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𓈒⠀⠀𓏸 𓇼 ⠀samya⠀𓇼 𓏸⠀⠀𓈒

> she / her + bisexual

> poc / woc

> if ur looking at my intro page i am a minor so don’t be weird pleaseeeee + will immediately block outwardly sexual blogs, be warned

> my favourite band is weezer but i live for mitski

> gemini sun, leo moon and aries rising

> intj

> cat lover and doctor who fan

> levi ackerman, finnick odair, john price, simon riley, barry sloane, 🙏🙏🙏

im rewatching attack on titan but with my mum this time, she decides she’s watched enough for the day and episode before you first see levi. im crying.

guys one of my guy friends has a fucking crush on me like, one, big ego boost, two ewwwwwwww. like he’s also on my hockey team. we both play defence and like ewwww. ewwwww. he’s not even like a brother to me hes a TEAMATE!!!!!! OH MY GOD

like he walked up to me and went “hey, what’s the prettiest girl in our school doing sitting alone,” (because I sit on a bench under the stairs everyday journaling) and also he’s like 5’0, and hey, I like short kings but he is not a king, he still thinks someone farting is the funniest thing in the world. also I have a thing going with a girl, but I didn’t tell him that.

Also he kept asking me if I had a boyfriend / girlfriend and if I had a valentine. like no, my plan for today was to go to the park and sit on the swings for an hour then go to sleep??? And when he asked why I didn’t I said, “I don’t know, heh, I don’t really talk to people at school,” and then he said, and I quote, “well sometimes the more shy people are the cutest” like, thank you, but what? This came out of no where. And also he gave me a scone he made in food tech and also he was like “OH.” When I told him another guy on my team walked me to one of my classes cause I didn’t know where it was, (completely platonic, we were talking about him taking visual arts with his cousin)

uh yeah, and also he (first guy) keeps talking to me about his old girlfriend that he had for a week like a year and a half ago???????? He literally asked me if I was doing something after school and when I was like, “oh, I was gonna go to the park with my sister.” He was like, “uh, oh, well I have scouts after school, heh.” huh? ok. huh

And also he pointed at my leg after I sat down and went “your calf jiggled when you hit it haha why?” huh

huh

like I don’t know?????? cause that’s what my calf does???? And also ouch, like I’m pretty sure he didn’t mean to say it like that but like, bro, one of the reasons why I don’t talk to people is because I’m fucking insecure?????? Two days ago someone said “samya, your here!!” (Cause I was late) and one of my classmates who is like kinda my friend was like “yeah, she’s here.” And her tone was kinda off and I’ve been thinking about it since then like am I going crazy or was she just responding to what he said???

riddle me this why do I actually cry whenever I think about going to school? huh? why?

i feel like time is moving to slow but slow to fast, like wtf I’ll be an adult soon but also it seems to far away l, cause it really is, but still I have to think about my future?

i love screaming out things, especially since I live in a pretty quiet suburb.

when i was walking home from school a little while ago, I got really bored but I couldn’t like do anything so I could focus on not getting hit by a car because people drive 60kmh in schools zones, so i just screamed “why haven’t you killed yourself yet?” And it was really fun

screaming is the only thing I’m good at. I don’t have a girly, high, squeaky scream I have more of a “12 year old boy going through puberty and his voice isn’t deep yet but getting there” type scream, ya’know?

sometimes when I’m bored at home I’ll just yell out “oh brother, oh man.” No one in my house really cares because we don’t pay attention to eachother. One time my sister tried to choke me and no one even batted an eye.