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when you say “sorry for bothering you” and the other person immediately says “you’re never bothering me”

sometimes i really do feel like im just drifting along, day to day.

I miss how happy i was with you.

Happy Valentine's day, love.

I hope you enjoyed some chocolate today.

I hope you saw a pretty flower or two.

I hope all the people with gift bags and cards didn't make you feel alone.

Maybe tonight you'll hear my goodnight from all those miles away.

Maybe.

I decided it was a good night to cry, so I'm listening to your playlist.

At least I know there's hope now.

I hate to be so repetitive, I'd like this to not be a slog to read when you're finally able.

But, fuck, I just cant escape. I feel so adrift without you. If you'd broken up with me, this would be easy. I've done breakups, hell I've had to grieve a lover.

But this is different. I want for you. I know you want for me. There's just a mountain between us, and if I ever start digging, that mountain just gets bigger and bigger.

I hope you can find a secret tunnel.

running on 3 months.

Fuck this.