Talking About The Next Show!

talking about the next show!

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

i had a joke about orpheus and eurydice but looking back it wasn't a good idea

I WAS GONNA FINISH THE HOMEWORK DUE TODAY BEFORE SCHOOL STARTED BUT THE BUS WAS TEN MINUTES LATE AHJSCTFW6BOAH7SC7SHO

"I feel so normal about him" well I dont. move

so for fun im working on a statistical report on the mariluke ao3 scene. this data is not final because i wanna put the real data cutoff at may 26, 2024, so that itll include any new fics made for @marilukeweek buuuuuut i wanted to do a preemptive scan of the data so far.

i did a scan of fics posted per month to see if there are any surges or trends and it's pretty cool. mariluke economy seems to surge from oct-nov, and then we tend to shrivel up and die in the summer months usually

in terms of ratings so far, mariluke is a horny bunch. not all of us, but a good big chunk, HAHA

also, for funsies, here's an excerpt from the actual report WIP. lines are highlighted in orange because this is all subject to change with new fics thatll come in up until may 26, but i just wanted to share because of the last paragraph. congrats marius!!

aaaaand as a last tidbit, here is the list of every unique mariluke author as is recorded by ao3 as of april 19, 2024, along with the number of mariluke fics theyve written . i hope to see some new writers grace this list once marilukeweek rolls around ;w;