Remember When Cassian Immediately Knew That Nesta Had Been Through A Bad Experience With A Man Because

Remember when Cassian immediately knew that Nesta had been through a bad experience with a man because of a subtle facial expression?

Remember when Cassian promised to die for Nesta’s people as she passionately advocated against the queens?

Remember when Cassian’s entire body, dying, couldn’t stop itself from twitching towards Nesta?

Remember when Cassian flew up to the House of Wind EVERY OTHER DAY to check on Nesta even though she told him to go away and got mad?

Remember when Cassian purposefully riled Nesta up and had no complaints about going head to head with her constantly?

Remember when Cassian understood that Nesta didn’t like being Fae because her body had been violated and he fully understood her trauma and defended her in front of the IC including MOR?

Remember when Cassian went to the bone carver just because he had a HUNCH he might say something about Nesta?

Remember when Cassian faced Bryaxis, his greatest fear, to save Nesta and not only that but was by her afterwards and knew a quiet moment and a stiff drink was what she needed rather than coddling?

Remember when Cassian snapped at Tamlin for the slightest insult to Nesta?

Remember when even as Feyre was dismissing Nesta’s feeling at the High Lord meeting, Cassian stormed in and trusted her instinct implicitly?

Remember when Cassian stepped in Nesta’s path and put his hand to her forehead because she’d stopped snapping at him and he was like uh you ok fam?

Remember when Cassian dragged his almost destroyed body up so he could stand at Nesta’s side while she scried?

Remember when Cassian abandoned his entire legion because Nesta called his name?

I guess I’m just wondering how we went from that level of knowing and understanding someone on a fundamental level to:

I tHoUghT yOu WanTeD tO Be OnE oF uS

A comparison I’ve been very interested in since I finished the stories has flown very much under the radar but I really wanted to dip into it. The two books that are often dropped in the same category of ‘dark academia in a college setting’, If We Were Villains and the Secret History, both created a character that the rest of the members of their groups tended to gravitate towards. What I found intriguing was that when you compare the two in a) real life and b) fictional world, the difference is like day and night.

James Farrow, who in the book has an unassuming, melancholic presence that goes almost unnoticed, and Henry Winter, who in the book is dynamic, unbreakable and his presence is felt in the bones.

That is how they are seen in the fictional world. Now take these two in the real one. James turns into a friendly, somewhat mysterious person in your friend group who seems to always disappear when you get too close while Henry becomes an odd occurrence, someone who lives in a big apartment with no furniture, has secret conversations with your professor and locks his belongings away while in the privacy of his own home.

The roles of the two reverse when crossing worlds of life and paper like the day turns from light to dark. It’s funny how on paper Henry is the perfect character, and in real life turns into a borderline psychopath and James is a background character in the book and becomes one of the most interesting people you’d ever meet in real life - which is sort of what Henry is supposed to represent.

rf kuang: when I wrote su daji I imagined her as zhang ziyi

me: *nods so agressively my neck cracks*

Tsc fandom:

I don't want to be greedy, but I really want to read more about Viviane and Kallias because ngl they are such a hot couple.

*At Locke’s funeral*

Cardan: We are gathered here today because SOMEBODY *glares at coffin* couldn’t stay alive.