the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.
the-complexity-of-love
What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

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the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
a series of panels featuring the main party in dungeon meshi, as they appear in the cover of the daydream hour compilation, done in warm colours against a pale pink background. in the first, falin hugs senshi around the neck and bends down to kiss his temple, while he smiles and pats her arm. senshi then turns to pass the kiss onto chilchuck, who crosses his arms and screws his face up, blushing, as he's kissed on the cheek.
izutsumi baps an unamused chilchuck in the face before he can turn to her. without looking back, she does the same to laios, smacking her open palm over his smiling face as he comes up behind her, arms open for a hug.
laios gently holds marcille's smiling face in his hands and bends down to kiss the crown of her head. marcille then turns and is startled by falin, who leans closer to her, tilts her head, and points at her own lips in an unspoken request.
flustered, marcille fidgets with her hair, pulling it over her shoulder and twirling a lock with her finger, as she avoids falin's steady, patient gaze. behind them, the rest of the party sends mixed encouragement: senshi smiles, laios gives two thumbs up and a wide grin, chilchuck heckles supportively, and izutsumi simply pictures herself.
in a much simpler cartoon style, marcille steels herself, pumping her fists, while falin fondly waits for her.
marcille launches herself at falin in a spirited kiss. she's bright red to her ears, hair whipping out behind her, arms wrapped firmly around falin's neck. falin returns the kiss happily, bringing her arms around to hold marcille. the force scatters petals from the flowers tucked in their hair and in falin's belt.

pass it on!

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the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

tbh rollo’s plan to get rid of magic is more equivalent to building a machine that breaks every single cell phone in the world. It would not kill anyone however if would deeply mess up everything about modern society and upset a lot of people emotionally and financially.

like being a mage is a skill and a prized skill at that. being a mage isn’t a minority like being queer or disabled, it’s a minority in the way that being rich is a minority. yes, technically they’re not the majority of the population, but they actually hold more power than non mages

meanwhile Idia and Ortho tried to kill everyone on the entire planet.

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

Three of the four elements are represented in types of hockey; Air hockey (air), field hockey (earth), ice hockey (water). Fire hockey needs to be a thing.

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

I understand the argument that while transformative and derivative works have always existed, "fanfiction" as a medium is inherently connected to the concept of IP law and thus is a specifically contemporary art/craft movement, I get it I really do, but also twenty years after the canterbury tales were finished an english monk wrote his own additional chapter and added himself as a character, and I'm sorry but that man should have been on wattpad

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

why is religious Christmas imagery all so joyful and pleasant? where is the inherent horror of the birth of Christ? A mother is handed her newborn child, wailing and innocent. Her hands come away sticky. Red. Simply by giving her son life she has already killed him. He is doomed from the beginning. Her love will not save him from suffering. Because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby, it is a sacrifice: born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it. the night is silent with anticipation. Mary, did you know? That your womb was also a grave?

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

every time I see some bigshot scientist revealed as a fraud my knee-jerk reaction is "hell yeah elisabeth bik got 'em good" AND IM RIGHT

Every Time I See Some Bigshot Scientist Revealed As A Fraud My Knee-jerk Reaction Is "hell Yeah Elisabeth
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PubPeer enables scientists to search for their publications or their peers publications and provide feedback and/or start a conversation ano

SHE NEVER QUITS!!!!

Every Time I See Some Bigshot Scientist Revealed As A Fraud My Knee-jerk Reaction Is "hell Yeah Elisabeth
Every Time I See Some Bigshot Scientist Revealed As A Fraud My Knee-jerk Reaction Is "hell Yeah Elisabeth

ICONIC!!!!

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

To this day it blows my mind that when Naoko Takeuchi and Yoshihiro Togashi started dating, Togashi looked haggard to the point where he told an assistant that police regularly stopped him on the street for looking “suspicious”. And Ferrari-driving, couture-wearing Naoko still gave him a chance. The man was swimming in a pile of trash

To This Day It Blows My Mind That When Naoko Takeuchi And Yoshihiro Togashi Started Dating, Togashi Looked

looking like THIS

To This Day It Blows My Mind That When Naoko Takeuchi And Yoshihiro Togashi Started Dating, Togashi Looked

And he still married THIS WOMAN

To This Day It Blows My Mind That When Naoko Takeuchi And Yoshihiro Togashi Started Dating, Togashi Looked
To This Day It Blows My Mind That When Naoko Takeuchi And Yoshihiro Togashi Started Dating, Togashi Looked

His personality must be great

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.
the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.
the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
Oops I Dropped My Updated Drive Of DnD Resources That I'd NEVER Put The 2024 Player's Handbook On, Or
Oops I Dropped My Updated Drive Of DnD Resources That I'd NEVER Put The 2024 Player's Handbook On, Or
Oops I Dropped My Updated Drive Of DnD Resources That I'd NEVER Put The 2024 Player's Handbook On, Or
Oops I Dropped My Updated Drive Of DnD Resources That I'd NEVER Put The 2024 Player's Handbook On, Or

Oops I dropped my updated drive of DnD resources that I'd NEVER put the 2024 Player's Handbook on, or any other materials.

That would be so reckless of me. Who would leave 100+ DnD materials just laying around?

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
Lucy Heartfilia Redesign, It's That Time Of The Year When My Fairy Tail Fixation Comes Back

Lucy Heartfilia redesign, it's that time of the year when my fairy tail fixation comes back

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The
Random Compilation Of That Scattered Clothes Meme Thing I Did With Twst Characters, But With Just The

Random compilation of that scattered clothes meme thing I did with twst characters, but with just the outfits I kinda liked from both attempts. And yes, I don’t have any sense whatsoever 😉 Rip to the ones that were originally too small so now their resolution suffers horribly lmao that’s my bad 🤡 480p ahh art

Ko-fi

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

tumblr users love reading. you literally stopped for this post just because it has words in it

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

Stuck on the idea of vampires as a kind of reverse fae, or like someone's twisted, perverse attempt at moulding humans into fae.

They're repelled by liminal spaces.

A vampire could never enter fairyland, not just because they'd never be welcomed, but because most of the usual entry-ways are naturally barred to them.

They can't cross running water. They can't be seen in mirrors. They will wait forever at a crossroads, unable to pick a direction to go in. They can't even step over a thresh-hold unless there is absolutely no ambiguity about whether they are welcome inside.

They crave human blood, iron and salt, but are repelled by herbs and plants. They are supernaturally prevented from harming you unless the rules of hospitality have been invoked.

A fairy may replace your newborn child with something unnatural and ever-hungry. A vampire will do the same, but with your grandmother's corpse.

The fae are typically associated, even in stories where they're the bad guys, with flourishing and purity. Vampires, even in stories where they're the good guys, are typically associated with decay and corruption.

The fae turn ancient human burial mounds into fancy halls for their courts. Vampires take ancient human castles and let them grow mildewed and cobwebbed, exchanging the beds for coffins, turning them into burial places.

Fae don't tend to live among humans, but can generally pass for them with relative ease if they so choose. Vampires nearly always live among humans, but tend to find not revealing themselves a huge struggle.

I can't think of many stories I've read where fae and vampires even exist in the same universe, let alone ones where they actively interact. I feel like their enmity is almost more inevitable than that between vampires and werewolves, however.

The rivalry between vampires and werewolves is, essentially, the rivalry between two apex predator species who share a territory. (Even in stories where the werewolves aren't actually hunting humans.)

The vampires hate the werewolves because the werewolves interfere with their access to prey. The werewolves hate the vampires either because they consider themselves aligned with humans (the prey species), or because they are also predators and the vampires are competing with them.

By comparison, I think there's some story potential in the fae finding something genuinely creepy and uncanny valley about vampires.

They're immortal, like them, but also dead. They can be beautiful, like them, but that beauty is something they actively require humans to sustain. They like to inhabit beautiful and ancient ex-human dwellings, like them, but they actively work to make those places dark, damp and empty.

Fairies who are unflappable in the face of all sorts of Otherworldly monsters, can look an eldritch horror in the eye(s) without blinking, and have never been phased yet by any human, but will recoil from even the weakest vampire.

Vampires who hate fairies just as much, but in a more envious way. The way that the creature for whom immortality is a curse is bound to hate the creatures for whom immortality is an eternity of sunlight and laughter.

Maybe their touches burn each other. Maybe vampires can't stand physical contact with anything so alive and vital. Maybe immortal fairies become ill from too much exposure to the undead.

Maybe they fight over the human population when their territories overlap. The fairy need for servants and people to make deals with, competing with the vampire need for thralls and blood to drink.

Just… fairies and vampires. We need more stories about them interacting.

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
Workout For Daily Life
Workout For Daily Life
Workout For Daily Life
Workout For Daily Life
Workout For Daily Life
Workout For Daily Life

Workout For Daily Life

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

If Malleus and Silver are the brothers who treat each other with mutual respect and would stab other people to protect each other, Jade and Floyd are the brothers who'd stab each other by way of saying hello brother I love you

If Malleus And Silver Are The Brothers Who Treat Each Other With Mutual Respect And Would Stab Other

"Ja~~dey~~ You finally awake?" *Proceeds to kick him in the fucking balls

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

you are 16. you are talking with a gay man in his 50s or 60s, a friend, huge and gentle with a scarf and short fluffy curls of gray hair, who has directed you in two plays staged in your mid-size artsy town. (he has not yet asked you to be in his production of The Laramie Project which will change your life. this conversation will also change your life.)

he is talking about theatre. he is talking about theatre when he was younger. he says, "of course, it was AIDS then." in the pause, you ask him. clumsy and quiet and 16 and "straight," you ask him. what was it like.

he takes a moment in which his face is not like a person's face. "there was a time," he says, "i'm not sure how long, years. when i went to a funeral every weekend." he tells you about two funerals in a day, and choosing between friends when you couldn't make it to both. he does not look at you, he looks at them. his wet grey gaze is so clear that you start to see ghosts. it will be years before you understand why it feels like your grief too. why the ghosts call you family.

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

Obkk ghost marriage fic where after kannabi bridge, the Uchiha decide Kakashi can keep the eye but only if he agrees to marry Obito's ghost in a traditional ghost marriage.

(This also means he officially joins the Uchiha clan. Maybe lean into how he knows very little ab his own clan history, so there's like some minor complexes playing off of that as he ultimately takes up the Uchiha name and traditions, effectively abandoning his own -> which could also play interestingly into his negative views of his father at that age. This also means he moves out of his clan compound and into the Uchiha district— which is actually really good for his mental health)

Kakashi doesn't argue, he sees it as the ultimate atonement actually. He's incredibly dutiful but especially so at that age. He'd take it dead fuckin seriously and be the best ghost bride possible. Instead of constantly going to the memorial stone he has like a proper shrine to honor him in the house where he leaves his favorite foods n stuff

Like little 13 year old widower Kakashi w Rin as his witness rip

I'm not the biggest Rin fan bc her canon characterization feels like that usual boring "girl crush turned martyr" (naruto misogony strikes again rip) and I've yet to find any interpretations that really strike me— with one exception.

I don't remember the fic, and Rin only showed up for part of it, but I remember being rlly taken by her in it. It highlighted her being as struck by Obito's death as Kakashi, with her an official mednin working overtime in the hospital as the war ramped up. Also it gave her a smoking habit!! I can appreciate a well played addiction to cope in text. Idk I just read it and kinda went "woah she suddenly feels like a real person to me"

But like, that for Rin here. She's working triple overtime in the hospital, day and night. The war is getting worse and worse and some nights she comes home w her gloves still stained in the blood of her patients from back to back surgeries where her patients died on the table. They have her listed for eye trauma specifically after her successful transplant for Kakashi, and she's proving to be invaluable for the patients w eye based kekkei genkkai. She wants to go into specifically researching and healing for eye bloodline limits, but is struggling to convince the clans to allow her access to that information.

Kakashi's new home is closer to the hospital that Rin's parents, and stuff w her parents is starting to get... tense. It hurts them, to see their daughter struggling like this. To see her coming home with dulled eyes and bloodied hands. To be waken by her nightmares and then not know how to comfort her.

Rin slowly starts staying over with Kakashi more and more and after a while she's just kind of fully moved in, but neither of them actually really talk about it

Let them be best friends w a kind of codependency on eachother that would be concerning if not for how it's very clearly keeping both of their heads afloat as days go on and things get worse.

Queerplatonic besties Rin and Kakashi sharing the same bed so when they wake up screaming they can help eachother go back to sleep easier. Rin likes it when Kakashi summons his ninken to sleep w them. They sleep easier w eachother bc they feel safer knowing they're there to have eachothers back, just like they would on the field

Anyways, Kakashi moves out of his clan compound and into the Uchiha's. He's neighbors with a little 6 year old Shisui and is kind of picked up by the scruff by a lot of Uchiha who have really weird complex feelings ab Obito's death (many of them feeling bad ab not having reached out before to him / seeing him die so young, and then projecting that onto Kakashi)

Kakashi and sometimes Rin kind of accidentally becoming a babysitter for Itachi both bc of proximity and bc Mikoto is friends with Kushina

On that note -> Minato does not really get the ghost marriage thing. He's civilian born, and the practice is really old and hasn't really been used since like, warring states era. So Minato is kind of weirded out and very "uhhh. Are you SURE this is what you wanna do?" But Kakashi seems set, and like, if it helps him cope???

He is however very supportive of getting Kakashi out of the fucking tomb of his father's house and into the much more populated and lively Uchiha clan compound

Minato makes Kakashi ANBU and designates him as his home guard specifically to keep him off the battlefield. He lowkey does the same to Rin (minus the ANBU part) positioning her in the hospital and making sure she's getting that good good mednin education. If pressed on why she doesn't go out as a field medic, he insists it's because she shows too much promise as a healer to risk— not now that they've lost Tsunade. If Rin can grow to be even half as good as she is, it'll be worth keeping her away from the fighting.

Neither Kakashi nor Rin feel very good about this decision (tho hypocritically, they agree w it when it comes to the other, bc ofc they do)

Rin doesn't die bc I say so and Obito does a comedy spit take when he inevitably learns he's legally married to Kakashi under the eyes of the Sage, Amaterasu and all.

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

the-complexity-of-love - What matters is 'you' and not the state of you.

in another universe

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

One of my favourite questions for figuring out a character’s motivations is which qualities they most fear being assigned to them. Are they afraid (consciously or unconsciously) of being seen as stupid? Ungrateful? Weak? Incompetent? Lazy? Cowardly? Intimidating? Like they actually care? etc.

It’s such a fun way to explore into who they are, why they do what they do, what they don’t do out of fear, and how they might be affected by the events of the story. And I love when characters have negative motivations—trying to avoid something (in this case, being seen a particular way) as much as they’re trying to achieve a goal.

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
Thats How You Get A Scholarship Ykyk

That’s how you get a scholarship ykyk

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago
The Gaang (plus Uncle Iroh)
The Gaang (plus Uncle Iroh)
The Gaang (plus Uncle Iroh)

The Gaang (plus Uncle Iroh)

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

Ozai is so pathetic, like that “take his bending away haha he’s harmless now” trick would never have worked on Zuko, if you took his bending away he’d just grab his swords and come at you twice as hard, Azula doesn’t have swords or anything but she’s pretty good at hand to hand and amazing at talking her way out of problems, Iroh bust himself out of prison with no bending at all, meanwhile Ozai? Gets his bending taken away and then just collapses, doesn’t even try anymore, then just sits in prison and tries to get into Zuko’s head some more, he could have trained up and tried to break out too! But no! Bet he can’t break steel bars with his bare hands. Bet he can’t kick a steel lever in two. Bet he can’t even do a flip.

Also we never really see him do any really impressive firebending apart from when he has magic comet power, I guesss he shoots some lightning at Zuko, but that’s it and Azula is still better at the lightning thing. Azula has blue flames. Zuko can do firebreakdancing and bend with his swords. Does Ozai, who is not 14 years old, have blue flames? No he doesn’t.

He didn’t even do his coup himself, Ursa had to kill Azulon for him! Could have just challenged Iroh to an Agni Kai for the throne but he didn’t bc he knew he’d lose.

And then he only ruled for like 6 years! He lost a war that had been going on for 100 years bc of a bunch of kids.

Loserlord indeed

the-complexity-of-love
7 months ago

So You Want to Read More about Chinese Mythos: a rough list of primary sources

"How/Where can I learn more about Chinese mythology?" is a question I saw a lot on other sites, back when I was venturing outside of Shenmo novel booksphere and into IRL folk religions + general mythos, but had rarely found satisfying answers.

As such, this is my attempt at writing something past me will find useful.

(Built into it is the assumption that you can read Chinese, which I only realized after writing the post. I try to amend for it by adding links to existing translations, as well as links to digitalized Chinese versions when there doesn't seem to be one.)

The thing about all mythologies and legends is that they are 1) complicated, and 2) are products of their times. As such, it is very important to specify the "when" and "wheres" and "what are you looking for" when answering a question as broad as this.

-Do you want one or more "books with an overarching story"?

In that case, Journey to the West and Investiture of the Gods (Fengshen Yanyi) serve as good starting points, made more accessible for general readers by the fact that they both had English translations——Anthony C. Yu's JTTW translation is very good, Gu Zhizhong's FSYY one, not so much.

Crucially, they are both Ming vernacular novels. Though they are fictional works that are not on the same level of "seriousness" as actual religious scriptures, these books still took inspiration from the popular religion of their times, at a point where the blending of the Three Teachings (Buddhism, Daoism, Confucianism) had become truly mainstream.

And for FSYY specifically, the book had a huge influence on subsequent popular worship because of its "pantheon-building" aspect, to the point of some Daoists actually putting characters from the novel into their temples.

(Vernacular novels + operas being a medium for the spread of popular worship and popular fictional characters eventually being worshipped IRL is a thing in Ming-Qing China. Meir Shahar has a paper that goes into detail about the relationship between the two.)

After that, if you want to read other Shenmo novels, works that are much less well-written but may be more reflective of Ming folk religions at the time, check out Journey to the North/South/East (named as such bc of what basically amounted to a Ming print house marketing strategy) too.

-Do you want to know about the priestly Daoist side of things, the "how the deities are organized and worshipped in a somewhat more formal setting" vs "how the stories are told"?

Though I won't recommend diving straight into the entire Daozang or Yunji Qiqian or some other books compiled in the Daoist text collections, I can think of a few "list of gods/immortals" type works, like Liexian Zhuan and Zhenling Weiye Tu.

Also, though it is much closer to the folk religion side than the organized Daoist side, the Yuan-Ming era Grand Compendium of the Three Religions' Deities, aka Sanjiao Soushen Daquan, is invaluable in understanding the origins and evolutions of certain popular deities.

(A quirk of historical Daoist scriptures is that they often come up with giant lists of gods that have never appeared in other prior texts, or enjoy any actual worship in temples.)

(The "organized/folk" divide is itself a dubious one, seeing how both state religion and "priestly" Daoism had channels to incorporate popular deities and practices into their systems. But if you are just looking at written materials, I feel like there is still a noticeable difference.)

Lastly, if you want to know more about Daoist immortal-hood and how to attain it: Ge Hong's Baopuzi (N & S. dynasty) and Zhonglv Chuandao Ji (late Tang/Five Dynasties) are both texts about external and internal alchemy with English translations.

-Do you want something older, more ancient, from Warring States and Qin-Han Era China?

Classics of Mountains and Seas, aka Shanhai Jing, is the way to go. It also reads like a bestiary-slash-fantastical cookbook, full of strange beasts, plants, kingdoms of unusual humanoids, and the occasional half-man, half-beast gods.

A later work, the Han-dynasty Huai Nan Zi, is an even denser read, being a collection of essays, but it's also where a lot of ancient legends like "Nvwa patches the sky" and "Chang'e steals the elixir of immortality" can be first found in bits and pieces.

Shenyi Jing might or might not be a Northern-Southern dynasties work masquerading as a Han one. It was written in a style that emulated the Classics of Mountains and Seas, and had some neat fantastic beasts and additional descriptions of gods/beasts mentioned in the previous 2 works.

-Do you have too much time on your hands, a willingness to get through lot of classical Chinese, and an obsession over yaoguais and ghosts?

Then it's time to flip open the encyclopedic folklore compendiums——Soushen Ji (N/S dynasty), You Yang Za Zu (Tang), Taiping Guangji (early Song), Yijian Zhi (Southern Song)...

Okay, to be honest, you probably can't read all of them from start to finish. I can't either. These aren't purely folklore compendiums, but giant encyclopedias collecting matters ranging from history and biography to medicine and geography, with specific sections on yaoguais, ghosts and "strange things that happened to someone".

As such, I recommend you only check the relevant sections and use the Full Text Search function well.

Pu Songling's Strange Tales from a Chinese Studios, aka Liaozhai Zhiyi, is in a similar vein, but a lot more entertaining and readable. Together with Yuewei Caotang Biji and Zi Buyu, they formed the "Big Three" of Qing dynasty folktale compendiums, all of which featured a lot of stories about fox spirits and ghosts.

Lastly...

The Yuan-Ming Zajus (a sort of folk opera) get an honorable mention. Apart from JTTW Zaju, an early, pre-novel version of the story that has very different characterization of SWK, there are also a few plays centered around Erlang (specifically, Zhao Erlang) and Nezha, such as "Erlang Drunkenly Shot the Demon-locking Mirror". Sadly, none of these had an English translation.

Because of the fragmented nature of Chinese mythos, you can always find some tidbits scattered inside history books like Zuo Zhuan or poetry collections like Qu Yuan's Chuci. Since they aren't really about mythology overall and are too numerous to cite, I do not include them in this post, but if you wanna go down even deeper in this already gigantic rabbit hole, it's a good thing to keep in mind.

the-complexity-of-love
8 months ago
Doodles After Watching The Movie!
Doodles After Watching The Movie!

doodles after watching the movie! 🐱🐦‍⬛