I Am Not Okay.

i am not okay.

outfit details: space adventurer

song recommendation: loved you before by peach prc

I need to show them I already have a lover.

sylus’s dark villainous fashion style is so seductively elegant ughh.

A while back, I saw someone say that there's no way all the lads boys are good at sex because they've only been with mc. And for some reason, today I decided to quickly rant ab it 💀 anyway.

Personally, i just hate the 'bad at sex' narrative both in fiction and irl. Cause sex is something you learn. And every time you have a new partner, they're going to need different things (ex., some girls can't cum without clit stimulation and for others the clit is too sensitive).

Having many sex partners does NOT guarantee good sex, and I'm tired of some people really thinking that's the key or something 🤨 sure you get experience, but as I said previously, every partner is gonna like something different.

(I think if someone is 'bad at sex', it's because they dont know how to do it right for their specific partner, and that might be another issue entirely and/or lack of communication)

For the lads men, we can easily assume they've been intimate with mc multiple time throughout all the lives, meaning they know what she likes... meaning the sex is good for mc... and that's all that matters to them. Why would they gaf if the sex is bad for someone else? Their focus is their girl. Mc. You.

And these men are always more than eager to please her and learn more about the things she likes 😭 they're down bad for her, y'all c'mon. They're also fighters, all of them, they got stamina. Yes, including Xavier. He may sleep all the time, but we also know he can keep up.

— Not to mention, Mc is pretty much the same every lifetime given the flashbacks and everything we have. She's the same girl. She doesn't die and then gets reborn in the sense that her soul goes into another body. It's the same body. Her hair might change, and her job might change, but her face, body, and personality are always the same for the most part.

— I theorize that she dies and gets reborn like a snake shedding skin because she was killed multiple times when josephine/granny was experimenting on her, and i don't think she ever goes back to being a baby.

song recommendation: dream by jun