Depression Is Like The Weight Of The World On Your Chest And The Best I Can Describe Anxiety Is Like

Depression is like the weight of the world on your chest and the best I can describe anxiety is like that feeling when your back is to an open door at night in a neighborhood that you don't reside in. Or when you feel pressure because ya bank card ain't working at the atm and behind you is a line, a long line of angry impatient people...nah that SITUATION itself would probably trigger anxiety, for me at least😅. But yeah different scenarios cause mental pressure and sometimes some people don't handle social pressure all that well.

what's f***** up about my mind is that I have normalized being not too happy or excited because from multiple past experiences, usually when I feel super happy or hype in that moment randomly, it usually means something bad is about to happen and this has never failed. And I feel really (somewhat) manic or excited right now so I'm not sure if I'm about to get clobbered with some sort of bad news and plummet... It sucks having a shield around your heart and mind all the f****** time. it's weird but over time this is something that has developed in my personality

Okay time for me to post some music or something I want this blog to be a combination of everything that is me. Not just the worst

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Just trying to keep myself calm

Yo when you are really stressed out I think it helps to type this:

123456789101112131415161718192021222324252627282930313233343536373839404142434445464748495051525354555657585960 or higher It helps me sometimes.

Why is it that when you're high, your mind tends to start thinking about all of the craziest analytical s***? Like how much tetrahydrocannabinol is in this green, that's going to make my brain release how many endorphins that's going to create how much dopamine to kill me?