Musings On Motherhood

musings on motherhood

Kyung-Sook Shin (“Please Look After Mom”), Nguyen Thanh Binh, Ocean Vuong (“Headfirst”), Ritika Jyala (excerpt from “The Flesh I Burned”), Gustav Klimt “Mother and Child” (detail from The Three Ages of Woman), Sue Zhao (“My mother texts me instructions to cook silken tofu”)

buy me a coffee

when li young lee said "childhood? which childhood? the one that didn't last? the one in which you learnt to be afraid?" and when amy dunne said "I will never forget the loneliness I knew as a child. for a period of my life I had hid behind a mask. did not want to acknowledge any longing. now it is a part of me, something I can share. both the loneliness and the longing" and when osamu dazai wrote "... that from long ago, even as a child, I seemed to lack the qualifications of a human being"

As a child, when you reached out to connect emotionally (as all children naturally do), the lack of response sent you an unspoken message, loud and clear: Don’t reach out. So now deep down, when you need help or connection, you are stopped from making connections by a block inside of you. Somehow, it just feels needy or wrong to ask for help or even want to connect.

How is it pride month and I’m still single? Where are all the single lesbians 😭

Untamed - Glennon Doyle | Halsey - Ghost | Hayley Kiyoko - Cliff’s Edge | Kiana Ledé & Kehlani - Ur Best Friend | Gia Woods - Only A Girl

{Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath/ Cynthia D'Aprix Sweeney, The Nest/ Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life/ Susan Sontag/ Liv Ullmann, from Changing (Knopf, 1976)/ Katherine Mansfield, in a letter to J.M. Murry, dated December 14, 1919, Letters and Journals of Katherine Mansfield (Penguin Classics, 1977)/ Anne Sexton,A Self-Portrait in Letters/ Anne Sexton,A Self-Portrait in Letters/ Richard Siken/ Papi/ Anais Nin/ Ghada Al-Samman/ Mary Oliver, A Thousand Mornings}