It Was Probably Haruka Tbh

it was probably haruka tbh

𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐁𝐒𝐃 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄𝐒

✧ Characters : Dazai, Chuuya, Akutagawa, Atsushi, Ranpo, Fyodor, Nikolai, Poe, Kunikida, Tachihara

✧ Word Count : 6K

✧ Warning : These can be triggering although I don’t know whether they’re accurate since these are simply my analyses, observations, and character study.

Disclaimer : This is a mini project to challenge myself to understand people and characters deeper. There is absolutely nothing personal against those who kin these characters. If I offend/hurt any of you, I apologise in advance.

— 𝗗𝗔𝗭𝗔𝗜 𝗢𝗦𝗔𝗠𝗨

Nihilistic. Commitment issues. Dubious.

You enjoy putting on an act or mindset that chips off pieces of you and it comes both deliberately or by instinct. It can be acting like someone you’re not, forcing yourself to fit into the definition of what’s “normal”, actively having self-destructive thoughts, making yourself hang around people you don’t click with, or sometimes all of them. You’ve lost your sense of creating meaningful bonds with other people because you can’t even be at peace with yourself.

What is self-fulfilment is to you? You place everyone at a safe distance and don’t mind if they leave because of your (artificial) antics. In fact, you foresee it happening. You see no point in connections if everyone is ultimately doomed because of themselves. You feel relief when you find out the hidden sides of other people because you’re uneasy if you don’t. That’s how you fidget. You have to know what’s incoming so you can brace yourself. The wariness is never gone, it’s as if you’re anticipating the exact moment they hurt you. You’re distrustful, never letting your guard down when interacting, even with those whom you like. You don’t want them to know that you know much.

Your awareness that everything lacks permanence combined with your wariness about everyone makes you pessimistic in forming new meaningful relations. Everyone is bound to either leave or screw things up, you see the lack of urgency to make amends to broken relations or to create new ones. You’re happy with who and what you have now, you’re satisfied with your stagnance. Nothing has to change. It’s comfortable this way.

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happy thursday everyone

i also made it a gif

hi milgrammers.... its me again....

sonic for real justice is a milgram fan

New episode looks great