CIGARETTE SMOKE

CIGARETTE SMOKE

|| the third entry for the series “𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐖𝐄 𝐃𝐎 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄”

content warnings ─── yandere themes, implied kidnapping, hints of smut, jealousy.

is it bad that you want to take someone just to protect them from this world? aki regretted but doesn't feel bad about it.

we devil hunters don't have the long life to live.

there's a certain annoyance that has been creeping up on me since you joined the division. you clearly didn't belong here and sometimes i would ask myself why are you here? why are you wasting your life in this hellhole for no reason. you're alive. happy. you aren't here for revenge. to avenge your loved ones from the devils. you have no purpose here. you don't belong here.

however it's not my place to dictate someone's choice of being here but you infuriate me to no end that i wished for your demise. i didn't understand why i feel this way towards you. it doesn't make sense. you were a nobody to mine. not the one i should care for but sometimes i can't take my eyes off you.

the gnawing feeling of seeing you so friendly and close to someone like denji makes my blood boil and it's easy to ignore it but i can't not when you're starting to grow on me.

what casual moments between us, i have cherished it. not realizing what effect it could have on me. i started to see you on my dreams. started to crave your presence that i can no longer breath and it hurts me so much that i have started to feel this way to you more than i would like to admit.

then we started to lay on the same bed. where can i hear you breath. feel you under my fingertips. the softness and warmth you provided for simply existing. how it provided the intimacy of comfort and security. drown in the depths of the pools of your eyes that i can no longer swim and sink in to you.

is this what it feels to fall for someone who is close but is distant. how could it be when you're the one who initiated it. how cruel are you but i can't blame you. we simply comforted each other with our bodies and it's my fault that i let myself feel what i wanted to feel.

this would be our last night together. allow me to cherish you. let me feel you. let me sink my teeth unto your skin that you will feel me for days.

the gasps and moans that left your lips breathlessly is the air i breath. say my name the way i like it. say my name as i touch you in places where it brought you pleasure. the stretch marks and scars decorating your skin that i have memorized. the curves and every swell of your body where i have kissed and worshipped. allow me. allow me. allow me. allow me to savor all of it. you won't deprive me of it. i know of it since you're helplessly under me.

that's right. that's how things should be. you and me. nothing else in this world that can stop us. not even the devils.

why won't you be mine?

the thought occured to me. why? we have shared our thoughts. the touch that i came to miss. the kisses that i denied at first and learned to crave. i have touched you. we've exchanged sweet nothings. the string of salivas connecting our lips. my lips on yours and my spent deep inside you. painting your walls white as you came around me. isn't it enough that we belong to each other. you're mine. you're mine. you're mine. you are mine.

so forgive me. forgive me that the last thing you will ever see is the smoke coming from my cigarette as i lay claim on you. protecting you from this cruel world that took the people i loved and i won't let it happen to you. i don't understand myself why i am asking for your forgiveness when i know you won't forgive but it won't hurt to ask. you're too kind and that was your mistake for having me. for letting me in your world that I claimed to be mine.

my thoughts are muddled and the only thing that keeps me sane of my reality is the light coming from the end of my cigarette and your warm body resting beside me. warm. it is a good thing. you're still alive and you'll wake up with me beside you. that's better. is all i can think as i watch my cigarette smoke disappear in the thin air like you were.

marry me?🤭💍

Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?

nope. never been in a relationship, nonnie.

Ikr? Sylus also manipulated me. You can try to download the game from TapTap, I tried and it worked!

Oh and this game is pretty special cuz you can customize your main character as you like

that's cool and i'll be trying it, nonnie when my phone will cooperate to me and decides to live another day for me.

Hai...I am sorry if I come across as bit delirious...its 2:45 AM and I found and finished reading as much as you posted reagrdinging What makes our hearts bleed series...(yesh new to ur blog as well Hi)

I am floored. I am dying. Bleeding out fr.

When will you update? God I don't wanna be wiped off this planet before it finishes...THE PINININGGG THE REVENGE? THE CHASINGG SATOXREADERXSUGU ENDGAME????? FUCKING SAYURI BOOOOO

But i do hope satosugu suffer mwahhahaha but i mean I read dark romance do the endgame...eheh

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

Thank you, nonnie. I simply don't mind at all and I hope you're okay. Regarding to the update it's indefinite since I don't have any creative juice and my phone's slowly turning into dust T_T and university's kicking me in the ass and I feel so guilty about the unfinished fics on my drafts, I don't know when will I write the next chap but bare with me I'm thinking about it. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you about that, nonnie.

We didn't know for sure what will be the end. Half of me are fighting that they'll turn complete batshit for Reader and the other hoping that Reader will have an endgame with Nanami or no one at all but still.

I really suggest you read Usogui because it is one of the best intelligence and mind games manga.

thank you for the recommendation, nonnie. i'll add it to my reading list.