out how I want this story to go, or why I’m writing it. Microcosmos was so much easier (although it took 7 months to write) because I had a clear vision of what message I was telling - it was about connection and healing from something that hurts deep inside. I could easily picture myself in the story (which makes writing dialogue and reactions so much smoother), Jungkook’s and Hobi’s characters were also so fleshed out and I was able to show how friendships are just as important as romantic ones.

But The Season? It feels like a series of words. I have nice moments and good ideas, but I can’t figure out why I need to write this fic. Why Jin? What narrative am I trying to tell? What should the reader feel? What am I trying to say about this world? I just lost my inspiration for it despite all the rewrites and changes I made to it over the past couple months

Maybe later I’m gonna go back to it with a clearer mind, but for now it’s going to the back burner :(

*Stefon voice*: The My Universe MV had everything! Brilliant sets, diverse and unique casting, great message throughout the MV, beautiful cinematography, BTS being absolutely beautiful and vibing to the music, no whitewashing/skin brightening filters, Hobi flirting with an alien woman…

God it was so GOOD. I already love the song, but the MV just brought it to another level 🤩

I have literally read fan fiction that is BETTER than actual published novels…and we are so blessed that they choose to give it to us for FREE

You ever read a fanfiction so, so fucking good that when you're done reading it, you're kinda disoriented? Like the place you were reading it in seems unfamiliar because the story sucked you into the fucking fifth dimension with how good it was? Unparalleled feeling.

Fanfic writers are an absolute gift to humanity.

Me for the past 2 days: wrote 2,500 more words in my fic, have been writing more than I have in the past couple weeks

My laptop: decides to crash twice within a half hour

Why….. T_T

I think one of the lowest lows I’ve experienced recently during my extensive job hunt to get out of retail is getting a rejection email 10 minutes after I applied for a job this afternoon. I hadn’t even gotten the application confirmation email yet…

“My story, my rules” I whisper to myself as I rewrite my Jin fic to be set in a modern era