Oh My God Your Tags The Beauty Your Words Convey Is Immeasurable Thats The Sweetest Thing Anyone Has
oh my god your tags đđ âthe beauty your words convey is immeasurableâ thatâs the sweetest thing anyone has ever said excuse me while i go cry in the corner! thank you đ„čđ«¶
still here | r.l.
summary: it's your birthday :(
a/n: this is the first time iâve ever really cried when writing something, itâs got a home in my heart now and i hope you like it!! đ«¶ (also listen to our lovely girl billie for added heartbreak)
tw: past suicide attempt
You lean back on the couch from where youâre bending over the table. Remus wastes no time in wrapping an arm around your waist, pulling you into his side. He gently presses his lips to your forehead. âHappy birthday, lovely girl.â
âThank you,â you mumble half-heartedly, grateful but too overwhelmed to show it.Â
Thereâs a cut-up chocolate cake in front of you, which Remus had insisted upon baking. Heâd honoured your wishes not to throw a big bash, and of not wanting an actual present. He didnât exactly understand why â but he loved you too much to not do what you wanted him to; birthday or not.
Guilt weighs heavily on your heart; Remus has been kinder than you deserve. You decide to help him understand.
âYou know,â you start softly, tilting your head to lay it on his shoulder. He hums in acknowledgement, fingertips grazing your sleeve as he starts to rub your arm. âI didnât think I would last this long.â
The shakiness in your voice surprises even you. You feel Remusâ hand still on your arm.Â
âWhat?â he murmurs. You canât decipher if the slight lilt to his voice is because of sadness or confusion.
âI didnât think I would last this long,â you repeat quietly, just to be safe, and you feel his hand coasting across your back as he gently grabs your shoulders. He turns you towards him, and you donât wait for him to ask before you start to explain. âWhen I was 13, I couldnât imagine ever making it this far. I tried to kill myself.â
Remusâ eyes widen the slightest bit as he regards your sudden admission. His grip on your shoulders doesnât falter; and itâs like you both know heâs the only thing holding you upright.Â
When he doesnât respond, your gaze immediately drops to the couch, shame clouding your eyes.
âI⊠I didnât know that.â
The crack in his voice makes you look back up, meeting his gaze. His features are softer, sadder; somehow. Thereâs the slightest bit of grief in the way heâs regarding you. âAre you glad you made it this far?â
You rub your lips together, taking a shaky breath to make sure your voice comes out evenly. âYeah,â you exhale softly. âYeah, I am. I got to meet you.â
âIs that the only reason?â
âNo,â you reply honestly. âI love my work. My friends, I really like hanging out with them. And Iâd say our apartment is pretty sweet.â
The concern in Remusâ expression is still evident, his brows pinched almost painfully. His hands bunch up the fabric on your shoulders, tugging you towards him. Youâre certain the action is subconscious â he looks lost in thought, like heâs deliberating wrapping you up in his arms and never letting you go.
âWould you like more reasons?â you ask quietly, feeling your vision start to blur. You shouldnât be surprised that he cares this much, but you are.
When he nods, your heart melts â the magma seems to be pooling in your stomach, and you feel the kind of warmth youâve only ever been able to feel since you met him.
âOkay,â you decide to indulge him. âI like coffee when I wake up, especially when you make it. Feeding the stray dogs on the side of the road every morning. And my guitar, I like to make music on it. I think music is nice.â
Your throat starts to clog up, the image of Remus distorting into a blurry swirl in your vision. âItâs lovely when it rains, especially when weâre both at home, cuddling. And ââ
Your voice comes out wobbly. Youâre crying now, hot tears dribbling pathetically off your chin. You want to stop, but you push on for his sake.
âAnd I really like our apartment. Did I mention that? Also, your hugs â I love the way you hug. Itâs like you really love me, and ââ
âI do love you,â Remus interrupts, words barely audible from the way his voice is trembling. âI do love you, okay? I love you a whole lot. And Iâm so glad youâre still with me.â
He doesnât give you a chance to respond, gently pulling you even closer towards him. You meet him in the middle, arms instinctively wrapping around his waist as he brings his hands up to encircle your shoulders.
Remus squeezes you like itâs his job to hold you together, and you hear a soft sniffle as he buries his face in your hair.Â
âIâm so glad youâre still here,â he says again. Your heart clenches in your chest, in all the best ways.
âI love you,â you respond, because you both know itâs synonymous with Thank you for giving me a reason to be here.
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thank you loads for your detailed explanation lovely! i especially love the one for unknown/nth i feel like it fits soooo well, your creativity is on another level!! đđ«¶
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in another life | j.p.
âCalm down, babe,â Sirius mutters as you walk in step, looping his arm through yours.
You nibble on your bottom lip anxiously, sighing as you glance over at him. âItâs not that easy, Siri. Iâm seeing him after what â four years? I canât just calm down!â
He rolls his eyes, reaching towards you and thumbing at your lip to save it from your torment. âYouâre seeing me after four years.â
You turn to Sirius, and he huffs out a laugh at your deadpan expression. âWell, you never asked me to marry you.â
Sirius wiggles his eyebrows, his lips curving up into a grin. âMarry me?â
âFuck off, Black.â
James and Lily Potter were holding a meet-up of sorts, and had invited most people in your year at Hogwarts. You were hesitant to go, given your history with James, but Sirius insisted you tag along. You knew he, Remus, and Peter had stayed in touch with James. Rightfully, you ought to have too. But neither of you tried to; maybe you both knew it was better that way.
Sirius simpers, coming to a halt in front of the large black gates of the mansion. He reaches forward and begins to twist the lock, and you instinctively reach over and grab his hand to stop him. He turns to you, confusion twisting his features. âWhat are you â oh. Oh, sweetheart.â
He softens when he sees the expression on your face. Youâre biting your cuticles, and the anxiety in your features is palpable. Sirius sighs and firmly pulls your hand away from your mouth, intertwining your fingers together. âItâs gonna be okay. Just be cordial with him. Thereâs no bad blood, right?â
âRight,â you mutter, albeit uncertainly.
âBut, umâŠâ he sighs, dropping your hand to rake his fingers through his hair. âThereâs something I shouldâve told you before. But I didnât wanna freak you out.â
âWhat?â
The apprehension in your tone causes Sirius to wince. âJames and Lily, they⊠theyâve got a baby.â
Thereâs a beat of loud silence as the fact sinks in, a mount of uncertainty and hurt settling in the pit of your stomach.
âOh.â
Youâre trying not to show it, but the heartbreak on your face is painfully obvious. Sirius pouts, moving to take your hand again. âBabe, Iâm sorry. I shouldâve ââ
He doesnât get the chance to finish his sentence, the gates swinging open to reveal a beaming James Potter.
âPads,â he grins immediately, eyes locking on Sirius as he moves towards him and swoops him into a quick hug.
You take the moment to look James over. He looked exactly like you remembered â messy curls, toned biceps, that movie-star grin. Yet something felt different, in the way he pulled Sirius into a hug without all the raucous fervour he wouldâve at 16, how he held him so gently at armâs length while talking to him. Heâd softened, you realised, from the responsibilities of fatherhood and being a husband.
They pull apart a moment later, and his gaze drifts to you. His smile loses a bit of its sunshine, not softening but not quite dimming either. âY/n, hey.â
Thereâs a moment of hesitation as he looks at you, but then he seems to decide upon giving you a hug too.
âHi,â you mutter as he shortens the distance between you, needling his arms under yours to press them to your back. You embrace him in return, and a sudden pang of hurt shoots through your heart at the familiarity of the action.
Perhaps he was remembering it too, from the way he tightened his grip. Both of you were heavy on physical touch, and it was undeniably the best part of your relationship back in Hogwarts â how heâd always have a hand wrapped around your waist, how youâd wake up to cuddles and hugs every morning. You didnât exactly have anyone to hug anymore, living alone.
So you convince yourself that the reason you hold on to James for slightly longer than necessary was because you craved human touch, not because of⊠anything else.
Finally, James pulls away, his arms dropping to his sides as he gives you a small smile. You plaster one onto your face too, for his sake. âSo,â he starts as he turns around, beginning to lead you and Sirius into the mansion, âhowâve you been, Y/n?â
You can feel Siriusâ gaze burning holes into the side of your head, but choose to ignore him. âIâve been great, yeah. You?â
James nods. âThatâs cool. Yeah, Iâve been good too. Things have been fun, but kind of busy; you know, with work and Lily and the babyâŠâ He seems to realise what heâs said, and clears his throat awkwardly. Oh, of course. The baby.
Sirius is beside you in an instant, arching his eyebrows and nudging your elbow to respond.
âOh, um⊠congrats on the baby, by the way.â
James turns around to face you as you walk, and you give him a grin to prove that youâre being genuine â to show him that it didnât feel like there was a knife being twisted in your gut every time the word baby was brought up.
His eyes soften, and you know he can tell how youâre feeling. But he gives you a grateful smile, and says no more as the three of you come to a stop in front of the house.
âBy the way,â James mutters as he pushes the door open, âyou guys are like, an hour early. Youâre the only ones here.â
You immediately turn around to glower at Sirius for subjecting you to more torture than necessary by bringing you early. But he all but smirks as he follows you in.
Your eyes coast around the mansion, taking it all in. Itâs decorated in a minimalist aesthetic, white couches and brown rugs. It was pretty, that was for sure; but you couldnât help but think how different it was from Jamesâ place in the dorm â posters and stickers all over the walls, boisterously red curtains and LED lights. It used to be so full of life.
Honestly, you mightâve guessed an old couple lived here, if not for the small signs of their life as a family â the pacifier on the dining table, a cradle at the far end of the living room, and the heart-shaped photo frames lining the walls.
James watches you, a small smile playing on the edges of his lips. âYou like it?â
He knows you wouldnât like it, itâs everything you arenât. Your dorm had been just like his; trying to fit as many vinyls and posters onto that small space next to your bed as possible. There would be fairy lights in every corner and succulents on the nightstand, a dreamcatcher which heâd gifted you hanging right above your bed. You were messy, as a person, and with your love too. You thought he was messy as well; but apparently heâd gotten his shit together already.
âYeah, itâs simple. Pretty.â
âHoney ââ Lily bustles out the kitchen, a small gasp escaping her lips as she sees you and Sirius. Sheâs holding a ladle in one hand, and has her other arm wrapped around a baby perched on her waist.
You donât register it when she kisses your cheek and hugs you, asks you how youâre doing and leads you to sit on the couch. Your gaze is locked on the baby, every second spent staring at him worsening the nauseous feeling at the back of your throat.
You mustâve asked for his name, because the word, âHarry,â registers in your head. This beautiful baby, with Lilyâs deep green eyes and Jamesâ luscious curls, was Harry.
Would you have named your baby Harry? Probably not, it was too generic. But it was too late now, to pick out names and choose a less boring aesthetic for a house together.
You had lost your chance back in seventh year, that night when you were laying on Jamesâ bed, limbs tangled together as he raked his hands through your hair with all the love in the world. Youâre gonna be my husband one day, youâd whispered, feeling so much affection for him you thought your heart would burst. Yeah, baby, heâd replied with a soft smile. Weâre gonna live in a mansion, with our dogs and children and â
Children?
I donât⊠I donât want children. And thatâs where it all started going downhill, thatâs the moment Jamesâ smile turned upside down and his hand dropped from your hair. It had turned into an argument, a screaming match â and eventually a reason to break up. James couldn't understand much you feared it, the pain of pregnancy and the exhaustion that came with motherhood. And some part of you knew that you werenât blameless either â calling him awful things and accusing him of not loving you; though love was all he ever gave till the day you told him it was over.
The feeling of Siriusâ nails digging into your palm brings you back to the present, and you see him nodding absentmindedly as Lily rambles about how much trouble Harryâs been, and oh, sheâs picked up a hobby of crocheting, andâŠ
You flit your eyes to look at James sitting opposite you, gazing at you with his brows pinched in concern. Your emotions mustâve been obvious on your face, then. But he immediately looks away when Lily calls out to him, holding up Harry for him to carry.
You watch silently as James squeezes into the chair next to his wife, taking the small, lovely baby between his large, calloused hands. He smiles at Harry, looking at him though he was the most precious thing on earth. Jamesâ fingers bunch Harryâs tiny shirt as he brings him close to his face, gently pressing a kiss to his forehead. Lilyâs head lolls onto Jamesâ shoulder as he shifts Harry into a comfortable lying position in his arms.
There you have it. The perfect family, with the gorgeous wife and the adorable baby and the man who couldâve been yours if you wanted.
Itâs too much for you to take, and Sirius squeezes your hand as you start to shake. Harry coos, and you melt at how Jamesâ face breaks into a sunny beam. He tilts his head to press a soft peck to his wifeâs hair, and thereâs so much love in that simple gesture that you feel like you could die.
You feel Siriusâ worried gaze on you, your hands trembling and your knee bobbing up and down. The taste of blood from how hard youâre nibbling on your lip is grounding; it brings you back to yourself, who you are, and not who you couldâve been.
âHey,â he murmurs softly from beside you, but it doesnât get lodged into your brain. The only thing you feel is your vision of the perfect family blurring, soft streams of regret rolling down your cheek. Sirius makes a small noise of pity from beside you, and James looks up instantly, eyes widening as they lock on you. Lily is fast asleep, baby Harry staring at you with his thumb stuck into his mouth.
âY/n, you okay?â James asks gently, but you donât reply, still looking at him with that distraught look on your face. You open your mouth, but you donât seem to have the vocabulary to express the heartache you felt right that moment. It felt strangely like grief; like you were mourning for the version of yourself you never got to meet, for the version of James who didnât have the chance to be yours.
James' mouth twists downwards in a frown as he stands up and steps closer towards you. Itâs like an alarm is set off in your head, and you immediately jolt back to the present, sucking in a deep breath.
Your legs act of their own accord as you stand up, Siriusâs hand falling limp on the couch as he looks up at you in surprise. You gulp down the lump in your throat and fiercely brush the tears away, James coming to a halt in front of you. âY/n, baby ââ
âIâm not your baby.â
James slaps a hand to his mouth, eyes as wide as Harryâs now. âFuck, no, it â it just came out. I didnât mean to. Shit, youâre crying.â
âIâm okay,â you warble. James opens his mouth to retort but you donât let him, knowing that the longer you spent here, the more the gaping hole in your chest would grow. You couldnât bear it anymore, watching James with his wife and wishing it was you instead. The worst part was that it was all your fault, your stupidity and your rejection.
âIâm fine, really. IâŠIâm gonna go now, it was nice meeting you. Convey my love to Remus, Peter and the girls.â You pick up your bag, moving to the front door with a befuddled James tracking your movements.
âY/n ââ
âBye, James,â you call out halfheartedly as you slip into your shoes. He comes to stand at the door, rocking Harry from side to side. He looks almost disappointed as you make to leave.
âIâm sorry.â
You look up, surprised. âItâs not your fault.â
Jamesâ lips pursed together with guilt, seeming like he wants to say something as he opens and closes his mouth. He finally sighs, âItâs not your fault either.
It was startling, how he still knew just the right thing to say â he always had. The regret that had been clogging up your heart for years was drained out upon hearing that one sentence. James didnât hold the utter failure of your relationship against you, and that was enough. If you couldnât have his love, at least you had his forgiveness.
You give him a half smile and nod, turning around to leave. Youâd go back to yours, more of a house than a home. But at least no one but yourself could hurt you there, there was no one to turn away and no hearts to break. No one to love.
âHey.â
You spin back around to face the door, heart stopping upon seeing the moistness in his eyes. You hear the scratchiness in his throat as he sucks in a deep breath.
âJamesâŠâ
âNo, donât â donât say anything. I just wanted to tell you, umâŠâ he defeatedly runs a hand through his hair and exhales shakily. âI hope we worked out, you know, in another life.â
That catches you off guard, your heart involuntarily squeezing in your chest. James looks almost embarrassed as he says it, but you see the vulnerability in his eyes. He was right â maybe there was some planet on which you were less of a coward, another world where he could put a ring on your finger. Heâd been yours to lose in this life, perhaps he was yours to love in another.
You clear your throat, feeling nausea brimming in the pits of your gut. âYeah, I⊠I hope so too.â
You spare yourself one last glance at him before turning towards the exit, praying he doesnât see the tears dribbling down your cheeks.
You squeeze your eyes shut and will yourself to trudge forward, before he can call out to you and break your heart all over again.
In a few long strides, youâre out the gates; out of Jamesâ life again.
hi lovely what about writing some sirius fluff with an emotionally exhausted reader? you can choose how you want it to go <3
Thank you baby, I hope this isn't too short and that it did justice.
You laid on your bed, your eyes open but your mind blank as your fingers play with the thread on the sheets. Why do I feel like this? That was the question you had, but you wanted to know what it was that you're feeling. You're not happy, you're not sad, you're not anxious or scared you're just... alive.
Somewhere in your mind it registers that the door was opened after a knock. You don't have the energy to even move to face the person that entered your room. Once he sat next to you, you recognised his signature leather scent. Sirius bent down to press a soft kiss to your hair, running his fingers through it.
"Hello dove. Everything all right," he asks. You could hear the worry oozing from his voice. It takes you a little while to formulate your reply.
When you do, you take a shaky breath and say, "I... don't know."
You could practically see Sirius's frown even though he wasn't in view. He crawled under the covers with you and wrapped his arms around your body, pulling you closer to him. You look up at him, straight into his grey eyes. He graces you with a little smile, warm enough to melt ice.
You press your face against his chest, gathering all the warmth and comfort his body can give you. Sirius hugs you to his chest, burying his face in the scent of your beautiful hair.
"I love you, my little dove," he whispers as your eyes become heavy with sleep.
"Love you more," you say, although your voice sounds like a mumble against Sirius, he knows what you're saying. He loves you the way you are, and he hopes you know that.
brooke youâre one to talk about beautiful writing!! đđ i love you <33
still here | r.l.
summary: it's your birthday :(
a/n: this is the first time iâve ever really cried when writing something, itâs got a home in my heart now and i hope you like it!! đ«¶ (also listen to our lovely girl billie for added heartbreak)
tw: past suicide attempt
You lean back on the couch from where youâre bending over the table. Remus wastes no time in wrapping an arm around your waist, pulling you into his side. He gently presses his lips to your forehead. âHappy birthday, lovely girl.â
âThank you,â you mumble half-heartedly, grateful but too overwhelmed to show it.Â
Thereâs a cut-up chocolate cake in front of you, which Remus had insisted upon baking. Heâd honoured your wishes not to throw a big bash, and of not wanting an actual present. He didnât exactly understand why â but he loved you too much to not do what you wanted him to; birthday or not.
Guilt weighs heavily on your heart; Remus has been kinder than you deserve. You decide to help him understand.
âYou know,â you start softly, tilting your head to lay it on his shoulder. He hums in acknowledgement, fingertips grazing your sleeve as he starts to rub your arm. âI didnât think I would last this long.â
The shakiness in your voice surprises even you. You feel Remusâ hand still on your arm.Â
âWhat?â he murmurs. You canât decipher if the slight lilt to his voice is because of sadness or confusion.
âI didnât think I would last this long,â you repeat quietly, just to be safe, and you feel his hand coasting across your back as he gently grabs your shoulders. He turns you towards him, and you donât wait for him to ask before you start to explain. âWhen I was 13, I couldnât imagine ever making it this far. I tried to kill myself.â
Remusâ eyes widen the slightest bit as he regards your sudden admission. His grip on your shoulders doesnât falter; and itâs like you both know heâs the only thing holding you upright.Â
When he doesnât respond, your gaze immediately drops to the couch, shame clouding your eyes.
âI⊠I didnât know that.â
The crack in his voice makes you look back up, meeting his gaze. His features are softer, sadder; somehow. Thereâs the slightest bit of grief in the way heâs regarding you. âAre you glad you made it this far?â
You rub your lips together, taking a shaky breath to make sure your voice comes out evenly. âYeah,â you exhale softly. âYeah, I am. I got to meet you.â
âIs that the only reason?â
âNo,â you reply honestly. âI love my work. My friends, I really like hanging out with them. And Iâd say our apartment is pretty sweet.â
The concern in Remusâ expression is still evident, his brows pinched almost painfully. His hands bunch up the fabric on your shoulders, tugging you towards him. Youâre certain the action is subconscious â he looks lost in thought, like heâs deliberating wrapping you up in his arms and never letting you go.
âWould you like more reasons?â you ask quietly, feeling your vision start to blur. You shouldnât be surprised that he cares this much, but you are.
When he nods, your heart melts â the magma seems to be pooling in your stomach, and you feel the kind of warmth youâve only ever been able to feel since you met him.
âOkay,â you decide to indulge him. âI like coffee when I wake up, especially when you make it. Feeding the stray dogs on the side of the road every morning. And my guitar, I like to make music on it. I think music is nice.â
Your throat starts to clog up, the image of Remus distorting into a blurry swirl in your vision. âItâs lovely when it rains, especially when weâre both at home, cuddling. And ââ
Your voice comes out wobbly. Youâre crying now, hot tears dribbling pathetically off your chin. You want to stop, but you push on for his sake.
âAnd I really like our apartment. Did I mention that? Also, your hugs â I love the way you hug. Itâs like you really love me, and ââ
âI do love you,â Remus interrupts, words barely audible from the way his voice is trembling. âI do love you, okay? I love you a whole lot. And Iâm so glad youâre still with me.â
He doesnât give you a chance to respond, gently pulling you even closer towards him. You meet him in the middle, arms instinctively wrapping around his waist as he brings his hands up to encircle your shoulders.
Remus squeezes you like itâs his job to hold you together, and you hear a soft sniffle as he buries his face in your hair.Â
âIâm so glad youâre still here,â he says again. Your heart clenches in your chest, in all the best ways.
âI love you,â you say in response, because you both know itâs synonymous with Thank you for giving me a reason to be here.
your barista remus is going to be de death of me
HAHAHA pls donât die but thank you lovely!!
still here | r.l.
summary: it's your birthday :(
a/n: this is the first time iâve ever really cried when writing something, itâs got a home in my heart now and i hope you like it!! đ«¶ (also listen to our lovely girl billie while reading for added heartbreak)
tw: past suicide attempt
You lean back on the couch from where youâre bending over the table. Remus wastes no time in wrapping an arm around your waist, pulling you into his side. He gently presses his lips to your forehead. âHappy birthday, lovely girl.â
âThank you,â you mumble half-heartedly, grateful but too overwhelmed to show it.Â
Thereâs a cut-up chocolate cake in front of you, which Remus had insisted upon baking. Heâd honoured your wishes not to throw a big bash, and of not wanting an actual present. He didnât exactly understand why â but he loved you too much to not do what you wanted him to; birthday or not.
Guilt weighs heavily on your heart; Remus has been kinder than you deserve. You decide to help him understand.
âYou know,â you start softly, tilting your head to lay it on his shoulder. He hums in acknowledgement, fingertips grazing your sleeve as he starts to rub your arm. âI didnât think I would last this long.â
The shakiness in your voice surprises even you. You feel Remusâ hand still on your arm.Â
âWhat?â he murmurs. You canât decipher if the slight lilt to his voice is because of sadness or confusion.
âI didnât think I would last this long,â you repeat quietly, just to be safe, and you feel his hand coasting across your back as he gently grabs your shoulders. He turns you towards him, and you donât wait for him to ask before you start to explain. âWhen I was 13, I couldnât imagine ever making it this far. I tried to kill myself.â
Remusâ eyes widen the slightest bit as he takes in your sudden admission. His grip on your shoulders doesnât falter; and itâs like you both know heâs the only thing holding you upright.Â
When he doesnât respond, your gaze immediately drops to the couch, shame clouding your eyes.
âI⊠I didnât know that.â
The crack in his voice makes you look back up, meeting his gaze. His features are softer, sadder; somehow. Thereâs the slightest bit of grief in the way heâs regarding you. âAre you glad you made it this far?â
You rub your lips together, taking a shaky breath to make sure your voice comes out evenly. âYeah,â you exhale softly. âYeah, I am. I got to meet you.â
âIs that the only reason?â
âNo,â you reply honestly. âI love my work. My friends, I really like hanging out with them. And Iâd say our apartment is pretty sweet.â
The concern in Remusâ expression is still evident, his brows pinched together almost painfully. His hands bunch up the fabric on your shoulders, tugging you towards him. Youâre certain the action is subconscious â he looks lost in thought, like heâs deliberating wrapping you up in his arms and never letting you go.
âWould you like more reasons?â you ask quietly, feeling your vision start to blur. You shouldnât be surprised that he cares this much, but you are.
When he nods, your heart melts â the magma seems to be pooling in your stomach, and you feel the kind of warmth youâve only ever been able to feel since you met him.
âOkay,â you decide to indulge him. âI like coffee when I wake up, especially when you make it. Feeding the stray dogs on the side of the road every morning. And my guitar, I like to make music on it. I think music is nice.â
You feel your throat start to clog up, the image of Remus distorting into a blurry swirl in your eyes. âItâs lovely when it rains, especially when weâre both at home, cuddling. And ââ
Your voice comes out wobbly, the tears coming hard and fast now. You want to stop, but push on for his sake.
âAnd I really like our apartment. Did I mention that? Also, your hugs â I love the way you hug. Itâs like you really love me, and ââ
âI do love you,â Remus interrupts in a shaky exhale, words barely audible from the way his voice is trembling. âI love you, okay? I love you a whole lot. And Iâm so glad youâre still with me.â
He doesnât give you a chance to respond, gently pulling you even closer towards him. You meet him in the middle, arms instinctively wrapping around his waist as he brings his hands up to encircle your shoulders.
Remus squeezes you like itâs his job to hold you together, and you hear a soft sniffle as he buries his face in your hair.Â
âIâm so glad youâre still here,â he says again. Your heart clenches in your chest, in all the best ways.
âI love you,â you respond, because you both know itâs synonymous with Thank you for giving me a reason to be here.