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So One Of My Friends Is On The Verge Of Being Homeless And Doesnt Have Any Family To Fall Back On. I
So one of my friends is on the verge of being homeless and doesnât have any family to fall back on. I donât normally post this kind of stuff but sheâs a sweetheart and deserves the help. I have been helping where I can, but she needs more than Iâm able to provide just to get started. If you can donate absolutely anything that would be wonderful but a share is just as helpful. If you canât do either, sheâs also been spending a lot of time trying to break into video game streaming and YouTube videos, so if you wanted to just give those a like and/or a follow that would be kind as well and her linktree is here for that.
Thank you everyone!

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SAY THIS SHIT LOUDER !!!
One of my favourite aspects in the season 2 of Heartstopper is how unapologetically intolerant everyone is towards homophobia. Like.
Harry showing up at Tara's birthday party and Charlie shutting the door in his face despite that apology.
Nick freely calling out his brother's biphobic behavior. Tori literally sinking her nails in David's arm when he was mocking Charlie and Nick and planning to out them.
It's so refreshing. There's no moment where someone asks Charlie or Nick to be the "bigger people" and forgive anyone who undermined, mocked, dismissed, and harassed them for their identity.
Because that shit shouldn't be tolerated ever and it's not acceptable. Queer people aren't here to be your redemption arc.
me with howl from howl's moving castle đđ and spencer reid from criminal minds

i really needed this after my dad destroyed all my heartstopper books, thank you sm <3
Two things:
1) I really need to stop putting embarrassing little messages on my posts. I keep forgetting that people reblog this stuff and all my embarrassing words are out in the world permanently.
2) I just woke up from a sad dream where I really wanted to say something and couldn't. To compensate, I'll write down what I wanted to say.
You're all worthy of love and the company of the people who love you, I promise. That traumatic event or the fact your father's gone doesn't make you any less of a good, strong human being. I hope you manage to work out all your issues one day. I'm so excited to see the person you're going to become.
I am so proud of you.
Okay, weird, sad rant over. I'm happy now. Back to bed. Goodniiight <3
Also I'm so going to delete this when I wake up, after the embarrassment's fully set in.
payment plan

your husband and you find yourself bankrupt and dead broke thanks to his gambling problem. his younger brother - successful businessman kim seokjin - offers a helping hand free of charge. unbeknownst to your brother, you would be the one paying seokjin for his charity. @momnomnom @darkuni63 @sweetempathprunetree @minshookie29
valentineâs day masteriist
word count: 5.509
warning: non-con/coercion, cmnf, smut, dub-con, degradation/humiliation, dominant jin, submissive reader, collaring, affair, unsolicited touching, impregnation kink, thigh riding, oral sex/deep throat, dirty talk, kissing, creampie,
âYour collarâŚâ Jin murmurs, his eyes staring at the pink collar he has given you. It has diamonds wrapped around and in the middle, is a gold shaped heart. â...is so cute.â
âThank you, sir.â you murmur, your thighs clenching together nervously underneath Jinâs intense gaze.
âIsnât it sad that your husband is away?â Jin scoffs, a wicked smirk forming onto his lips - rosy and plump.
Kim Seokjin, tall with a slender build. Dark hair and even darker eyes. Heâs beautiful - utterly gorgeous. His beauty is often compared to that of a God; ethereal. He carried himself as such, strutting into any room and completely holding the attention from everyone occupying it.
Kim Seokjin, wealthy - one of the richest men in the nation. He owned several businesses that thrived; all of which funded his life. He had enough generational wealth that his great-great grandchildren wouldnât have to work - and heâd often boast about that fact. Kim Industries were one of the most well known and luxurious industries to be a part of - employees were even looked at as better off just for being apart of the business.
Kim Seokjin, your brother-in-law. The very man who stood besides your husband, his elder brother, while you and he were wed. He gave a speech about the love you and your husband had was that of true love and raised his glass to give you a celebratory toast - âto my sister-in-law, Y/N. Welcome to the family.â
Kim Seokjin, your brother-in-law, and the same man you are having an affair with.
âIt is sad, sir.â
Jin tilts his head a bit. âThen why donât you look it?â he questions. âMaybe youâre happy to be with me instead of your good for nothing husband?â
You swallow at Jinâs harsh words, appearing physically ill at them. Jin doesnât care, however, and openly berates his brother around you at any given moment.
It was 5 months prior when your husband came to you and confessed that he was completely broke - that you and he had not a dollar to your names. It came as a shock. No, your husband was not as wealthy as Jin - but he was nowhere near broke. Their father had helped start up a business before allowing them out in the world. While Jin branched out and became a big name in multiple industries, your husband was smaller. However, the Kim name had benefits.
âHow are we broke?â you asked with wide eyes, not believing your ears. âWe have a few hundred thousands saved up for a rainy day.â
Your husband had confided in you that the money was gone - everything that was saved has since been wiped away.
The home you and he bought had to be sold, along with the cars. You were homeless, and the only way your husband was willing to turn was his younger brother.
Seokjin had welcomed you two with open arms and gave his brother a job at one of the many businesses he owned - it was an ego killer. Your husband was the older brother, but yet, the younger one was more successful and thriving. You and your husband moved into Seokjinâs home (even if he did have enough money to lend you a vacation home) and allowed you to borrow his cars whenever needed.
The hours your husband worked were always long, working from sun up to sun down. He came home exhausted and didnât want to do anything but rest - and you understood. You contemplated asking Jin if there were any available openings in his business for you to work, but your husband shot you down. âIâm the man, Y/N. I have to be the one providing for you.â
As much as you appreciated the efforts your husband set in place, you wanted nothing more than to tell him the truth - that you trusting him got you nowhere. You were homeless, staying in a (large mansion, yes) with his brother, becoming a complete burden on him.
Your feelings were never stated aloud, but it showed in your actions. You loved your husband to death truly, but you didnât want to be around him. You soon got your own room in the mansion and to keep yourself busy, decided to take on chores. You cleaned from top to bottom and cooked constantly. As much as you were annoyed with your husband, you always assured he had three meals a day that you cooked personally.
âI am happy to be with you.â you murmur to Jin, understanding that itâs what he wants to hear. Despite being highly successful and wealthy, hearing that he was better than his elder brother brought satisfaction over Kim Seokjin.
âI know you are.â Jin brings a hand up to touch your cheek softly. âIsnât this why you allow me to do whatever I want to you? Because my good for nothing brother puts his lovely wifeâŚâ Jin trails his hand down to your collared neck. â...in the hands of another man.â
You swallow the lump in your throat nervously.
âNothing in this world is free, Y/N-ah.â you recall Jin speaking those very words to you for the first time. You had just gotten out of the shower, strolling into your bedroom in nothing but a robe to find the man on your bed. He sits poshly, waiting for you. âI give my brother a job, a place to stay and in returnâŚâ Jin trailed off, having since pushed himself from your bed to come to you and without a warning, hands dipped between your robe.
Jin never forgot to remind you that you lived in his home - that you husband (though his brother) worked right under him and if he truly desired, could fire him at any given moment just because.
Maybe thatâs why you never told Jin no - that you allowed him to touch you. In the beginning, it was only that; touching. He would come up behind you while you washed the dishes and press himself firmly against you, his hands gripping your waist before they rub up your sides - but then heâd leave you be.
But of course, with you never stopping him - it escalated. Jin was no longer satisfied with just touching you because what was the fun in that? Your husband's work load became longer until he had no days off - and he never went against it. That only meant that you were alone with Jin more often.
âYou keep clenching your legs together.â Jin notes. âAre you rubbing them together because you want some type of friction?â he then shakes his head with a scoff. âJust like a whore would.â
Jin turns away from you and ventures into the bedroom - his bedroom. You swallow, now remembering that you and he were just in the hallway of the large mansion. âCome.â
And you do, following him into his bedroom. You never been inside his room before - he always came to yours. But itâs large and as luxurious as the rest of his home. His bed is large - possibly a California king - and it sits right in the middle of the room and behind it is a large window that takes up nearly the whole wall. Itâs snowing, the trees outside are covered in beautiful white snow and the amount of it covers the ground completely. You are in awe at the view that Seokin has just outside his window that has such beautiful natural light that there wasnât any need for one inside the room to be on.
Your eyes scan over the rest of the room and itâs then you notice just how itâs covered in mirrors - even on the ceiling. You wonder if this is a room Seokjin sleeps in, or just takes whatever flings he has.
âCome.â Jin repeats, venturing towards the left of his room to a cushioned seat - itâs gray and matches his bed perfectly. He takes a seat, eyebrows lifting for you to come to him. âIâm glad you wore the lingerie I bought for you. Pink is so cute on your skin.â
Jinâs complement causes your body to flush with heat. You could never grow accustomed to it - maybe itâs the way he speaks. Heâs always so smooth and his words come out so natural.
âSit.â Jin commands and you venture over to him. His eyes lower to your crotch, satisfied with himself that he got crotchless lingerie for you to wear. As much as he enjoyed your naked figure, there was something about the pink hue against your skin that he loves to stare at.
âOn my thigh.â Jin commands once more and you know where heâs getting at. You swallow once more, seating yourself on his clothed thigh.
Jin loved when you were naked - or nearly - and he was fully clothed. There was something about getting you out of your clothes that drove him crazy, even if he was able to mask it perfectly - and you never fought him about it, either. You were the perfect submissive woman he needed - and the fact that you werenât his woman made it better.
âDonât just sit there shy, Y/N.â Jin speaks. He widens his legs, manspreading to get comfortable on the chair. âGo ahead and rub yourself on my thigh. It has to feel better than squeezing your legs together.â
You donât fight Jin - you never do. Your hips begin to buckle. You never liked when Jinâs eyes were on you - they were so dark and voyeuristic; always watching you whenever he saw fit. However, thereâs nothing you could ever say to him about it - he made sure to remind you just who signs your husbands paychecks.
Every Time you do this with Jin - cheat on your husband with his brother - it always ends with you regretting it. But, in the moment, you donât allow yourself to ever deny him - you tell yourself because your life depends on him, but there was another side of you. The reality of it all that you were enjoying this - secretly enjoying the affair and how scandalous it was. You enjoyed the way Jin would touch you, sometimes even sneaking touches when his brother was around.
âYouâre so wet, Y/N. Youâre ruining my suit pants. Itâs expensive - far more than anything your husband can afford.â
You think Jin enjoys talking down to his brother but cannot understand why. Your husband never does, you note, and when theyâre around one another they appear to be close; often laughing and sharing stories of their childhood.
Jin places a hand on your thigh to squeeze it. âGo faster.â
You do as youâre told, a low groan releasing from your lips. You bite your lips to hold back another, but Jin slaps your thigh. âStop hiding your moans. I want to hear you.â
You moan a little louder, the friction against your clit feeling just right. You begin to rock your hips in circles, whining at how good it truly felt - and how pathetic you were for allowing this to happen.
Jinâs eyes darken and he licks his plump lips. There was nothing like a woman - someone like you exactly - grinding against his thigh and chasing her own orgasm. You were considered off-limits - not only a married woman, but a woman who is married to his brother. You were like a forbidden fruit, something so tempting but he shouldnât have; out of his reach.
But, you werenât that. Nothing was out of Kim Seokjinâs reach - not even you. You wore the collar that he gave you willingly, along with the lingerie and now, your pussy is drenched and staining his suit pants. âGo ahead and cum for me, Y/N. I know you want to.â Jin says, squeezing your thigh even harder in encouragement.
Your pussy is so warm and wet; it drenches through Jinâs suit pants and he can feel just how excited you are on his own thigh.
Jin loves to watch you - loves to watch you come undone just for him. You grind against his thigh harder, whimpering freely as your eyes begin to roll in the back of your head.
Jin slides two fingers beneath your grinding pussy to have a feel of your wet clit and it takes everything in him to not groan at the juices that coat his fingers. âHow slutty.â Jinâs voice is raspy as he responds to you.
Your body shudders with goosebumps with how deep Seokjinâs voice becomes. Youâre now grinding against Jinâs fingers and you cum almost instantly, a shrill cry releasing from your throat.
Jin places his fingers into his mouth and hums. âHow sweet you are, Y/N, cumming all over the place.â he pops his fingers from his mouth. âI let you cum, Y/N. I want you to do the same.â
âYes, sir-â
Jin is already pushing you off of him and forcing you to your knees. Your eyes open instantly when your knees hit the cold floor, but you donât protest.
Jin shakes his head while a smirk forms onto his lips. âYouâre so obedient, Y/N. You do everything I tell you to do without question.â he then places a hand against your cheek. âIsnât that right?â
You nod your head. âThatâs right, sir.â you respond.
Jin hums, his eyes zoning in on your face. His thumb traces your lips softly for a bit, and youâre confused as to what heâs doing and what the hold up was. âI was thinking about giving your husband a raise. Heâs been doing such a good job lately.â
Thereâs malice in Jinâs tone as he speaks; spite. He scoffs a bit after he says it and you swallow at what heâs about to say next in anticipation. âDepends on how well you treat me, Y/N.â
And there it was - youâve known as much. Jin wasnât doing anything out of the pure kindness of his heart; he was sleeping with his brother's wife after all. This was nothing but a game to him - whatever issues he had with his brother, youâd never know.
Thereâs nothing for you to say in response to Jin. You only nod your head, your hands tangling with his suit pants to take him out. Jin watches you with fierce eyes, never leaving you once.
Your hands are trembling under his gaze, but this isnât something that you need to mess up.
Itâs sad - and you cannot be upset with anyone but yourself. Youâve allowed Jin to grow comfortable with disrespecting your marriage - you allowed him to talk down about your husband to the point that he does it constantly, even in moments such as this. Thereâs a part of you that hates yourself for allowing yourself to be used by this man.
But then the other part of you is attempting to give yourself grace. The other side of you wanted to blame your husband for losing everything in the marriage; so much so that you felt like you needed to do this with Jin so the man wouldnât grow spiteful - so you could remain in his home while your husband continued to work in his brother's company.
Jin notices your internal dialogue as you begin to remove his cock from his underwear, but he doesnât bring himself to care much. After all, he never heard a no from you - you gave him what he wanted without a fight.
Jin was no monster - but you werenât a saint either. You moaned for him loudly when he was inside of you. You begged for more when you were drunk off of pure pleasure. Your fingernails scarred his back and your juices would stain his clothing.
You wanted this just as badly as Jin did - you were just a married woman who, at the end of it all, had to look herself in the mirror. He didnât have a wife he had to look at after fucking you - and he could care less about looking his brother in the face.
âYouâre doing this for your husband.â Jin says to you, your hand wrapped firmly around his erect cock. His plump lips offer you a smile - that looks more like a smudged smirk - but all he wants to do is make you more comfortable.
Your lips wrap around Jinâs tip, tongue swirling as if it was a lollipop. Thereâs pre-cum on it, your tastebuds swallowing the salty substance.
âYouâre doing this for your husbandâ Jinâs words ring through your ears as you do, your hands pumping the shaft of his cock. You couldnât be so sure you were doing this for him anymore - as selfish as it sounds.
Losing everything in a blink of an eye has you constantly fearing going through it once more and the selfish side of you was enjoying the attention you werenât getting from your husband, but from his brother. You were enjoying the expensive gifts that heâd give and the random money he would wire into your account - even if it did eat away at you to accept them.
You continued to suck harder, taking Jin deeper into your mouth. He winces, his hands clenching slightly. Licking his lips, Jin tilts his head at you. âThereâs my Y/N.â he moans, hooded eyes watching how purely whorish you appeared taking him fully. âThereâs my girl coming out.â
His Y/N - Jin told you time and time again that a part of you - the side that accepted the affair - would come out. This was the side that would moan freely, would hug him closer and the side that would beg for more. This was his Y/N - the Y/N that was determined to make him cum by any means necessary; that would fuck him like her life depended on it (and of course it did).
Your eyes glance up at him and for a moment Jin is stuck. His cheeks flush at you - and it wasnât something he needed you noticing; he had to have the ultimate control at all times.
The solution? Forcing your head down, taking him even deeper. Your nose hits the cleanly groom patch of hair on his pelvis, his cock hitting the back of your throat. You gag - but it only edges on Jin further.
âDonât do it for your husband, Y/N. Do it for yourself.â Jin says, his head firmly on the back of your head to keep you in place. âMaybe that would make you act a little better.â
Your tongue lays flat as you suck, your head managing to lean back so only the tip is in your mouth, and quickly before Jin could react, you take him back into your throat, sucking with all your might.
Jin hisses, his toes curling inside his dress shoes. The noises that echo off of his room are filthy - his moans mixed with your slurping and gagging.
âHow selfish my Y/N truly is. You like having a cock in your throat as long as the cock is providing for you, huh?â Jin squeezes his hand into your hair to keep you firmly in place, panting at just how good you were taking him. âI guess Iâll have to spoil you after this, huh? Not like your husband could.â
Your eyes begin to water, but you refuse to stop your sucking. Jinâs hips are moving a bit, and heâs cursing low to himself. He wants to tear his eyes away from you - but heâs mesmerized. Thereâs drool running down your chin and your eyes are watery and to him you look absolutely beautiful - how could he not want to wire you thousands of dollars after this?
You pop off of Jinâs cock with a loud âpopâing sound, saliva connecting your lips to his cock. Your hands immediately wrap around his length to jerk him vigorously, your tongue twirling on the tip for him to cum.
âOh, fuck.â Jin groans, right as your eyes and his connect. You were jerking his cock with need - as if you were the one that was cumming. He begins to whimper, his thighs trembling. The familiar bubbling in his abdomen is returning - like it did time and time again when he was with you. âSo good for me, baby.â
Jinâs praises shouldnât be getting to you, but they do. They always do. He could be demanding while you and he were intimate, as well as degrading. However, there were times in which he did speak to you nicely; complimenting you at how good you were to and for him. Heâd often call you beautiful and assured that you would always be taken care of regardless of the situation you were in - in the end of it all, you took it as nothing but pillow talk.
However, you were now in the moment just as Seokjin was and you were determined to make the man cum. You bring the tip of his cock back into your mouth and you continue to suck, your palm jerking him to cum. Doing this, Jin begins to pant, his speech cut off. His head hangs back and his eyes are rolling with pleasure - such a beautiful sight, you think. Even when convulsing in pleasure did Kim Seokjin look beautiful.
Jin groans - a groan that comes from deep in his throat. He wants to praise you and tell you just how good youâre doing; but maybe that was the side of him that likes you. That, of course, he canât. Heâs unable to form any words and all he can focus on is the pleasure that runs through his body entirely. It was as if his brain was shutting down and fuck did it feel amazing.
Jinâs thighs are quivering and heâs cumming, his breathing coming out in hushed stutters. He cums so much, thick white robes painting the inside of your mouth. Itâs so much that it surprises you that it begins to seep out of your mouth, but you assure yourself to swallow as much as you could.
You release Jinâs cock and heave, the air hitting your throat refreshing. Youâre sure you looked a mess; tear stained cheeks, blurry and red eyes and drool (and cum) mixed on your lips. But you donât dwell on the fact - it wasnât anything Seokjin wasnât accustomed to seeing already.
It takes a few moments for Jin to compose himself. His eyes are closed and his thighs gently tremble until they stop completely. His mind is flooding with just what he has gotten himself into with you - an act he does each time you manage to make him cum.
âSir?â
Jin snaps his eyes open and looks at you. Youâre on your knees - where you belonged - and looked at him with a tilted head.
Jin leans forward, licking his plump lips. âYouâre so obedient.â he murmurs to you, the Jin you knew coming back like a full circle. âThe collar suits you.â
You yelp when Jin snatches said collar and yanks it harshly. His lips meet yours in a rushed kiss - an action heâs never done. You and Seokjin donât kiss; itâs an act far too intimate for two people having an affair. He never initiated it before, and neither have you. Yet, kissing Jin felt right and there's electricity running through your veins. His lips are warm and soft to the touch and though you never initiated a kiss with the man before, you donât find yourself pushing away from it.
Jin is amused (and satisfied) when you softly protest when he pushes you away from him. âYou look like a kick puppy, Y/N. When was the last time you kissed your husband?â
Jin snickers when you glance away - you did because even you didnât know. Jin kept his hours long (intentionally, now you know) and there was never any time for you and him to ever be alone. And even though you loved your husband for wanting to be better and get out of the financial bind he put the two of you in, there's a sinister side to you that still despises him for putting you in that situation to begin with.
âCome.â
Jin yanks at your collar and has you standing to your feet along with him. He pushes you towards his bed and you fall back with a low yelp.
âOpen your legs.â Jin demands and instantly, you comply. âGood girl.â he murmurs.
Between your legs was Jinâs favorite place to be - being inside you or his tongue buried in your pussy. Your pussy is always wet for him; warm and inviting. You gave it up to him so willingly and each time he took it with gratitude.
Jin couldnât get enough of you - and it had to be a deeper reason. You werenât his woman to have, but he took you selfishly. He buries his tongue deep against your clit, not taking another second away. He laps against your pussy eagerly, eyes glancing up to see your shocked (yet satisfied) face - brows knitted and mouth agape as a moan draws out.
Jinâs hands place themselves on your outer thigh, allowing you to slightly cage him in between them - because that could never stop him from having his taste of you. He has no choice but to bury his face deeper into your pussy, suckling even harder against your swollen clit.
âF-Feels so good, sir.â you wail and Jin knows this. His eyes never leave your face as his tongue continues to lap. âG-Gonna cum already.â
Jin snickers - you were always so quick to cum when he had you like this. Like the perfect little whore you were, he thinks. He knows his brother could never please you the same way he does - you always walked around so uptight and shy. Your legs clenched together for whatever friction because his brother was far too busy to pleasure you.
Now, you had that glow to you. Jin assured that youâd cum each and every time you and him were together - just like now.
Jin slams your legs open, pinning them against your shoulder. The position is as lewd as his actions, but that doesnât stop him. He devours your pussy entirely, tongue ravishing your clit so loudly that his suckling is dancing off of the walls.
âS-Sir, slow down-â
Jin didnât want to hear anything you were about to say. You didnât tell him what to do - he was Kim Seokjin. If he wanted to lick your clit until you were squirting against him he would - because he was Kim Seokjin.
Jinâs hands hold your thighs apart even tighter to assure you have no way to escape him, his tongue sliding against your clit entirely and entering in and out of you. Your eyes snap shut, squeezing so tightly. You were being swallowed up by the black hole of pleasure. Thereâs whimpering coming from you as well as the familiar moisture at the corner of your eyes.
Jin shoves you away hastily. âIâm going to fuck a baby into you, Y/N.â Jin says suddenly - an act that is just as shocking as him kissing you.
You donât get time to protest before Jin is flipping you onto your stomach and forcing your ass into the air. Heâs behind you, positioning himself at your entrance.
Jin enters you without hesitation, needing no time to prep you because of how wet you are. He starts off rough, cock so deep that it brings back the familiar black hole of pleasure.
Jin is brutal as he fucks you - but he was a man on a mission. Heâs clouded by his own lust and selfish desire that he doesnât hold back any of his own thoughts.
âYouâd want that, wouldnât you?â Jin asks harshly, pulling both of your hands behind your back to hoist you up. âFor me to fuck a baby into you?â
âY-Yes, sir!â you wail, far too gone in pleasure that you donât completely take in what Jin is saying.
âYouâre so drunk off of dick that youâll say anything. Thereâs my Y/N.â Jin cracks his hips deeper and deeper into you, hitting your sweet spot with each thrust. Your juices are leaking down your thigh and staining his bedsheets, but he would never care. âIâm going to get you pregnant and watch my pathetic brother raise the child as his.â he laughs gleefully, his plan completely insane.
Youâre pushed away from Jin and you fall completely against the mattress. Jin hikes a leg up so he can go deeper into you.
âBut donât worry, Y/N. Iâll make sure our child has the best of the best.â Jin groans, eyes focused on the way your ass bounces against him. âAnd when theyâre of age, Iâll tell them the truth. That the pathetic father they thought they had was not really their father.â Jin leans down, both hands firmly against the mattress for support. âAnd theyâll inherit millions from me. Itâs better than having nothing like my pathetic brother.â
âFeels so good!â you moan into the mattress and all Jin could do is laugh - because you were far too gone to notice anything he was saying; and just how real his plans for you are.
âYeah?â Jin manages to flip you again and now on your back, he allows you to wrap your legs around him. âSo good for me, Y/N. Such an obedient little whore.â
Jin connects his lips to yours again and instantly, you wrap your arms around him. You were determined not to let him go this time - and he allowed it. Kissing you felt right; even when it was wrong. Not only because you werenât his woman (because he was well aware of such and didnât give a fuck) but because it was a sign of affection.
âWant you to fuck me all night.â you plead against his lips, holding him so close that you coild feel his own heartbeat.
So dick drink, Jin thinks, but he doesnât respond. Heâs unable to, far too focused on giving you exactly what you want.
Jin ponders how his brother wasnât fighting him to have more time off of work. Your pussy is amazing - carved from the Gods. Youâre gripping him so tight with a pussy thatâs so wet that if he was in his brothers position, he wouldnât be at work now - no, heâd be fucking you into the mattress.
But Jin wasnât your husband and he was doing exactly what he should be doing to you.
âSqueezing me so tight, Y/N. Gonna cum already?â Jin taunts, but even he was ready to cum inside of you.
The thought of getting you pregnant is stuck deep in Jinâs mind; watching you grow heavy and round with his seed. He would have a deep bond with the child, assuring that he would be loved far more than his brother would be with the child. He would be impressed with how large your breast would be as you grew with his child and how beautiful youâd look pregnant.
âShit,â Jinâs forehead presses against yours. He plunges his cock inside of you with need now - the need to impregnate immediately - and to do this as many times as it takes for you to conceive.
Warmth floods deep inside of you just as youâre reaching your high. You squeeze Jin, hugging him closer to your exhausted and convulsing body and never wanting to let the man go.

You and Jin fucked for hours in various positions youâve never been in. You had awoken suddenly, body exhausted in a bedroom that didnât belong to you. Jin wasnât there, you noticed, and that was your cue to take your leave.
Doing the walk of shame back to your bedroom was something youâd have to look yourself in the mirror about later. Your body was aching and all you truly wanted to do was have a soothing bath and then go right back to sleep.
You opened the door to your bedroom and stopped in your tracks. Your eyes scanned the room entirely.
Balloons littered the ceiling entirely - all red, white and pink. Your bed - king-sized that sat in the middle of the room, sat rose petals shaped neatly into a large heart. In the middle of it sat a small envelope, but that was the least of your concerns.
Flower bouquets are surrounding your bed - all roses of different colors - and thereâs dozens of gift bags waiting to be opened.
You enter your bedroom and close your door behind you. You ponder did your husband do all of this for you - and if he did, just how did he manage to do so without wondering where you were at the entire time?
Your heart sinks at the thought of your husband doing this for you and you were cheating on him with his brother.
You grasp the small envelope on your bed and open it. Itâs a card - something simple written inside of it but it causes your heart to swell with realization.
My Y/N.
Happy Valentineâs Day
-Seokjin
GO FOLLOW MILA SHE'S SO CRIMINALLY UNDERRATED IT HURTS
Invisible string ⥠Minho (pt. III)





⥠Pairing: Lee Minho à fem!reader
⥠Synopsis: After so many years of being closed off from the idea of love, you finally allow yourself to feel it freely with Minho.
⥠Genre: A âlite versionâ a soulmate AU, fluff, smut
⥠CW: Explicit sexual content (minors dni!), oral sex (female receiving), protected sex, swearing
⥠Word count: 16.4k
⥠A/N: A part of this chapter was almost shamelessly inspired by the song that inspired the plot in the first place, Invisible String by Taylor Swift. Also really inspired by my favorite Minho vlog, Lee Know Log 4 đŠˇ
To those who have asked to be tagged in this story: would any of you be interested in being tagged in any new work I post later? Let me know! And thank you for reading and giving me such a great experience posting my writing here for the first time đŠˇ
â part II ⥠Ⳡpart I

You spend the entire flight home processing everything that had happened during the trip; from Minhoâs words, to your kisses and touches, to you ultimately acknowledging your own romantic feelings for him. Although it all felt sudden, it had been a long time coming.
As his car stops at the front of your house, Minho steps out and walks with you, your backpack in hand.
âI know youâre scared. I understand that even more now that I know about your past relationships,â he speaks softly as the two of you stop at the front door, âAnd I want you to know that Iâm gonna be patient.â
You nod slowly, although the desire to answer him is still so prevalent in your mind, the words lodged in your throat and yearning to spill out. But youâve made the mistake of jumping into relationships far too often, always driven by your emotions, and every time, the outcome has been disastrous. You donât want that to happen with Minho.
So, you settle on a question that has been eating away at you.
âWhy do you like me, Minho?â
His face twists into a deep frown before ultimately softening. Carefully placing your backpack on the step leading to the front door, he sighs.
âYou shouldnât have to ask me that,â he assures you, his rough hands touching your shoulders before moving down your arms to entwine with your own. âYou donât even realize how fucking amazing you are, do you? Iâd move mountains, fight anyone and do anything if it meant Iâd have the privilege to see you smile.â
And, just like that, you feel your lips stretch out into a small smile at his words. He grins at you.
âJust like that. Iâd do anything to see that,â he says. âAnd you take care of your friends simply because you love them, never asking for anything in return. You collect plushies like me, you appreciate the criminally underrated flavor of lemon cake, and you worked at the same convenience store as me, and spilled coffee all over my notebook on the day we met. Thatâs why I like you; because youâre you.â
Tears threaten to well up in your eyes, so you quickly avert your gaze, focusing on your shoes. With a nod, you wrap your arms around Minho, taking in his scent and reveling in the comforting warmth of his body. Little did he know, you were just as willing to do whatever it took to keep him near you. He plants a chaste kiss on your forehead as you break away from his embrace.
âIâll call you later, okay? Thank you for the trip.â
As soon as you step inside your house, Eunha is quick to come running towards you, her hands dirty with flour as she abandons her unbaked cookies on the counter and pulls you into a hug.
âI missed you so much,â she whines, âHow will I survive living without you next year?â
You chuckle, watching as her lips turn into a pout.
âIâm sure weâll suffer equally, if that makes you feel better.â
She fakes a sob, turning on her heels and heading toward the kitchen.
âOh, Hyunjin is in a crisis, apparently,â she tells you, wiping her hands on her apron. âHe called me three times just today to ask if you were back already.â
You let out a sigh. Hyunjin was more often than not either glum or vexed due to his trials and mishaps in finding love. He once joked that you two would end up having to marry each other with how things were going. You dreaded his reaction to the news of Minho soon entering your life in a new way.
âThe hotelâs Wi-Fi was a joke, but I honestly didnât even think to check my phone,â you tell Eunha, who giggles as she cuts her cookies into heart shapes. âWhat? Why are you giggling like that?â You ask her with a grin, approaching the counter.
She shrugs. âNothing. I didnât even think to check my phone,â she playfully mimics your voice, looking up at you, âIâm guessing you had fun, then?â
âI did,â you beam, âIt was everything I thought it would be and even more.â
She raises an eyebrow at you. âEven more?â
âEven more,â you reiterate. âI had so much fun with Minho. I forgot how good it feels to just let go and allow myself to feel what I want to feel.â
Eunhaâs lips curl into a small smile. She hums, lowering her head in a feeble attempt at pretending to focus on the cookies in front of her. âAnd what did you want to feel this weekend?â
âLike maybe I can finally fall in love again.â
Your friend lifts her head, her eyes wide. âLove?â she exclaims, âYou, the girl who has spent every day since I met you talking about how love isnât important, is wanting to fall in love?â
You chuckle at her reaction, shrugging dismissively. âIn my defense, I had my reasons. Plus, some things made me change my mind.â
âMore like someone,â Eunha teases, and you roll your eyes at her, but a smile spreads on your lips unwittingly. âIâm happy for you,â she beams, âand I think you should definitely fall in love again â not maybe.â
You sprint across the small kitchen space, circling around the counter to wrap your arms around Eunha and squeezing her as she lightly pushes you away, warning you about flour getting all over your clothes, but you donât mind.
Because you love her, as youâve learned this past weekend, and you donât mind the mess when it comes to someone you love.
Itâs only as you enter your room that you check your phone, which is filled with notifications from Hyunjin, much like Eunha had said. After ten missed calls, it seems he resorted to simply texting you.
Hyune: hey I know youâre in japan but can you answer the phone? Hyune: I promise Iâll be quick. just wanna talk to you Hyune: hear your voice idk I feel really alone rn and really bad idk lol Hyune: mingyu has his girlfriend over. can you believe theyâre still together? Hyune: can you believe he has a girlfriend and I canât even find someone to give me the time of day lol Hyune: can you believe every date I go to ends with me crying lol Hyune: sorry Iâm being annoying and the messages arenât even being delivered, youâre clearly having fun sorry Hyune: sorry Hyune: guess thatâs why nobody can endure me for more than two dates Hyune: have fun đ¤ I love you
You feel your heart ache as you read his messages, answering with an apology. But before you can hit send on your second message, Hyunjin has already replied.
Hyune: itâs okay. Iâm sorry I even sent those in the first place
Me: Stop apologizing Me: You know I love you and Iâll always be here for you Me: Where are you?
Hyune: at my dorm Hyune: staring at the ceiling
Me: Iâm coming over

True to his words, Hyunjin is lying on the floor of his dormâs cramped living room once you open the door. Thereâs a small canvas propped up against the wall, a myriad of shades of blue forming the shape of a face. Your best friendâs talent never ceases to amaze you, and you have to fight the urge to stand still by the front door for a few seconds simply admiring his new painting.
âLook at this sulking Pisces,â you click your tongue as you approach Hyunjin, who only opens one eye to shoot you a glance.
âIâm in a fragile state and this is how you greet me,â he all but pouts before sitting up as you sit cross-legged beside him on the floor. âHow was the trip?â
You shrug. âIt was fun. We only had one day to explore the city, so we didnât do much,â you say simply, tapping your fingers on your thigh.
You donât want to sit and talk about how much fun you had during a trip when Hyunjinâs puffy, bloodshot eyes are staring directly at you. He was sad, and his sadness was palpable throughout the entire living room â his bitten lips, his painting, his hands covered in dried-up blue paint; everything was dripping in sadness. This was a constant with Hyunjin, but lately it had become even worse. He has an overwhelming desire to love and be loved, but his every attempt at fulfilling this desire is futile for reasons you cannot wrap your head around.
âI like the new painting,â you smile, focusing on the saddened blue face. Hyunjin scoffs beside you.
âItâs fucking terrible,â His hand shoves the canvas face down on the floor. You bite your lip. âCanât even paint shit I like anymore. Every time I try, it always turns out muddy and sad.â
âWhat happened?â
He lets out a bitter chuckle. âWell Iâm pathetic, so itâs still the same old reason. I had a date with this girl on Saturday, but she canceled at the last minute. Texted me something about me being too clingy after she agreed to go out with me, about how she knows she would feel suffocated if we dated.â
You furrow your brows together, anger bubbling up inside your chest. âWhat the fuck?â
âOh, but donât worry!â Hyunjin gave you a forced smile. âShe made sure to remind me that it was her, not me, and that lots of women out there like guys like me. Whatever the fuck that means.â
Hyunjin shakes his head, turning his attention toward his hands before scratching some of the dried paint off. You sigh.
âHyunjin, she isnât wrong about that. You know that, right? Youâre not the one at fault.â
He scoffs. âSure seems like it when every date Iâve gone to since starting university has ended up with me being rejected for the same fucking reasons. Itâs always me. Too clingy, too sentimental, too emotional,â his voice is almost a whisper as he speaks. He turns to face you again. âRemember how I would stop sleeping with you whenever I liked someone? Wanna know why I stopped doing that? âCause I know itâs not gonna go anywhere anyway, so whatâs the point? It never goes anywhere, and then Iâm left alone again. Maybe I should just accept it, yâknow? Some people are just meant to be alone, and clearly Iâm one of them.â
Your anger has now morphed into sadness. You hate the way Hyunjin talks about himself, hate it even more how it seems nobody can appreciate the amazing person he is. Being caring and sentimental is not a flaw, and you pray that he never allows other peopleâs opinions to sway him into thinking that way. You pray he finds someone who can appreciate these qualities in him the same way you do.
âYouâre not alone, Hyune,â you assure him, taking one of his hands in yours. âYouâre surrounded by friends who love you so much, and while I know thatâs not the type of love you yearn for, itâs still love.â
Hyunjin smiles softly at you before pulling you closer and pressing his lips to yours. Itâs sudden but not entirely unexpected; the way you and Hyunjin dealt with shitty things in life and unpleasant feelings together had always been through sex, and you knew it always made him feel at least a little better afterward. And so you let him, returning the kiss even as part of you felt wrong doing it when your entire being was consumed with thoughts of only Minho.
As soon as he kisses you, he swiftly pushes you down onto the hardwood floor and hovers over you. Hyunjinâs fingers undo the buttons of your cardigan before slipping under your shirt, caressing your skin as his lips trail kisses down your neck. Soon enough, his body is pressed up against your spread thighs, and you know where this is going â but as much as you want to make your best friend feel better, you cannot bring yourself to do it.
âHyune,â you softly call out, and he hums against your throat. âWe canât do this.â
He chuckles, squeezing your waist. âMingyu always comes home late when he goes out with his girlfriend. Donât worry.â
âItâs not that, Hyunjin. I justââ
âDo you not wanna fuck on the floor?â He asks, coming up to look at you. He cocks his head to the side. âWe can just do it on the couch then, I really donât wanna have sex with all those pictures of Mingyu and his friends staring at us in our room.â
âHyunjin, noââ
âItâs not like we never did it on a couch before, stop being dramaticââ
âIâm in love with Minho.â
It comes out before you can fully comprehend what youâre saying, the word love slipping past your lips effortlessly. Hyunjin stills on top of you, his body rigid and tense.
âOh,â is all he offers you. You nod slowly, fingers picking at a drop of paint that stained the collar of his shirt.
You whisper, âI really am just as surprised as you are, believe me.â
Hyunjin shrugs. âIâm not surprised. I justâ now youâre leaving me, too.â
You shake your head. Itâs ludicrous to you that Hyunjin could imagine that you would ever even entertain the thought of leaving him. Running a hand through his messy hair, you pull him in and press a kiss to his nose. Hyunjin hides his face in the crook of your neck with a groan.
âSorry, that was pathetic. I shouldnât have said that,â he apologizes. âYou know I donât mean it like that. I just love you so much. I thought we wouldâŚâ
You furrow your brows as he trails off his words. You thread your fingers through his long hair. âWe wouldâŚ?â
âEnd up together somehow,â he speaks slowly, his voice muffled, and your heart drops.
Hyunjin harboring these feelings about you was something you would never have imagined. You were certain he was content being your friend and having sex with you only until he found the right person. He went on several dates, after all. Your heart feels like itâs been shattered into a million tiny pieces upon learning about his hidden desire for the future he used to so often joke about: you two ending up together simply because you were each otherâs only choices.
âHyunjin,â you start carefully, âI love you, too. So much. Youâre my best friend, and thatâs never going to change. We donât have to be together romantically for us to be in love, yâknow? I realized that just recently.â
You feel him nod his head, his hand finding yours and intertwining your fingers.
âIâm just sad I wonât have you anymore. Iâm gonna miss us so much,â he places a small kiss on your collarbone. âWhenever I felt like I was in a dark pit with no way out, every single time you were there to bring me out of it and make me feel okay again. I love you so much for that.â
And you can only softly smile at his words before your heart shatters all over again as you hear him quietly begin to sob in your skin.
âHyunjin,â you call out, although you know he wonât reply. âYouâre the most beautiful soul Iâve ever met. My love for you goes beyond us having sex â that wasnât even important to me in our relationship. It was just something good on top of something already amazing.â With a slow nod, he lifts his head and gazes at you with red, teary eyes, causing your heart to ache even more. âIâll never leave you. Ever. Iâll still answer your four hundred three a.m. texts, still let you hide away in my house, still happily listen to you complain about your days, and still hold you when you cry.â
Hyunjin pouts like a child, and your heart swells with fondness.
âReally?â He asks, and you chuckle with a nod.
âReally,â you assure him. âMe being with someone will never change our friendship, or my love for you. I mean, we wonât have sex anymore, of course, but Iâll still talk shit about your roommate with you so Iâm sure youâll forgive me.â
Hyunjinâs tearful expression vanishes, replaced by a small teasing grin. âI am gonna have to jerk off significantly more, so I donât know about forgiveness,â he jokes.
You push him off you with a chuckle, sitting up as he tries to regain his balance.
âWhen did this whole thing with Minho even happen?â Hyunjin asks, setting his painting back against the wall. You shrug, buttoning up your cardigan. He hums. âSo, are you already together?â
âNot yet,â you say, âbut Iâm gonna answer him after our class this week. If he fucking lets me, that is. He says he wants to be patient, but I donât want to be patient. The only thing I wanna be is with him.â
Hyunjinâs whole body contorts as he groans. âEw, what the fuck? When did you become such a sap?â
As you shove him back once more, you both burst into laughter while Hyunjin stumbles back and spills a mug filled with dirty paint water all over his floor.
The rest of the day goes by with you and Hyunjin painting together, a much broader array of colors and a much happier end result on the canvas: beautiful flowers painted by him standing alongside clumsily drawn hearts, stars, and other doodles painted by you. After signing your name above his elegant signature, you inform him the painting is leaving with you â itâs hanging up on your wall as soon as you arrive home.
Hyunjin is your best friend; itâs been this way for the last two years, and itâs indisputable to you that this fact will remain no matter what happens. As you watch him hunched over your painting, insisting that his flowers could be more detailed â even after you assured him a thousand times that they were perfect â you curse yourself for not realizing how beautiful this love between you two is. You hope he cherishes this love as well, in spite of his desire for the two of you to be together in the future. You know deep down this idea stemmed from his fear of solitude.
Youâre not worried about him at all, though. Heâs a precious soul, and anyone who fails to recognize that doesnât deserve him. Heâs simply getting rid of the wrong people in order to find the right person, someone who sees him as you do.
The love you feel for Hyunjin is unchanging, and if you had any say in it, it would be everlasting.

Your next Japanese class with Minho comes too soon, and you find yourself unprepared. Every trace of resolve you had after returning from your trip dissipated bit by bit every time you saw or talked to him. As soon as you saw his figure step into the coffee shop on Monday to pick up his usual order, you realized that every single scenario your mind had conjured up fell flat. Minho was beautiful, amazing, breathtaking â he deserved something grand and earth-shattering, not a simple answer from a girl who wasnât even half as good as he was.
It certainly did not help that he, always true to his words, respected your time. Not once during his coffee trips or your never-ending talks through the phone did he mention the topic. And it was slowly but surely driving you insane.
You bite your lips so much on your way to university youâre sure your lipstick is gone by the time you enter the building, and youâre surprised your poor bag isnât riddled with holes in the cloth from your insistent picking. You shouldnât feel this nervous â Minho is the one waiting for an answer, after all. For all he knows, you could be simply building up the courage to let him down gently. But you are nervous. Youâre terrified he will listen to your clumsy words and decide he deserves someone better. Or, worse yet, will only realize how undeserving of his love you are once youâre in a relationship.
And you donât think you can face another heartbreak where youâre left to mend your gashes all alone.
You enter the building with shaky hands, fiddling with the strap of your bag and walking toward your classroom on autopilot as your mind is too busy running over all the ways in which this could go wrong.
All faded, however, once you saw Minho waiting for you in front of your classroom. His glasses slid down the bridge of his nose as he looked down at his phone, his body wrapped in a cozy-looking black sweater and sweatpants, a keychain of a cat plushie hanging from his backpack matching his phone case. You stop a few feet away from him. He deserves the world, and that terrifies you. Still, his presence alone melts away every ugly word of doubt and every piece of worry inside your body until the only thing you can feel is the swirling of that familiar pinwheel spinning inside your chest.
You greet him with a long hug, hoping he canât feel your heart beating through your own sweater.
After class, he walks you to work, enthusiastically telling you about the progress he, Chan and Seungmin have made on their game. You nod and hum along to his words, but you canât, for the life of you, focus on a word heâs saying. All you want to do is tell him you like him â god, you like him so much â but every time youâre close to doing it, the ugly words return and scream that he deserves more than an underwhelming confession on a gloomy, empty street.
You stop walking as you two reach the bench located just far away enough from the hustle and bustle of students on campus, the one where no one bothered you when you sat here by yourself for three years, the one that had oddly become your favorite bench among all the other identical ones scattered throughout your university.
Because it was here that you and Minho had your first real conversation, it was here where you two laughed and gasped at all the little coincidences between your lives, and it was here where you began to build a friendship with this wonderful guy who would unknowingly change you for the better.
It was the perfect place, and you berated yourself for not realizing that sooner.
Minhoâs voice calling out your name pulls you away from your thoughts, his hand wrapping around yours and pulling you gently toward his body. You hum before colliding against his chest as he chuckles.
âYou just stopped walking,â he says, a lilt of confusion in his voice. âI know you hate work, but I didnât think it was this serious.â
And when you properly turn to look at him, Minho is smiling so beautifully under the somber sky of winter, as if he is the embodiment of sunshine â always glistening and radiating such a comforting warmth no matter how glum the world around him is. And, at the sight of him, you just canât stop your words. Never mind how gloomy this campus seems or how lackluster your words are â Minhoâs presence alone makes everything become golden.
âI like you because youâre you,â you mirror his words at you, âBecause you laughed in my face for spilling coffee all over your notebook when I didnât even know you, because you love coffee just as much as I hate it, and because you believe in silly myths about riding paddle boats together,â You blurt out, words completely unbidden by your brain. Minhoâs eyes widened for a beat before slowly turning into crescent moons as a smile spread across his lips. You take a deep breath before continuing, the words flowing out of you so quickly youâre worried he wonât be able to understand you, âAnd you opened my eyes to the love I feel for my friends, which I was so fucking stupid and blinded to. But, most importantly, you taught me that love isnât bad. It can never be bad because youâre love, Minho. Youâre full of love, and thereâs not an ounce of anything bad in you. And you make me feel deserving of this love, even though I still donât understand how I can be deserving of something so beautiful.â
Minhoâs arms are pulling you into an embrace before you can process everything you said, and by the time you seem to come to your senses, you realize tears have welled up in your eyes. He holds you close to him silently for a while, his left hand delicately massaging your scalp as you clutch onto the fabric of his sweater as if he might be taken away from you if you let go.
âI like you, too,â he whispers against your hair, and you feel your lips contort into a pout.
âYou already told me that,â you grumble. âI just word-vomited my feelings to you and this is all you have to say?â
He chuckles, pressing a kiss to your head. âWhat else is there to say? I like you so much I donât think I can put it into words. I might just say something stupid if I talk about it too much.â
You furrow your brows, pulling away from his embrace to face him. âSomething stupid like what?â
âLike saying I love you.â
Your lips part, but no words come out. Yet again, Minho has rendered you speechless. He shakes his head dismissively, a smile still etched onto his lips.
âNo need to say anything. I told you it was stupid,â his eyes drift over to the bench beside you two, and his smile grows. âGuess this has to become my favorite bench too.â
You let out a laugh, but itâs cut short by your tears spilling out again. Minho quickly turns to look at you again, his expression shifting into a mixture of happiness and worry for you as he wipes your tears away with his thumbs.
And as the sun begins to set, the street lights flicker on, casting a warm, yellow glow over everything around you. You cup Minhoâs face and press a chaste kiss to his lips, then to his nose, before wrapping your arms around him and pulling him into an embrace once again.
âI donât think Iâm ready to love you yet. Iâm sorry,â you apologize, both to him and yourself.
Minho simply hums, kissing your cheek. âI told you Iâm patient, because love is patient. I would wait an eternity for the privilege of hearing you say you love me.â

You and Minho have officially been together for almost two months by the time winter break arrives. Youâve done everything couples do, except for two things: say I love you and go all the way. Youâve done every other possible thing â well, Minho has done every other possible thing to you, with you discovering that Minho particularly loves eating you out, often laying on your lap on your couch after work and rubbing his head against your thighs like a cat, humming and sighing until he has your attention before all but begging you to let him go down on you. Whenever you offer to do the same to him, in any way, he immediately turns the offer down, saying heâs satisfied just pleasuring you. It always leaves you with a million questions, as you notice him have to adjust himself in his pants or coincidently go to the bathroom, but you donât question it.
The two of you also found ways to get around the whole L-word situation. I missed you becoming your go-to phrase for when you want to scream out that you love him, but are still unable to, while he usually just makes you swallow both your words and his own that are lingering inside your mouth with a kiss.
You had fallen into a routine quickly, with you visiting Minho most evenings after your shift to just lay on Chanâs stiff leather couch and watch him work. You two always hang out with his co-workers slash friends for a while before leaving for the night â Seungmin becoming like the pestering but loveable little brother you never had â and you head to your house in Minhoâs car before you sneak him into your home so Mrs. Choi remains none the wiser.
Her âno boyfriends spending over two days at the houseâ rule canât possibly apply if she doesnât even know Minho is there in the first place.
And so, heâs been basically living alongside you and your housemates. This outcome was almost inevitable since Minho hates his roommates while you love each otherâs company.
Youâre now packing your things with Hyunjin, whoâs been sitting on your bed for the last half-hour rather than helping you as heâd promised. In the past month, heâs been able to come to terms with the fact that his ideal future with you was nothing but a coping mechanism after a month of sulking every time Minho was around. He deleted every shitty dating app on his phone and now focuses on finding love naturally, recently going out with a girl he met in one of his classes. The first time they met was the epitome of a meet-cute, with her accidentally bumping into him and spilling black paint all over his shirt. It brought back memories of when you first met Minho, and you had high hopes that this time things would work out differently for him. But, judging by the scowl on Hyunjinâs face and his nonstop complaining, you were wrong.
âBut, be for real, why did it take her six dates to realize she doesnât think weâll work out?â He grumbles, spinning one of your necklaces around his finger like itâs a toy. âI paid for every meal, made sure she got at least two orgasms every time we went out, and she just suddenly decides we wonât work out? Fuck off.ââ
You chuckle, closing your suitcase after triple-checking that you packed Minhoâs Christmas present and walking over to where Hyunjin is sitting, snatching your necklace from his hand.
âMaybe she liked the free food and orgasms too much to let them go.â
Hyunjin scowls. âYouâre saying thatâs the only reason she went out with me?â He feigns offense, shaking his head. âI hope Minhoâs parents hate your guts.â
âHyunjin!â You exclaim, watching as he bursts out laughing. âDonât even joke about that. You know how nervous I am.â
âThereâs no way they wonât like you,â He assures you, âYouâre fucking amazing, not to mention their son loves you. Thatâs more than enough reason to love you too.â
You clutch the necklace in your hand, humming before turning on your heels to check your drawers for anything you might have missed. Hyunjin using the word love makes you a bit anxious, an unwelcome reminder that you still havenât been able to overcome this stupid emotional blockage preventing you from telling Minho you love him. The first and only time youâd ever said you loved Minho was that evening at Hyunjinâs dorm, and it hadnât even been directed at him. Without saying a word, you both understand the love that exists between you â itâs unspoken, but deeply felt â and youâre aware of that, but the fear that one day heâll grow tired of waiting is painfully tangible inside your mind.
When Minho invited you to spend Christmas with his family, you hesitated at first. Meeting your ex-boyfriendsâ families had never been so significant. You were a teenager at the time, the implications were different and the stakes didnât seem as high. This time, it feels as if getting Minhoâs parents to like you is indispensable. How will he go on dating a woman his parents deem unfit for him? Especially with how highly he speaks of his mother, youâre sure her opinion of you will weigh on his mind.
You can only hope they love you half as much as you love their son.

The car ride to Minhoâs parentsâ house was around half an hour.
Half an hour you spent picking at a loose thread on your skirt and overthinking so much your head ached by the time he parked the car. You hated how nervous you were, but Minhoâs parents liking you was a non-negotiable.
After insisting on carrying your own suitcase â just in case his parents might think youâre an overbearing girlfriend if they see Minho carrying your bag for you â the two of you walk up the stairs and into his home. The first thing you notice is how cozy-looking everything is; from the family pictures neatly placed on coffee tables and on the walls, cat furniture and toys mixed in with their actual furniture, down to the fuzzy blankets thrown over the couches.
The second thing that catches your attention is the quietude permeating throughout the house, as well as the fact that the first family member to greet you two is an orange cat.
âOh, did you miss me this much?â Minho asks in a sweet, singsong voice, similar to how you would speak to a baby. He crouches down to pet the cat, who is now entangling himself between his legs. He introduces you by your name, because Soonie is truly just another family member to him. You chuckle, kneeling next to him and carefully extending your hand toward the orange ball of fur.
âHello, Soonie,â you speak quietly, afraid youâll spook him. He eyes you carefully before sniffing your fingers and, ultimately, rubbing his head on your hand. You sigh in relief, petting his fur with a smile.
Minhoâs cats liking you was also a non-negotiable.
You place your suitcases in Minhoâs childhood bedroom, his parents letting him know they will arrive a little late after going Christmas shopping. Looking around his small room, you smile at all the small things that scream Lee Minho. The pictures of him and his friends back in high school are the first thing you notice, glued to the wall in front of his door lopsided. His thick-rimmed glasses and bowl cut make you smile as you analyze one of the pictures, where he and four other boys hug and smile widely in a karaoke room. Then, of course, his extensive plushie collection sat against a wall to your left â all stacked on top of each other like a mountain â which he proudly shows off to you.
âYâknow, I had to basically fight a little girl at the Sanrio store for this one,â he says, a bit too smugly, while holding a plush of Kuromi dressed in a ladybug costume. âI was sixteen, though, so I think that excuses my behavior. I would never do that nowadays.â
You narrow your eyes, humming skeptically. âSure you wouldnât.â
Minho just chuckles, meticulously placing the doll back in its place beside the cherry on top of a rather large Pusheen pudding plushie.
âOh! You have to see my books.â He takes your hand in his, dragging you toward the wall facing his bed. A bookshelf expanding from the floor to the ceiling makes your mouth drop. You hadnât noticed it before, with it being hidden away in the corner of the room. The bookshelf is decorated with fairy lights â which Minho promptly switches on â and filled with beautiful books, from intricately designed hard covers to intricate sprayed edges, every single book in his collection has something special about it.
He uses a small metal ladder to reach the top of the shelves before handing you a book so thick your wrist almost bends upon grabbing it. Itâs a collection of seven Jane Austen novels, all in a gorgeous blue and golden hardcover. You eye the book like itâs a precious jewel, carefully running your fingers over the details engraved on the cover. Beside you, Minho lets out a breathy laugh, stepping down from the ladder and bumping your shoulder lightly.
âYou can open it,â he tells you, but youâre still too mesmerized by the book to look at him. âItâs what books are for, whether theyâre pretty or not. You have to open it and read it, otherwise they lose their purpose.â
You nod slowly, but remain unmoving. Minhoâs hand suddenly rests on top of yours, and he opens the book for you. The page is entirely annotated, with highlighters and thoughts jotted down on pencil in messy handwriting. Looking up at him, you are met by his smile.
âSee? The book is fine, the world didnât end. I have these special editions because I enjoy collecting pretty things, but I always read them,â he explains, âI like when books reflect the emotions I felt while reading them. I annotate, scribble, highlight â I once threw a special edition Stephen King book across the living room and into a wall. Thereâs an indentation on it till this day.â
You gasp. âMinho, what the fuck?â
He shrugs dismissively. âI know, I know. All book sins in the eyes of many people. But, like I said, that just reflects the emotions I felt while reading that book. I look through any of these pages and I know exactly what I felt at that time of my life.â
You nod, your lips absentmindedly curling into a smile. Minho truly is something else. You skim the page opened before you, reading some of his annotations and laughing quietly to yourself as he wraps his arms around your waist, resting his chin on your shoulder.
As you close the book, he speaks again, âTheyâre a bit like people, arenât they? Pretty and put-together on the outside, but once you really dig in, itâs all a mess and cluster of feelings and passion.â
You and Minho spend an hour lounging around the living room, with you meeting his other two cats during that time. Soonie and Doongieâs adoration toward Minho is clear, with both orange cats always rubbing against his leg or tangling themselves in his sneakers by the door as you two cuddle on the couch. Dori, however, remains laid on his cat tree, barely sparing the two of you a glance. Minho jokes that Dori hates him after he left his first mom, even showing you further proof in the form of a video where the gray cat bites his nose while he sleeps.
Upon hearing the key turn on the front door, your heart is quick to jump. Minhoâs parents have arrived.
Sitting up on the couch, you gently push Minho away from you. He shoots you a questioning look.
âWhat? I donât want them to think we were doing something indecent.â
âIndecent?â Minho repeats with a chuckle. âWe were cuddling, not consummating a marriage on this couch.â
You grumble incoherent words under your breath, shrugging. âI know. I just want them to like me.â
âThey were more than okay with seeing me cuddle my ex when I was a teen. Weâre both adults, Iâm pretty sure they wonât think youâre a filthy harlot.â
You gasp, hitting his chest and hissing through your teeth. âA harlot?â
Minho lets out a long, hearty laugh just as his parents walk through the door.
âOh, there you are!â You hear his motherâs voice call out as soon as she steps inside the living room. You turn to face her and youâre greeted by the same smile you see on Minhoâs face every day â they look so similar you have to hold back a gasp. âItâs so nice to finally meet you!â
You stand up from the couch and smooth down your long skirt, smiling while she walks toward you. Youâre caught off guard when she pulls you into a hug as soon as sheâs in front of you, her arms squeezing you as she sighs happily into your hair.
âMom,â Minho calls out, âYouâre scaring her.â
His mom pulls away with a chuckle, her left hand pinching her sonâs cheek before resting on your shoulder again. âHeâs the one whoâs scared Iâll embarrass him,â she refutes. âAnd, god, youâre so pretty! Minho told me you were beautiful, but I just assumed it was the infatuation speaking.â
You feel your cheeks flush at her words, biting back a smile. Minho had talked to his mother about you â had said you were beautiful. You swear if you died tonight, you would die a happy woman.
As his mother steps away from you and into the kitchen, rambling on about how crowded the shopping mall had been, a man comes into your field of vision. He nods courtly before extending his hand, which you shake a bit awkwardly.
âIâm Minhoâs dad,â he simply says. âItâs nice to finally meet you. Minho has been very happy on the phone since meeting you.â
And with that, heâs off into the kitchen, following his wife. Youâre left a bit dazed. Minho truly was a perfect blend of his motherâs appearance and his fatherâs calm personality.
Beside you, Minho pulls you into a side hug, his chilly hands caressing your arms. âSee? Itâs impossible not to love you.â
You freeze for a moment, before relaxing as you realize heâs talking about his parents loving you. You curse yourself inwardly for being so damn emotionally constipated, but let out a sigh of relief nonetheless.
You were worried for so many different reasons â that you wouldnât measure up to Minhoâs first girlfriend, that your personality would be scrutinized until your flaws finally emerged, and that this would be the catalyst for Minho to realize youâre not worth it. Not worth waiting until you can tell him you love him, not worth waiting until you feel like sex isnât going to just ruin everything between you, not worth the hassle and the chore that is loving someone like you.
But as he walks into the kitchen with you, his arm wrapped firmly around your waist, like heâs proud to show you off to his parents, the level of reliability he radiates is enough to melt away all the annoying little worries you had inside your head.

Christmas eve comes two days later, and youâre rudely woken up in the morning by the sound of Minhoâs voice cursing under his breath as he drops something on the floor by his bed. You groan, rubbing your eyes, and he turns to face you with an apologetic look on his face.
âSorry,â he whispers, kneeling down next to the bed and pressing a chaste kiss to your forehead. âGood morning.â
âWhat time is it?â
âEight, I think.â His fingers brush your hair away from your face. âI didnât set an alarm âcause I didnât wanna wake you up, but guess my inability to be quiet did that anyway.â
You chuckle lightly, scrunching up your nose. âWhy are you up so early?â
âGotta start cooking dinner soon,â he explains.
âAlready?â You ask, perplexed. You knew he cooked Christmas dinner all by himself every year for his family, but you never conceived just how much work that would be for a single person.
Minho is unyielding despite your best efforts at persuading him to stay and cuddle you for a few more hours, and watching him cook is always oddly attractive to you, so you find yourself joining him in the kitchen, wrapped up in one of his many cat print sweaters.
At first, you simply sit up at one of the counters and watch him, mesmerized and all but drooling at the way he rolls up his sleeves, the prominent veins making his arms look so sexy while doing such a mundane thing like chopping fucking vegetables. Not to mention his hands, so beautiful and big as he rubs the seasoning on something you donât even care to identify because youâre just too busy thinking about those hands all over your body. Only now do you notice how no real sex for almost two months has really taken a toll on you, what with the way you have to cross your legs just to try and relieve some tension because your mind wonât stop thinking about Minhoâs veiny arms caging you against this counter and his big handsâ
Minho calls out your name, and you snap out of your fantasies, humming as you reluctantly turn your attention toward his face with a dazed expression. He seems to find it funny, as he chuckles before repeating himself, âI asked if you would like to help. I can teach you some of the easy stuff. Must be boring just sitting there and watching.â
Oh, but it isnât boring at all.
But youâd never tell him that, so you nod before hopping off the counter and awaiting further instructions. Turns out youâre worse at cooking than you had thought, so youâre relegated to chopping duty, which you hate for two reasons â firstly, chopping vegetables is boring, and secondly, youâre now deprived of your view of Minho as you stand with your back turned to him while he cooks.
Itâs around five p.m. when Minhoâs mom joins you two in the kitchen, and by that time youâve done all you could, so youâre back to your spot on the counter. She smiles at you before ruffling Minhoâs hair as he closes the oven.
âMy baby is such a wonderful cook, isnât he?â she praises, and he shrugs with a smirk.
âI am very boyfriend material, arenât I?â
You chuckle as you watch his mom carefully fixing his hair which she had messed up, Minho scrunching up his face as she then fixes his wire-frame glasses on his nose.
âIâm so glad youâre wearing your glasses again,â she comments, cupping his cheeks and squeezing before letting go. âYou look so handsome.â
âYou should thank her,â Minho smiles, turning to look at you, and you shoot him a puzzling look. âRemember on your birthday, when you told me I looked good wearing glasses?â He asks, and you nod slowly. âThatâs why I stopped wearing contacts.â
Your mouth opens, but you canât find the words to answer him. You can feel your cheeks dusting pink as his mom coos at the two of you, saying something about young love that has you gnawing on your lips to hold back the silly smile you want to let out.
Minhoâs mom leaves the kitchen shortly after, his father calling her from the living room. He takes this as his chance to approach where youâre sitting, hands resting on your thighs before he presses his lips against yours.
âI wanted to look handsome for you. Itâs kinda pathetic, isnât it?â He chuckles against your lips, and you simply shake your head, tangling your fingers in his black hair that has now grown past his eyes.
âItâs actually fucking adorable,â you assure him, pulling him into another kiss, one much deeper than the last.
He quickly uses his hands to spread your thighs apart, pressing his body into yours as you wrap your legs around his waist. The effect this man has on you is mindboggling; the mere slide of his tongue against your lips has you shivering. It certainly doesnât help that you are now in the exact position from your imagination earlier today.
Minho always tasted like your own personal favorite flavor, always deliciously swirling on your tongue whenever you kissed him. He always renders your mind fuzzy and silly as bliss consumes the entirety of your being. You can only imagine how sex with him will feel like, and you donât think you can wait any longer. Your worries be damned. You needed him more than you could handle.
But just as Minho pulls you closer to his body â your core dangerously close to his crotch, and sucking on your tongue in a way that has you mewling against his lips â his mother calls out your names, and you two quickly separate, startled as if you were burned. She informs you his grandmother has arrived and you two walk to the living room to greet her. You silently thank the universe for her not walking into the kitchen; the last thing you want is for Minhoâs poor grandmother to catch you two making out on the counter like two teenagers.
She is a sweet lady, certainly not as old as you expected her to be, and she always has a smile etched onto her lips stained with red lipstick. You donât even have to ask to know she is his motherâs mom, as the three of them share the exact same smile you grew to love so much.
You find yourself even more comfortable today, as you help both women set up the table for dinner â his grandma meticulously placing a beautiful lace cloth over the table while telling you about how this was one of her late husbandâs first gifts to her when they first moved in together.
It felt as if you were part of the family.
And as you turn on your heels to grab the fancy silverware from a cabinet, your eyes meet Minhoâs gaze. With a smile on his face, he stands by the kitchen door, watching you, and your heart swells with joy.
This was everything you never thought love could be.

Christmas dinner was amazing â as you knew it would be. Minhoâs cooking is always fantastic, and pure happiness is written all over his face whenever he was complimented. The way he offers to serve everyone, watching intently as each of you took the first bite before he finally allowed himself to eat as well, his lips upturned into a grin and his ears red as you all hummed and gasped at how tasty everything was. Itâs his love language; from the way he carefully and methodically prepares the food, to the way he enjoys watching other people eat more than eating himself. He shows his love through his cooking, you realize, and you smile as you think back to numerous times you woke up in the morning with a beautiful table set with breakfast for you after he spent the night at your house.
You havenât put it into words yet, but he has unquestionably been showing his love for you through his little actions.
And thatâs what you want to do tonight as well.
After watching a cliche Christmas movie with his family, you two are now the only ones awake with you drying off the dishes Minhoâs washing. He looks beautiful even now, with his hands clad in neon green dishwashing gloves.
âMinho,â you call out, poking his rib with the plate he just handed you. He squirms with a giggle, warning you to not tickle him. You simply hum, continuing as nonchalantly as you can. âDo you wanna have sex tonight?â
His hand stills, dropping a knife on the sink as his head turns abruptly to look at you, eyes bewildered. âWhat? What, and you ask me this now? While weâre doing the dishes?â He sputters, and you grin with a shrug.
âItâs not a big deal,â you say, placing the plate on top of the counter. âI just⌠really wanna do it. Really want you.â
Minho turns off the tap â at least five knives left ignored at the bottom of the sink â removes his gloves and lets out a heavy sigh.
âOkay, not what I expected to happen on Christmas night, but Iâll take it.â
You both stare at each other for a beat, before inexplicably bursting out laughing. Maybe itâs the sheer suddenness of your request, or the absurdity of the situation you were in when it happened, but you canât help it.
As you both calm down, Minho pulls you into his arms and informs you that he will have to go out and buy condoms, since he truly wasnât expecting anything to happen. You donât fault him, the two months youâve been together were filled with you all but running away from sex. You couldnât help it, your brain always dragging you back to that night in Japan, and the way he avoided your gaze in the morning. Although you knew it was irrational, and that he was simply shy, your self-sabotaging skills were too great, and your mind insisted that if you had sex with Minho too soon he would think you were nothing but a slut. Thatâs what you were told most of your life, anyway, so you couldnât be blamed for the way your brain was almost conditioned into assuming the same.
But Minho had proved time and time again that he was not like the awful guys before him, and that all your worrying was unwarranted and foolish. You were depriving yourself of something you wanted badly out of sheer insecurity and attachment to experiences so far in the past it was almost masochistic at this point.
You insist on joining him on his impromptu trip to the convenience store, only throwing one of his sweaters over the dress and tights you wore for Christmas dinner.
Minho holds your hand as you two walk down the empty street, Christmas lights from the houses and stores making everything seem almost like a movie. You spot the familiar logo from across the street, and Minho bumps his shoulder with you while you head toward the convenience store chain where you both once worked.
âThis is actually the exact one I used to work at,â He tells you as you look through a fridge hidden away in the back of the store. âI loved working the graveyard shift. I rang up so many couples awkwardly buying condoms like they were buying hard drugs.â
You chuckle, settling for some pudding you two could share later. âWill that be us tonight?â
He shrugs. âWeâre adults, itâs normal to buy these things. Unless you want me to act like Iâm buying crack cocaine, then Iâd be happy to indulge you.â
You stick your tongue out at him with a light shove, turning to look through the rather lacking options on the condom shelf.
âGrape flavor?â Minho makes a face as he eyes one of the boxes. âWho the fuck would want the artificial taste of grapes when fucking?â
You shrug. âCould be worse, imagine banana-flavored condoms. I think Iâd throw up all over your dick.â
âThatâs sexy,â He jokes, and you let out a loud chuckle, earning you a look from the only other person at the store this time of night on Christmas eve.
Among your other options are a green glow-in-the-dark condom â which would only make you think of Shrek while Minho fucks you â and a strawberry-flavored one. You decide to play it safe, grabbing a box of plain, thin condoms and placing them in the basket Minhoâs carrying.
âLetâs just go for the safest option,â you tell him, âWeâll have plenty of time to play around later if you want, though Iâll go on birth control once weâre back home so we wonât even need them anyway.â
You watch as Minhoâs eyes widen for a second, his eyebrows shooting up almost comically.
âSure, yeah.â
âDonât short-circuit now. I need you functioning to fuck me.â
âKeep saying shit like that and Iâll be broken before we even make it back to my house,â he states matter-of-factly, and you chuckle, shaking your head at his words. But Minhoâs expression remains unchanged. âI mean it. Itâs been over a year since Iâve had proper sex. Iâm surprised I didnât combust the second you said those words to me in the kitchen.â
With a chuckle, you pull him to your side and walk toward the cashier. Itâs a poor teenage boy, no older than eighteen, clearly bored out of his mind and wishing to be anywhere but here. As he rings up your items, Minho points to his phone thatâs resting on the counter.
âThatâs Ahri from League of Legends, right?â He asks, and the boy looks up, his eyes sparking with interest. He nods. âI donât play, but Iâm a game programmer, so I know a little bit about it. Whatâs your rank?â
âGrandmaster,â the boy answers proudly, his face lighting up with a hint of joy, probably for the first time since his shift started.
âOohh,â Minho gasps loudly, basically hyping up this random boy at the convenience store. You watch the interaction with a silly smile on your face. âAnd youâre still young, wouldnât be surprised to see you at Worldâs someday.â
The boy shakes his head dismissively as Minho hands him his card, but smiles nonetheless. Once he hands you your things, he speaks again, âAre you from around here, hyung? Let me know when you have a game out, Iâd love to try it. See if youâre any good.â
Minho raises his brows at the obvious teasing lilt in his voice, lips upturning into a grin. âHow about this? Iâll give you the beta code and you can start your career of testing games for money.â
âYouâll pay me?â The cashier marvels at the words, and Minho simply nods. He jots down a code from his phone into a scrap piece of paper on the counter, the boyâs face now a complete shift from the expression he wore when you first walked in, all because of Minho and his ability to be kind and sweet no matter the person or circumstance.
As you head back to his house, only the two of walk along the shy streets as the clock hands turn past midnight. Among all the bad people in this world, youâre indescribably happy that a man as good as him is the one walking beside you down this street, firmly holding your hand.
You arrive home and quietly head straight into Minhoâs room. You thank any higher power that might exist for the fact that his room is the only one on the first floor, as you would have to endure your desperate need and desire for him until you got home if it wasnât. Any of Minhoâs family members walking in or hearing you two have sex would make you want to flee the country and change your name.
He joins you after storing your puddings in the fridge, making you jump with his arms wrapped around your waist while you were blankly staring at the pictures on his wall. You sigh, the realization of what was going to happen only really dawning on you now that you stand in Minhoâs bedroom, and your mind starts to wander and doubt everything all over again.
âI kind of ruined the mood by asking to have sex, didnât I?â You ask as Minho places a chaste kiss on your cheek before resting his chin on your shoulder.
âThere was really no mood in the first place,â he lets out a breathy chuckle. âWe were washing the dishes.â
You roll your eyes, once again more annoyed at yourself than at him. You could only hope that your awful propensity of bringing up these irritating thoughts of yours at the worst possible moments didnât drive Minho away from you. Could only hope you were worth it in the end.
âI know, itâs justâŚâ You trail off with another heavy sigh. âThis guy I dated hated that. Said I should just initiate it instead of asking like it was a business transaction.â
You feel Minho shake his head. âThatâs stupid. Why would I think that?â He sounds incredulous, and hearing him say it makes you realize just how asinine that thought really was. âWe had to buy condoms, anyway. Itâs also good that youâre comfortable asking me that. Itâs as it should be.â
And you can only smile, biting back a giggle because of course he thinks that. Itâs as if Jane Austen came back from the dead simply to write Lee Minho.
His arms tighten around your waist, and you turn your head to look at him. âYou should really stop thinking about⌠them,â He hesitates, âYour exes, I mean. Stop comparing, assuming everything will be the same and have the same sad ending. You need to let go of that in order to truly heal. I hate how every time Iâm good to you, or do the bare fucking minimum, your mind spins it into something being your fault. I hate what they did to you so much.â
You feel your breath get caught in your throat, tears threatening to spill much like they do every time you are faced with this topic. But you hold them in. You donât want to cry, not right now, not when everything is so perfect with Minho. So, instead, you take in his words. Heâs undoubtedly right, and you must force yourself to face this uncomfortable truth.
Slowly, you promise yourself. You smile at him, a silent promise to him, and you know he understands you when he smiles back, his lips pressing a kiss to your lips.
He lets go of you and rummages through his drawers, and you look around once more. His plushie mountain, the pictures of his childhood and high school days. You scrunch up your nose.
âWill it be too weird to have sex in your childhood bedroom?â
From where youâre standing, his back turned to you, you can faintly make out the tip of his ears turning red as he runs a finger through his hair.
âWell, not reallyâŚâ He trails off, âI had sex with my ex-girlfriend here all the time when we skipped school together.â
You let out a gasp. âLee Minho skipped school?â
He chuckles, closing his drawers and immediately wrapping his arms around you. Heâs a lot more touchy since you brought this whole topic up, you notice.
âMy parents were always at work, though, so this is my first time doing it while theyâre right upstairs,â He explains, bringing his finger up to your lips and lowering his voice to a harsh whisper. âSo weâll have to be quiet.â
You roll your eyes with a smile, nodding. You know all too well youâll probably be too quiet. Once again your trauma playing a part in this, the words an old boyfriend harshly spilled about you being too loud and vocal have always been present in your head. Now that you think about it, all these moments and words are like post-it notes stuck to your mind, and you skim through like a student cramming for an exam every day in search of one that applies to your current situation. It was excruciating.
Hyunjin tried his best to change this about you, always assuring you he liked to hear you during sex when he noticed your pursed and bitten lips, and that you should be vocal about what you want and like. But you always settled for nods and quiet hums instead.
Minho presses a quick kiss on your forehead then. âIâm gonna shower âcause my hands still smell like onions and garlic after washing them a thousand times,â he tells you. âIâll be right back.â
As youâre busying yourself looking through Minhoâs extensive collection of books, a meow pulls your attention toward the door. Itâs Dori, the gray cat youâve decided is your favorite since itâs the only one you can easily recognize. He stares for a beat before approaching you, and you kneel carefully to stroke his soft fur. You soon find yourself sitting down by the bed with Dori on your lap, purring away as your mind travels to a future in which you and Minho adopt cats of your own, all while living together and making plans for the rest of your lives. It terrifies you slightly to allow yourself to have these thoughts because if things were to go wrong with Minho, this would only be another âwhat ifâ that would haunt you.
Another post-it note to your already cluttered-up mind.
But his words from earlier come back to you just as you begin to panic. You have to let go of the past and stop assuming only the worst outcomes are attainable. And so you simply smile at the imagination, letting your mind run wild while Dori falls asleep on your lap, his gray fur all over your red dress.
You and Dori both jump as Minho all but slams the door when he returns, a towel in his hand drying his damp hair. He cringes at the sound, cursing under his breath. Dori leaves your lap, and you stand up with a pout. He definitely is your favorite cat among the three.
âSorry,â Minho whispers, as if that will compensate for the loud noise. You take in his appearance; a green Christmas sweater and bright red sweatpants. You bite back a smile, because thatâs so him.
âYour outfit is doing a great job of seducing me,â you jest, and he shrugs with a cocky grin.
âI know no woman can resist a Christmas sweater.â
He pulls you into him with a hand around your waist, his lips crashing into yours in a deep kiss. You notice heâs more frantic, less careful than he usually is, his fingers digging into the fabric of your dress as his hands slide up your back. He pulls away, breathless and flushed, and just looks at you for a moment. You can see the shift in his eyes, yearning swimming all over his brown orbs.
Clumsily, he shuts off the lights behind him then switches on the fairy lights adorning his bookshelf, his left hand still firmly clutching your body. Until it suddenly loosens, and you cock your head to the side.
âOkay, you gotta leave,â he says, and you follow his gaze, landing on Dori, who stares up at him almost defiantly. Minho lets out a sigh, opening his door before walking toward the cat and motioning toward the exit as if he will understand him. âCome on, Iâll give you treats later, hm? But you need to leave now, Dori.â
You fail to hold back a chuckle. âWhy does the poor baby have to leave? He looks so comfortable snuggled up on the floor.â
âI canât have sex while Dori watches,â he deadpans as if it were an obvious answer. âItâll be weird.â
âMinho, itâs a cat. He doesnât know whatâs going on.â
âItâs still weird! And IâŚâ He trails off, running a hand through his hair. Heâs still facing the door when he blurts out, âI told you, Iâm already really fucking nervous âcause itâs been a while since Iâve had sex. I might not be the best.â
You shake your head with a smile, crossing your arms over your chest. âMinho, thatâs not possible.â
âYes, it is!â He finally turns to face you. âRemember back in Japan? I came too fast, it was embarrassing. Thatâs why I never let you touch me.â
You jokingly pout at him. âThought you just liked eating me out.â
âI fucking love eating you out, but Iâm not exactly refusing that you do the same because I want to,â he explains, âIâm just scared Iâll be bad at it.â
You furrow your brows. âBad at⌠getting a blowjob?â
Minhoâs ears are dusted a light pink, and he throws his hands up. âWell, yes! Back in Japan I didnât even know what to do with my hands. I donât know what you like, and I havenât been with anyone else to know what most people like soâŚâ He lets out an exasperated sigh. âFuck, I was so nervous that night, you have no idea.â
âYou were nervous?â You let out a huff, recalling Minhoâs clear shift in demeanor that night. âLooking into my eyes the entire time and pinning me down to the bed, thatâs you being nervous?â
His entire face now flushes red, and he returns his gaze toward the door, where Dori paddles out of the room graciously. He promptly shuts the door, locking it this time.
âI was nervous,â He tells you, taking a step toward you. âI kept looking at you âcause I couldnât believe that was actually happening. Felt like you were gonna disappear if I looked away,â His hands cup your face gently, and your lips unknowingly curl into a smile. âAnd when you looked at me in the morning, all I could think about was how awful I was the night before.â
You have to fight the strong urge to laugh because god, thatâs why he was acting shy and avoiding your gaze. You berate yourself for even thinking otherwise, for ever assuming Minho could be like your ex-boyfriends. His words ring even more true than before.
You let out a groan, realizing you two have been putting off having sex for such mindless reasons. When he shoots you a questioning gaze, you simply say, âMinho, weâre both fucking idiots, dâyou know that?â
And before he can say anything else or even entertain the idea of overthinking any more, you pull him into a kiss. With a surprised hum, Minho gently pushes you back, and your knees meet the softness of the mattress causing you to fall back into his bed. He climbs on top of you, pulling away from the kiss.
âYou still gotta tell me what you like,â he repeats, his lips all but pouting at you. You smile up at him.
âNo,â you say simply, pushing his hair back with your fingers as it fell into his eyes. âItâs better if we figure that out together, isnât it?â
Minho chuckles, promptly pressing his lips to yours, your hand tugging at his hair gently as his tongue glides across your lips, causing a soft whine to slip from your throat before you can stop it.
âI like that,â he says between kisses, âWhen you make these pretty noises.â
You feel your cheeks heat up at his words and take that as your chance to take the first small step in healing, adding a post-it to your mind, reminding you not to suppress any noise that Minho coaxes out of you tonight.
The atmosphere in his room feels perfect â like heaven, as he would say. The soft yellow glow emanating from his bookshelf made everything seem dreamy; his honey skin looked stunning, and his eyes gleamed like the stars in the sky every time they met yours.
It was undoubtedly so much more intimate and passionate than any other time you had sex before, and you were both still fully clothed.
It was just like what Minho had told you many months ago.
His hands travel through your body until they rest on your back, finding the buttons of your dress, slowly opening each one as his lips trail down your neck, softly sucking on the skin. As he gingerly slides your dress down your torso, you realize that this will be the first time you two see each other naked. Yet, you donât feel nervous. You want nothing more than to be close to him, with no barriers between you, to finally be tangled with him like the roots on the ground.
Minho unclasps your bra, his gaze unmoving from your chest as he slips the garment off of your skin and drops it on the floor. Itâs almost as if you can feel his gaze burning you, your chest tightening and your breath hitching in your throat. He licks his lips, leaning down to wrap them around your nipple, his hand promptly finding your other breast and softly massaging it. You let out a choked gasp, tugging at his hair.
You feel his lips stretch into a smile before he softly bites the bud.
âSo you like this,â He mumbles, pressing a wet kiss to your nipple. âDuly noted.â
You giggle at his words, your hands tangling in his hair once more. His kisses travel up again, from your chest to your neck, until heâs back to kissing your lips. Both of his hands now massage your breasts, alternating between rolling your nipples between his rough fingers and pinching them lightly, causing a rush to spread across your entire body. You feel your arousal trickle down your slit as you grow more desperate.
âMinho,â you call out between kisses, and he hums against your lips. âDo something,â you all but beg him, yearning for some release as you feel the small, unrelenting pulse between your thighs grow stronger with each stroke of his finger across your chest. Your hands now grasp at his sweater, tugging it over his head, the fabric also discarded somewhere on the floor of his room.
Your hands travel over the expanse of his chest, fingertips taking in every inch of his soft skin. Breaking away from his lips, you push him back softly so you can revel in the sight of him; his delicate collar bones, his strong arms, and soft stomach. Heâs beautiful, breathtakingly so, and you donât know what you did to be deserving of him.
âEnjoying the view?â He jokes, and you breathe out a laugh, your gaze flying up toward his face â his lips swollen, and his cheeks flushed a pretty red.
âMinho, youâre so beautiful,â you whisper absentmindedly, and he smiles at you, softly pressing his lips to yours.
âYou should see how you look,â he whispers.
His left hand soon slips underneath your dress skirt, fingertips grazing your skin over your tights. You feel goosebumps trickle along your thighs following his every touch, so eager to feel his hands on your skin youâre sure youâll rip your tights in half yourself if Minho doesnât get rid of them soon.
He seems to grow as impatient as you, lifting your hips with a strong grip to slide down your dress, tights, and panties off of you all in one go. In no time, you are now laid bare before him, and Minho is swift to trail kisses down your stomach, sloppy and messy, painting your skin with his saliva as his mouth waters at the mere prospect of tasting you.
With a heavy sigh, he stares at your glistening wetness before promptly wrapping his lips around your clit without a warning and sucking, ardently, vulgar sounds filling his small room much like they do every time he eats you out. Always messy, always eager, humming against your pussy and sighing as his eyes glaze over with pure want.
You squirm like lighting has shocked through your entire body. No matter how often you experience the satisfaction of Minhoâs lips on you, it always leaves you trembling like itâs the first time. His right hand slides up the expanse of your stomach until it reaches your breast again, his thumb lazily circling your nipple. You purse your lips as his fingers tentatively trail across your folds, spreading your wetness up to your clit before lapping at it slowly, the small bud swollen and aching.
Youâre quick to remember to open your mouth, letting out the heavy sigh that had stuck to your throat as his finger enters you, Minho still licking and sucking your sensitive clit, nipping harshly and making your sigh fade into a whine. Hand tangling in his hair and tugging, you elicit a low groan from his throat, which you feel reverberate through your slick folds.
Your thighs shake as he adds a second finger, and soon a third, thrusting them inside of you and stroking your walls more vigorously than he usually does, as if he somehow also feels your pleasure and needs to lead you to your high as quickly as possible.
Minhoâs hand leaves your chest, and you bite back a pout, his fingers now gripping your hips before pushing them up so he can reach deeper. It isnât long before his fingers drag across the spot inside of you that has your muscles tensing up, a strangled moan falling from your lips at the sensations coupled with the unrelenting feeling of his tongue on your clit. You come undone around his fingers and lips with a harsh tug of his black hair, rutting your hips against his face desperately, his fingers digging into the flesh of your hips as you do.
He laps up your juices as you slowly come down from your high, tongue flicking inside of you and sucking hard before he presses a long kiss to your cunt. Your entire body jerks in response to the overstimulation.
His kisses travel toward your inner thigh, your lower stomach and breasts until he reaches your neck, where his teeth nip at the soft skin, sucking harshly before his tongue soothingly licks at the spot. As Minho positions himself between your thighs again, you instinctively wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him closer. Your mind goes hazy for a beat as you feel the thick outline of his cock press against your bare core.
âMinho,â you call out again, your voice significantly more whiny this time around, shaky and breathless, âWanna taste you.â
He groans against your skin, pressing small kisses up your neck until he ultimately stops against your open lips. He breathes out a heavy sigh.
âReally want that, too,â he rasps out, voice hoarse as his dark eyes travel across your face. âBut I really wanna fuck you. Shit, I need to fuck you so badly you have no idea,â He groans. You feel his length jump at his words as he presses your foreheads together and locks his gaze with you. âThatâll be hard to do if your pretty lips go anywhere near my cock.â
You breathe out a chuckle, pressing a small kiss to his lips. âThen get to it,â you simply say.
Minhoâs lips curl into a grin. âWill you remember to be quiet for me this time? My baby sounded so pretty coming around my fingers.â
Your cheeks flush, just how loud you were before only now dawning on you. Fuck. Your words get stuck to your throat, your mouth opening but making no sound, so you settle for a nod.
He chuckles. âGood,â he replies with a kiss to your agape lips.
Minho sits up, detangling himself from your body briefly. He reaches for the box on his bedside table, scrambling with the cardboard before clumsily tearing it open and retrieving a condom. Itâs only then you notice how his hands are trembling, from nervousness or pure lust. Either way, you find yourself smiling at the sight.
You reach out to run a hand along his arm soothingly, watching with hungry eyes as he tugs at his drawstrings before freeing his cock from the confines of his sweatpants. Minho hisses as he rolls the rubber over his length, shaky hands stroking himself one, two, three times, all while you eye him, watching greedily as if you were his own personal captive audience.
He lowers himself once again, hand now sliding across the length of your thigh before gripping the flesh, nails digging into your skin as he eyes you with an almost pleading gaze.
âCan Iââ
âPlease do,â you answer, almost frantically, before he even has the time to assume you might say no. You inch your thighs apart even more so Minho can slot himself perfectly between them.
Your mouth waters as you catch sight of him gripping his cock once more, tapping it against your swollen clit and eliciting a whine from your lips as your hands scramble to find purchase in his strong arms. Minhoâs eyes then find yours much like they did back in Japan, and you know you are done for. His dark gaze once again felt all-consuming â desire and adoration swimming along his brown eyes, looking at you as if he were in a daze. Your grip on his arms tightens as he lazily slides his cock up and down your soaked slit, coating himself in your arousal. Minhoâs lips fall open as he continues his movements, the blunt head of his cock gliding along your folds almost painfully slow.
He leans in to close the small gap between your lips, before whispering something you canât quite understand against them.
âI fucking love you,â he repeats himself more clearly, and finally pushes forward, his girth pushing into you as you gasp, feeling as if all the air has been stolen from you.
You arenât sure if your reaction is due to his words, or the way his cock is working you open so good, or maybe it was a delicious blend of the two. All you know at the moment is Minho, Minho, Minho, your mind foggy as his name rings inside your head like a mantra.
âDonât gotta say anything back,â he tells you in a breathy voice, âJust want you to know I loveâ Fuck,â he groans as he is now fully sheathed inside of you, and you clench at both the feeling and the words spilling from his lips. Of course he would choose now to tell you he loved you. âLove you so much, so much Iâd do anything for you. Would wage a war with the world if you asked me toâŚâ He babbles, words slipping past his lips like they were the easiest thing for him to say. Like he meant it so deeply, he didnât have to put any thought into it. His words only die as he presses an open-mouthed kiss to your lips.
Minho pulls his hips back in one swift motion, hands lifting your thighs around his body as he thrusts into you, evoking a rather loud noise from the back of your throat which is smothered by his kiss.
âYou take me so well,â he growls against your lips, âWe fit perfectly.â He breaks the kiss to look down at where your two bodies are connected. It felt as if you were one, melting into each other little by little the more Minho thrust his cock inside of you. You simply nod, mind even more dizzy with the way heâs already pulling out again before slamming back into you, his pace quickening as he presses you into the mattress.
Your nails dig into his skin, crescent moon shapes blooming over the expanse of his honey skin. His eyes still bore into you, hips now thrusting at an unrelenting pace, his small room filled with a cacophony of wet sounds, whines tumbling from your parted lips and curses that almost silently fell from his.
âGonna come soon,â Minho chokes out, his eyebrows furrowing, âIâm sorry, Iââ
You silence him with a press of your lips, hands now tangling in his messy hair.
âYouâre always so good to me,â you tell him, feeling his cock pulse inside of your walls. âWanna be good to you too, make you feel good.â
And he simply leans down before kissing you reverently. The sound of his skin slapping against yours mixed with the creaking of his bed likely much too loud, but you couldnât bring yourself to care. At least not at the moment. Not with the way his hand snakes along your hips, rough fingers now rolling delicious circles around your clit while his other palm presses down onto your abdomen, and his cock continuously hits a spot inside of you that has you all but crumbling apart underneath him.
Your mouth falls open, breaking the kiss, his cock twitching inside of you as his body stills on top of you. With furrowed brows and agape lips, Minho comes mere seconds before you reach your high as well, toes curling against his back as you melt onto his cock.
You stay that way for a while â a few seconds, maybe minutes â simply looking at each other as your labored breaths intertwine.
You finally reach up, brushing his dampened hair away from his beautiful eyes that now look at you as if you were the sole reason why the stars sparkle. Minhoâs fingers soon find yours, tangling together as he brings your hands to his lips and presses a chaste kiss to your knuckles.
You smile.
You love him.
Itâs not a realization but rather a confirmation of something youâve already known all too well and for far too long. You still canât put it into words, but somehow, you are certain that he knows just as well.

Minho accidentally awoke you in the morning with his habit of slamming his door shut, apologizing as you grumbled at him and insisted you would only accept his apology if he let you give him a blowjob. He laughed, simply pulling you closer to him on the bed as he sat up and you finally gave the most beautiful man you had ever met the head he deserved.
Minhoâs parents and grandmother had left to eat at a fancy restaurant, and after lying through his teeth and telling his very distraught mother that you were feeling too sick to leave the bed, you two stayed behind. They didnât have to know the real reason you couldnât leave the bed â Minho and his apparent insatiable hunger for you. It was as if something had been awoken inside him now that he had a taste of you, and he had to make up for all the lost time.
You two only leave his room late in the afternoon, the sun setting on the pale winter sky outside his bedroom window. His family would arrive soon, and you needed to get ready for their tradition of opening Christmas presents while watching bad holiday movies.
When Minho followed you when you headed toward the bathroom, you thought little of it. It was only when he began undressing alongside you that panic truly set in.
âWe literally had sex, why do you sound so horrified?â Was all he offered you when you asked what he was doing before entering the steamy shower with you.
It was your first time showering with someone, and the fact that it made you so nervous felt almost pathetic. Minho was right; you had sex, and you saw each other naked and sweaty and vulnerable. This shouldnât be any different.
Except it was.
You found yourself too awkward to wash yourself, doing a terrible job at pretending to scrub at your arms as you watched Minho shower like a normal person. He let out a chuckle after rinsing his hair, shaking his head.
âAre you seriously shy? Seriously?â He asked, turning your body around so your back faced him. âThe girl who begged to suck my cock just this morning is too shy to shower in front of me?â
You opened your lips to refute him, but your words died in your mouth as you felt Minhoâs hand spread shampoo all over your hair. His fingers gently massaged your scalp before placing his hand over your eyes to shield them from the foam as he rinsed your hair. He repeated the process with conditioner, then moved on to wash your body with his almost sickly sweet watermelon body wash. He did it all while humming, making you so relaxed and comfortable that all your silly insecurities dissipated in the air along with the steam from the hot water.
Suffice to say, showering without Minho would now be a sad affair.
You are now sitting on the floor before the television, his family exchanging gifts. Dori purred on your lap, and Soonie bit Minhoâs socks, trying his best to remove the fabric from his feet. Itâs finally time for you two to exchange gifts, and youâre a bit glad his family seemed to be so immersed in the movie because you know you would combust if you had to explain your gift to them.
âHere,â you hand him an orange box with a black bow. âItâs stupid. Now that I think about it, itâs probably such a fucking dumb gift. It seemed like a good idea at the time, and Eunha even made one for her sister. I almost stole hers âcause it turned out much better than mineââ
âMy god,â Minho interrupts you with a hearty laugh, taking the box in his hands and inspecting it. âItâs been a while since you word vomited so much. What the hell did you get me that made you so nervous?â
He pulls on the bow, unraveling it before taking the black fabric in his hands and tying it around your head. He laughs once more, and you roll your eyes.
âMinho, just get to it before I snatch this box from you.â
With one last chuckle, he finally opens the box. He stills as he takes in the notebook, sitting on top of far too much wrapping tissue paper. The cat print cardstock paper was a pain to find, but itâs worth it now as you watch Minhoâs lips curl into a smile as his fingers gingerly travel through the cover. It was crooked, a bit too small, and still reeked of bookbinding glue, but it reminds you of the day you met Minho, and that was all you thought about when you decided on this gift.
âYou fucking bound me a notebook,â he says, still bewildered.
âTook me a while, but I did say I was gonna do it. Iâm a woman of my word.â
Minho looks up at you, his smile reaching his eyes and turning them into the pretty crescent moons you love so much. âI love it,â he beams, hands now squeezing your cheeks as he pulls you into a small kiss. âThis and that coffee stained notebook are going on my bookshelf back in my dorm, displayed in all their glory.â
Minho pulls away and reaches toward two small boxes on the coffee table. He clears his throat, handing you one box as he settles the other on his lap.
âI thought of you when I saw this on my Instagram feed,â he simply says, fingers toying with the misshaped bow on top of the box â one very similar to the one on your birthday gift many months ago. âThought about what we talked about in Japan, yâknow, about soulmates.â
You raise a brow at him, quickly undoing the bow on your box as curiosity washes over you. You pick up a bracelet made only of red thread, eyeing it curiously.
Minho retrieves the same bracelet from his own box, putting it on before asking, âHave you heard of the red string of fate?â
âThat myth that a thread connects two people meant to be together?â You question.
He nods. âExactly. I feel like that was us,â He explains, taking the red bracelet from your hands and slipping it around your wrist before gently tightening the thread. âFeel like all our little coincidences were little threads tying us together until we met.â
You feel the tears well up in your eyes, but you donât bother trying to hide or stop them this time. Grabbing Minhoâs hand that stilled around your wrist, you lace your fingers together, admiring your matching bracelets. It could only be fate. Every small detail that aligned and every road you two crossed to reach the place where you are now could only have come to be because fate wanted it to be that way.
Out of every city you could have lived in, every different university you could have chosen to attend, down to every other seat that could have been empty on the day you met Minho â everything fell into place like a puzzle piece, exactly as if a long, invisible string tied you to him and finally decided it was time to pull you together.
Minhoâs gentle touch brushes against your cheek as he silently wipes your tears â no words are needed between you two at that moment as he smiles softly at you while you feel your eyes burn from the cry you had held back for so long. And, as if youâre his mirror, you feel yourself smile as his lips upturn into a grin when his gaze shifts to the open window.
âItâs snowing,â he beams. âItâs the first snow of the year, and our first snow together.â
You stand in front of Minhoâs house, the light snow falling softly and covering your heads in white as he kisses you, only stopping to grumble against your lips.
âYour phoneâs going crazy in my pocket,â He pouts, and you furrow your brows. You had already sent your family holiday messages, and your friends were all busy with their own Christmas celebrations, so you were clueless about who it could be.
âCan you check it for me?â
Minho nods, untangling himself from your embrace just enough to reach into his pocket and grab your phone to unlock it.
âThereâs like fifty new messages from a group chat. Best Fucking Five?â He chuckles lightly at the name, his chilly breath tickling your cheek.
You, on the other hand, immediately frowned as you heard the name. Itâs a long-forgotten group chat with your old friend group from high school. You had all stopped talking a little before graduation, with you especially distancing yourself from them upon realizing their toxic words and reactions to your relationships only served to make you feel worse about yourself. No one bothered to leave or delete the group since it quietly died and had stayed that way for over three years now.
Minho hands you the phone, and you click another notification that pops up as soon as you unlock the device.
The conversation began with your former friend sending a screenshot of one of your ex-boyfriendâs newest Instagram post. You skim through the caption and blanch at the words accompanied by a sonogram picture. His girlfriend is pregnant, and heâs over the moon about it.
And you, for some reason, find yourself laughing so much you have to clutch onto Minhoâs shoulder as your stomach starts to hurt.
He shoots you an understandably puzzled look, but you canât stop the giggles that spill from your lips, so you settle on showing him the screenshot.
âI got the best Christmas gift tonight,â Minho reads from the screen. âI'm going to be a dad, and the most wonderful woman Iâve ever known is the mother,â he trails off with a questioning lilt, brows furrowing as that had only confused him more.
âItâs one of my exes,â you manage to tell him after catching your breath.
Minho hums, taking your hands and shoving them in his overcoat pocket along with your phone.
âAnd why did that make you lose your mind laughing?â He asks with a small smile.
âI guess it was the shock, really. It also made me realize just how little I care about him now. All of them, actually. Every time I was broken up with or had my heart broken in some way, it honestly felt like the end of the world,â you explain, âLike my heart would never recover and like I would hate them for the rest of my life. For years I had such a strong ax to grind with them, and that hatred and grudge only caused me harm. It made me hate love, and it made me blame myself.â
Minho nods, pressing his forehead to yours. Around you two, the snow got thicker, and only the distant sounds of children laughing from neighboring houses could be heard throughout the quiet street.
âBut itâs different now?â
You smile up at him. âItâs different now, and I only just realized that. These people are no longer people I hate. Theyâre simply their words and their actions toward me, but they, as people, mean nothing to me.â
Minho smiles and wraps his arms around you in a tight embrace. This realization makes you feel lighter, like a small part of the weight of healing has been removed from the equation. Itâs only you and yourself now; none of them has any power over your emotions anymore.
âMaybe we should send the baby a present,â you joke, and Minho buries his head in the crook of your neck with a chuckle, and you jump as his cold nose brushes against your skin.
âMaybe we should.â
At that moment, in the arms of this amazing man who has helped you more than he will ever know, you realize that love truly isnât bad. People can be bad, circumstances can be catastrophic, and wrong timing can destroy nearly everything. But love is, at the core of it all, good.
âMinho,â you call out, feeling him hum against your skin before lifting his head to look at you. âI love you,â you say simply.
His smile rivals every pretty thing around you. The first snow, the gleaming Christmas decorations, and even the moon herself pale in comparison to the smile that Minho gives you.
âI love you, too,â he replies, a tangible sense of bliss in his voice, as if he has yearned for a lifetime to finally be able to say those words to you.
You wrap your arms tighter around Minho, and your fingers brush against the red thread that adorns your wrist. It truly feels as if fate had led you to Minho, leaving little clues along the way to make sure you both knew when you finally met. His journey to you had been relatively easy, while yours had been heart-wrenching, but in the end, it had brought you heaven.
If soulmates really are a thing, there is not an ounce of doubt in your being that Minho is yours. More than anything, he taught you that love is present in everything around you. Love is being kind to others like Minho is kind to his family and strangers in convenience stores at midnight. Love is staying up with your best friend while she cries on the couch, not expecting anything in return. Love is the laughter of little kids on Christmas night echoing throughout a neighborhood. Love is also going out on your own, doing something simply because it will make you happy, and being kind to yourself. All this time, you held onto the belief that love is destructive and only leads to sadness, oblivious to the fact that it has surrounded you every step of the way.
Love is everywhere and in everything.
In the end, Minho had always been right.
Love is the most amazing thing in life.

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