I Stared To Type All Of This On The Night Of My Show But Literally Passed Out In The Middle, Cuz I Had

I stared to type all of this on the night of my show but literally passed out in the middle, cuz I had been up for 23 hours at that point! Today was my flight back home. It feels surreal that I saw him just day before yesterday (yesterday for me if you account for all the time zone differences) and now I’m back in my bed thousands of miles away 😭 Literally feels like a fever dream! To get to the point though (and you know this is about to get insanely long cuz who am I if not a rambler?)

First and foremost HE IS NEVER EVER BEATING THE SUN ALLEGATIONS!!! I had been in Istanbul for a week before the show day, and the weather had been cool and cloudy and it had even rained on and off, come concert day the SUN came out in full force!!! It was the sunniest it had been all week! He literally just carries the sunshine with him 😭

About the show itself; OMG!!! I have watched every single livestream from Dallas to Mexico City n3 but nothing could have prepared me for Louis in real life. Seeing him with my own two eyes makes him even more unreal if that’s possible. He’s literally impossibly beautiful. He radiates. He’s everything! HIS VOICE. It’s so pretty 😭 it’s wind chimes on a sea side resort, it’s hummingbirds in a serene jungle, it’s gritty when it needs to be and soft when it needs to be and I just… I’m speechless but I also want to write multiple essays on the topic! If only I was eloquent enough! Livestreams truly cannot capture the real quality of it, even though he sounds so beautiful on those too, but in person it’s just, there’s this quality to it, like dripping honey and so effortlessly cool.

God he was so happy and babie!!! Ngl I was hoping I’d get a slutty Louis show but OMG he was so so so happy and babie and cheeky! And he looked so good I can’t even explain. I absolutely loved the top he wore for the show! 😍 he had the most beautiful wispy hair situation going on, his skin looked so unreal and beautiful, his tattoos in real life 😭😭😭 His bone structure!!! How is that even possible?!? The royal peach?!? EXCUSE ME SIR! With that waist, and the way he holds himself! And moves his delicate hands and pops that hip sometimes. His smile!!! It lit up the entire place!!! HIS EYES!!! like they literally sparkle like actual gems 😭 I just could go on and on and on times infinity!

It took me about 4 songs to notice that Matt wasn’t even there cuz I couldn’t peel my eyes away from Louis. (I may have peeled them away for a few seconds to oggle at Michael though - GOOD GOD. That man is hot! I have some Michael content to post too!)

And I know that so many people have already mentioned this fact before but omg his stage presence. He owns the entire space. There were tens of thousands of people there, and the crowd was insanely rowdy but the second he hits that stage - he commands every iota of your attention. The way he prowls the entire stage, at times bunny hopping, and makes sure to go to every corner, and interact with every section! Mr. Pointy Fingers as always, pointing at signs, flipping people off, being his cheeky adorable self! It was an EXPERIENCE™ seeing it all live 😭 I will never forget, I want it all tattooed on the inside of eyelids! And I truly hope that every single louie gets to experience it for themselves!

Seems like he’s gonna stick to the San Juan set list for the Asian leg. (I tried to include my track by track rambling on the show in this post but tumblr said I dont think so cuz apparently I exceeded the word limit allowed for one post 🫣 so I guess I’ll make a separate post for that even if just for myself. Cuz I want to remember it all)!

TRULY AN EXPERIENCE OF A LIFETIME. And I’m so glad that I got to share it with other solos 🤍 So glad to have met both of you in person Max & Vee! @fearlesspuff @sunshinebinx and so so thankful to have had you there throughout the waiting line torture and the gate entrance madness and then the after show freaking out! Hope we can attend future Louis concerts together some day too! x

Louis being the cutest

Vienna 11/04/22

7 high note

Vienna 11/04/22

Smiley Louis 🥰

Vienna 11/04/22

He is the cutest 🥰

Istanbul 30/06/22

are you ok though? like not hurt or anything? my friend's back was bruised because of all the pushing :(

Hiiii! Thank you so much for asking and sorry for the late reply, I’m okay thankfully (other than the aches and pains of not being a teenager and being in line and sitting on the side walk under the scorching sun for 12 hours and then standing in the crowd for the show to start for 4 hours). So a total of 16 hours of torturous wait!

I wanted to answer your ask to talk about the situation there, even though I’m pretty sure most people are already aware of it, and have seen all the horror stories on twitter. The organization of the concert (which Louis and team had NOTHING to do with) was one of the worst experiences of my concert going life. Of my life in general too I think. The organizers had ZERO concern for fans safety and well being. They told us they’d open the gates at 1 pm to let us form organized/civilized waiting lines in a snake barricade in parking lots on either side of the park but they didn’t do any such thing. There were two fan-made queues that led to the two sides of the entrance which then formed the entire crowd (separated by that runway barricade). One of the lines was absolute pandemonium throughout the 12 hours of waiting, and the other was thankfully a lot more organized with us sitting in twos on the literal pavement next to a very busy road. But at least we were sitting and that too in a very calm manner. Thank God my fellow solos and I chose to be on the more organized side. Can’t even imagine how the other side people survived!

Once they did open the gates at around 5/5:30 pm I cannot even put into words the kind of insanity that took place. There was no order, there was only survival of the fittest! People were pushed shoved attacked scratched I can’t even explain, I lost my jacket during the entrance part (but thankfully recovered it after the show from the lost and found of the venue - which the organisers had nothing to do with btw, the venue was simply rented by them for the concert). Cannot thank V and Max enough for being there with me during THAT madness. Max got separated from us right before the gates opened, V and I linked arms and entered together but then we also got separated when they were checking our ticket codes. I then found both again later on in the pit though lol, ended up being one person away from Max in the pit thank God.

Here’s a video of how packed like sardines we were in the crowd, constantly being pushed forward by the people in the back, and backwards by the people in the front. Loads of fights broke out in the crowd. There was an actual fist fight between two girls very very close to me too (directioners) 🙄 The thing is though, the literal second that Louis walked out on stage none of it mattered any more on a personal level! But that is not to say that the organizers shouldn’t somehow be held accountable for the way they handled it all, I hope that Louis’ team sees all the horror stories on twitter and doesn’t engage these people again for future tours, because they don’t deserve it. Just because most of us would undergo that sort of torture for Louis doesn’t mean it’s right, and that action shouldn’t be taken against the people that were supposed to be responsible for the safe management of the entire show.