And In The Night

And in the night

i slowly become what mostly you love,

secretly;

we don't want anyone to know,

silently;

This is just ours,

Delicately;

dedicatedly;

anxiously;

perfectly.

After all,

a swan does not scream during it's transformation,

it speaks with no words, no rules,

it changes into something beautiful.

I have dedicated this to you without words, you know, here:

Della,

Still waiting for you.

Today I've been given two Joker card earrings.

The joker is an iconic card in card decks.

(Image of the Joker earrings)

𝘖𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘤 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴.

Originally he was called “The Best Bower” and later became known as “The Jolly Joker”. Already today, the famous Joker.

It is not normal to find them in games nor is there a strategy to use them correctly.

In many card games, the joker is used as a wild card, meaning it can take the value of any other card in the game. This flexibility and versatility makes the joker a very valuable card for players, giving them the opportunity to improve their hands and increase their chances of winning.

Its presence can have a great impact on the reading of any spread.

This wild card, is a card from the deck of cards that usually has a unique and striking design. It's often represented by a smiling jester or clown and is considered a special card within the game.

The use of the Joker varies depending on the type of game, in some games such as poker, the Joker is extremely positive for the play, while in others it is extremely negative, but it never plays an intermediate role, it always acquires extreme values.

𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘴.

• Two Jokers in each deck.

• One of them in color & the other in black and white.

• It's common for them to have a 5-point star inside a circle, one in red and the other in black as an index.

• The card is recognized by its color with the same tone as the suits of the deck, as well as diamonds and hearts on one side and spades and clubs on the other.

• It usually shows a character with an enigmatic smile.

𝘏𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘣𝘰𝘹 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴?

As a general rule, we will find two Jokers or wild cards in each deck, one of them in color and the other in black and white or discolored.

The greatest use that can be made of this is to use it as a replacement for a lost card. Even in some decks the two jokers come in one of each color: black or red. Precisely, this is done to use the one that corresponds to the suit of the lost card.

When we buy a new deck of cards, we find two joker cards, but there are exceptions where sometimes three come, since there may be an extra one, to use in case one is lost.

In the event that the jokers tie in play, the red or colored joker, or with a larger graphic, beats the black or uncolored joker or with a smaller graphic.

𝘙𝘦𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.

The fool

The Joker has an apparently comical and quite theatrical figure, at the same time enigmatic. His mocking and sarcastic smile in many cases seems to make people distrustful.

Most of the time, jokers are represented as minstrels or jesters. Sometimes the joker is compared to The Fool, which is part of the major arcana in Tarot cards. He is commonly known as joker, harlequin, joker or trash. The fool is the one who is lost and aimless; It is a creature that seems not to live in reality; a creature whom no one takes seriously and who wanders from one place to another, apparently without knowing what he is looking for or where he wants to go. The Fool or The Jester is the symbol of the anarchy that reigns in the nanocosm.

It is logical to think that this new card does not have the serious and sober appearance of the original images that appear on the cards such as the king or queen. Being a card whose origin comes from an America convulsed by the industrial revolution, its image no longer has to have a direct link with the monarchy, but can be sustained by other values.

𝘚𝘺𝘮𝘣𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘮.

The joker is a very special and unique card. It represents very powerful energy and limitless freedom, and means that you are open to new possibilities. The wild card suggests that you, as a consultant, have to take the initiative to create your future.

Another important aspect of the Joker card is its ability to free us from self-imposed limitations and restrictive thought patterns. It invites us to explore new possibilities and open our minds to different perspectives. By freeing us from self-imposed limitations, the Joker allows us to explore new possibilities and discover new ways of seeing the world.

It's also associated with the concept of the unknown and the unpredictable. It represents the ability to surprise and confuse us on our journey through life. Many interpret the joker as a representation of human duality, contradiction and ambiguity. The joker character is often associated with madness and unpredictability, but can also have connotations of wit and cunning.

Joker encourages us to take advantage of all the opportunities that come our way.

Little by little he became associated with a rather mischievous character, not just comical like a jester or a clown. Some card designs bring a happy and festive image, but many times the image of the joker makes us think more about the mischief of deception that comes with the idea of being able to impersonate anyone, like a joker does.

In card games like poker, the joker is a wild card, meaning it can be used like any other card to complete a winning combination. In this sense, the joker represents the possibility of changing the rules of the game and surprising the other players.

In Tarot

In tarot, the joker is not usually part of the traditional deck, but some modern decks include a joker card with a special meaning. In this case, the joker can represent spontaneity, creativity, provocation and the ability to adapt to changing life situations. It can also represent the energy of chaos and the need to let go of self-imposed limitations to seek new perspectives and opportunities.

Its appearance in a tarot reading warns us about unexpected events and the need to be prepared to face any challenge that may arise, Its presence suggests the need to break with routine and explore new ways of being and doing things.

These days, The Joker is depicted as a scheming and chaotic villain, who challenges established norms and represents anarchy.

"Ranging from a joker in card games to a symbol of duality and adaptability in everyday life, the joker is the representation of the importance of flexibility and ingenuity in our approaches and attitudes. It teaches us to be flexible and open to change, reminding us that life does not always follow a linear path and that we must be willing to adapt to changing circumstances."

Yes. I've made a serious investigation about Joker cards since I've got my earrings. This is a normal day in my scheduled mind. (In case something is wrong, paranormal or poorly written: I did this with a terrible headache.)

Eating is new to me

Eating is so new to me in a way it is better to say that i don't like eating.

Barely, Della.

(because this doesn't need a signature to be an affirmation.)

Sometimes, when my body is not strong enough to rise up, or even wake up from the bed, my mind interferes and imagine what i can just belong for. I guess that's what I've been calling dreams, but I am consciously about them. It usually takes me more time to wake up everytime this happens, is like an over and over reaction:

A patron that never ends, you can just be sure that in some moment it would finally feel gross and that's your singed for brush your teeth and take a bath.

And yes, waking up finally happens, but the feeling of weakness around your body still there, throughout all the day, in the middle of your fingers, in the deep of your soul, your mind knows and your heavy breaths scream the truth.

Della.

I guess I'll start to turn off the lights.

I've heard sometimes It's okay to turn off the light in summer.

The brightness of the sun warms and illuminates enough for now.

It's not enough for me. (Never will be.)

Was it ever even enough?

Was i ever even enough?

I hope the warmth of the sun burns shines enough for both of us.

Me and my sisters back then were like:

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