3x3: The Red Ball

3x3: The Red Ball

the fact ive been attached to rick & morty since 13 is actually insane (im almost 22), it still feels like a brand new show while also being my oldest comforting friend.

(tw mentions of substance abuse)

on the tail end of last year i decided to turn off all my notifications & calls permanently, i can't bring myself to ever turn it back on, even on complete silence.

i'm reevaluating my place in this world & everyone that surrounds me, something needs to change and i don't believe it can start until i break this vicious cycle i have been caught up in.

alcohol is the one & only drug to give me psychosis and has been the most inescapable fuck of a substance to ditch. i keep having episodes i don't remember and suffering the consequences in ways i couldn't have imagined.

im going back to the doctor again, as scary as pharmaceuticals are to me i need my temporary placeholder back before i do something stupid on the streets.

i just want to start again, to breathe my own creativity & to be surrounded by the energy of those who will bounce that back to me.

i want to be my own person, i just need to let go of everyone & everything that pins me down.

I always think of this Undertale quote on New Year's day. 🌟

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