Thinking About My Novel And How I Desperately Want To Write It But I Don't Have The Energy To Write Fanfics

thinking about my novel and how i desperately want to write it but i don't have the energy to write fanfics or my uni work, let alone a novel. can i be sedated for a week so i can come back to refreshed and ready to face the world?

When I read a fanfic I like, the author becomes a mini celebrity to me. So when an author with a work I like kudos’ or comments on my own fanfic I just-

okay im so glad you're a taylor fan!! i've found another!! (ttpd is out tomorrow and im so excited and terrified) and i hate to admit it but i am a chronic believer that i will never receive the same love i give so i totally get where you're coming from there 🫶

when i hear tolerate it live in june im gonna lose my mind. im so excited

your story isn't silly, it literally hits a spot that i didn't realise i needed a fic for as a chronic single girlie who has never kissed a man in her goddamn life. it's been such a comfort and it's on my mind constantly and like?? tolerate it fits teacher!frank and reader soooo much, it hurt my soul a little when i made the connection

and not wanting characters sad is so incredibly real, like i only write angst when im sad otherwise it just makes me feel so bad and i can't do it for long. but low stakes angst would be cute even if it's sad :( i just want them to be happy but i totally get why we would need some tension. if you ever want to talk about teacher!frank series with someone else, i am more than happy to listen bc i LOVE that series so so much.

i love you too 🫶 and i feel like taylor is how we all aim to be because she is so fucking phenomenal with lyrics and how she is able to articulate herself. im just constantly in awe of her!

i'm not sure if you're a taylor swift fan or not but i was just scrolling my dash and someone asked the question of whether 'tolerate it' by her was matt or frank-coded. and i was thinking about it and it's giving... like if frank from your teacher series and reader had some angst, like they had some relationship problems like, 'i wait by the door like i'm just a kid' / 'you're so much older and wiser' / 'if it's all in my head tell me now, tell me i've got it wrong somehow' (bc reader seems to be like anxious (so me)). it all screams them if their relationship went wrong, ALSO 'i made you my temple, my mural, my sky' reader i feel like ADORES frank an insane amount and if that relationship ended badly?? god she would be SO HURT

anyway, i just had the thought in my head and needed to share <3 (sorry)

i just so happen to be a taylor swift fan and i need you to know that you NEVER have to apologize for coming to talk to me through here and ESPECIALLY never when it’s about my fics, i adore any and all feedback/ideas when it comes to my stories!!

i’ll also have you know that tolerate it is one of my FAVORITE songs she’s written but i can’t listen to it often because i cry every time. as someone who over analyzes and has so much emotion and knows deep down that i’ll never receive the same amount of love as i give out that song HITS so hard and i’m a big ball of mess when that song comes on but i never have the strength to stop it!!

but ruby i’m actually sitting here about to cry cause i cannot believe you took something so beautiful and related it to my silly little story 🥺 i adore that song and i feel like that would fit them SO well should something bad happen between them. those lyrics you pointed out in particular are a really good highlight to reader’s anxiety when it comes to the whole thing, something i wanted to still keep a thread of throughout the series because she’s supposed to be like me and be crazy anxious. i’m glad she’s relatable, but i also hate that you know the feeling

reader definitely has feelings for frank and this next chapter i’m only going to turn the dial up some more. i kinda expected her to fall hard and fast (like me) and then have her try to struggle with calming herself down, and beginning all the questions of if frank cares about her that way or not. i’ve wanted to do some angst in this story, cause i adore the feeling my heart gets when i read really great angst fics, but i just am such a crybaby i don’t wanna have my characters sad CKSKDKSK i hope i can sprinkle in some low-stakes angst that a few friends had recommended i try out to cause tension but not do too much harm

but oh my gosh, you have no idea how high of a compliment this is to me. i adore that song, i adore taylor’s writing and i want to be able to tell stories and phrase things like she does when i grow older :’) thank you SO so much for sharing, this has been the highlight of my week. i love you 🩵

girllll, you are SO right about frank’s that hair he looks sooo delicious like that. i mean i get that beard is hot too (he is always hot i know i know) but i think it would be so scratchy to kiss him and it would sting -not a comfy seat- (omg who said that🙀) but yeah he is so damn hot with that haircut

i just hope that we can see charlie all hairy on DDBA, i know it’s not gonna happen for jon, yet i feel it in my heart that he is like a caveman if he’d just let his body hair grow

he looks so fucking delicious, it's insane 🥵 i would do anything for that haircut on frank to come back because it is the sexiest that mf has looked (tho he's always sexy but yk what i mean)

also i do have a counterpoint that after a beard gets to a certain length they do get softer but personally, beards are just not for me (tho i am a whore for stubble) and i feel like they would have a weird feeling that my sensory ass would hate 😂 so i completely understand it (the beard burn on your thighs would be insane.. 👀)

and pls if charlie shaves again it would be so sad 😭 give us some chest hair pls, at least once, just once, just a little

im trying to redo my pinned post bc it's starting to get too long and probably annoying but pinterest is distracting me.

look at him, he's so pretty with this hair.

rip to late season 1 frank hair, you looked so hot. (i know people love his long hair and beard but nah, thIS RIGHT HERE, would get on my knees for him in this hair)

ten songs tag game!!

shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people

i have never been tagged in one of these before so i'm feeling AHHHH (in a good way about it) so thank u @chelseasdagger (love u queen <3, also i have never heard of low roar?? will need to listen asap) but uhm, this is about to be interesting

1. The Black Dog - Taylor Swift

2. Florida!!! - Taylor Swift

3. The Albatross - Taylor Swift

4. girl i've always been - Olivia Rodrigo

5. Feels Like - Gracie Abrams

6. The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - Taylor Swift

7. BSC - Maisie Peters

8. Not Strong Enough - boygenius

9. HOT TO GO! - Chappell Roan

10. Good Luck, Babe! - Chappell Roan

i don't have many people to tag but i do have @smurfenijsje12 and anyone else who sees this and wants to play!! :)