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Childhood Bully!Soap Who Became Enamoured By You The First Time You Pushed You Down, Fascinated By The
childhood bully!Soap who became enamoured by you the first time you pushed you down, fascinated by the way your eyes well with tears, crying out and shoving him away when he reaches out to pinch your cheek
From that moment your tears are his and his alone. Pulls your hair, crushes the flowers you’re admiring, pushes you off the swings, anything he can do to provoke a reaction out of you, and if it doesn’t please him, all he has to do is squeeze your cheek until you wail
But if anyone else dared touched you? Dared to lay a hand on HIS cry baby? The first and only boy to ever pull your hair besides Johnny wound up with a broken wrist, and he never looked your way again
Forget about boyfriends when the two of you reach high school. The first time he ever stumbles upon one of the older boys kissing you in a secluded hall, the next time you see him his nose is broken and he avoids you like the plague
The first time YOU see Johnny kissing another girl, he locks eyes with you, and he is thrilled when he sees the tears spilling down your cheeks, but you never have to worry
none of these girls are HIS little cry baby
they could never be you
you were his
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who is taking full offense that you're not wincing as you take a seat after spending all night split open and why is it ghoap? because it's ghoap.
it's johnny choking on his eggs while you plop onto the chair, legs creaking under the weight. he'd remembered having to warm compress for days after his first ghost lay. hissing through his teeth every time he had to sit on any flat surface. even now, as a seasoned veteran, he still wakes to a lingering ache. it'd be impressive if he didn't feel a bit slighted. (you took them both last night and the only thing average about him is his height.)
it's simon, thinking about how johnny made him take it easier on you. dinnae wanna scare 'er off, he'd said, yer too intense, and here you are, prettier now that your neck and chest is peppered in their love bites, wearing his shirt and johnny's boxers, with an appetite to rival that of price's. clearly you can handle him. handle them. he'll test your mettle soon enough. (that he wants to see you look up at him with discomfort pooling in your eyes after the fact is something he'll keep to himself.)
(it's you, limping to the bathroom in the middle of the night and almost sobbing when you spot the bottle of tylenol on the counter, swallowing it with a cupped hand full of sink water. as you sit in front of them now, foot coming to rest on simon's thigh, there's a lingering ache that no doubt would've left you curled up in bed for most of the morning. thank god for medicine.)
bartender ghost who takes one of your tables who was argumentative and rude after you begged and bargained with him (he only caved when you said you’d ask soap)
Omg he'd totally think he could make you work for it too - you come up grumbling how table three is being so rude and they sent the food back twice, and they're treating you like you spat on your food or something.
"They'd be much nicer if you took them." You say, leaning over the bar.
"An' why's that?" He replies, pouring the contents of a shaker into a salt-rimmed glass.
"You look like you could set them straight."
"'N that's a good thing?"
"You're not afraid to be mean!"
"You jus' smacked the life out of four uni kids last week."
You huff, dropping your forehead against the bar. "You're mean..."
"Y' jus' said I was."
"Pretty please?" You beg, looking up at him. Simon has to steel his gaze to the shaker, pouring liquor and bitters and ingredients into it as he refuses to look at you. You got him last time with this trick - he'd caved like a tower of cards. But now, he's prepared. His eyes don't meet your pout (or your breasts pushing up against the bar), instead focusing on the drink before him.
"Not happenin." He says, shaking the drink with a strong arm. "This is your job, remember?"
You sigh and give up the act. "You can't even say anything to them?"
"Like wot?"
"Like- I dunno, just go as them 'is everythin' ok?' Like you do, you know, all scary."
He chuckles. "Ya got t' stand up for yourself, luv. Can't fight your battles."
You groan in defeat just as Soap pops out from the kitchen, placing two plates of food in front of you. "Got tae bring out yer own scran, Bonnie - 'm not yer food runner."
"Johnny!" You exclaim before he can disappear back into the kitchen. He gives you a quizzical look.
"Could you bring it to the table for me?"
Simon stops pouring the drinks, frozen in his spot.
"I jus' said nae!!"
"Please? They're being assholes about the food-"
"Oi, lower your voice." Simon barks, and you shoot him an apologetic wince.
"They're gonna complain about the food again if you don't talk to them yourself."
"Bullshit, I'm not doin' tha'."
Ghost smirked behind his mask. Taught Johnny well.
"I'll give you half of their tip."
Soap paused. "Nae, gimme the shot where ye slap me after."
"Deal!"
"No- no deal-" Simon growled, putting his drinks on the bar. He's not letting you drench Soap in water and slap him across the face, because he knows the lad will be more turned on than a lightswitch. "Fuckin' animals you two." He grabs the plates, and glares down at you. "'M not doin' this for you again."
"I won't ask again - promise." You giggle, and he wants to be mad at you, he wants to hate the sound... but he'd make a fool out of himself a thousand times, over and over, just like this, to see you looking up at him with that smile - you know you've got him wrapped around your finger, he fears, grumbling as he goes to have a chat with the bothersome table.

I figured it'd be safe to upload this here |・ω・)
(please do not re-upload this anywhere, it's Tumblr exclusive for a reason)
I painted this a while ago for my friend @aessedia87 for her Aerialist AU!! <3 (which is very cute and sappy because these two cannot ever help themselves in her universes - please never change Stephanie)
suggestion: Robert needs a girlfriend/boyfriend! Is Mr Wiggles his boyfriend?
this is roberts significant other, gertrude. mr wiggles is just a friend

bully!Soap who never insults your looks, you were his pretty little cry baby. he craved seeing you whimper and whine, he loved the thrill of you fighting back with tears on your cheeks
he however hates seeing those pretty eyes pained. when the two of you were 10 years old is when he made the grave mistake of mocking your teeth for the first time, he was experimenting at the time and he q u i c k l y learned that is not what he wants, not at all, after watching tears of genuine hurt pool at the corner of your eyes, not meeting his eye as you cover your mouth with your hand and fleeing
you didn’t smile for weeks and everyone avoided the boy, who stared at you, willing you to l o o k at him
the first time he ever heard a boy a grade higher than the two of you utter the word “fat” in your direction, he blacked out, only coming back when two teachers were hauling him off the boy, knuckles busted and dripping blood, and the boys face was a proper mess
when they were dragging Johnny towards the office, he caught sight of you, staring at him, hands clutching his book bag and cheeks glistening in the afternoon sun, eyes wide and curious