Peace

⇢ peace

and you know that I’d swing with you for the fences, sit with you in the trenches, give you my wild, give you a child

༉‧₊˚. kakucho discovers your pregnancy at the most inopportune time.

pairing. hitto kakucho x fem!reader

cw. fingering, slight nipple play, suggestive content at the beginning, angst, blood, bombs, guns, violence, pregnancy, morning sickness, food, mentions of drugs, languaging, mentions of past trauma, doubts, mentions of vomiting, ran being a good big bro to kaku

a/n. this is probably the softest piece of writing i have ever done. please do not perceive the tears on my face

wc. 5.6k

🏷. bby @multistan-247 ❤️

The sheets were obscenely warm.

You wrinkled your nose and pried your eyes open to find the alarm clock reading 8:00AM. Beside you, your boyfriend was still fast asleep, an unusual phenomenon considering he was up and about getting ready for work before the sun had even risen.

Pushing the swathes of cotton aside, you sat up, wincing at the sudden rush of lightheadedness.

The sunlight casted a halo around Kakucho’s tousled bed head, his mouth parted slightly to emit light snores. Despite the icky sensation settling deep in your bones, you shifted closer to him and pressed a soft kiss to his forehead. Gorgeous mismatched eyes sleepily fluttered open at the brief contact and he looked like a lost little boy for a moment before he smiled at you.

“Morning, beautiful,” he rasped, voice hoarse with sleep.

You hummed. “It’s 8. Don’t you have work?”

At your words, he groaned and flipped onto his back, the blankets slipping down his shoulders to expose his bare chest and striking tattoo across his heart. A strong arm wrapped around your waist to haul you on top of him and you giggled when his lips clumsily crashed into yours.

You kissed him back, forever amused how handsy and clingy your usually stoic and aloof boyfriend could be in the mornings. His hands wandered down your back, tracing the rise of your shoulders and looping around your form, pressing you flush to his defined body. You could tell what he wanted when you felt the hard length of his cock against your thighs.

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✧ ━━ marked possession, kakucho hitto.

summary: kakucho hitto certainly loved it when he was tasked to put bonten's tattoo in y/n's skin. little did she even know that he has a far more hidden demeanor than his gentle one.

warning: needle kink, masochism, sadism, fornication, lollipop play, spitting, blood, edging

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"SO, WHERE DO YOU WANT TO PUT BONTEN'S TATTOO?" KAKUCHO LEANED FORWARD TOWARDS HER CALM REVERIE, darting her a joyous expression before fitting his gloves on. With a smile in his lips, he moved to set his hand-held tattoo machine, stencil products, needles, some tools and equipments in the side table plus all the other utensils he needs in order to paint Bonten's respective mark on her. Just by the thought of putting the same symbol he has on y/n made him more than excited than the shivers climbing through his innards.

After the small majority of voting for who's going to be the next executive, Manjiro abruptly sent a command to Kakucho wherein he shall have the honor to paint their highly-preserved figure on her. And there they are alone in y/n's room, both naked whilst preparing for a new intimacy.

"If possible, place it where all of you can see it." Y/n smirked, getting up from the hydraulic tattoo bed before angling her hips closer to Kakucho who's sitting amidst her parted legs. He was sitting in the peak of the bed, getting ready to paint her the similar symbolic figure of their organization. As he raised the hand-held tattoo machine, the side of his florid lips curved, hovering himself closer before pointing the machine's head towards her pussy.

"How about down here then? Bonten will surely ravaged this part of you if they see our symbol in here." He whispered, pinching the peak of y/n's pussy using machine's tip as she was half stark-naked before his very gazes - the only thing that's covering her exterior is a single bralette.

"If you dare." She chuckled.

"Just kidding, señorita. The only needle that'll pierce you later on is my...cock. Fuck Bonten, you are fucking mine." He laughed loudly, opening a piece of lollipop before putting it into his mouth. His bare supple skin grazed on her, creating a yet another warm contact for her pussy to throb.

"Oh, how exciting is that." Y/n added, resting her head in the back before waiting for Kaku to do his apparent duty.

As the hombre stood up from sitting, he wasted no time to discard his trousers along with his undergarment - denuding a yet another monster behind his pants. It was fully erected, long, and broad that y/n even started doubting herself if she can take it.

"Hug my waist." He ordered, running his fingers through his hair before grinding his tip towards her wetness. He leaned over towards her, setting the machine to draw the tattoo between her breast.

"But this is boring," gestured by Kaku - referring to the slow grind he's doing towards her, "I really want to fuck you while putting Bonten's tattoo in your chest."

"Then enter me, Hitto-sama." With seduction in her timber, she bit the inside of her mouth. Placing her legs above his thighs, she positioned her core towards his hardness and that's a cue for him to insert his dick in her walls. With biceps flexing, Kaku's free hand held the hydraulic bed's rim as he slid himself easily and let her walls tightened around his cock.

Y/n's lips parted, feeling how his length suffocated and tingled her insides. That reaction of hers is another delight to savor for Kakucho's view. As he entered almost half of his inches towards her, he stopped midway before giving the sketch on her chest a glance. His dominant hold that's holding the tattoo machine moved to draw the lineart.

As the needle pricked the skin in her chest, the rest of Kakucho's dick glided inside her in the same momentum, sending tingles on her chest and pussy. The throe caused by the keen tip of the needle and the pleasure brought by the crown of Kakucho's cock made her gasp still whilst obviating herself from jolting up on the bed as she doesn't want him to cease on painting Bonten's abstract tint amidst her breast.

"Don't move." Kakucho said, stopping for a second on his work before pulling her hips closer, making her mewl loudly as his cock deepened it's access in her. Rolling the candy over his tongue, his phone on the side table suddenly let out it's soft melody, indicating that somebody's calling him.

"What a disturbance." He sniggered, picking up the ringing phone, turning the loudspeak in before stucking it between his ears and shoulder. He then continued to put the caliginous ink amidst her chest, waiting for the other line to speak.

"Hello?"

"Hey, is it done yet? I'm gonna grab over some food for y/n." Rindou's voice appeared from the micro. And by the moment that Kaku heard his voice, he dropped the tool and smirked, a vicious idea crept into his mind.

"Not yet. I think this is her first since she's quite pained by the needle inside her..." Kakucho trailed off, biting his lollipop before smirking, "skin." He whispered. The hand he used to hold the equipment awhile ago landed on her neat clit, drawing small circles around her flesh to pleasure and tease her while he's thrusting slowly.

"Oh, okay. Can you ask her what food does she want? I'm gonna turn over and buy it." Rindou retorted.

"Okay. Y/n, do you want any food? Rindou will buy it for ya." He asked, putting the phone beside her head before grinning. Gripping the side of her navel, he started pivoting his hips in and out of her - in sync with how he rub her clit, letting her feel and squirm over from his touch.

"F-Food?" Covering her mouth, she shut her eyes tightly when Kakucho started striding and rubbing her more quickly. The hombre's calloused palms caught the back part of her left knee, bringing it over his shoulder as he plunged his hips deeper inside her, making her whimper silently as the curve and angle of his tip tickled something in her walls.

"P-Pasta!" She exclaimed, grabbing a hand of Kakucho who's rasping her clit vertically before bringing it into her breast. Upon noticing her actions, the man immediately got what she wanted. Probing his hips, he squeezed her softness tightly, tweaking the bud whilst harshly adding more pressure to her flesh.

"Looks like it's painful," Rindou blabbered with a worried voice, "Tell Kakucho to take it easy since it's your first." He added.

"Don't worry, bud. I'm taking it slow and easy," intrude by Kakucho upon hearing the latter, thrusting his cock full with such strength, causing for a disarrayed yelp to snore out from y/n's throat, hips buckling up from the bed's service as his balls almost slapped her butt. Thankfully for y/n, the sound it made never reached the phone.

"As you should, Kaku. If there's atleast one fucking graze on y/n's skin, I swear to the unknown that I'll shoot you. And I'll bring Carbonara since that's the most available here anyways. I hope you don't mind, y/n. I'll hang up now, take care."

The line ended in unison with y/n's loud and suppressed mewl. The sense of Kakucho's cock stretching her to the utmost made her lost in the spasm of delectation. The angle of her single leg in his shoulder aided for his dick to go much deeper than the usual and in that position, he was smirking the whole time as the lost gander on her face fed up his pride on fucking her.

"Rindou doesn't even know that you'll be filled with a different carbonara paste today." Kakucho smirked, pulling out his erection even though none of them is close to reaching their peak yet.

Picking up the machine, he laid down y/n's legs more comfortably before continuing his assignment to draw on her bare flesh as if he didn't just teased her in the call with Rindou. The frenzy he's feeling inside him - quelled, causing for the needle to prick deeper in her skin, making it bleed. Kakucho paid no fret towards it and just neared his head on the puny abrasion before licking the sanguine-hued liquid, tasting it bittersweet and metallic.

"Hm. Even your blood tasted so sweet. Can I?" Kakucho hummed lowly, giving her pussy a pat whilst gazing her with his usual menacing look. With a quick nod as an answer from her, he smirked before hovering himself amidst her parted legs. His rasp breathing fanned in her clothed cunt, hands flew to flit clit. Her ravishing ambrosial nuzzled in his nose, making him more feral. Sticking his tongue out, he held the lollipop on his tongue before closing the distance between his head and her slickness. Flattening his tongue in her mons, he moaned lowly as the orange flavor of his lollipop enticingly mixed with her bittersweet precum - a delight for his mouth to savor.

"Sucking a lollipop would really pay off." He commented, the shudder of his lip's speaking sent vibrations in her cunt, making her hips complain from enjoyment, hands made it's way to pull his hair and add more friction from his face to her throbbing pussy. Every flick of his fervent tongue on her clit would sent her to heaven, another bliss for her to moan his name for.

"God..." She mewled out, lips parting as her thighs tensed from the pleasure brought of how the tip of his tongue flicked repeatedly in the sides of her clitoris. She was about to close her legs but Kaku's reflexes is quick to move and grip the back of her knees, bringing and hooking it into his shoulder as he gave her pussy a long suck. With one fleet move of his mouth, his hardened tongue entered inside her with ease, making her more delirious by how expert he is at pleasing pussies.

"That's it. I'm your God." He smirked, another wave of vibration from him talking sent tingles towards her whole. Gasping out the embarrassment she felt upon hearing his words, she pulled him upwards, inclining his head towards her as she gave his vermillion lips a prolonged kiss.

"Please..." She pleaded, brushing her lips against his, tasting her own juice from him as he slid his tongue inside her, travailing it in the insides of her mouth whilst sharing the sweet flavor of orange from him.

"Bonten's princess is pleading for me to fuck her. Did I do that good?" He asked, lips taking it's trek towards her jaw, side of her neck, down to her collarbone and exposed breast. She retorted with a blink - unable to retort anything as she thought the word good as nothing but an understatement because he clearly sucked her pussy off like she was his one and only damned celestial.

"Who's your God?" Kaku queried, stroking y/n's hair whilst watching how she lament beneath him.

"It feels good...ah." She squirmed, feeling his fingertip pinching her pearl.

SLAP!

"Ngh." Gasping out a rasp breathing, the hard slap of Kakucho on her left cheek felt rough and good at the same time as it left the red marks of his strong palms.

"I asked you who's your God?" He questioned once again.

"Y-you...are my God, Kaku-sama." She whimpered.

"Goodgirl, y/n."

"You are so fucking good...ngh." She called out, feeling how his svelte hands move to glide in her wetness, up and down motion in her cunt as he took her nipple in his hot mouth. He coaxed her hardened nub in his saliva, similar to how he coated his fingers with her juice. Rubbing her flesh softly, she felt him entering something circular inside her and by the moment she looked down to see what is it, a smirk in his lips appeared.

"Fuck..." Breathless, she pant upon seeing him holding his lollipop stick just outside of her cavern. He did it. He did enter his lollipop inside her. Even went as far as to twirl it inside, hitting the soft spot of her walls, making her toes curl. As he started thrusting the small candy inside her, his other hand moved to rub her clit in sync, her slickness aided the piece of sweet to slide more easily in her depths.

"Don't ever come. I swear I'll fuck your sanity out of you if you disobey me." The brunette whispered, inching his lips closer to her parted ones before sticking his tongue out to lick the drooling saliva in the side of her lips and spit it back in. Kaku alone is fucking hot but the feat of him licking her saliva off made him even hotter in her view.

"Yes! Y-yes!" Y/n yelled in the top of her lungs, not minding the neighbors as she was losing her wits from how quick his hands started rubbing her wet cunt. She tried, tried, and tried so hard not to come from the burning sensation of lust. She edge thyself, prior to his wants, she clenched her pussy's walls to obviate herself from reaching her high but failed soon enough when he entered two of his slim fingers along with his lollipop, driving it inside her in such speed even though the position of his hands is quite hard.

"Kaku, I can't anymore!" She squealed, both hands flew to the headboard of the hydarulic bed as she threw her head back from the unfathomable edge. With stomach clenching, she squirmed off from his touch, closing her legs to stop him again but his body only prevented her from doing so. He kept no gander for y/n as he teased her release.

Kakucho grinned in a maniac manner whilst watching how she popped off from his fingers. He liked seeing her trying to get off of him, he liked the tears brimming in the side of her eyes as he overstimulated her by using his fingers alone, and furthermost, he also loved seeing the respected executive messed up by him and him alone.

He's obsessed by just seeing y/n naked and going wild below him.

"Be a good girl and abide my orders." He whispered in a commanding tone.

"Please, let me come! I can't take it anymore! No!" As his fingers started probing in the fastest way he could, y/n's throat became arid, her lips let out a numerous load of pleasing noises as her hips momentarily left the hard bed's foam. The knot that she've been keeping to unveil inside her exploded in his fingers, causing for his grin to fade as she evidently disobeyed his orders. And by feeling how she let out all of her release in his finger, she knew herself that she's fucked as hell for evading his commands.

Kaku pulled out, putting his fingers on his lips before showing her the amorous view of him sucking off her nectar from his fingers. But that's not the only thing that made her known of how bold he is. The candy he's playing between his hands glistened from how her cum coaxed around it. Landing the lollipop on his mouth, he twirled his tongue around it before completely devouring it's sweetness together with her sweet taste. The orange flavor of his candy and her bitterness melt in his buds as he continued hollowing his cheeks in it.

"My lollipop surely tastes better if it's coated with your juice."

His words left y/n alone in euphoria. The rush of her dopamine once again came back in her veins just by hearing that little dirty tone of his. She exhaled rooughly before standing up from the bed. Her wetness made it gawky for her to walk but the stares of Kakucho made her go on. She ambled closer towards the see-through glass of the bathroom.

Y/n's feat made the side of his lips curved as he gestured her to the side of the room wherein the see-through mirror of the tub plastered in the white walls of the bathroom reflected her almost denuded body. As she stood up from the floor, his crimson eyes immediately darted at how her skin glistened by the help of her sweat. The view was an instant paradise, another spring to uphold for him.

She chuckled at his luscious stares as she stood up there in front of the mirror. Placing both of her hands towards the algid and delicate glass, she bend over her ass to his spot before staring at his reflection - waiting for him to do the next move whilst watching his sole gander.

"Good fucking damn it. Who told you to be that hot?" He cursed, standing up from the bed before abiding her shadow, emplacing himself behind her. All the sanity he has in mind faded just by the rare sight of their secretary's ass.

"No one." Y/n reputed with a laugh, excited by the way he peered at her back.

The size of the smirk in his lips doubled. Leaning over to the shell of her ear, his erection slightly poke her ass as both of his hands landed on her soft bosom - kneading it with such gentleness, "Such a plump ass you have there, princess." He added, giving it a rough spank before holding his cock to slam behind her without warning, meeting his pelvis with her butt, weakening her knees.

"F-fuck..." Y/n held unto the glass, gathering her strength from there as Kakucho lent her no fret to thrust again and again, in and out, without stopping. He spread her hotness all through her whole body just by snapping his hard erection to the utmost parts of her insides.

"This damn pussy was made for me to fuck." He grunted, gripping the side of her hips towards his pelvis as he pushed another inch of his hard cock inside her. Adding more eroticism, she grinded her ass softly towards his hips, urging him to go deeper or for more thrills, rougher.

"Please disrespect me. Show me no mercy." She moaned over the glass, tight knuckles supressing the left strength of her body as he stretches her guts all the way to the depths. Y/n swore to the heavens that she could feel him rearranging something inside her stomach as he pulled an inch of his dick out before probing it back in. Arching her back, her eyes rolled back in sheer pleasure as Kakucho pounded her pussy from behind. His cock's broadness and the posture of her back aided for him to reach her g-spot.

"I'm near." He informed. His left hand grasp her breast - groping it roughly, right hand in her clit - flicking it in unison with his thrust, adding more travail for her to go wild as he fucked her mind over.

"Come with me, señorita." Kakucho whispered in the shell of her ear, mind lost in the chimera of pleasure as he slammed himself more faster. After the man snapped his pelvis at last to nut inside her, the glass separating the see-through shower and the outdoor premises suddenly shattered into bits.

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Dark! Xavier Thorpe x reader

Xavier had been plagued by dreams since he arrived at Nevermore, he had constantly seen the same shadowy figure and he had drawn them on repeat never knowing who it was until he broke up with Bianca. His dreams become more and more vivid as they bled into the real world, never seeing her face but he could see everything else as she ran from him in his dreams, his every waking moment spent trying to find her wanting answers. He tried to talk to his dad but he'd been useless, telling him to draw her then leaving to perform or answer another call Xavier constantly sketching drawings he couldn't finish, he felt like he was going insane as he searched the faces of every Nevermore as the new year rolled in. His eyes casting across everyone as he suddenly stopped, his whole body on fire as he saw her, the face he had been searching for since he started at the school finally stood across the Quad as she walked around with Yoko bring shown around. Xavier leaning over the balcony as he tried to keep his eyes on her, committing her to memory his hands grabbing for his book as he ripped the pencil from behind his ear opening a page and sketching her as quickly as he could. His hands shaking barely leaving the page as he dragged his hand over the sketch finally finishing it as he looked between the mysterious girl and his drawing, even her hair was the same, the outfit exact down to the wrinkles in her uniform. The air around him felt thick as he took a deep breath, flipping through the pages of his sketchbook as he saw her walking around Yoko pulling her to see the other vampires the girl sitting the same way as the sketch he looked at. He knew it was her, there was no one else he could even look at as his hand sketched without him looking his eyes stuck on her as she looked upwards the sun bouncing off her face as she smiled, she looked purely angelic as her eyes seemed to meet his before flitting back to Yoko. Bianca walked towards Xavier seeing him sketching like a mad man as he flipped through his sketch book looking at a page then towards the quad, her eyebrow quirked as she leaned next to him looking at the drawings she'd seen hundreds of times in his art shed and personal books except now they had a face, and that face was sat in the quad laughing with the vamps. Bianca's face dropped as she looked at Xavier's face he looked like icarus when he got close to the sun, ready to get burned. 

"Hey." She said calmly watching as he jumped closing his book and trying to look like he wasn't sketching a student like it was his last moments on earth, a tight smile on his face as he turned to Bianca.

"Hi." His voice snipped, they had broken up as he felt manipulated into loving her but now he wondered if his mind had known when they came back he'd meet his muse, Xavier trying to keep his eyes off the girl as Bianca placed her hand on his arm with a concerned look.

"Are you okay? You look like you've just been dragged back from hell." Xavier nodded calming down and leaning back on the balcony as he cast his eyes back to the now empty table, panic flooding him as he frantically searched for her until he saw a quick glance of her hair as she walked towards the dorms. His mind elsewhere as Bianca sighed walking off as he ignored her, his eyes on the door as he moved to run his hand through his hair, he felt like he could breathe again now she was out of his sight but at the same time he felt emptier. 

Y/n followed Yoko to their shared room, having just met her vampire friends she had been transferred from a normie school after she'd started showing her powers and her mum had been more than happy to ship her off to a boarding school and not have to deal with her daughter anymore. Yoko laid on her bed as Y/n unpacked placing her clothes away as she smoothed out her uniform before she dropped onto her bed texting her mum to tell her she was settling in although she was sure she wouldn't respond anytime soon. The door to their room opened as in walked a lady with red hair holding a plant, a wide smile on her face as her eyes searched until they landed on Y/n, said girl sitting up as she approached.

"Hi Y/n, i'm Miss Thornhill your dorm mum, i hope you're settling in alright. I thought i'd bring you a plant i thought represented you after reading through your personal file. It's a blackthorn, it represents fate." Miss Thornhill smiled widely at Y/n as she slowly reached out taking the blue plant off her with a small smile as she ran her fingers along the blooming plant a small mist coming from them as it instantly sprouted, Miss Thornhill gasping as she clapped.

"So talented." Y/n moved her hand away as she placed the plant down on her bedside table feeling her fingers tingle as Miss Thornhill wiggled her fingers waving goodbye as she slipped out Y/n rolling her eyes as she laid back down staring at the plant. Yoko looking at her before saying she was going for a drink Y/n nodding as she moved her hand around purple mist coming from her fingers as she played with her powers, her eyes tinted purple as she threw it between her hands like a ball. A knock on the door making her eyes change back to normal and the ball to disappear as she got up opening the door to see a girl with pink and purple hair and colourful clothes Y/n smiling at her as her eyes widened.

"Oh sorry, i was looking for Yoko, you must be Y/n her new roomie!" The girl moved forward hugging Y/n as she froze, letting her go as she grinned at her.

"Oops sorry i'm a hugger, i'm Enid." Y/n nodded smiling at her.

"Hi, yeah i'm Y/n, nice to meet you." Enid took a quick peak into the room seeing Y/n's side all set up as she rocked on her heels.

"I was going to invite you and Yoko but since she's not here do you want to join me for a walk?" Y/n thought it over, looking towards her bed smiling as she turned towards Enid.

"I'm assuming i don't have to wear my uniform?" Enid smiled laughing as she nodded, Y/n opening the door as she let Enid in moving to pick out clothes just some simple jeans and a t-shirt swirling her hand around her as the clothes appeared on her, her uniform landing folded neatly on her bed Enid watching with wide eyes. Y/n grabbing a jacket as she put it on pulling her hair out turning back to Enid with a cheeky smile.

"It's quicker." Enid skipped over grabbing her hand and pulling her to the door.

"So cool! I can't wait for us to be friends." Y/n dragged behind her as Enid pulled her along, her colourful nails making Y/n look at her plain ones her eyes turning purple as she made matching nails appear on hers as she smiled enjoying the pop of colour looking towards Enid as they entered the Quad. Enid letting go of her hand as she noticed her nails smiling widely at Y/n as she held her arm.

"You're so cute!" Enid said as two guys approached them, Enid blushing at the one in a beanie as he spoke to her.

"Hey Enid, whose this?" Enid introduced Y/n to Ajax as she looked past him to the taller guy with long hair staring at her oddly, her eyes turning purple as she flicked his head with her mist, the random boy wincing as she laughed.

"Staring is rude." Y/n said as she stuck her hand out, moving closer to him as he seemed to freeze her head tilting.

"I'm Y/n, want to tell me your name or do you want me to flick you again?" Xavier felt his entire body shift into gear as he stuttered out his name, Enid and Ajax looking at him oddly as he clutched his sketchbook to his side shaking her hand he felt like she burnt him from just her touch as she smiled widely at him.

"Xavier, Thorpe...Xavier Thorpe." Y/n smirked at him taking her hand back as she looked at Enid, her eyes going to back to Xavier as she let a friendly smile come on her face pointing to his sketch book.

"Artist?" Xavier nodded trying to find any words but he could barely breathe around her let alone string an actual sentence together, Ajax elbowing him as Enid looked at him like he'd grown a second head Xavier clearing his throat as he smiled finally finding his voice.

"Yeah, i paint murals at the school all the time." Y/n nodded along as Xavier pointed to the beginning of a mural of ravens Y/n looking at it before smiling widely.

"Damn you're good, i'd love to see some more of it some time." Xavier felt his blood rush to his head as she spoke, she wanted to hang out with him, she wanted to see HIS art. She wanted to be alone with him. 

"Yeah, yeah of course anytime." Y/n grinned turning back to Enid as a bell rang Y/n looking around confused as Enid pulled her along the boys following as Ajax whispered to Xavier.

"Dude you okay? You just choked up." Xavier pushed his hair back breathing out as he watched Y/n, it was exactly like his dreams he had never seen anyone else but her but there was no denying he'd dreamed of them meeting. 

"Yeah i'm good, just tired." Ajax pat his back as they followed the girls, Enid holding onto Y/n's arm as she gushed about everything going on about all the gossip around the school and showing her around as they made their way to the hall for the first day back speech from Principle Weems. Y/n sitting between Enid and Xavier as he leaned over opening his book to show her a drawing of a spider, his hand hovering over it as it crawled out walking along the book as Y/n held out her hand allowing the drawing onto her hand. Her eyes turning purple and fingers misting over as the spider became real, Y/n smiling at Xavier as she let it crawl between her fingers then placed it on the page waving her hand as it turned back into a sketch. Xavier looked at her with wide eyes as she grinned at him, her eyes turning back to normal as she pressed her finger to her lip facing the stage as she relaxed into her chair listening to Principle Weems whilst Xavier tried to calm his beating heart. 

After the speech everyone dispersed, Xavier running to his room and tearing down all the pictures of Y/n he had drawn afraid she would find out as he stuffed them under his bed with sketchbooks all full of her, pushing his hair back as he moved to his desk a portrait of Y/n staring back at him with her purple eyes glowing as he looked at it. He wanted to conjure the full picture but he couldn't bring people out the pages yet, instead he caressed the sketched face before scowling at himself slamming it closed and hiding it under his bed with the rest of it. Opening his current sketchbook and ripping out any sketches of her he had done, each one nicely placed under his bed in other sketchbooks as he ran his hands over the pages his hand itching to draw her again as he thought of her but he pushed down the urge. He didn't want to seem creepy or anything to her, he already felt himself falling for her after only a few words but he had been dreaming of her for years, they were fated to meet. 

That night he laid in bed, his eyes darting back and forth in his sleep as he dreamt of her, her body under his as her eyes turned vibrant purple as she moaned his name, he could feel her nails scrape down his back, the heat of her breathe against his lips as he shot up out of bed. Falling onto the floor as he rushed for his sketchbook, his body covered in sweat as he panted wildly his hands already moving to draw as he ripped open the book pressing a pencil to paper as he drew her, her mouth agape in pleasure and eyes blown wide burning with passion how her hair fell around her framing her face perfectly. His hand roaming through his pencils trying to find a true match to the purple he had seen, no colour capturing the beautiful colour he could see like it would come out his mind and spill onto the page if he thought about it anymore. His hand covered in pencil dust as he fell against the wall sighing as he looked over the drawing, he could only remember her face never seeing further than her collarbones but he felt flustered as he thought of how vivid her moan was, how his name had rolled off her tongue like she had said it before. He knew his dad would say not to trust his dreams, he's seeing what he wants to see but he had also seen her before he met her, they were meant to meet so his dreams must hold some truth. 

The moon came through the window as he moved towards it looking out towards the girls dorm as he looked at the window that connected to Y/n's room, the room out of view but he wanted her to creep out so the two could look at each other from the balcony, his hand on his sketchbook as he drew her by the window wrapped in a blanket with the moonlight illuminating her smile. Each time he felt compelled to colour her irises purple, a vivid purple which could light up rooms, in person they had been so mesmerising he wished to take a picture of her eyes and frame them like the true piece of art they were. His page flipping as he began drawing her eyes, the dark lashes and subtle make up but all he put all his efforts into the colour, the way the light bounced off them, the purple blending into her pupil making them so dark you could see yourself in them, his hand shaking in pain as he saw the sun begin to rise realising he had drawn her for hours. Paper surrounding him as he hurried to pick them up, each one different but her eyes stayed the same always piercing his soul as he stuffed them under his bed with the ever growing pile, he had only seen her once but it felt like he'd known her his whole life. 

Y/n groaned as she woke up her alarm blaring at her as she smacked her phone knocking it to the ground as she tried to stay in bed waving her hand around as her phone flew into her hand. Looking at the time she flopped backwards as she stared at the ceiling rubbing her eyes as she looked towards Yoko's bed seeing it empty with her uniform gone, another sigh coming from Y/n as she stood making her way to the bathroom as she began getting ready. Her eyes glowing purple as she brushed her teeth, her hair brush floating to her hair as she tamed the mess she'd made in her sleep, her uniform and shoes floating through as she looked at the time wishing she could move the clocks back and crawl back into bed. A wave of her hand and she was dressed, pulling boots on as she hopped around grabbing her bag and anything she'd need for her class in 10 minutes aswell as finding the class, purple mist flooding the room as she made the bed and threw her pjs in the basket. A pen in her mouth as she lifted her hair a claw clip holding it in place as she ran her fingers over her eyes applying eyeliner and mascara, wiping her lips as they tinted red a smile on her face as she left her room locking the door behind her with a twitch of her fingers. Y/n looking through the books in her arm as she walked through the halls until she bumped into someone, both their belongings flying onto the ground as Y/n and the mysterious person groaned. Y/n holding her head as she looked up seeing Xavier on the floor apologising before he looked at her freezing, Y/n grinning as she apologised purple mist coming from her hand as she stood up collecting all their stuff as Xavier watched her. His sketchbook open on a sketch of her making Xavier rush to pick it up as she went to collect it, his hand in his hair as he stuttered.

"Sorry, private project." Y/n shrugged with a grin as she handed him his books hers tightly in the corner of her arm as she looked at her schedule.

"No worries, not my business. Do you know where Miss Thornhill's class is? I've gone blank." Xavier nodded a wide smile on his face as he moved his hand to her shoulder turning her around.

"That's where i'm going, come on." Xavier walked her out the corner of his eyes as she looked over her schedule turning it to him as she looked up at him with doe eyes.

"Don't suppose you know where these are aswell?" Y/n asked with a cheeky grin as Xavier reached over taking her schedule realising they had all the same classes, his mind going back to the idea they were fated to meet and now the universe kept pushing them together.

"Yeah actually, we have all the same, i'll walk you to and from. You can sit with us at lunch but i'm sure Enid would have tracked you down anyway." Xavier breathed out as they turned into the classroom, the seat next to him empty as he indicated for Y/n to take it, her bag thrown onto the floor as she settled next to him.

"You're a life saver." Y/n said grinning at him as the lesson started her attention instantly drawn to Miss Thornhill as she talked about plants. His mind stuck on Y/n as his hand twitched wanting to draw her again, the light hitting her perfectly as she rest her chin on her hand taking notes of whatever Miss Thornhill said. He wanted to memorise this moment and draw it on a canvas, he needed to add in all the colours and how the sun bounced off her skin making her look ethereal as she answered questions. He was hooked.

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pairing: Xavier Thorpe X fem!Addams reader summary: Xavier paints you warnings: mentions of n00dity, mentions of sex note: the reader isn't actually specified as an addams. also he calls the reader sweetheart because i feel as though he's the type of guy to say that.

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you sat in Xavier's shed on a small couch you made him put in there for you, watching him as he stroked a canvas with his brush. the way his hand was flexing while moving the brus along the canvas sent you to somewhere you couldn't explain.

something about seeing him so focused on painting made you want something from him. something you didn't want to say out loud.

you were staring at what would be a painting and thought of what it would be like for him to paint you like that.

you started to imagine him focused on painting you instead of all the other things he's painted and immediately felt weak. but you shouldn't. You and Xavier weren't exactly dating, but you guys weren't just friends either. you two were in a confusion position in your relationship and you didn't want to wreck what you two have.

although you would never say it, you wished he would paint you.

after a while he finished his art and stood staring at it, still contemplating whether he liked it or not, you stood up from the small couch and stood next to him

"I love it" you told him

he looked down at you and smiled softly, wrapping his arm around your shoulders and side hugged you

"something about it doesn't seem...right" he confessed with a sigh

"I think it looks perfect" you said

he chuckled before placing a kiss on your head, gently stroking your hair.

"well then, if you like it I like it." he shrugged

it was quiet for a moment, standing next to each other comfortably

"it's getting late, we should probably head back"

---

you thought back to last night and got excited to watch him paint again

"you must get so bored just sitting there watching me paint almost ever day" Xavier stated, opening the door to his shed.

"I like it" you said with a small polite small

"do you want me to teach you to draw or something, get you more involved or something so your not just sitting there?" he asked

"well there is" you paused for a second "something"

"and what would that be" the corner of his lips raised to form a small smirk

"you could, well, you could-" you cut yourself off, too nervous to say it

"I could?"

"you could paint me?" it sounded more like a question than a statement

his face brightened up and the smile on his face grew wider

"you want me to draw you?" his eyebrows were raised, he seemed a bit taken back but his face said he loved the idea

"that's what I said, yes" you nodded, walking in the shed as he held the door for you

he closed the door after him and stood there looking at you with a smug smile on his face

"don't get me wrong, you look beautiful, but I don't want to paint you in your school uniform" he chuckled lightly

"I wasn't exactly planning on wearing this" you said, looking down at your uniform

"well what are you going to wear then?"

"nothing" you said quietly, shrugging.

Xavier gulped down a lump in his throat, he felt himself become hot and his hands went a bit clammy, he wondered if he had heard you right

"what do you mean nothing?"

you took your blazer off and placed it on the chair in the corner

"unless you would like me to wear something else" you sighed

"no, no you can wear nothing, I'm happ-fine with that, just take your clothes off. and I'll get ready" he turned around and begun digging through his supplies

you felt a bit nervous again, you wondered if he felt uncomfortable about this. but you were already half way through this.

Xavier had a small smirk on his face as he set his stuff up, knowing that right behind him, you were getting undressed.

"I'm ready" you said standing behind him, ready for him to start

he turned around and smiled when he saw you, you noticed that his jaw was flexing while he tried not to explore your bare body with his eyes

"do you want to sit on the couch, that would be more comfortable" he suggested, pointed to the couch behind you

you nodded before going back to sitting down

"try a more natural potion" he said looking at how you positioned yourself oddly

you moved yourself on the couch to a better spot but apparently that wasn't good enough because you walked up to you and moved you himself

"there, that's better" he stood straight and walked back to his canvas.

"so just stay there, try not to move a lot" he told you before picking up his paintbrush.

---

Xavier kept looking back at you every second. he told himself it was to help him with the painting but he already has the scene imprinted in his brain that he didn't need to look back at you anymore.

he was just taking his chance to admire you in such state, and he did so while biting his lip or licking his lips, thinking about touching you.

you two made small talk until he was almost done. he looked at the clock on the wall and noticed the time.

"it's basically done, I'll just finish the details tomorrow" he sighed and put down his paint brush, wiping his slightly sweaty hands on his pants.

"can I see it?" you said sitting up on the couch

"wait no, stay there" he said taking off his jumper and hung it on the back of the chair

"I still have something to do" he said.

you then grew confused about what he meant by that, he had said he was done for tonight and that he would finish later, what else would he need to do?

he walked closer to you on the couch and looked down and you with a smirk on his face. he placed a hand on the back of the couch and climbed on top of you, a knee placed between your thighs and the other on the other side.

"what do you need to do?" you said. you weren't clueless, but your mind was foggy and too up in the clouds for you to notice what was happening.

he licked his lips while staring down at you, moving his knee closer to your heat

"you"

the tone in his voice make you nervous and become flustered, you wanted to say something but you couldn't muster the words.

"did you seriously think you can lay there in front of me naked for almost two hours and I wouldn't do anything about it?" he chuckled lowly. his hot breath fanning against your blushing face

you stayed silent, staring up at him longingly, feeling a wet patch begin to form between your legs.

"god your in for a long night, sweetheart" he smirked at you.

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Pairings: Bonten x Reader

Warnings: Canon divergent, slow burn, foul language, blood, violence, smut in certain short stories, fluff, angst, jealousy, shitty behavior kinda toxic (pls they are criminals), issues, grammar mistakes, no beta reader we die like men. INCOMPLETE AF

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fracture IV

ran x reader w bonten sprankled in

summary: bonten attempts to earn your trust. you learn a bit more about ran's philosophy on life, and he rails you into oblivion.

cw - drugs, smut, guns, murder, praise, degradation, dub!con, reader is a sex worker w a sick brother. ran likes you!!! likes you a lot!! too much probably, probably far too much. a/n extra long because i made you wait.

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Ran doesn’t stir with you tucked against him, doesn’t dream. Not with your head on his chest, your breathing soft, your arms wrapped around him. Even if you wanted to, you don’t dare move, your fingers laced with his. He sleeps through the night, and you notice, as your pain pokes through your own slumber and wakes you, that he stays fully in place until midday, when his phone nearly vibrates itself off his nightstand. He groans loudly, picking it up without opening his eyes and throwing it hard across the room. You watch the screen shatter and the contact picture light up. 

“It’s Mikey.” You whisper. 

“Don’t care.” He mumbles, rolling onto his side and nestling you into his chest. “Too comfortable.” His chest is bare, his skin warm from being under the blankets, and you press your lips to his collarbone. He runs his hands down  your body and you realize for the first time the pain doesn’t make tears spring to your eyes. He hums again, a soft, deep sound, pressing   his lips to your cheek. “Wanna get high?”

“Mhm.” You breathe, not able to imagine any sweeter bliss than being able to escape your body for a moment, or several hours. 

“Drawer on the right,” He yawns, “Roll me something, sweetheart.” You struggle your way out from under him and scoot across the soft sheets, digging in the drawer for ziplock baggie and a tin. It’s already ground, of course it is, and you painstakingly arrange it on the expensive looking lavender rolling paper. Ran wraps his arms needily around your waist, it’s raining outside, the water hitting the paynes of glass in his bedroom window distort the image of the city. You gingerly roll it up, licking the paper and setting it on the bed, before taking his heavy silver lighter from the drawer. He releases you and flops on his back. You struggle with the lighter mechanism, though, and after a few futile flicks he snatches it from  your clumsy hands and lights it himself, holding the flame to the end of the joint, the smell of weed, smoke, and lavender filling the air. He inhales, and holds it, tossing the lighter on the bed with the cap on, and pulling the joint from his lips, beckoning you downward. 

You know what he’s asking for, and you kiss him, getting a lungful of smoke as he breathes out into you, his free hand holding your face in place, thumb sinking into the plush of your cheek as dizziness overtakes you. He holds you there for a few seconds, and then pulls away, watching you hold it as long as you’re able to, before you cough the lightly floral smoke out and he laughs, running his fingers through his hair. 

“You have to relax,” he coaches, picking the lighter back up and taking another hit, “Try again.” You watch him hold the smoke in his lungs again, completely maintaining eye contact with you, as his consciousness gets light and floaty he starts to get distracted by details of your beauty, the curve of your jaw, the shadow your eyelashes cast on your cheek. He holds the joint between two fingers and takes your face with both hands, kissing you hard as he blows the smoke into your mouth. He watches your eyes water, and lets his own flutter shut. “Good girl,” he murmurs, watching you struggle to hold it, but reads the desperation to please in your eyes. “Let it out slow,” he murmurs, mouth finding the valley of your collarbones, he tosses the joint on the floor, and you have one panicked moment about the rug before his teeth sink into your skin and you gasp in surprise, then cough. “Shhhhh,” he breathes, feeling the way your chest spasms and sputters, “Shhh, baby.” He kisses up your jaw. 

“Sir,” you get out, the word breathy and spent, and he chuckles, you feel the vibrations of his voice on your skin. 

“Nah,” he manages. “Something else, somethin’ else right now.” His mind is spinning, it’s been ages since he’s had time to relax like this, to spend the morning in bed with someone, to put his guard down. He feels your back arch up off the mattress and slips a hand underneath it, wanting to encourage the posture, and feels that some of your swelling has gone down around your ribs. His lips find yours, heavy lidded and with clumsy hands you kiss like teenagers, the occasional click of teeth, the pulling away when you’re breathless. 

“Please,” you try, body warm and tingly, arching your back up off the mattress, grinding your hips against his. 

“Hmm,” he hums against your lips, pushing a leg in between yours, feeling you grind against it. “Try again.” 

“Please,” you think as hard as you’re capable of, rifling through titles, he was so formal, he slept in designer underwear, it couldn’t be-, “Daddy,” the word slips from your mouth and he lets out a low growl, squaring his weight above your own, hands in your hair. 

“That’s my girl.” He kisses you again, in no rush, lips trailing down your body, pulling the t-shirt he’d lent you up over your tits, burying his face in between them with a loud groan, before kissing up to your nipple, taking it in his mouth, letting you feel the flash of pain with his teeth before the soothing flick of his tongue. You reach for him but he shakes his head. “Stay still.” he orders softly, and you obey, trying your hardest not squirm as he kisses your stomach, the inside of your thighs, licking a stripe right up your core. He hums softly, and you feel his breath on your skin before you feel his tongue, nudging your clit out of its hood, starting with the most gentle stimulation you’ve ever felt. 

You’ve been eaten out before but this, this is different, his violet eyes locked to yours as he teases you, providing just enough pleasure to make your back arch up, to change the rhythm of your breathing. He moves so slowly, so deftly, pushing one finger inside you, then two, that you can’t believe how quickly the pleasure starts to become overwhelming, starts to have you moaning loudly, squirming despite his orders, grabbing fistfuls of the sheets. 

“I’m gonna,” you choke out, before realizinig, “I mean, please, please can I, daddy, I need to-” 

“M mm,” he shakes his head, the vibrations from his voice sending you up into a dizzying high, “You cum on my cock,” he lifts his head, but keeps fingering you, you whimper at the loss of  stimulation, “Nowhere else, understand?” You whimper an affirmation and he chuckles, wiping his face and climbing on top of you. He kicks his briefs off, and you have exactly one second of apprehension when you feel him press the head of his cock to your swollen and throbbing clit. He hums again, watching the thoughts melt from your brain as he eases inside, ready to tease you before he feels the way your softness is wrapping around him. “Fuck,” he breathes, shocked, looking down at you. 

“W-what?” You manage, staring up at him, and he doesn’t respond, just slams his hips against yours, filling you so quickly it’s like the air is crushed from  your lungs, your vision completely whites out. 

“Feel so good, baby,” he growls, at odds with his previously lightly stoned blissed out demeanor, no, now he’s kissing you hungrily, groaning every time he bottoms out inside you, pinning your wrists to the bed as he pulls sharp music from  your lips with every thrust. 

The heavy slap of his body against yours is a steady rhythm, and his hand moves from your wrists to lace his fingers with yours, it’s oddly intimate even as your mind floats outside of your body, the sound of his groans becoming deadened by the pleasurable, blissful high. You hear something, after a few minutes, and Ran must too because his hips stutter, and he swears under his breath. 

“Fuck off,” he calls loudly and then leans down, kissing you softly, pressing his forehead to yours with his eyes closed. 

“Oh god,” you murmur, “M’so close, I’m so, please, please can I come, daddy,” you suck in a sharp breath, 

“Shhhhhh,” He breathes, “Shh baby, be quiet and ‘n cum for me,” you let go of your orgasm like you’ve been released from a teather, flying forward as you hear him groan in your ear, feel his lips on your cheek, when you hear the sound again, raised voices in the living room. Before you can do anything, Ran pins you to the bed, one fist closing around your neck almost lazily as the door to his bedroom swings open and his brother physically recoils. 

“Jesus christ,” Rindou swears, covering his eyes. 

“I know that when we lived together you’d knock,” Ran drawls, but there’s a dark undercurrent to his tone as you struggle underneath him, he’s choking you in earnest as you cum beneath him, evidently far more affected by the weed than he was. “Maybe I should forcefully reacquaint you with the habit?” 

“Maybe you should let her breathe?” Rindou snaps, but Ran only tightens his grip, reducing your gasps beneath him to gurgles. 

“She breathes when  you tell me why the fuck you’re here?” He says coolly. 

“Shions dead!” Rindou blurts angrily, “Mikey’s been calling you all morning.” Ran releases your throat and you suck in a deep breath, hyperventilating to catch up, still only mostly aware of what’s happening around you. 

“Get the fuck out of my room.” Ran says, but there’s less of an edge to it. “I’ll be out in a sec.” Rindou nods, and Ran pulls back from you, dazed and dizzy on the mattress. You’re still catching your breath and he spares you a glance as he reflects. “Sorry, baby,” He says after a moment, gathering you in his arms, sitting you up against his chest. “Daddy got angry at Rin and he took it out on you, he’s sorry.” You whimper softly, pressing your face against his chest. “Do you forgive me?” He asks, and instead of the low voice, laced with a threat that you were used to, it sounds almost, vulnerable. You nod immediately and he presses his lips to your forehead. “Sweet girl.” He murmurs. 

“Did you know him well?” You ask, and Ran gives you a gentle squeeze before standing, and yanking on a pair of pants, muttering about blue balls, before turning to you like he’d barely heard your question, you watch him process your question in real time. 

“Yeah.” Ran says, he sounds a bit distracted but you watch him physically shake it off, “Get dressed honey, big day for us.” You rub your eyes. 

“I’m so high.” You mutter, and it’s the closest thing he’s heard to a complaint since he picked you up off the floor of your bedroom in the brothel. 

“C’mon dummy,” he throws something at you and you realize it’s a dress, “I had them getcha some shit.” It’s white, and it doesn’t dip too low between your breasts, but as you wriggle into it you see that it’s not exactly modest or warm, cutting squarely across the top of your chest and ending mid thigh. It’s tight, but you can move in it. 

“Do I get a gun?” You ask, and he considers, toothbrush hanging out of his mouth and garbling his speech. 

“I’ll think about it.” He yanks you into his bathroom and passes you a bottle. “Wash your face and put sunscreen on.” He orders, before spitting his toothpaste in the sink. He hurries you through a morning routine, smoothing your zipper in the back of your dress before pulling you out into his living room. Rindou is standing with his arms crossed, Yuuta and Isami are waiting for you. 

“Mikey’s pissed.” Rindou says, but Ran doesn’t look concerned, his shattered phone now in his suit pocket. 

“Mikey’s always pissed,” Ran rolls his eyes, and you follow the two of them through the building, down in the elevator and out into a sleek black escalade that Isami drives. They wait to discuss details, bickering until the car door closes and the engine hums to life. “So what happened?” Rindou sighs. 

“Went looking for Daito, found Shion.” 

“Fuck.” Ran pulls his Juul out of his pocket and takes a puff. “You don’t think Daito had shit with Shion, right?” 

“I dunno,” Rindou shifts uncomfortably in his seat. “I got a tip from someone by the docks, coulda been a bad one.” 

“If Shion’s dead it’s more likely the tip was a trap.” Ran decides, resting one hand on your bare thigh, squeezing it.”You find the guy who gave it to you?” 

“Nah, he’s in the wind.” Rindou scowls, looking out the window. “Message wasn’t to us by the way, written in blood over Shions head it was, “More to come, Mikey-kun.’” 

“Mikey-kun,” Ran repeats, blowing out a puff of cotton candy scented smoke. “Who the fuck calls Sano Manjiro Mikey-kun.” 

“Not me.” Rindou shivers, and you feel his eyes flick to you. “Any chance that’s what he likes to be called in bed?” You shake your head. 

“God.” You confirm. “The girls I knew who’ve slept with him called him God.” Ran chokes on his own spit, coughing in the seat. 

“Shit, that’s hilarious, of course he does.” He shakes his head. “Nah, good to know it’s not just us, interesting that when one of them got to her they threatened me, though,” he rubs his chin again, “I gotta dig into this myself, fuck, I fucking hate actually havin’ to do work.” 

“We know.” Rindou says dryly. “There’s a meeting when we get to the offices, you gotta leave her outside.” 

“All good,” Ran puts his Juul away, “She wants to nap anyway,” he reaches over and boops your nose, “She did like two hits and suddenly she’s an invalid.” You pout, unable to control your reactions, you were used to alcohol, and the prescription drugs had made you so out of it that you’d completely folded in on yourself. It had been ages since you’d smoked weed, and the lightness of your head was making the fast paced conversation grating. “Adorable.” Ran gives you a squeeze and light pain blooms in your chest, a reminder that you’re still recovering. 

You tune out the rest of their conversation, fiddling with your phone, texting your brother that you love him and then burying your face in Ran’s arm, he stops mid sentence to look down at you. 

“C’mon,” he says, glancing at Rin, “You don’t want something like this?” Rindou sighs. 

“I don’t want to talk about this with you.” He says, pointedly looking out the window. “What I like is-” 

“Stupid.” Ran cuts him off, a huge grin on his face. “You want someone who pushes you around-” 

“I do.” Rindou says coldly. “I’m sure you’ll come calling when she gets tired of you and you’re too soft to put her in her place.” 

“I don’t need to spank baby,” Ran coos, cupping your face in two huge hands like you’re some kind of doll. “She’s so good for me, isn’t she?” You pout further and nod. Rindou rolls his eyes. 

“I’m not going to let you mock me for this.” Rindou says stiffly. “You want to care for something helpless,” You frown at that, burying deeper into Ran, who chuckles, “And I’m sure that’s admirable on some level but I’m not interested in that.”  

“Are you helpless,” Ran elbows you, still baby talking, “Or did you shoot two grown men through the heart in cold blood a few days ago?” You wince, but he just smirks. 

“I’ll believe that when I see it.” Rindou says, as the car pulls to a stop in front of the offices. You hide behind Ran, who leaves you somewhat reluctantly with Isami and Yuuta in his office, before striding into the conference room where everyone is waiting for him. Mikey looks thunderous but Ran ignores him. 

“Haitani.” Mikey’s eyes narrow. 

“Sano.” Ran quips, flopping heavily in a chair. “Have I ever answered a phone call before 11AM?” There’s a silence. “Ever, in the history of the organization, anyone, anyone who’s called me, have I picked up the phone between the hours of 4AM and 11AM?” 

“No.” Sanzu answers, as if he’s just come to this realization. 

“You need to answer your phone.” Mikey snaps, eyes narrowed and bloodshot. “The girl is a distraction.” 

“With all due respect,” Ran says, absolutely neutral, ice cold, “I’ve done more work since acquiring the girl than I’ve done in months.” He cracks a grin then. “Think she’s motivating.” 

“You need to answer your phone.” Mikey repeats, but he just sounds tired, letting Ran off the hook, changing the subject. “Kakucho, what do we know?” 

“Group formed at the docks, around thirty men tops, no international connections, calls themselves the silver dragons.” Kakucho says, and the meeting moves forward, with Kakucho walking through the known members and identities, until Ran clears his throat. 

“Should we ask her if any of these guys were the one who tried to kill her?” He reaches over and takes a sip of Kokonoi’s coffee and makes a face. “Why is there so much fuckin’ cream in here jesus Koko?” Kokonoi swipes the cup back and scowls. 

“Get your own fucking coffee.” He snaps. “It’s your own fault you showed up late and it’s cold.” 

“Actually,” Mikey says, cutting in, “We have to talk to you about the girl.” 

“Shoot.” Ran says, leaning back in his chair and lacing his fingers behind his head. 

“She’s loyal to you,” Mikey explains, “But we need her to be loyal to us.” He scoots forward, resting his elbows on the table. “She’s killed for us, which means she’s earned her tattoo but I don’t want to give it to her until she’s really a part of this.” Ran’s brow furrows, he nods slowly. 

“You wanna do a traditional initiation?” He asks, and then answers his own question. “I dunno,” he rubs his chin. “She’s wily, but I think any guy we put up against her would put her back in the hospital. She was barely alive for the first few days after that guy broke into her place. Plus she’s still got broken ribs, not to mention any man who lays a hand on her I’m probably gonna maim, I’m old fashioned like that,” he drawls, and Sanzu glances at him but Ran doesn’t turn to meet his eyes, “Depending on how I’m feelin’ that day.” Mikey waves the idea away. 

“I don’t think a traditional initiation fight would be productive for her. Kokonoi had another idea about how to ‘earn’ her loyalty.” Mikey pauses, studying the executive who remains unreadable. “You know the new group cutting in on our arms sales in the south of the city.” Ran nods. 

“Small time problem, big time headache.” He says, shrugging. “I’m familiar.” 

“We need to draw them out,” Mikey explains, “Koko suggested we use her as bait, and then rescue her.” He keeps his eyes on Ran, who doesn’t react. After a moment, he stretches, yawning. 

“Well, if you were waitin’ to see if I’d betray my brothers for a bitch I just met you’ve got your answer.” He says, pulling his Juul out of his pocket. “Where does she have to be, and what time am I picking baby up?” 

“Actually,” Rindou pipes up. “We think she’s plenty loyal to you. We think it might be better to have one of us who is less familiar with her execute the rescue.” Ran doesn’t balk, shrugging. 

“Cool.” A little smirk flits across his lips. “Probably shouldn’t be Kokonoi, though.” 

“No,” Mikey agrees, and then his eyes narrow, “Wait, we were thinking I’d do it, or Kakucho would, but why not Kokonoi?” 

“Oooh,” Ran’s smirk widens, “You wanna tell ‘em why she might not want to trust you?” 

“She offered.” Kokonoi says stiffly, looking away. 

“He put a cigarette out on her hand.” Ran blows out a cloud of cotton candy scented smoke. “So I think that ship’s sailed.” 

“She offered.” Kokonoi crosses his arms over his chest, most of the executives don’t react but Mikey’s eyes narrow a single degree. 

“Does this mean I stop getting shit for fucking her while she-” Sanzu starts. 

“No.” Ran and Mikey say at the same time, then Mikey scowls, and clears his throat. 

“No.” Mikey repeats, rubbing his eyes. “Listen,” he eyes the group, “You’re all used to treating women like they're disposable, and you can’t,” He pinches the bridge of his nose, “She isn’t. All you have to do,” he turns to Ran, “Is bring her with you down to investigate the docks, you’ll get separated and I think I should be the one to,” he catches Ran’s expression and trails off. 

“Rin should lose her.” He says, leaning forward, “She wouldn’t believe that I’d let her go, I’ve been carrying her everywhere for a few days, plus there’s a chance she gets my gun and shoots whoever tries to pull us apart, less of a chance of that with Rin ‘cause she doesn’t know where he keeps his.” Mikey turns to Rindou who shrugs. 

“Fine.” He says, and Ran stands. 

“I’ll grab her?” He says. 

“Go ahead.” Ran strides out into the hallway, heart beating uncomfortably as the door closes behind him, but shoves the feelings down as he goes to his office. You’re nestled on the couch, wrapped in his suit jacket as you sleep on the bed. He touches your shoulder and you blink up at him. “You got work to do sweetheart,” he grins. “Can’t just lie on your back all day anymore.” You groan softly, but stand, grateful to be in the light dress and shoes he’d given you instead of virtually naked in his shirt as you follow him down the hallway. He opens the door to the office and you feel all of their eyes on you immediately. Your palms break into a sweat but you maintain composure. 

“Do you recognize any of these men?” Kakucho asks you, handing you his phone. “You can flip through the pictures.” You scroll through his phone, pausing on one. 

“He came to see me pretty regularly,” You hand the phone back to Kakucho, showing him a broad man with blue in his hair. Kakucho sits straight up in his chair, snatching the phone from you and putting it straight up on the table. “Maybe um, once a week?” Your hand drifts towards Ran, who takes it, rubbing circles in your palm. “But he’s not the person who um, who I stabbed.” 

“We know him.” Kakucho said, brow furrowing. “That’s Taiju Shiba.” You nod. “You saw him regularly?” You shiver. 

“None of um, none of the other girls could,” you pause, choosing your words carefully. “He was particular, and after he’d always lose his temper, half with me, half with himself, but he never hurt any of us badly enough to get kicked out.” 

“How the fuck is Taiju Shiba getting in and out of a place I’m in charge of without anyone calling me,” Ran snaps, already pulling his phone out of his pocket, “I’m breaking someone’s knees.” Mikey nods, and you can practically feel the waves of malevolence rolling off of him. 

“Sounds like you know what you’re doing today,” He says, and Ran nods, already pulling his phone out and starting for the hallway. 

“You’re with Rin.” Ran says quickly, giving you a quick pat on the head before disappearing around the corner, his voice carries, his tone is pure ice. “Yeah, hi this is Haitani Ran, I need to speak with whoever the fuck thinks they’re running this place.” A few men stand, Rindou included. He gestures towards the door. 

“Hope you’re not too used to being carried everywhere.” He says gruffly, and you shake your head, nearly sober, dutifully and silently following him out. You can hear Ran when you pass his office, but barely. He’s not shouting, he sounds so calm that a shiver runs up your spine. You hold your head up, following Rindou out of the restaurant, and into a car. 

“Where are Yuuta and Isami?” You ask finally, when the two of you slide into the backseat and Rindou starts checking his email on his phone. 

“Busy.” Rindou says without looking at you. You don’t speak again for another fifteen minutes, a light snow starts to fall outside the car. You’re stuck in traffic. Rindou clears his throat. “How’s your brother?” 

“Oh.” Your head snaps to his, attempting to gauge the sincerity of his request. “I um, we texted this morning.” You let out a little breath. “Chemo sucks.” Rindou nods. 

“So I’ve heard.” You turn away from him again, staring out the window at the little white clumps falling from the sky when he speaks again. “You don’t, you don’t really understand what’s happening to you, do you?” 

“A lot of things have happened to me.” You don’t turn to him, still watching the snow. “I either land on my feet or I don’t. So far I’ve been lucky.” 

“Look at me when I speak to you.” He says sharply, and you immediately turn around, eyes wide, holding his gaze. “Thank you.” He says more stiffly, “And I mean, you don’t understand who we are, and what we do.” 

“Your brother moves product into the country, manages illegal brothels,” You shrug, “He covered up murders.” Rindou nods. “So I have an inkling, I’m not a fawn in the woods.” He sighs and rubs his eyes. You realize he looks exhausted. “Can I,” you cock your head at him, “Can I do anything for you?” He blinks at you, you tentatively reach across the seat, moving quite slowly, slow enough so that if he wants to bat your hand away or tell you to fuck off that he can. “It’s,” you pick up one of his hands, it’s large enough to swallow your own, so you take it with both of yours. “It’s alright, you’re doing your best.” The words are empty, meaningless, but he softens anyway. 

“Is that what you’d do for men?” He asks, examining your hands wrapped around his. “Validate them?” You don’t answer his question, scooting closer to him on the seat, following your instincts. 

“Do you dislike it?” You ask, and he sighs again, leaning against you. He squeezes your hands, letting his eyes close. 

“Just stay where you are.” He murmurs, and it’s about a minute before you feel him fully relax against you. His breathing is soft and even, and he’s heavy and warm in a way that’s comforting and not overwhelming. You drive like that, with him sleeping on your shoulder for nearly half an hour longer, he wakes when the car pulls to a stop. He jerks his hand out of yours, not looking at you as he hops out of the car and holds the door. 

“What are we doing here?” You ask, shivering, Ran’s suit jacket was large but not quite warm enough for the winter weather. 

“I have a meeting.” Rindou says, without looking at you. It’s not a nice neighborhood, with uneven sidewalks and sloping cracked streets, covered in dead weeds that must have fought their way to the sun during the summer only to be choked by the frost. The warehouse you’re in front of seems fully functional, with smoke billowing from a chimney. “We’re meeting Mikey after.” You nod, moving carefully behind him. He pushes the huge metal door open and you’re hit with a familiar smell, the salt, the sea, and fish. You wrinkle your nose as you step inside the small fishpacking plant, and then jump at the heavy thud of someone slicing right through a frozen fish with a cleaver. Rindou frowns at you, offering you his arm. “Does it bother you?” He asks quietly, leading you through the side of the warehouse, “The blood?” You look at the concrete floor, stained with red. 

“Yes.” You say as quietly as possible, well aware of the stares the two of you are drawing. He doesn’t respond, leading you up a metal staircase to a small upper bridge where there are a few offices. You hear the heavy slap of fish hitting the conveyor belt, and shrink a little into Rindou, who stiffens. 

“Needy.” He mumbles, and you swallow, looking away. He knocks on one of the office doors and a man in a suit opens it. 

“Leave your bitch outside.” He growls, looking over at you, eyes dark and beady. Rindou sighs.

“I’d hate to think you’d insult someone so high up in our organization.” His eyes flash. “Care to try again.” 

“Bitch waits outside.” The man says. “S’Chome’s orders.” Rindou raises his eyes and you read a micro expression of genuine surprise on his face. He sighs. 

“She doesn’t like the blood,” He explains impatiently, “Is there another room for her?” You wonder why they’re suddenly making allowances for you, and wonder if what Rindou had said was true, were you now high up in a criminal organization, high enough up to deserve respect? You find out a second later when the man steps out of the room, nodding and grabbing your arm. 

“Don’t touch her,” Rindou hisses, ice in his tone. “She belongs to Bonten.” 

“Whatever.” The man jerks you towards him, you crash hard against his chest and bite back a cry of pain. Rindou pulls his gun like lightning, there are shouts on the floor below. 

“Return her.” Rindou says, hand steady. “Or I’ll shoot you.” 

“Fuck off.” The man snarls, and you’re completely blindsided by a loud crack as Rindou fires his weapon. The man stumbles backwards, blood pooling at his shoulder. 

“C’mon,” Rindou grunts, grabbing your wrist and yanking you down the stairs. You follow, glancing over your shoulder as there are shouts on the factory floor. He starts sprinting, holding onto you tightly. You clatter down the stairs, and make a break for the exit. 

“Why,” you get out, “Why did you-” 

“Don’t fucking talk to me when we’re running!” He says, pulling his phone out of his pocket, elbowing the heavy metal door open just as the men chasing you catch up. One of them goes to grab you, and Rindou drops his phone, fist connecting with the man's jaw, you hear a sickening crunch. You squeak and dash past him out the open door, and the second you’re outside you hear a gun fire several times, and Rindou comes tearing out of the building, somehow looking calm. “What the hell are you doing,” he rolls his eyes, plucking you off your feet and taking off running with your body cradled to his chest, “I let you go, you were supposed to run?” 

“I wasn’t going to leave you!” You cry out, and for one moment, for one split second, he’s not there, running through with warehouse district carrying some prostitute. He’s sixteen, and it’s summer, he’s standing in an alley behind a convenience store. 

“I,” the girl in front of him is fidgeting, “I brought you this.” She’s small, smaller than him, and shy, she passes him a package of band aids. “I see you around, and sometimes, um, you’re a bit banged up, and I thought, um,” she takes a step backwards from him. “I thought you could use these.” He quirks an eyebrow. “I’m um, I’m gonna go-” She’d said, and re remembers now that she’d tripped, and he’d caught her, dropping the bandages on the ground as his hands had flown to her waist, righting her body. 

“Do you want,” he’d said, unable to think of anything else. “Do you want to ride on my bike?”

 He remembers now, the feeling of something small, and vulnerable, the feeling of protecting someone, of having something worth protecting, had it really been since that summer that he’d felt this feeling? He tightens his grip on your body, ducking behind a dumpster, hearing gunshots ping against the metal. He sets you on the ground, reloading his gun. 

“You should have,” He says curtly, lifting his head up and firing a couple rounds before ducking back down, “You should have run away, and hid somewhere. That would have been normal,” He grunts, firing just once this time before returning his attention to you, measuring your sincerity to the best of his ability. He’d checked up on your story, out of an abundance of caution, while you were asleep on his couch, and paid off your medical debts personally when it turned out you’d been telling the truth. Still, it had been hard to imagine the way you’d been clinging to Ran wasn’t theatrical, despite the circumstances. Here, in this moment, as little white tufts of snow begin to fall from the sky, he sees what Ran sees when he looks at you. Your eyes are wide, and he watches you inhale before taking a step forward, and somehow, later he’d claim you must have been filled with adrenaline, you reach out and knock him behind you, snatching the gun from his hand and firing three times in quick succession. Rindou rips his gun back from you and swears violently. All three of the men who’d been chasing you are lying on the asphalt. 

“I got their legs,” you say urgently, and Rindou detects a slight self congratulatory note in your voice. 

“I liked this gun,” He grumbles, “C’mon.” He pulls you forward and the two of you run through the warehouse district, well aware that essentially nothing had gone as planned when by some miracle, a huge black escalade pulls up in front of you just as you hear the shouts in the distance getting closer, and sirens. The door opens and Mikey hops out, not giving you time to get in, throwing you over his shoulder and getting back in, barely letting Rindou leap in after you before the tires squeal on the pavement and the car starts to tear out of there. 

“What the hell happened,” Mikey slides you off his shoulder, holding you partially on his lap as you squirm. 

“You tell him.” Rindou’s already pulling his Juul out of his pocket. “I’m fucking exhausted.” 

“One,”  you manage, “One of them grabbed me, Rindou um, Rindou shot them and then we ran.” 

“No,” Rindou says sharply, “That is not what happened.” He blows out a cloud of cucumber melon scented smoke, Mikey’s hand drifts a little lower on your hip. “What happened is I let her run, and she didn’t fucking run.” 

“I wasn’t going to leave you.” You repeat, and feel the Bonten leader’s grip on you tighten. “I, I’m not sure you even told me to go.” 

“I didn’t think I had to,” Rindou says, exasperated. “They were shooting and you didnt have a fucking gun.” 

“I never would have left you there.” You say, and it’s the closest any of them have heard to you raising your voice since they’ve met you. There’s a beat of stunned silence, you nearly vibrate with fear, realizing you’d just snapped at a man, who not only has a gun, was clearly keen on using it. 

“Don’t talk to him like that.” Mikey says softly, adjusting the way you’re half in his lap so tha you can look him in the eyes. “Do you understand?” You nod, swallowing. “I want you to say out loud that you understand,” and fear erases all your indignation. 

“Yes god,” you whisper, and Mikey breaks into a wide smile. “I understand.” 

“Jesus.” Rindou takes another puff on the juul. “I’m gonna tall Ran his bitch bites.” Your eyes shoot open. 

“Please,” you beg him, twisting in Mikey’s lap, “I’m so sorry, I just, I would never ever,” you take a deep breath, “I would never ever leave you behind.” Rindou reaches out, patting the top of your head, remembering the girl with the band aids. 

“Yeah, yeah you’re a good girl.” He shakes his head, watching you brush off the praise. Mikey gives you a squeeze, tucking you into his chest, and giving Rindou a confused look, asking him to elaborate. Rindou shrugs, and then glances meaningfully at you. You stay tense, ears ringing, disliking how you were starting to get used to the gunfire. 

“Are you afraid?” Mikey tries, trying to see what of his plan could be salvaged. You shake your head.

“No.” You mumble, then lift your head. “Not now.” 

“Good.” Mikey presses his lips to the top of your head. “Good.” Rindou pulls his phone out of his pocket, wincing at the shattered screen. 

Ran: she okay?

Rindou: yeah. 

Rindou: you give a shit if Mikey’s got his hands all over her?

Ran: depends

Ran: does it seem like she likes it? 

Rindou resists the urge to sigh out loud, and effortlessly maintains a blank expression as he inspects you, the way you’re not holding Mikey back, the way your eyes keep flicking to the door. 

Rindou: Nah 

Ran: that’s my girl. 

Rindou: I’d be a shitty brother if I didn’t say if Mikey wants her she’s Mikeys 

Ran: Mikey only wants her ‘cause she’s new 

Ran: he’ll get bored

Rindou: and you? 

Ran: baby needs me. 

Rindou: and you like that, to be needed. 

Ran: yeah it’s validating. You don’t feel the same way? 

Rindou: I get it, it’s not for me. 

Ran: lame

Ran: baby’s gonna cook for me, and clean, and hide a glock in the rice sack in the pantry.

Ran: the perfect woman does exist. 

Rindou: *can be bought

Ran: same difference. I’m not gonna let anyone else have her.

Mikey rubs  your back, the three of you ride in silence across the city. He taps the bridge of your nose when you start nodding off, producing something from his pocket, a small blue pill. 

“Open.” He orders, and you do, letting him place it on your tongue. He looks down at you, not understanding why you’re still looking up at him, tongue out, and then realizing you’re waiting for him to tell you, “Close.” He murmurs and you do, burying your head in his chest as it dissolves, a heavy warmth washing over your body. You’re in and out for the rest of the drive, unaware until you feel the blistering cold, the day darkened in twilight, as Mikey carries you upstairs. You wait to be deposited with Ran, but instead find yourself alone in what you imagine is Mikey’s office. It’s cold, and you’re so high the world blurs, you can’t focus on the map on his wall, on the dark wood of his desk, on the snow falling outside his window. You take a fistful of his soft shirt for stability and feel his lips on your head again. 

“God,” you murmur, and he responds. 

“Hm?” 

“Is um,” you blink up at him, “Am I in trouble?” He shakes his head, not all had gone as planned, he thinks, but he’d rescued you and you’d wounded the enemy. “Can I ask you for something?” He hesitates, wondering if it’ll be money, revenge, a purse, if you’ll show your true colors now when your vulnerable, he wants to smack himself, of course Haitani wouldn’t notice if you were a gold digger he- “I want to move my brother to a hospital in Tokyo.” His head stops spinning, and you droop a little. “He’s at one in Hyogo,”  you mumble, no longer able to maintain eye contact, focusing on the pattern on the rug. 

“I can have someone look into it.” He says. “Why haven’t you done this yourself?” You swallow. 

“I couldn’t afford it.” You whisper. “No matter how much I worked.” Several things click into place in that moment, the way you’d take Taiju as a client even if the other girls were scared of him, how much you’d naturally deferred to them, desperate for approval, all of it to earn more money for your brother, none of it for you. And more troublingly, none of it out of a sense of loyalty to Bonten. 

“So that’s why,” he says, moving you, so that you have to hold eye contact with him, he sees how dilated your pupils are. “That’s why you’re so good for us, hm? For your brother?” He watches you struggle, and then shake your head. 

“I’m,” you swallow, clearly struggling to for sentences, but when you speak you reframe it a bit. “I’m good for you because you’re good to me. I um,” you rub your eyes, trying to focus, remembering something you’d heard years ago. “I think it’s about what we owe to each other.” He nods, processing slowly, rubbing your back. 

“We’ll take care of it.” He says, deciding in the moment. “I assume you’ll want to move him yourself, one of the executives can take you when we have business in Hyogo.” You reach up and wrap your arms around his neck, letting out a long breath. 

“Thank you,” you manage, “Thank you so, so much.” 

“You belong to us now.” He says, and feels you nod. “Do you have any tattoos?” He asks, and it takes you a beat, mind still moving slowly, before you realize why he asked.  

“No,” You whisper, not moving. He hums softly in response. You’re not sure how long he holds you on his lap, working quietly. You don’t feel like you can ask about Ran, not when Mikey’s agreed to give you this, but you find your mind wandering to him, wondering if he knows where you are, if he’s worried. It’s late when you squirm eventually, drawing Mikey’s attention from his computer. 

“I’m supposed to,” you sigh, “I’m supposed to be accompanying Mr. Haitani to his meeting.” Mikey balks internally, but isn’t quite ready to spread his cards on the table. 

“Go.” He says, letting you get up and stumble to the hallway, legs pins and needles. Your chest still aches, your face still throbs, but for the first time in a few days you feel like movement isn’t an ordeal. The hallways are empty, you pad across the soft carpeting, pausing at Ran’s door, knocking softly against the glass panel. 

“Come in.” You hear, and push it open just enough to fit your body through, closing it behind you. Something in his chest warms as he watches your face light up at the sight of him, and his lips curl into a little smile. “Hey, sweetheart.” 

“Hi.” You walk quickly over to him and then hover at the side of his desk, unsure where you should sit, he watches you decide between climbing in his lap and pulling a chair out, one hand hovering above the back of his leather backed guest chair, sitting at a slight angle next to his desk, your eyes flicking around nervously. “I,” you say, sitting quickly, having made up your mind. “You have a dinner appointment.” 

      “That I do.” He says, standing. “Heard you were a bit of trouble.” He watches the fear flood your face and chuckles. “Relax, I think it’s funny that you snapped at Rin.” He adjusts his suit jacket, today it’s a pale blue, “Besides, we’ll need to get you cleaned up a little,” he smirks, “Can’t take you anywhere, can I?” He reaches out and cups your face, you feel him rubbing at something and when he pulls his hand away you see the blood staining his fingers. “We’ve got time,” he strides towards the door, “C’mon, dinner’s at 11.” 

You’re whisked back to the apartment, Isami and Yuuta are back with little explanation, Yuuta driving you home, Isami grunting a half greeting to you as he holds the car door. Ran scrolls through his phone, keeping one hand on your bare thigh, glancing at you. You’d volunteered less information than he’d hoped for, even given his brothers reassurance. He waits until you’re alone to question you, until Isami is standing outside his penthouse door, and Yuuta is leaning against the cabinet in the kitchen. He’s patient enough to wait until the second the bedroom door closes, and not an inch more. 

“How was your day?” He asks, and you don’t catch the edge to his tone with your mind, it doesn’t arouse suspicion, but something deep in your emotional instincts bristles without interpreting the feeling. 

“Ah,” you start, and then decide it was better to tell the truth. “I was afraid.” You look down at your hands, Ran stops unbuttoning his shirt long enough to catch the genuine expression on your face. It’s dark in his room, the sun had set quickly behind the clouds, he leans over and flicks the light on, but it only means your face is set in deeper contrast, the shadow of your form more stark on his white wall. He watches you fidget, and then look at him again, and resists the urge to comfort you, to wrap you up in his arms. No, you needed to choose him, and he needed to condition you to do it as much as possible. “I was glad Rindou was there.” You say eventually. 

“And Mikey?” Ran says, nearly too quickly, just controlled enough to keep the tone casual. You shrug.

“Mikey’s been very kind to me.” And that’s it, that’s when you reach for him, right on fucking schedule, he accepts, taking your hand and gently holding you against his chest, “But I just feel safer with you.” You mumble, and fuck, he has to remind himself that you’re not lying that he knows you’re not lying, that he’s seen you broken, and drunk, and high, and even at your most vulnerable you kept reaching for him. He rubs your back. “If that’s okay to say, I don’t want to get you in trouble.” You feel his lips on the top of your head. 

“We can just keep that between us for now,” he gives you a squeeze and you wince, he ignores it. “Our little secret.” You nod. “C’mon. Let’s shower.” 

_____

“You were supposed to lose her,” Mikey snaps, pacing in front of Rindou. They’re still at the office and Rindou is draped over a chair while Sanzu arranges neat lines of cocaine on the coffee table. 

“I mean, you got what you wanted?” Rindou shrugs. “Seems like she trusts you a fuckton more now, you saved her, shame we didn’t get to spend more time in the office before that guy got aggro with me-” 

“Didn’t he get aggro with her?” Sanzu pipes up and Rindou shakes his head. 

“Nah, he was pushing me around. He was just using her.” He sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Listen, Mikey, you’re not gonna get her attached to all of us the way she’s attached to my brother overnight.” Mikey stops pacing, his shoulders drooping a degree. “We don’t need her that bad,” Rindou continues, “She’s a nice to have. Not a need. In time, she’ll trust us. Ran was the person who picked her up when she was fully dissasociated and broken, twice, and I mean that literally. I’m sure there’s some chemical shit to traumabonding.” 

“Trauma bonds are weak.” Mikey mutters. “Temporary. I’d know.” Rindou wonders if he’s thinking of Izana, of Shinchiro, or someone else he’d lost. “Fine, you’re right though. She’s a nice to have. Get her tattooed and figure out which one of us should help her move her brother down to Tokyo.” 

“Will do,” Rindou stands, and stretches. “Can I,” he stops himself. “Mikey if you wanna fuck her you can fuck her. It’s just a cunt, you can afford it.” Mikey presses his lips together, Sanzu watches with eyes like saucers. “What you can’t do, is fuck her when she gets serious with my brother.” Rindou says, eyes darkening a little. 

“I know.” Mikey says, meeting his gaze. 

“For the good of this family,” Rindou says, shrugging. “That’s what you told her, that her and her brother are family now.” 

“I know.” Mikey repeats, fumbling in his pocket for cigarettes. “Get out.” 

“Cool.” Rindou says, flashing his palms and walking out of the room. Sanzu waits until the door closes to giggle. 

“He’s wrong,” Sanzu laughs, “You can fuck her whenever.” Mikey shakes his head. 

“I can’t.” 

“Why?” Sanzu shrugs. “It’s good pussy for sure.” Mikey sighs. 

“I want her to want it.” He rubs his eyes, “It’s fucking me in the head, I want her to want it so fucking bad.” Sanzu shrugs before leaning forward and doing a line.

“When I want something,” he says, panting, wiping his nose. “I just take it, you know?” 

“I know.” Mikey repeats for a third time, and Sanzu keeps talking but Mikey’s mind is gone, reaching within his ribcage for the last soft parts of himself, trying to remember what he’d been like when he’d been able to make girls like you blush and giggle, and not cower in fear. 

“I mean,” Sanzu says. “You could just kill Haitani.” There’s a pause. Mikey’s back is to Sanzu, facing the city, glimmering in the darkness. 

“No,” Mikey sighs. “No I couldn’t.” 

___

You and Ran are in the car, speeding across the city when his phone rings. The screen’s still shattered, it matches Rindou’s now, but when his brother’s face flashes across the screen he picks up. 

“Hey, dummy.” Ran says, slipping an arm around your waist. “Someone else get shot?” Rindou shakes his head, alone in his office with the door closed.

“Does it ever bother you?” Rindou asks, watching his brother take a puff on his juul. “Taking orders from Mikey?” Ran doesn’t miss a beat. 

“Not at all.” He shrugs. “What’s up?”  

“I’m asking because I feel it sometimes,” Rindou stumbles his way through the sentence clumsily, “Feel like that instinctual fuck you, who the fuck are you to tell me what to do? I mean, we used to run shit, we didn’t take orders from anyone.” Ran shakes his head. 

“That’s cuck shit, anway.” He straightens his shoulders. “Listen, I already did what Mikey’s doing, we already did it. And we did it without guns, without a gang, without makin’ too many threats.” A ghoulish smile flickers on his face, you shiver next to him. “And it was work, it was hard, and I thought to myself, after all that shit with Izana, how can I hold onto the parts of this I like, and get rid of the shit I don’t. Now, I follow Mikey, he tells me what he wants me to do, but I get rich, I get high, and I get the girl.” He shrugs. “What’s to dislike?” 

“You think leadership is cuck shit?” Rindou practically sputters. Ran gives you a squeeze.

“All I know is I woke up in bed with a beautiful woman, spent the morning gettin’ high with her, and then fucked her brains out. Mikey hasn’t gone to bed since last night at least, maybe longer,” Ran glances out the window at the snowy city. “And he started his day at his desk, worried about a dead body in a warehouse. There’s nothin’ there for me, or you, to be jealous of.” In his office, Rindou rakes his fingers through his hair.

“You’re so fucking confusing sometimes.” Rindou mutters, shaking his head and Ran laughs lightly. 

“Listen,” he says, “Kakucho said this shit to me once, that the only things in life that matter are the things that bring you happiness. I like the girl, so I’m keeping the girl.” A small spark burns in your chest as he speaks.  “I like Mcallan 25 so I drink Mcallan 25. I like my  Bentley, I like my penthouse, I like workin’ hard but not too hard. Youover complicate things,” he wrinkles his nose at the very idea of it. “You,” he says, “Get stuck between duty, and happiness, and expectation, which, is a fuckin’ minefield considering our line of work.”  Ran shrugs. “Me, I just go with the flow.” The car slows to a stop. “I gotta go have dinner with a beautiful woman and talk a bit about drugs over the best bolognese in the city. Try not to get your panties in an existential twist, maybe try finding some of that bratty pussy you like so much.” 

“Ugh.” Rindou groans. “Call me when you’re done.” 

“I won’t.” Ran grins, reaching for the door. “But you can call me. You can always call me.” Years flash in Rindou’s eyes, Izana, Juvie, their last halcyon days in Roppongi. 

“I know.” Rindou says. “I know I can.”