Thegoblinpit - Pit

That’s so wild to me. Like, I’ve had days like that, sure, but it’s hard to imagine it lasting longer. Before I was medicated, I was doing emotional parkour at all times. I still kind of do, but the range for fluctuation is much more narrow most of the time. Even right this second, I’m just “!!!!!!” thinking about how incredible it is that our experiences are so very different, and yet we have so much in common in other ways.

It’s strange, despite feeling so much all the time, it rarely burns me out. I mean, i do very much experience burnout, but not from the feeling, per se. I do experience compassion fatigue. But both of those are more… lapses from basically positive emotion, to basically neutral or negative emotion— both of which I still feel very vividly. It’s so cool. What the hell is happening in my noggin

I cannot imagine life without feeling every moment and emotion at 100%. Every feeling I have is vivid, intense, and consuming. Both good and bad. Even neutral experiences are fully captivating. Do other people not cry with joy to see a sunset, or a friend doing well? Do others not viscerally ache to see a stranger suffer, or a tree fall? I cannot imagine what it’s like to be apathetic. Even when I feel numb, I am aware that I feel SO numb. I feel the lack.

What is it like to live without being thoroughly enraptured or radiantly calm or devouringly miserable?

I just realized that maybe this isn’t the common experience. I am so often overwhelmed by love, just such fervent, intense, all-powerful adoration— for anything! My husband, my pets, a flower, a dragonfly, the breeze, my breath— and so burdened by injustices that I’ve never even felt directly.

Just?! Like I have a psychology degree, so I have a general idea of the human experience on a universal scale, but it just occurred to me for the first time in a while that I don’t often hear people talk about feeling things so completely.

He’s sobbing because he cannot go back to jail

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my husband's OC who he plays in the campaign I run. I made this before I knew how to use multiply, so one of these days, I want to redo her shading. I also do not know how to make fonts yet lol

I don't understand why he won't show up under my tags >:v

meet my tabaxi paladin, Arbor!

my first ever drawing in CSP. This is Ralit'tokna, my centaur barbarian. I miss playing her

I think this was done in 2021?? Time is difficult