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In English, we say: " Overthinking "

But in poetry, we say: " The storms in my head ruined the garden that my soul holds"

i am the most boring person and never have anything interesting to say and thats the real tea 

No one understands how much I hate myself. I hate myself so fucking much I can’t even look on the mirror without feeling absolutely disgusted. I want to die.

Dear diary...

Every day that passes is just another battle against myself...

I'm tired...

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

i have 99 problems but being the skinniest in the room would solve literally all of them

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

That blade I'm holding is my only friend

i want to look sick. i want to be covered in bruises. i want people to be scared of hugging me because they don’t want to hurt me. i want hollow cheeks. i want to be so pale i look like a ghost.i want to look fragile. i want to be breakable. i want to get dizzy everytime i stand up. i want to look how i feel

Chudnij w ciszy, efekty będą głośne♡

Seriously body goals

@bellahadid

“you’re hurting your body” “your body will never be the same” you don’t think i know that?? that’s the whole point

i want to look sick. i want to be covered in bruises. i want people to be scared of hugging me because they don’t want to hurt me. i want hollow cheeks. i want to be so pale i look like a ghost.i want to look fragile. i want to be breakable. i want to get dizzy everytime i stand up. i want to look how i feel

A weird and maybe very personal Thinsp0

buuut

I just wanna be able to sit on a chair folded up and look tiny but comfortable. No stomach fat that is in the way

nah but the feeling when your thighs finally stop touching is priceless

skip dinner, wake up thinner

Every time you say fuck it, I don’t care and eat.

There’s a 100% chance you’ll care later. Trust

i have 99 problems but being the skinniest in the room would solve literally all of them

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

i hate how easy it is to gain weight but so hard to lose weight.

“Worrying won’t stop bad things from happening. It only stops you from enjoying the good.”

— Unknown

“Tough times don’t last, tough people do.”

— Unknown