Oh To Be A Reckless Young Protagonist Pinning My Queer Coded Nemesis Up Against A Wall In A Fight While

oh to be a reckless young protagonist pinning my queer coded nemesis up against a wall in a fight while we make tense and homoerotic eye contact

250 words = 1 book page

OUT: I wrote only 1,000 words today :/

IN: I wrote FOUR whole pages of my book! ♡

I have 4 books that I really want to write a review for, because oh goD so good, but i lack the energy, so i’m doing it here:

The Grace Year by Kim Liggett (out on October 4th) - 5/5⭐

* cult-like community exiles all 16 year old girls away for year to essentially "release their magic into the wild and come back purified” * it’s so, SO powerful and haunting - you genuinely spend more than half a book questioning whether there’s a supernatural element or not * it’s reminiscent of Lord of the Flies and The Handmaid’s Tale, with a powerful social commentary on society, misogyny and feminism * very dark, violent, but absolutely gripping… I couldn’t put it down

Rules For Vanishing by Kate Alice Marshall (out on September 24th) 5/5⭐

* protagonist’s sister disappears in search of a road that is supposed to lead to the ghost of a girl who disappeared years ago * hands down, the best horror book I’ve ever read * Wizard of Oz meets Silent Hill meets Blair Witch Project * incredibly well written, dark, with gorgeous and creepy imagery * very spooky, very creepy, very haunting * it’s genuinely such a wild ride, but I enjoyed every second of it

The Turn of the Key by Ruth Ware 4/5⭐

* woman is hired as a live-in nanny for a family living in a remote house; weird stuff starts happening * as someone who didn’t enjoy the only other book I’ve read by Ruth Ware, The Lying Game, I went into this with hella low expectations * but oh my god, I loved every second on this * the ending left me flabbergasted, like, genuinely, what the fuck * it’s very well crafted, and it keeps you guessing right until the ending * i loved the fact that you can’t tell if it’s a thriller or a horror/ghost story* * very engaging, such a page turner

My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell (out on January 28th 2020) 5/5⭐

* fifteen year old girl begins affair with a teacher 27 years her senior * this was probably the hardest, most disturbing book I’ve ever read in my entire life and I genuinely got drunk trying to get through parts of it * trigger warnings for a plethora of things, including sexual abuse, pedophilia * however, it’s such an important book, because it explores the damaging mental, emotional, psychological effects of the abuse that the protagonist suffers, along with issues of consent, victimization, manipulation and the #metoo movement * there’s absolutely no sugar coating anything, the relationship isn’t romanticised at all and the focus is very clear on showing exactly how the protagonist was groomed by her predator * it’s NOT an easy book to read, I can’t stress this enough, but it’s a powerhouse of a novel and one that, if you do read it, will remain with you for a long time * the writing is absolutely phenomenal, it’s uncompromising and it packs one hell of a punch

Let me know if you’re interested in reading any of these! 😊 

more of my strange playlists

because people apparently like these? and asked me for MORE??

horny but make it goth and nu metal

emo/indie kid nostalgia

monsters, ghouls, murder, halloween stuff!

running away from your shitty town to live in the woods by yourself (or with your lesbian lover), collecting berries and bathing in rivers

autumn vibes, leaves falling, hot coffee in sweaters, but it’s not all cute n cosy

rainy day music 

it’s MY teenage identity crisis and I get to choose the soundtrack!

songs that make me feel like a video game character

*slides in six months later with Starbucks and a new fandom*

Hello all! I come bearing fic for a new (old!) fandom.

Lord of the Rings was actually one of my first fandoms and while I never wrote for it before now Gimli and Legolas have long been one of my favorite couples ever.

If you’d like to read 25k words of an Elf and a Dwarf being in love but being too stupid to realize it, lots of talk about bows and arrow, tons of feelings, and way too many uses of “my friend” consider giving it a read!

And a very special thanks to @obsessions-and-dreams who was kind enough to let me ramble at her about this fic since I started writing it back on December even though it’s not her fandom!

Sometimes I tear up and my hair raises on end (in goosebumps, in an awed, pleasant way) when I think about how the life of one man, J.R.R. Tolkien, and his desire to write and share with the world all the lessons he'd learn, all his beliefs and faith in love, to hope in uncertain times, to healing, that he weaved all this beautiful tales bigger then himself, timeless and true, that would outlast his dying breath and breathe ever after for him, in his name, has touched so many. Continues to.

Sometimes I think about how, almost 100 years later, hundreds of millions of us, countless people, are still learning from his life's work, are still touched and moved by his art, are creating and carrying on his legacy, imbued in our own life experiences;

Sometimes I think about how our stories for his world evolve as our world evolves, will always. Sometimes I think about the power of his heart, of his loving intentions, that he has healed so many people and I think about how he's just a regular guy.

J.R.R. Tolkien was just a regular human being. For all the wonder that he created and shared, in spirit he is truly no different then you or me. He had a calling and he answered to it, and we all are born with that same great potential, if only we have intention, if only we act on that intention, and if only we act in love.

No matter the form, create. That's Tolkien's biggest takeaway for me. To just create, create because you can't not, create because your are driven to, because it fulfills you, releases you. Because it touches you and moves you, because it makes you happy, makes you feel. We are all born creators of our own stories, and we are all born equal in capability to be great authors, and craft beautiful ones.