I Really Want To Share The Story Of Me Absolutely Falling In Love With Ponniyin Selvan.

I really want to share the story of me absolutely falling in love with ponniyin selvan.

It was 29th sept and i had my last exam on 30th and as usual did not prepare anything. Instead of worrying about my exam me and my frnd were making a plan of what to do after the exam cause everyone else had some or the other plan on their hand. I watched the ps1 trailer but i wasn't interested enough to go on the first day itself. We thought lets go to some random movie but later idk why but i felt like going to this movie only.(i love history) After my exam was done i asked my frnd if she will come to ps1 she said yes and even though my exam went very bad i went home and booked tickets for the evening show. There were no balcony seats left and its hard to watch the film from the down rows yet we booked the tickets. God i fell in love with that film. Though it was bit hard to watch its dubbed version after listening to the songs in tamil it was nice only(except the neck pain). I will never forget the woman who spoiled the mandakini entry for me.

I thought that the first 2 parts were made into one film and the rest in the 2nd part(dumb ik).so I started reading from the part where the movie ended and i was so confused of what is happening and all. I literally spoke to almost everyone abt that movie wherever i go. I also have a habbit of exaggerating about the things i like. So I decided that i have to watch ps2 first day with the same frnd.

I waited for every update very eagerly. When the ps2 album dropped, it was like someone pouring exilir in my ears. The album was soo soo soo good and felt very divine.

Me, my frnd and another classmate of ours, we booked the tickets as soon as they were released. Ps2 was an eyefeast. Ah that feeling of watching your favorite film that you anticipated for a long time on the big screen gives such a satisfaction. I will never forget how i felt watching those 2 movies in theatre with my bestfriend.

Ik this is a bit silly but couldn't stop myslef from sharing this😅

the unsaid words are remain unsaid

I have so much to write. So much to draw. So many songs to learn. So many ideas. I want to learn atleast one danceform. Learn atleast one instrument. Be an artist. Be full of colours.

And here I am losing sleep over an internship. Because I need the job. I need that financial independence.

I dunno I kinda just wanna live.

#PONNIYINSELVAN : veera chozha veera (please pretend the glitch foes not exist)

In Memoriam

This is my first try at Vanmozhi Fanfiction. Inspired from the PS 2 movie scene. Planning to do a two part follow-up of this prologue. Let me know what you think!

Prologue

'Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all.’ (In Memoriam A. H. H., 27.13-17) 

The sky of Thanjavur was strangely grey on a Vaikasi afternoon as the people waited for their beloved crown prince, Aditha Karikalan, to come home.

Only this time, there was no line of excited girls, wearing their best sarees,  chattering away with their aarti thali on the steps of majestic Thanjavur fort, waiting to catch a glimpse of their handsome  prince.

Instead, a grief-stricken royal family waited patiently. Chakrvarthi and the young prince, Ponniyin Selvan were waiting at the front, while the women of the royal family waited behind.

Slightly behind the royal family, Kodombalur Ilavarasi Vanathi was also waiting along with other royal women, looking over the sea of the people that gathered at the outer court of the fort. Since last night, as the news of the prince’s death spread, people kept coming from all corners of the Cholanadu. 

While Vanathi waited, she thought of everything and nothing.

Such a contrast, Vanathi reflected, looking at the grey sky briefly before her gaze settled on the royal family who were clad in pristine white, a decorum when someone in the family passes away.

As if even the sky was mourning along with this family.

Vanathi’s thoughts got interrupted as people’s clamour suddenly increased, making her focus at the entry gate of the fort.

Finally, Aditha Karikalan had arrived in Thanjavur.

In the city where he grew up. In the city where he belongs.

A long procession of regiment came by foot, closely followed by the prince's beloved horse regiment, waving the chola flag. 

From where she was standing, Vanathi could  see the chariot carrying the prince’s body from a distance, closely flanked by his trusted fighting companions, Manamalyan, Parthibendran and Vanthiyadevan; not leaving their beloved prince’s side, even in death.

As the chariot slowly moved across the crowd, Vanathi could hear muffled cries while some people started to shower flower petals at the chariot, a sign of their last respect to their Ilavarase. A section of the crowd even started to tussle with the guards to touch the chariot and pray.

It took a long time for the guards to clear the way for the chariot to cross the short distance of the entry gate to the steps of the fort. 

When the chariot carrying the prince's body finally stopped in front of the fort stairs, there was a momentary pause among the royal family members. 

As if they could not believe what they were seeing.

The ailing Chakravarty was the first to break down as he could not support his weight anymore. Ponniyin Selvan gripped his father tightly, making sure his father could come down the stairs to meet his beloved elder son.

Raṇi varataṭcaṇai Sembiyan Mahadevi, Rani Vanavan Mahadevi, Iliya Piratti slowly started to walk behind the Chakravarty to meet their nephew, son and brother, Aditha Karikalan, one last time. Vanathi followed them as well, her steps heavy with grief.

As everyone in the family huddled at the front of the chariot and tried to caress the beloved prince’s face, the cries of the Chakravarti and Rani were the most heart-breaking.  Vanathi, who was standing at the end of the chariot, could not take it anymore. She bowed her head, closed her eyes to drown out the sound of cries and desperately put her hands together in prayer.

Ishvara, may the Ilavarase join you in heaven. And…And give my beloved royal family and the people of Cholanadu the strength to overcome this difficult time.

Vanathi stayed still for a few minutes, hoping the cries had subdued. As she opened her eyes, she knew that her attempt at focusing on praying was futile. 

But she had to try. 

In desperation, her eyes searched for the only face that could give her strength at this moment. 

As her eyes landed on Ponniyin Selvan’s face, Vanathi realized, despite being such a pillar of strength to his father, the young prince could not hold himself together anymore.

His face contorted with unspeakable grief; tears were streaming down his eyes continuously.

Vanathi had endured loss in various forms from a very young age. Her mother’s death, even though she had never met her, had left a deep wound in her childhood. Then her father’s death at Ilankai war, leaving her as an orphan in this cruel world. Then bidding farewell to her only father like figure uncle Periya Velar before every war, not knowing whether he would return alive from them was always tantamount to loss for her….Yet, no pain of these losses compared to the pain of seeing her beloved Ponniyin Selvan grieving at this moment.

Until this point, Vanathi did not realize that she had been crying along with everyone else. But seeing her Ponniyin Selvan break down like this, fresh tears blocked her vision completely. Her heart felt so heavy that for a moment she felt like she could not breathe anymore.

Wiping her tears with pallu, Vanathi took a few deep breaths to calm herself.

As the guards started to move to take the chariot away for cremation, on a whim, Vanathi decided to come at the front of the chariot and touch Ilavarase Aditha Karikalan’s feet, seeking blessings.

An opportunity she never had before.

While she looked at the crown prince’s resting face one last time, Vanathi realized, in death, Aditha Karikalan had finally found his peace.

The peace that he had been searching for a long time.

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