With His Grim Face And Deep-sunk Hollow Eyes, Ser Ilyn Might Have Passed For Death Himself

With his grim face and deep-sunk hollow eyes, Ser Ilyn might have passed for death himself…

I've come into a new conclusion. I think I'd be a "Yay Targaryen restoration through Dany / Magic feudalism forever" girlie if the setting & the story had sold me on that ending. The story had not. You look into the bottom of that well, and it's really all "feudalism is terrible, reform is not possible and good times are temporary, magic is incredible & beautiful but bloody & in the hands of either the priviledged few or the occasional freak or absolute monsters, and dynasties always go to shit & eat themselves."

Maybe that's the bittersweetness though "Yay Targ restoration through Dany, until her eventual descendants dance again & set the continent aflame/ Yay magic feudalism forever which maybe means an eternal cycle of eventual wars between the fire & the cold" ; and that would tell much about humanity always fighting the same battle. Spring is coming & is sweet but winter is always around the corner. Bad times are followed by good times which are followed by bad times (again). And on and on and on.

I only operate in extremes

I can’t just be a bit sad, instead I’m soul crushingly miserable

I can’t just be happy, instead I’m completely elated

I can’t eat normally, instead I’m either binging or restricting

I can’t love normally, instead I’m either obsessed or want nothing to do with the person

I can’t just be bored, instead I have to fill the void with any method of self destruction available to me so that I don’t have to feel the boredom

to be entirely honest i was specifically made for the kind of ego death where im the secondborn son of some egotistical cutthroat noble & im a failure to him for having refused to take the cloth cause i yearn for more. not whatever this is...

jenny nicholson gets no credit at all for her vampire diaries video changing the face of video essays and spawning a thousand copycats who didnt get that what made hers good was that it was cogent analysis and an efficient series summary without just describing the events of every episode (something mike’s mic has gotten significantly more credit for inventing despite imo vv much falling into that pitfall) but the thing i remember her for most was people on tumblr trying to cancel her for liking reylo