That Alternative Ending Where The Tb Stayed On The Space Station And Became A Researcher. How Much Angst

that alternative ending where the tb stayed on the space station and became a researcher. how much angst do you think it can contain

why cant i read a book and watch a movie and play a game and clean all at the same time

"what was your first _____" "when you were a kid what did you _____" "how old were you when ______" i don't knowwwww i don't knowwwwwwwwwww i can't rememberrrrrrrrr

IMAGINE IF YOU CAN GET ACHIEVEMENT FROM HAVING SUNDAY AND ROBIN IN YOUR TEAM FGHSDASJDSFGHASDJSAH

angst / little blurb on how i think ruan mei would grieve

as someone that’s studied thousands of walks of life and what makes them what they are, ruan mei is familiar with death.

creations pass on too early all the time. she is used to tallying them up and recording the failures before moving on.

had you never wormed your way into her schedule and endeared yourself to her, the news of your untimely passing would just be another tally.

but you smiled a lot. you approached her with an open mind and didn’t push or pull her in your direction. you weren’t put off by her disposition and eccentric fascinations.

ruan mei knows that she loved you.

but did you know? ruan mei logically tells herself that you must have.

there were lingering touches. she recognized the way her heart beat to the tune of your voice and the sound of your laugh. you didn’t look… unhappy.

when geniuses are faced with a problem, their hands itch to pen solutions.

so ruan mei grieves.

she connects herself with your other friends, which she would have deemed exhausting and frivolous prior to your passing. even if she’s seen as an awkward loose end that has your distraught friends raising their eyebrows.

when she misses the way you used to greet her, even when she was absorbed in work, she doesn’t work harder to distract herself immediately. instead she allows her eyes to sting for a few seconds before doing so.

no one is able to tell from the outside, but if she was asked why she was less productive than usual, she’d say something like "there is a factor missing from the experiment." she knows how to sidestep because it is easier than trying to explain her thought process.

ruan mei loved you. she will continue to do so, because she does not see it as an exercise in futility. the universe is ever-expanding and boundless. she sees it as a promise to share a dessert with you when you two cross paths again—whenever that may be.