Yo Amm LeopardBlue Anon You Gave Me Brain Worms.

Yo amm LeopardBlue anon you gave me brain worms.

I only operate in extremes

I can’t just be a bit sad, instead I’m soul crushingly miserable

I can’t just be happy, instead I’m completely elated

I can’t eat normally, instead I’m either binging or restricting

I can’t love normally, instead I’m either obsessed or want nothing to do with the person

I can’t just be bored, instead I have to fill the void with any method of self destruction available to me so that I don’t have to feel the boredom

I've come into a new conclusion. I think I'd be a "Yay Targaryen restoration through Dany / Magic feudalism forever" girlie if the setting & the story had sold me on that ending. The story had not. You look into the bottom of that well, and it's really all "feudalism is terrible, reform is not possible and good times are temporary, magic is incredible & beautiful but bloody & in the hands of either the priviledged few or the occasional freak or absolute monsters, and dynasties always go to shit & eat themselves."

Maybe that's the bittersweetness though "Yay Targ restoration through Dany, until her eventual descendants dance again & set the continent aflame/ Yay magic feudalism forever which maybe means an eternal cycle of eventual wars between the fire & the cold" ; and that would tell much about humanity always fighting the same battle. Spring is coming & is sweet but winter is always around the corner. Bad times are followed by good times which are followed by bad times (again). And on and on and on.

it's always so fascinating and heartbreaking when a character in a story is simultaneously idolized and abused. a chosen prophet destined for martyrdom. a child prodigy forced to grow up too fast. a powerful warrior raised as nothing but a weapon. there's just something so uniquely messed up about singing someone's praises whilst destroying them.

"The Hound At Your Local Convenience Store," by Leshay Holmes.

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The Hound At Your Local Convenience Store

I’m a hound at your local convenience store, Panting and waiting eagerly for your next request, C’mon don’t be shy, Go ahead and put me to t