To Yall Who Sent Me Requests: I Have Received Them All And Im Going To Be Working On Them Tomorrow, Stay

To y’all who sent me requests: I have received them all and I’m going to be working on them tomorrow, stay tuned :D

(I apologise they couldn’t be done sooner, too)

oh i could yap on for so long about how much i love Cabin Fever, it’s a showcase of Uzi’s mind and fears and anxieties, in particular her fear of abandonment/being left alone, because she’s only just getting used to having someone by her side and she’s terrified of being alone again because now she knows how miserable she used to be when she didn’t have anyone to count on

The episode isn’t about shipping, it’s about an outcast character who only just found her place being scared of being outcasted and hurt by the ones she opened up to, and the Solver preying on her fears and using her panic to take control while she can’t fight it off.

She points out “Yeah they’re my friends too” and she gets bitter over N and V fitting in because she’s been trying her whole life to fit in and was never able to, so of course she’d feel bitter when her classmates would rather spend time with V, who would have massacred the Prom literally last episode if Doll hadn’t done her thing (N is more chill though I don’t think she’d feel as bitter over N because she’d likely be able to reason with her emotions easier there? Idk)

(ALSO IM NOT SAYING THE WORKERS CANT LIKE V IM SAYING THEY FORGIVE V’S MURDER WAY QUICKER THAN THEY FORGIVE UZI’S ENTIRE PERSONALITY)

It’s why the sky therapy session is so good, Uzi is terrified of being alone and she can’t just say that or open up and tell N that, and when she finally does she immediately tries to undermine her own feelings by saying “Nevermind, it’s stupid!”, because being vulnerable isn’t something she’s used to and it hasn’t worked for her before. And then N gently reassures her and lets her open up to him (she opens her wings to look at him better after he reassures her, quite literally coming out of her shell).

Cabin Fever is an episode that both showcases that V knows more than N does, it showcases more of what the Solver can do, and it’s an episode about someone who is terrified of being alone trying to deal with her anxieties alone and realising it can’t work.

“I’m not dealing with everything well, but I’m done dealing with everything alone,” was a line from episode 3, well episode 4 is the one that forced Uzi to learn what that really meant, and to learn that yeah she can be vulnerable around N.

Anyways episode 4 is one my favourite episodes and whoops i accidentally wrote an essay about it uhHHHHH- *backflips into the void*

Why is it that whenever someone tries to explain why Nuzi is a bad ship, or why it’s not healthy, etc. they place all the blame on Uzi?

It feels like majority of this fandom uses Uzi as a scapegoat and then only cares about N in the context of ships.

(And I know not everyone says/believes this, but it’s a large enough portion that I felt the need to rant about it)

N is not perfect and he’s also his own individual character. He’s a very complex and smart individual, and it’s honestly heartbreaking how this fandom dumbs him down so harshly

One thing that gets me so incredibly heated is the spreading of misinformation and mischaracterization and N, UZI, AND V are all mischaracterized so horribly it’s gotten to the point where I fear half of this fandom lacks basic literary comprehension.

Cabin fever is one of the best examples of this. From what I’ve seen, it is one of the most hated episodes and I low-key believe that is only because it’s so misunderstood (that or people think it’s a useless filler, which I can see, but I personally believe it was just as needed as the other episodes)

No, Uzi was not upset because she was ‘jealous’ N was hanging out with the other campers. She was upset because her classmates were more accepting of the ones who WERE CREATED LITERALLY JUST TO KILL THEIR KIND than her. Uzi is also not a ‘pick me.’ A pick me is someone who does too much in order to seek male validation. Uzi has never done anything to try and steal the spotlight or attract attention— all she’s done is shown affection for the one person in her life who showed her care. And no, her character was not ruined after the pilot. She was so harsh in the pilot because she was extremely emotionally damaged. The reason why she’s gotten softer is because she’s HEALING

No, V is not jealous and sad and miserable because of N and Uzi‘s relationship. She cares about both of them equally. Yes, it took her a minute to warm up to Uzi, but she did eventually. The only reason she was trying to kill Uzi/get rid of her in the first place was because of the absolute solver— it wasn’t because she was jealous that N was spending more time with Uzi than her. Gosh, I could ramble on and on about the complexity of V’s character— it’s upsetting how many people sideline her

And N, oh, N… this fandom has dumbed him down so much. Yall realize N had his suspicions about ‘Tessa’ since the very beginning, right? He knew something was off for such a long time but he had nothing to prove it/he probably didn’t want to believe it at first. But when he asked her “You knew about the patch, yes or no?” And she responded with “You know why I keep you around, N?” That confirmed everything for him IMMEDIATELY. And that’s just one of several examples showcasing N’s intelligence

I’m not very good with words, so this is probably jumbled and I definitely missed a lot of points, but I needed to share something before I exploded 

Depending on the response, I’ll probably end up deleting this, because I’m a huge baby and can’t handle people people yelling at me if I’m wrong 😭

Angst-ridden reminder that V caught a bullet for Tessa in E6 only for it to not be her and instead the puppet of the thing she’s ACTIVELY FIGHTING AGAINST

V and Tessa should get to have a spiderman pointing moment in the afterlife I think

Rubberhose style murder dronessssssssss

V’s a bit scuffed, I’ll redraw her at some point

Forgot to post this here, new pfp! Also new username, I’ve decided to go with Synthstruck over Starstruck_Static as the latter is a bit of a mouthful so call me Syn I guess…? Idk

I’ve also made a bucket head base for N’s fursuit head, hoping to get started on the shape for the rest of the head soon!

I stopped reading this series after the first Vision of Shadows book and I don’t know/remember anything that happens after Omen of the Stars but I like that orange choc chip cat everyone’s talking about