Oh, Me? Crying And Ready To End It Because I Thought About How Claudia's Life Truly Was A Fucked Up Bandage

oh, me? Crying and ready to end it because I thought about how Claudia's life truly was a fucked up bandage for Louis and Lestats terrible marriage? Yeah.

How she lived as a cure to fix their wounds for a time, and even when she didn't do it for all of her life, she still ended up doing her role as the 'bandage' in her death as it was one of the things that brought Louis and lestat together at the end of season 2.

How she died never reaching full potential, because she was made too early, too wise in her time alive, and overall for all the wrong reasons. And when she finally got happy, got her happy ending, she got killed and seen as a 'prop' that magically disappeared with her lover to all who witnessed her death.

How she probably won't get mentioned, unless its for more of Lestat and Louis's character development and relationship being cured finally, and will always just be a memory now, in the new season's.

How we'll never get to see a happy, healthy family of the three of them. Even if it is just flash backs to them before the truth was revealed about how fucked Loui and Lestats relationship was, and Claudia left, and everything happened.

love my family

I hate crying at home.

at home the same people who make me cry are the same ones I keep quite for. To not alarm them. I don’t want therapy, or a ‘day out’ with them to ‘fix our connection.’ It’s already severed and only hanging by whatever is making me still smile at you on occasion.

but knowing you, you’ll get mad at that and sever that too.

quick question, where do I go from here?

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freaky shit (being honest)

This is just a blog for me to vent to sometimes- about anything really, usually my latest obsessions.

currently have been thinking about a minecraft smp that have the five types of minecraft players, (miner, fighter, explorer, builder, and farmer.) All existing togther in the world.

<side note- their put into categories 'extrovert' and 'introvert.'>

Group 1 - introverts -

The introverts of the five are obviously going go be the farmer and, the builder.

<Not to say their actually introverted as a person, but they do stay at home the most out of everyone.>

They of course stay at home, the builder doing the job of making a house, storage space, and even a place for animals for the farmer. They of course make everything aesthetic, taking the most from the miner, and overall making sure that that house looks like a home.

The farmer on the other hand is a bit more self-sufficient. Their taking care of animals along with, veggies and overall any plants they have planted. They make the food for not only the other players, but the animals of course.

The two also help each other of course, the builder helping with the farm when their not busy, and the farmer helping with building when their also not busy.

(They have shared projects like a garden, with a pond with Excelottles in it.)

2nd group - extroverts -

The extroverts of the group, same as introverts, are easy to guess out. The builders, fighters, and exploers, are the ones out and about most likely never at the house because their either in a cave, almost dieing, or lost somewhere.

The miners are bringing in the diamond armor for everyone, making sure everyone has the actual blocks/materials to do what they need, and bring in half of the resources in the group- if not just 33.4ish precent of all the good materials while the other extras get the rest.

The fighter of the group is the one with the most levels most accurately. They fuck around and single handedly take out the enderdragon, successfully bringing back things like the dragon egg and dragon breathe, and are there in .2 secons if you need someone to help with a hoard of zombies or other mobs.

The explorers of the group are just sorta like the wanders of the group. Their gone longer than even the miners, most likely will show up randomly back at the house like they haven't been gone long enough for the group to start making a grave for them. They also fuck around like the fighter, bringing back more diamonds, gold, and some not even useful but cool blocks and animals.

The three help each other like the introverts, the fighter and explorer helping with mining when they decide to, along with the three exploring togther, and fighting togther.

They also have their own group project that's most likely them making a map room, going out while doing their own thing but also filling out maps.

So im having a mental breakdown, it’s fun, got a soundtrack this time.

I hate my family, I hate them. They can get so fucking aggravating. Things that affect me aren’t even memorable to them. It fucking hurts- even more when I make myself believe that just because I don’t have visible scars I don’t get to be sad. I feel like I can’t breathe

It hurts.