So My Parents Are Getting Married Soon, And Im Happy For Them And Everything, But Theres One Problem.

So my parents are getting married soon, and Im happy for them and everything, but there’s one problem. I have to wear a dress.

I’ve tried to protest this time and again but everyone assumes I’m joking. I refused to take body measurements, I haven’t shown anyone else what I look like in the dress, and I’ve asked multiple times if I could change after the ceremony.

This is for a lot pf reasons. I didn’t take the measurements because I have body dysmorphia and am insecure about my weight and appearance. I also hate the color that the dress is required to be and don’t really care for the shape.

But, overall, the main reason why I hate it is because it’s a dress. I’ve always hated gender-conforming clothes. They always felt too formal, stuffy, and had an air of finality to them that I’ve always disliked.

I don’t know how to tell my parents that I don’t want to wear the dress they’ve already bought me. It was super expensive and I’d hate to be a burden. Plus, I’d need to fit in to be camouflaged in the pictures (which I also hate because I’m camera-shy and hate having pictures of me taken).

Now, don’t get me wrong, I love Nico, but he gets kinda confusing, because on one hand you have:

This little grumpy ball of darkness; the son of Hades, and the Ghost King:

And on the other hand you have “Death Boy”, who had his boyfriend make a note so he can stay by his side, who was obsessed with a card game until he was 10, who uses his boyfriend as a nightlight (that one was just a head cannon):

Just a reminder that you don’t have to accept someone’s apology. It’s okay if you hold a grudge, or even multiple grudges. Just because someone said “Sorry” doesn’t automatically mean that you have to forget everything they’ve said or done. It’s okay to be angry for a bit. Nobody logical is going to blame you. It’s alright.

In comparison to Denmark, Switzerland just seems better to me. It’s more mountainous, and has a climate closer to the place where I lived in as a kid. I’ve also heard from trusted sources that Switzerland does have a higher cost of living, but the pay is higher and the taxes are lower. I also heard that it has better animal rights. Switzerland typically has better weather, and the civilians are much more polite and formal than ones in Denmark. During time of war, Switzerland (almost) always chooses to remain neutral, which is a better plan than to pick a side.

Plus, they sell the most chocolate in Switzerland.

Me: I’m not like most aces

Date: *horny and expecting something dirty* Oh, yeah?

Me: *fully knowing what they’re thinking* Yeah. I think we should invade Switzerland. Not Denmark.

I have just figured out the difference between romantic/sexual and aesthetic attraction. And I have realized that I do not hold any romantic or sexual attraction towards anyone. I just so happen to think that everyone is pretty. I do not have a desire to be with them romantically or sexually. Sure, I’d love to cuddle with someone but I don’t want to kiss or date anyone. This is sooo liberating. I finally figured out who I am and what I like. Turns out, it’s nobody. I don’t like…anyone. And I’m happy with that.

I think I’d like to be a boy, but I like my chest and long hair and curves. Then I’d stay a woman, right? But I also want a pixie cut and to wear a suit. And I think having a…member would be interesting. Then maybe I want to be both? Or none? Not really. I mean, maybe, but I like having a definite idea or choice. Neither or both sounds like I’m indecisive. (I’m not trying to criticize, but it’s just not for me). I’m so confused. 

I don’t like sex. That’s clear at least not as a girl. But I like people. I can’t tell if I wanna date them or if I just think they’re pretty. I think both boys and girls are pretty. Masculine Boys with long, curly hair or the lesbian girls that wear a hat and too big t-shirts. Or have a pixie cut and a cottage core with long dresses or a crop top with black slacks. I automatically think that anyone who’s smart or with an academia core (like mine) is very beautiful. I have no idea what I am.

So the reason Alastor made a deal with another demon (probably Lilith) is because he wanted to be stronger so no one could control him. Now here’s my idea: Alastor and Vox fell in love, but during a fight, Alastor was hurt because he was paying attention to Vox. Either that or he realized that Vox was holding him back, so he went to Lilith asking that she take away his emotions and give him more power while Lilith gets his soul in return.

Bonus: If and when Alastor breaks out of the deal, he has all the emotions and feeling he had about Vox return to him and they get together.