shadowofahope

Shadow of a Hope

Hi! You can call me Nym (She/They). My 2 ult groups are BTS and StrayKids. M.list || Taglists

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Endlessly Yours,

Warnings: Angst, unrequited love, sad ending

Pairing: Gummie!co-worker x reader

Premise: If only lilies weren't so lethal.

Author’s notes: I've always wanted to write something to do with the 'Hanahaki Disease' as it is one of my favourite fics. So bittersweet no matter the outcome.

Word count: 539

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Dear Gummie,

We’ve worked together for years, been friends almost all our lives. And I’m sorry I’ve kept this from you.

As you are my emergency contact they’ll inform you of my passing, but I didn’t want to leave things unanswered for you. Please know there is nothing you could have done and there is nothing I would have changed.

Who knew that such a delicate entity could be so deadly? Maybe I should have taken up gardening at least I could have maintained it better.

I promise you the pain was only unbearable at the end. An end I was at peace with. The vines that wound their way around my bones, crawling through my veins weren’t the worst. The bud blooming in the cavity of my chest wasn’t bad either. Lying to you hurt more than anything else.

I only wish I could have been more for you…

Which may sound ridicoulus now, but at this time an hour before I willingly walk myself into that hospital room to safely rest for my last few hours, it’s the only thing left in my mind.

If I could have been more, enough as I was I may have been able to avoid this ending. But in this story of us, I have let myself break my own heart too many times.

I’ve watched you give your heart to woman after woman, allowing them to break you over and over again. All of them so completely different then me, the opposite of me in every way. And I’d wish that you’d wake up one day to realize that if you gave your heart to me, that I’d treasure it. I’d never let it break, it would always be the most precious thing in my life. But I stayed silent as I picked up your pieces. And I would do it all over again for you.

I don’t know when my feelings of friendship became those of wanting something more. I think it was a gradual slip into the chaos of you. And by the time I realized what was happening it was too late. I became so unbearably inlove with you, my eyes turned blind to others around me.

If I’m lucky I’ll get to see the sunrise tomorrow for the last time. The view from my room overlooks the city and mountains. I’ll have a spectacular sight of the golden sun bathing the world in its beautiful warmth when I finally stop breathing. The sunrise always reminds me of our friendship, each step we took in becoming each others best friend. Like the time you came over to cheer me up from my first love falling apart. The time we snuck out past midnight to play at the courts. When I went with you to adopt your first pet or when you fought with your mum. Even the late nights talking about our futures, our fears and our hopes.

Each moment more worth it than the last, to be called your bestfriend. I hope those are the moments you will remember as well.

I’m sorry that there was no other way. I’m sorry it had to end like this, but I’m not sorry for loving you.

Endlessly yours,

Y/L/N

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