Thank You Persephone, For Crushing Minthe Into This Miracle Plant

Thank you Persephone, for crushing Minthe into this miracle plant

people always say autistic people think in black and white, but then they *teach* us in black and white. good girl, bad girl. good (normal) behavior, bad (abnormal) behavior. you have to be consistent with these kids

my therapist gave me a feelings chart and when I circled more than one told me to choose one feeling. in social skills group, they were always asking questions like, “is talking about airplanes expected or unexpected behavior?” and “it depends” was not the right answer- talking about airplanes is unexpected, inappropriate, abnormal, bad behavior (at least when you are one of Those Kids. when you like things too much you aren’t allowed to like things anymore)

here is your behavior chart, you either get a sticker or you don’t. here is your anger scale, you aren’t allowed to say you don’t know. we need an answer that fits into a graph because we are graphing your anger. here is a social story where everything is so simplified it resembles real life about as much as stick figures resemble people. here are your right and wrong answers and you play, move, think wrong

special educators are some of the most rigid people I’ve met. you have to follow the program. it has to fit on this chart. you have to be consistent with these kids

Eli Eli—

Thinking about the mirror

How much it scares the voice. How the Narrator can’t see it

Thinking about self-reflection

How scary it can be, to pick yourself apart and look at all your pieces individually. How necessary it is, if you want to know yourself

How to reflect, you need to be able to percieve. An Echo can’t perceive

How once you touch it, it’s just You and Her, on top of the cabin. Reflecting your own pieces at each other. Getting to know each other

It’s calm. It’s peaceful. Both your minds are quieter. You can rest, you can reflect

Just You and Her. Two being that only came into existence. Two beings that barely know themselves or each other. Two beings that recognized themselves on each other

The current route ended. You saw yourself; you’ve grown, you decayed, you unraveled, you became nothing at all

Time to reflect