I Posted A Fic Today Because I Felt Like I Actually Had Inspiration But Im Starting To Fall Out Of Interest

i posted a fic today because i felt like i actually had inspiration but i’m starting to fall out of interest with tom, so i’ve created a new writing account for bts called @gukieoppa. so if you want to check it out go ahead. i’ll try my best to continue writing for tom but it’s not for sure. i might even change this account to my bts one (i’m joking... or am i)

hi so I was supposed to post “her blood-stained bodysuit pt. 2” but my laptop broke... I’ll try typing it out on my phone I guess >:(

i’m doing my lit final project on ariana and the manchester incident and watching these interviews she did when coming back into the industry hurts me so deeply. the emotions she feels in those interviews goes far beyond cameras. 

changes to this account

hello, fellow readers! it’s been a long while. i’m not sure if many of you will read or want to read this but i wanted to explain my hiatus as well as the changes that will be brought to this page (?). i’ll put the changes in bold so you can read ahead, if you want.

okay, firstly, as you may or may not know, i’ve been on a hiatus for the past almost 6 months, i think, so i’ve been gone for a while. to be completely honest, i never expected myself to take a break from this account, especially since, at the beginning of 2020, i dedicated my life to this page. i don’t think the i was able to register the fact that i was starting to grow, age wise, and my past was my, well, past. i started to outgrow things that i enjoyed and loved when i was younger, but i wouldn’t accept that reality, and i’m still not today. on instagram, i noticed that the app was making my mental health go downhill, as well as the fact that i lost almost all of my friends due to a petty fight we had before quarantine. i ended up deleting instagram, only recently deleting my account, because i thought that i was making the right decision. to be honest, it truly was a good choice of mine because nowadays, i’m much happier. another cruel truth, though, is that i’m friendless as of now. that’s a lie. i have one friend and one friend only. it’s not too bad, but it puts me down, sometimes. i’m going off topic, sorry. anyways, getting to the point, i began to outgrow tom. this shocked me to my core because i dedicated like 3 years of my life stanning this man and fantasizing about him. i also think that the deleting of instagram did push me further into losing interest in him because i didn’t have the habit of constantly checking his page everyday anymore. then, rumors came out that he had a girlfriend. when i first heard about it, i decided to ignore it and continue writing, but at this point, i already began my decline. when the rumor became fact, i kind of felt uncomfortable writing for him because he had a real, existent, confirmed girlfriend. i know it sounds obnoxious because either way, single or not, writing fanfiction about a celebrity is just a bit weird but knowing they’re in a relationship and continuing to write for them put me off a bit. also, i ran out of inspiration to write and the spark i once had began to dim. writing creatively is very important to me, so i didn’t stop and decided to write on random docs and never post them. this was a lot less stressful for me, knowing i didn’t have an audience. over this hiatus, i did consider completely quitting and deactivating this account, but i pushed myself to continue, bringing me to where i am today. i still have a bit of pressure, feeling as if i have a responsibility to write, but i’m trying to ease my way back into writing for tom, even though i don’t have much interest in him anymore.

now for the changes i’m bringing to this page. please note that i’m on a semi–hiatus still, but that will be a constant from now on. this is because i’ve entered a new stage of life where i have more responsibilities and less time. it’s also because of my lack of interest in tom. don’t get me wrong, he was a very important figure in the past couple of years of my life, but i’m outgrowing him and moving onto newer people. i’ll forever support him, though. not only is this why i’m going to stay in a semi–hiatus state, but posting fanfiction is no longer a blissful escape for me anymore, more so a burden. bringing me to my next change, i’ll be posting very rarely, meaning only when i feel like writing it or am in a good mood. i will continue to try hard for my readers, though. i’ll also be changing the formatting of my work, albeit it’s not much to note. otherwise, that should be it, and if there are any changes that come to mind, i’ll update you guys on that. thank you so much for staying and supporting me. it means the world to me. i love you guys so much!

what i’m comfortable with writing

i recently got a request which reminded me of another change coming to my page. i trying to merge away from writing any smut because one, i’m not good at it and two, i’m not really comfortable writing major smut anymore. once i feel confident and more comfortable writing said genre, i’ll begin to write in it again, but for now, i’ll only write suggestive, implied, or mild smut. sorry, big thanks.

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