:| I Blame Tasch And The Rest Of The @homeintheunderground Folks For This Idea

:| I blame Tasch and the rest of the @homeintheunderground folks for this idea

haven’t posted a sing thing here in a while!  I opened this project with the intent to arrange the instrumental of the song as a sort of personal fun birthday thing for myself, only to discover the bullshit variance in rhythm/BPM, so I just went straight to sing covering it.. it’s been one of my favorite songs since I discovered it a few years ago, but i didn’t have the technical ability to sing it well back then.

Sorry about the wonky quality in the mix, there’s no instrumental for this song and my vocals overlap Shoichi’s (the original vocalist).

this is my desktop

I did the do with a tree branch. Probably have died from bacteria. Thanks, Mother Nature!

You have now fucked the character on your desktop/mobile wallpaper.

How fucked are you?

hi, jeff! today i saw your post about making art and it motivated me to send this ask. i've missed two years of college due to mental health reasons and now i'm working on my first application ever. i'm already feeling down that i wasted two years that i could've been in art college, and now i fear i'll get rejected by my dream school. how do you feel about going to college for art? is it necessary? sometimes i feel like it will make or break my worth as an artist. :^( any advice???

Hey! Okay sorry everyone for this long response, and sorry to everyone to whom I cannot respond. My life is very busy and I can’t always do this. Hopefully this post can address other peoples’ questions in some way.

I think that going to college for art is a great experience. It will provide many opportunities for a career, but it’s not necessary. I know very talented professionals who never attended college. College is tremendously helpful for a career, but not necessary.

There is no correct way to become an artist. Whatever path you take is your own true path. Worrying that you should have done it differently is unfair and unkind to your true self. 

You don’t have to worry about wasting time. Any time spent being alive is valuable. Those years are full precious experiences that make you into the person you are today. That’s essential for making art.

In my opinion, taking care of your mental health is much more important than being a talented artist. I have found, personally, that making art as a means of replacing self-care with external validation can be very painful. It can be the act of giving up our love for ourselves, allowing the judgement of others to determine whether or not we get to feel valid. Positive validation is so powerful that we may forget the pain of rejection, and continue this path, crawling through a dark abyss of sorrow, hoping desperately for the next glimmer of light. An exhilarating process, but an exhausting one for sure.

As a person with self-esteem issues, these are all lessons I’ve had to learn for myself. I’ve spent a lot of time feeling very bad about myself, particularly during college, even while being very productive artistically. I have had to reevaluate my relationship with art and myself in recent years so I can feel mentally healthy again. (things are getting much better btw!)

Talent comes with experience. It doesn’t equate a person’s value, it just reflects hard work and the willingness to grow through moments of pain.

There is no mandated time by which an individual should achieve a certain level of success. You don’t need people to like your art to feel like you are a good person and a success. These notions can feed feelings of worthlessness and impede the process of growth that leads to such perceptions of success. Ironic huh?

Don’t fear rejection. It will happen many times in our lives. It is only a sign that there is work we can do to grow. I hope you continue to pursue your dream, even if you have to try multiple times. Rejection doesn’t mean we can’t continue to love ourselves and to keep trying.

Missed your art so much!

I don’t get much time to draw anything at home, so I tried to draw as much as I can during lunch at work. That’s also getting very hard because I need that time to nap. I wish I didn’t need any sleep.

Doodled my old character, Prepared Boy.