Listen. Heres The Thing. Im Very Comfortable With Who I Am And The Gender I Identify As. But There Is

Listen. Here’s the thing. I’m very comfortable with who I am and the gender I identify as. But there is just… something…

About this man…

That I can only describe… I don’t know… gender envy?

Like…

All I know is when I look at him, I feel something akin to aspirational? There is just something about him…

Let me tell you a little story. Once upon a time, my old work (I worked for a news show a la 60 Minutes) did a story on kpop where we interviewed Ateez (it was a shitshow, but that’s another story). This was way back in 2019. Anyway, they enter the room, and let me tell you, all these guys are beautiful. But Seonghwa? I was taken aback. I was breathless. I genuinely couldn’t believe that this man was real. And I’m not talking about me like, wanting to marry him or anything. I’m not thirsting over this man. I just… he’s literally a work of art. I still think about him sometimes because I was genuinely in shock and awe of his beauty.

....you're awake

First Note of Love (Episode 8)

I held off on watching First Note of Love because I was like… guitars? In my BL? *intense GMMTV flashbacks* but I just binged all available episodes and it is downright LOVELY. Downside is the agony of waiting between episodes, especially knowing that there is bound to be some kind of final act climax involving sad things that I will have to wait a week to see resolved.

some of you haven’t spent countless hours thinking up a whole universe in your head to escape to and it shows