@s-unfleur Asked: "I Always Want To Look At You." / Holly + Letofrom Here

@s-unfleur asked: "I always want to look at you." / holly + leto from here

                Fingers    deftly    find    the    thin    fabric,    pulling    the    iridescent    gown    over    her    head.    Blonde    hair    tousled    in    the    act,    or    was    it    his    fingers    wrapped    around    tendrils    only    minutes    before    ??    Smile    tugs    at    lips,    finding    herself    before    the    vanity    so    delicately    decorated.    Hand    reaches    for    the    brush    that    sat    neatly    in    its    place.

                "    That    has    gotten    you    into    trouble    on    more    than    one    occasion,    I'm    sure,    my    Lord.    "

                Sighs    leave    lips    with    every    press    of    his    to    pale    skin.    With    every    nip    and    suckle    he    makes    on    her    delicate    flesh.    Were    their    presence    not    needed    momentarily,    she'd    have    him    strip    her    once    more    right    where    she    stood.    Fingers    gave    up    the    brush    long    ago,    now    digging    into    his    forearm    gently,    hanging    on    to    the    moment.    The    good    thing    about    an    eidetic    memory    is    that    she    won't    forget    about    it.    Mentat    training    is    a    blessing    and    a    curse.

                Lips    leave    her    neck,    hands    leave    her    waist    and    she's    lulling    her    head    back    against    his    shoulder    before    he    raises    the    brush    to    blonde    hair.    It's    relaxing-    never    has    she    had    her    hair    brushed    by    someone    else    before.    Never    had    she    been    treated    like    a    human    before.    Eyes    close,    an    obvious    sign    of    feeling    safe    enough    to    not    be    on    edge    around    the    man.

                "    I    hadn't.    I    don't    know    what    you're    talking    about.    "    The    tone    of    her    voice    implies    a    joke-    she    isn't    usually    good    at    those.

his arms are wrapped around her in an instant, body pressed to her back as lips press against her temple. brown eyes meet blue in the mirror as he takes the brush from her small hand. arm lingers around her: protective, territorial, & loving all tied into one neat package. they have no other worries in the world so long as they're hidden away in holly's private chambers, & perhaps that's why the duke is as bold as he is. with no need to hide from prying eyes, no need to maintain secrets from the woman he still shares a bed with.

lips work their way down her exposed neck, teeth suckling a bruise onto the pale skin he finds: only for them to know about, & it'll drive him crazy until it fades. then finally his arms release her, as much as he doesn't want to. he runs the brush through blonde hair as if he's done this a hundred times before. soft & gentle, never pulling too hard when the brush snags on tangles. ❛ hm, i thought you hadn't heard anything. ❜ glances at her once more in the reflection, but the twitch of a smile on his lips is unmistakable.

RAMMSTEIN PT. 1/?

lines from assorted rammstein's rammstein (2019) songs. translation from here. ns/fw.

"You have cried a lot."

"We Have been together for a very long time."

"My burning heart wants to love and condemn you."

"I never want to leave you."

"One can love you and want to hate you."

"Your love is a curse and a blessing."

"My love, I can't give it to you."

"Who rises high, will fall low."

"We were not allowed to belong."

"I've vanished from this world."

"I'm at home everywhere."

"I'm not a [man] for one night. I'll stay for an hour or two, at most."

"I look at you and I get sick."

"Better debauchery than abstinence."

"What's mine is yours, and it's in you."

"It's right in the next room."

"I take my medicine quietly."

"I don't feel well."

"I can give up happiness because it carries misfortune."

"I don't like it when I like something."

"What I love, I want to control it."

"I don't think it's good when I want something."

"I know very well that I will end up regretting it."

"I forbid myself to love."

"That way, I don't suffer."

"I do not have the right to be happy."

"What I love will spoil."

"What I love must die."

"For everything beautiful you have to pay the price."

"I always want to look at you."

"But please let me go."

"Your brightness was all my existence."

"And that sparkle - your eyes will suck the soul out of me."

"For us, I steal the light of the sun."

"Show me yours, I'll show you mine."

"Who wants to be pretty must like to suffer."

"And even death cannot separate us."

"Then you're here forever."

hey nickolas maybe u should STOP SELLING DRUGS TO MICHAEL

maybe if he wasn't a coke addict i wouldn't have to hmm ?? HMM ??

                Smile    falls    as    soon    as    he    catches    her    in    the    lie.    Eyes    look    away,    full    of    SHAME    for    a    moment.    It's    not    like    her    to    lie,    not    on    a    larger    scale,    at    least.    Not    really    in    her    mentat    nature...    though    a    small    one    like    this,    she    had    thought,    would    have    flown    under    the    radar.    Clearly    not.

                Holly    hesitates    for    a    moment,    and    it's    very    obvious    in    the    way    she    reaches    for    his    hand,    only    to    pull    back,    but...    the    second    time    she    reaches    she    follows    through    with    the    motion.    Palm    pressed    to    palm,    other    hand    clasps    on    top    of    his,    and    finally    eyes    land    on    his    once    more.

                "    Thank    you.    "    She    says,    low,    under    her    breath.    As    if    the    words    she    spoke    was    for    Stilgar,    and    him    alone.    They    were,    she    wasn't    thanking    the    whole    of    his    people,    no,    she    was    thanking    the    ONE    person    who    had    saved    her.

                "    I    will    do    better    to    have    my    presence    else    where    in    seitch    Tabr.    "

he isn't blind to the way she's taken to hiding away in his chambers rather than treating the sietch as her home. & perhaps he should bring it up with her, remind her that he has opened his home to her for her treat it as her own. he doesn't allow himself to think about the days he wakes up with her small frame curled into him, or the way it always resulted in him venting the frustrations with another woman. he wants nothing more than to mark her as his own, keep her in bed all fucking day, but instead he only offers a very small smile of his own.

it's a lie, but he finds that he does not mind it. he'd listen to her lies over & over again if it meant hearing her voice. he can't wait for the next morning, when he can hold her sleeping body while she's none the wiser ⸻ when he can pretend, just for a moment, that she is his to keep & do with as he pleases. he longs for the day that he no longer needs to deny himself what he wants. she has a long recovery ahead of her & he will not push it before she's ready.

❛ is that why you hide all day? ❜ a genuine question, complete with raised brows. eyes linger on her lips too long, wanting nothing more than to take the moisture on them for himself: inherently selfish, yet always giving more & more for this girl he barely knows. he should stop staring at her like he wants to rip her apart. ❛ my home . . . it is yours now. ❜ very matter of fact, though he cannot begin to understand how out of place she must feel.