I Will Throw Myself Into A Lake If I Bite My Tongue One More Time I Swear To God

i will throw myself into a lake if i bite my tongue one more time i swear to god

are u a billford shipper

ok im going to answer this in as simple terms as i can i accept the fact that they are were in a canonical ABUSIVE relationship. however i feel that by saying i "ship" them, it implies that i find them a good pair. i do not. calling billford "toxic yaoi" feels like its romanticizing the abuse, especially since i myself am someone who has gone through similar things as ford with someone who did similar things as bill. it makes me feel icky. i find closure in the fact that ford was able to move on, because that means i can too. but with people shipping ford and bill it just. it pains me. so much. because i know what it feels like to be on fords side of things and its not a cutesy dynamic between the two of them. ford is a victim and bill is his abuser. if you ship it i wont go out of my way to hate you i just. eugh.

tldr: yeah its probably canon. but its still abusive and icky and feels kinda invalidating towards my own experiences.

me scrolling so cautiously and slowly because people are starting to get their books and i will be damned if i get spoiled before i get the thing in like. idk an hour or something thankfully people have been pretty good at tagging spoilers so. just scroll past.

i already posted for fiddleford friday but im thinking so hard right now im thinking about ford and dipper parallels. then it hits me. dude. fiddleford warned ford about the portal, and what did ford do? ignore him. and what happened? it almost caused the end of the world like he said it would. fiddleford warned dipper about the portal at the end of the northwest mansion mystery. what did dipper do? ignore him. what happened? the end of the world almost happened like he said it would. oh. my god. will someone just hear this man out for two god damn seconds. miscommunication must run in the pines family or something because what the fuck. and fiddleford probably didnt even remember the original portal situation yet at this point. imagine the weird feeling of deja vu he probably felt right then. but he couldnt really place where it was from. and like it was SO similar. both times he was warning the "smarter" person about the portal, and more specifically bill, and they both flat out ignored him despite how obvious the dangers really were. it kind of makes me wonder how NWHS would've turned out if someone actually fucking listened to fidds for once. maybe then stan wouldve had time to explain everything. maybe then fidds would have some amount of credibility. for being right. and its not like dipper ever apologizes to him for not listening?? at least not from what i remember lmao. fidds gets fucked over so badly at every turn. like what the fuck alex. what did the smart little hillbilly ever do to you.

just binged all of book of bill and i. love it so much. what.

im going to stare at this book for the next month i think.

i sunburnt my face today because i forgot to put sunscreen on my face time to project my pain onto dipper.