Baby Crosshair Doodle

Baby Crosshair doodle

TOMATO LINGUINE.

carmen “carmy” berzatto x fem!reader — fluff

summary. you surprise carmy with a homemade meal to welcome him home after a long, tiring day at he restaurant. you’re nervous. he’s pleased. you’re tired, and so is he. luckily the couch is calling your names

word count. 834

never wrote him before so im shitting my pants. but he’s been on my mind and needed an outlet. also no s3 spoilers

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Being Carmy's girlfriend isn't always so straightforward. It's great, but it isn't easy. He dislikes the help and aid of others, not because he doesn't like the care or the way it feels, rather, he believes he doesn't deserve it.

So over the past couple of months, you had been subtly increasing the ways you look after him - doing little things to show your love. First, you started small, preparing a water bottle in the fridge overnight, attaching a cute post-it note for him to read as a pick-me-up during service the next day. Then, you moved onto organising his stuff by the front door - lining his clogs and his commuting shoes beside his backpack, placing his coat next to it as an attempt to make his morning easier. You just wanted to help lighten his load, even if that means organising things for him that he’s bound to never forget.

You had been working up to making him dinner. It was an awfully scary thing, not because you were uncertain with your way around the kitchen, but worried in the chance Carmy were to hate it - or make a critique you couldn’t stomach.

You knew he would be tired coming home tonight, a critic in the restaurant will do that to him. You wanted to make him something to eat for when he returns, something homely and welcoming, just something comforting to make up for all of the stresses from today.

You decided on pasta, an all round dish with very little room for error. A jar of sauce would be blasphemy in his apartment, an insult almost, so you made your own simple sauce - placing tomatoes and garlic in a dish, coating it with one of Carmy’s fancy olive oils before throwing it in the oven to roast. It was one you had made a bunch of times for yourself before, so you were fairly confident with it. Sort of.

Remembering little tips he had taught you, you implemented them with everything you cooked - like right now, saving the water from the linguine to incorporate later. And to season throughout, not just at the start or end. You wanted to impress him. You always wanted to impress him.

The key in the door jingles and you rush to add the finishing touches - sprinkling on some chopped herbs, and placing a piece of homemade garlic bread on the side. 

“Hi,” you softly call out, hearing his shoes hit the skirting board - no doubt after he had just kicked them off.

He paces over to you, moving sluggishly as he wraps his arms loosely around your waist, chin hooking over your shoulder. “Hi,” he says back, voice tired against your ear. “Smells great in here.”

“Good. I’m glad you think so,” you smile, pressing a kiss into his temple. “I made you dinner.”

“You uh, you did?” he pulls back, a sheepish smile on his face.

You hum, moving aside to pick up the bowl. “But I can put it in the fridge if you’ve already eaten…”

“No no no,” he shakes his head, reaching to take the bowl from your grasp. “I– I haven’t all day, so uh, so this is perfect,” he nods faintly, reaffirming his words.

Your gaze flickers from the bowl to his eyes, growing antsy. “Please just try it, this is killing me,” you say, scrunching your face from the anticipation. 

He twirls the pasta on his fork and takes a bite, humming in a pleasant tune as he chews.

“Is it good? Is it bad? Too much garlic?” you ramble, nervous from his lack of verbal response. 

“No,” he shakes his head. “It’s uh, it’s tremendous,” he smiles, 

“You’re not just saying that?” you joke. “Not trying to spare my feelings, are you?”

“No,” he chuckles earnestly, shaking his head. “I mean it… it’s almost perfect,” his smile softens as he twirls his fork for another bite. “Did uhm, you use my olive oil?”

“Only a little bit– hope that’s okay.”

“Of course,” he nods once more, chewing his mouthful. “It’s great, I love it,” he grins faintly, leaning in to kiss you. “Thank you.”

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With full, happy bellies, each of you lay on your sides on the sofa - snug to one another to share the small space. Carmen props the side of his head in his fist, elbow bent beside your head. 

“How are you feeling?” you ask, referring to the  moment of comfortable almost silence.

You notice him hesitate, and to assure him, you copy his movement - propping your head in your hand, your other reaching to the side of his face. You stroke over his sideburn, fingers grazing back into his messy, unkempt curls.

“Tired,” he exhales, eyes closing from your touch. 

“Me too,” you murmur. You adjust, eyes silently asking him to do the same. Moving forward and twisting, you lay your head on his chest - your arm wrapping around his waist tightly. “Get some sleep,Bear. Busy day tomorrow, you need the rest.”

this is probs a one time thing btw x

LOVE LANGUAGES

notes: here's what i think their love languages would be, some examples and a bonus way of showing their love and wanting to receive love. can be romantic, queerplatonic or platonic or whatever you want it to be; relationships are a social construct. This took me like forever, don't let it flop 🙏🏻

contains: the bad batch x gn!reader

warnings: descriptions of kisses and cuddles in case you don't vibe with that

Giving: Words of Affirmation

↳ Echo is a man of few words compared to the rest of his squad. But when he uses them, he makes them count.

↳ He doesn't hesitate to let you know what you need to hear. When you feel insecure or doubtful, he lets you know what he appreciates about you and unexpectedly, the list is rather long. When you're scared of failing, Echo tells you all the reasons you won't. When you're upset, Echo reassures you that things are going to be okay; that whatever hurts you now will pass as well or become easier to live with. He does this with 0 hesitation and he has such a calming presence that it's hard not to believe him.

↳ Echo isn't afraid of saying what he thinks. If he loves you, he'll let you know. He sees no point in hiding it or fearing rejection.

↳ He'll tell you that he missed you when you were apart... because he does. A lot. If he's on a mission without you or you stayed behind on Pabu, he will call you and let you know he's okay so you don't have to worry.

↳ Echo has a busy life and he follows his own path no matter how it may diverge from that of others. Of course, he'd appreciate if you joined his cause and kept fighting by his side, but if you don't, he'll still assure that he'll be there when you need him.

Bonus: Comfort

↳ All the Imperial ships in the Galaxy couldn't stop this man from making sure you're okay and being there for you. It's a mystery to you how he manages to infiltrate an Imperial base and somehow show up 2 hours later at your doorstep because you were sad.

↳ Echo will be there for you even when you're apart. If you miss him or aren't feeling well, he will stay on his communication device (provided he isn't currently on a mission) until you're doing better or have fallen asleep. If the latter happens, he will often go to bed like this as well, letting the familiar sound of your breathing lull him to sleep and making sure you can hear his voice in the morning when you wake up; even if he can't be physically with you.

↳ Echo's a busy man but if you need him to, he will make time for you. He takes his time to cheer you up and hold you in his arms for a while if you want him to. Echo gives you so much warmth and support, it's difficult to stay sad around him.

↳ He often puts his hand on your shoulder and smiles at you when reassuring you about something.

Receiving: Physical Touch

↳ Echo is a hugger. He found that out when Omega hugged him and it continues with you. He loves when you pull him into your embrace; the longer it lasts, the better. The first time you hugged him, he had no idea that was something you'd want to do; that he meant that much to you. But it quickly became routine.

↳ Echo loves the idea that you want to be this close to him. Sometimes when you're exhausted, tired, sad or even just haven't seen him enough for your liking, you would just wordlessly lay down on his chest or wrap your arms around him from behind, resting your head against his back. Echo loves those moments; loves that whatever happens, he's the one you seek out almost immediately.

↳ He was worried at first that his cybernetics would scare you off from initiating physical contact; that maybe they'd be too uncomfortable or cold for you. But being in his arms for the first time made you only want to be closer to him and Echo adores that fact.

↳ His favorite are soft little shoulder kisses. There's something so intimate and appreciative about them to him. Or maybe they just remind him of the first time you snuggled up to him whilst his upper body was exposed; you being able to see the cybernetics that couldn't be removed as well as the surgical scars he sustained after being rescued from the Citadel. "If it's uncomfortable I can-", he had started but you just pressed a kiss against his shoulder, smiling against his pale skin. It said everything he needed to know. "Don't worry about it. I love you."

↳ Echo also loves when you hold his face in your hands and lean your forehead against his. Sometimes you will feel the stubble on his cheek scratch against the palm of your hand because he turns his head ever so slightly to be able to place a kiss on your palm.

Bonus: Attentiveness

↳ This is a pretty big sign to Echo that you love him. The fact that you know him so well that you can tell what he needs right now, what he likes and what he feels without him even having to say anything. Any relationship you have with Echo will form slowly as both of you get more familiar and comfortable with one another and it seems somewhere along the way you picked up on his little habits and signs of distress.

↳ Echo has PTSD and there's a plethora of things that can trigger it, even in moments where he doesn't show it on his face. So he's all the more surprised how fast your hand is holding his when something reminds him of his time on Skako Minor; giving him support and reminding him that he is safe and that you'll be with him no matter what.

↳ Echo is surprised you pay this much attention to him; so much as to give him his favorite food when he didn't even tell you what it was. He didn't think at the time that he was important enough for you to notice all these little things about him; something he has learnt not to doubt by now.

Giving: Acts of Service

↳ Wrecker knows his strength is what makes him extraordinary and he's a show-off in that regard, so he's happy if he can help you out in a way that only he could and loves when he can support you.

↳ Wrecker opens all the jars for you where the lid just doesn't seem to budge. One time he got a little too enthusiastic about you coming to him for help and complimenting his strength that he accidentally used a little too much force and destroyed the jar. He felt really bad about it and offered to go to the market on Pabu with you and get you a new one that you could share together.

↳ Wrecker does all the heavy lifting for you. He carries everything that's too heavy for you with ease and hopes you find it impressive. You've felt bad about it eventually with him carrying all this stuff for you and urged him to take a break or insisted that you could do it on your own; that he really didn't have to. Wrecker just laughed and thought it was cute. "Don't worry, cyare, nothing easier than this for me."

↳ He also lifts you btw. He loves to pick you up in his arms and carry you around bridal-style. "Wrecker, I really can walk-"

↳ You just really don't want to make him feel like you're taking advantage of his strength but it makes Wrecker happy to know he has made life a little easier for you. And besides, he loves when you hug him closely to thank him for everything he's done for you and he gets to wrap his strong arms around your shoulders and hold you in his arms.

Bonus: Food

↳ It all started when Omega was tired from a mission and fell asleep on the Marauder. Wrecker decided it was best to let her rest and instead decided to take you out for Mantell Mix.

↳ Ever since then, he's realized that food makes everyone happy, so he wants to share his with you. He loves to see the smile on your face when he offers you some.

↳ Eventually he attempts to try and cook you a meal; which at first goes horribly. Crosshair walked into the kitchen and was greeted by a nauseating smell and the sight of something he described as "the unfortunate contents of a Sarlacc Pit". Wrecker just explained how he wanted to cook you something to make you happy. Crosshair huffed and took the knife out of his brother's hand, beginning to cut up some vegetables. "I can't believe you're making me do this..." "But I didn't ask you to-" "Shut up, I need to focus."

↳ Crosshair may complain, but at the end of the day he helped his brother out. Wrecker was ecstatic about the finished product; a nice and savory vegetable dish. "They will definitely love this! Though I thought maybe we could add some Mantell Mix-" Crosshair stopped him mid-sentence. "Listen, I'm only gonna say this once and I don't know if that'll stick in your tiny brain but Mantell Mix is a snack, NOT a cooking ingredient."

↳ Wrecker is still proud to present you with the dish but he eventually admits that Crosshair cooked it after he made a Mantell Mix abomination. You just laughed it off, pressed a kiss to his cheek and told him you'll show him how to make something himself eventually.

↳ Wrecker eventually becomes really good at cooking after you showed him the ropes, gently guiding his hands with yours.

Receiving: Physical Touch

↳ Wrecker is a little spoon. Full-stop. He's way too large for that but you'll have to make it work somehow. He loves to be held by you and bury his face in your shoulder.

↳ Also, back rubs. He loves them. He may be super strong but he's still dealing with muscle strain, so a nice massage makes him fall asleep faster than anything. You look down on his face and see the small smile tucking at the corner of his lips even while he's sleeping and you can't help but lean down and press a kiss to his cheek.

↳ It doesn't have to be a full-on massage either. He loves when you hold him in your arms and gently run your fingers up and down his back.

↳ Like Echo, he's also a hugger. He especially likes the ones where you basically throw yourself at him, running into his arms as if trying to tackle him. Of course, that never works but it still makes him let out a hearty laugh and lift you up in his arms, spinning you around.

Bonus: Including him in your Shenanigans

↳ Wrecker is the type of person you can include in any chaotic activities that come to mind; whether it's setting something on fire, creating a new "drink" by throwing a bunch of stuff into a mixer or pranking Crosshair.

↳ He loves to feel like your "partner in crime" and hopes that you're both able to create memories that last a lifetime.

↳ Wrecker also loves to hear you laugh, so he specifically comes up with some silly ideas to bring you joy. You think it's cute, but as long as you're with him, you have all the joy you need.

Giving: Quality Time

↳ Tech is a busy man; with how chaotic his squad is it seems he never runs out of things to fix or information to acquire. Still, if he's really attached to you, he will accept your company even during moments where he'd usually shoo everyone away so he could focus.

↳ There's something calming to him about tinkering with whatever project he's working on now and having you idly sit beside him, watching him through curious eyes. He's willing to answer any questions you might have and even repeat himself three or four times when you didn't understand his convoluted explanations the first time around. And please do ask him questions. He has so much to say but so few people who are willing to listen to it. Whether you're actually interested or simply love the sound of his voice doesn't matter much; he still loves those moments.

↳ Even the rest of the squad has noticed that Tech seems more at ease around you. Hyperfocused as he is on the ship repairs he's currently doing, you don't expect him to even remember you're there until he unexpectedly raises his head to smile at you.

↳ Tech's presence has a way of keeping you grounded; reminding you of the facts, data and the present when you're either getting so far ahead of yourself that it feels like you've left all solid ground or when you feel as though you're spiralling down a bottomless hole. Tech doesn't know he has that effect on you and if you told him, he'd probably have some explanation for it.

↳ Tech values your input and sometimes he will ask you what power converters he should get for the ship or if you'd like to listen to some music while the two of you spend time together. You don't think much of it until Hunter tells you that he literally does not do this with anyone else; that he usually just goes with whatever he considers me most effective option.

Bonus: Learning about your Passions

↳ If Tech loves you, he will familiarize himself with the things you're interested in, even if he never considered them interesting himself. He wants to understand what made you like them and how he could best support you.

↳ Tech is a very observant person. If he has taken an interest in you, he will make note of the way your face lights up when you talk about something you're passionate about. It makes him happy to see you with a smile on your face, so he decides he wants to join in on the fun.

↳ There's a couple of things that Tech definitely wouldn't do, like bungee jumping, but for most hobbies; Tech is curious to learn new things and he might even discover he likes them like he did with the racing.

↳ Tech will listen attentively when you speak about your passions and actively engage you in conversations about them; asking you questions and becoming quite fascinated with your answers.

Receiving: Gifts

↳ Tech tends to ramble a lot and over time he's gotten used to people not really listening in great detail to what he's mumbling, especially in he's focused on his work and talking to himself more than anyone else. But you listen.

↳ So Tech is quite pleasantly surprised when you one day bring home a part he needed for the ship or something he was still going to get for the mission. Not only that, you got the exact model he needed or informed yourself about which one would be best to get for him.

↳ Tech appreciates useful little gifts like that because they show that you pay attention. That you specifically went out of your way to go into town and procure whatever thing he needed without him even needing to ask. You just saw him so focused on what he was doing and decided to get that spare part yourself so he wouldn't have to interrupt his activities.

↳ Tech is surprised when you hand it to him; almost giddy as he explains to you why this is exactly what he needed. He smiles at you and gives you his sincere thanks. If you're in a committed relationship, that thanks is accompanied by a soft kiss to your cheek.

Bonus: Understanding

↳ As Tech said himself, he processes moments and thoughts differently, but that doesn't mean that he feels any less. All he could really ask for is your understanding and patience; you taking the time to learn how he expresses his feelings and shows his love for you.

↳ Tech realizes how much he wants you to stay in his life when it dawns on him that he has never felt so seen by another person as when he's with you.

↳ He might even thank you for this directly in a moment of vulnerability. You're a little taken off-guard when he pulls you into his arms and holds you close to his chest, whispering a quiet "Thank you for understanding me" in your ear, but you're certainly not complaining.

Giving: Physical Touch

↳ Hunter showing his love through Physical Touch starts with the occasional pat on the back or a hand placed on your shoulder, evolves into long hugs that still seem too short for both of you and eventually turns into him basically clinging to you when his day didn't go so well.

↳ Being close to you has started to become his way of unwinding; he loves to rest his head in your lap after a long day and have you card your fingers through his hair. He'll let out a soft hum and turn his head to the side a little to rest his cheek against your stomach, closing his eyes.

↳ Sometimes he'll fall asleep like this, causing you to let out a quiet chuckle.

↳ At night he tends to fall asleep whilst holding you in his arms, your cheek resting against his chest. You can hear his heartbeat like this and Hunter presses a kiss to your forehead. You can feel him running his fingers up and down your back until he's certain you've fallen asleep.

↳ During missions when things get dire or he doesn't have a good feeling about what's to come, he instinctively puts a hand on your shoulder to reassure you that whatever may happen, he's here for you. He'll protect you. You could be the bravest person in the world and he'd still feel like he needs to let you know that he's got your back, no matter what.

↳ Hunter also loves to kiss you. His kisses are slow but passionate and sometimes you will find him smiling against your lips as he kisses you, thinking about how lucky he is to have you in his life.

Bonus: Encouragement

↳ A side effect of raising a child who is still growing and learning about life every day is that Hunter had to learn how to be encouraging and along the way, this has become a way of showing how much he cares.

↳ He trusts in your abilities and your judgement, even more than you do yourself sometimes. If you're on a mission and you bring an idea to the table that you're convinced is the best course of action, Hunter will trust you.

↳ He doesn't want to see you doubt yourself. To him, there's nothing about you that isn't lovable and he will make sure you know that. He does his best to make you feel wanted and needed, he lets you know how much you mean to him. Hunter is proud of you and how far you've come.

↳ If he ever hears you self-deprecate, he just shakes his head and pulls you into a tight hug. It says more than a thousand words.

Receiving: Quality Time

↳ Hunter loves when you want to spend time with him. In-between the missions there wasn't a lot of downtime for both of you, so he felt honored that you wanted to spend that time in his presence. The two of you would often play games with Omega at Cid's bar or teach her something. After she had gone to sleep, you would often sit down at the bar counter with Hunter for a drink, talking about whatever came to mind. You never knew if it was just the drink Hunter had or him genuinely feeling like he could be vulnerable around you, but in those moments he was more likely to open up to you.

↳ The two of you would learn more about one another by talking like this, but once in a while Hunter would also steer towards more heavy topics such as Crosshair sticking with the Empire or the grief he felt about Tech's sacrifice.

↳ Sometimes you took a walk on Ord Mantell together at twilight, observing everything that was happening around you from the drunk misadventures of a Twi'lek man in an alleyway to the owners of a bar struggling to put the glowing neon sign back where it was after a heavy storm.

↳ Though they were rare, there were days where Ord Mantell was quieter; where the rain seemed to have washed away the tensions of the people and had drowned out their voices. During evenings like that, you would take Hunter's hand and he would smile at you from the side as you traversed the city streets in silence, hearing nothing but your own footsteps on the asphalt and the distant voices coming from the shops and markets. Hunter would eventually wrap his arm around you as the two of you enjoyed the peaceful atmosphere.

Bonus: Reassurance

↳ Before the Empire, being a soldier was all Hunter had known. Now he's faced inner conflict because there were new roles that he had to grow into: that of a father, a protector for his squad from the very people they were supposed to serve, a fugitive. As a leader, faced with so many unfamiliar experiences, it was easy for him to doubt himself, especially because he realized that there were so many things left for him to learn.

↳ It was then that he needed your reassurance the most, reminding him that he was doing his best and that that was enough. That Omega could tell as well that Hunter wanted only the best for her, even if knew nothing about raising a kid at first.

↳ He's thankful for those moments of doubt when you put your hand on his shoulder and remind him that he may not be as prepared for this life as he'd like to be, but that the two of you can figure things out together; because you're here with him and you're not going anywhere.

Giving: Quality Time

↳ Crosshair may complain at first because he puts up this facade of not wanting people to bother him; because he cares a little too much. But he's been alone in a cell on Tantiss for over half a year. He's been alone as he served the Empire. He felt as though his brothers had left him behind for a while, before he learned to see things from their perspective. He craves company; he wants your attention.

↳ His instinctive reaction is to push you away but there's always a part of him that wants you to persist; to reach out to him and break through the walls he put up because you just want him that much. He hasn't felt wanted or needed or loved in a long time. The Empire deprived him of that. He doesn't even feel like he deserves these things anymore.

↳ So seeing you join him during his shooting practice over and over again makes his heart flutter. Why waste your time on him? He doesn't get it but he wants you to stay. He's miles away from admitting that though. So you have to read his intent into a couple of snarky one-liners.

↳ But how much he actually enjoys your company shows everytime you don't show up during times where you usually hang around him or when you seem to get closer to someone else. Crosshair will ask you where you've been or what's going on between you and whoever you were with with such distaste in his voice that everyone in your general vicinity can smell the jealousy and abandonment issues. Just chuckle and take his hand; tell him he doesn't have anything to worry about and he doesn't stay mad for long.

↳ Crosshair loves those idle moments where it's just the two of you, no people around. As he grows more comfortable around you, that's when he feels safe enough to let his guard down a little. To both of your surprise, conversations actually flow pretty easily between you.

Bonus: Unyielding Loyalty

↳ If you have Crosshair in your corner, you never have to worry about facing anything alone. This man has your back no matter what. If you have Crosshair's loyalty it takes a whole damn lot to lose it (apparently the line is at letting his friend die and torturing him, so you really have nothing to worry about) and he's going to defend you and stick by your side even if hell freezes over. He might complain like the cranky clone he is but his actions speak louder than words.

↳ He might even get a little too intense sometimes. There's been instances where you had to tell him to tone it down because he decided whatever argument you were having with another person was in dire need of his feisty demeanor. You definitely had to have a talk with him at some point to not butt into your business like that, even if he means well and is just trying to defend you. Crosshair respects that, but also definitely gives anyone who decides to be rude to you the death glare from across the room.

↳ Crosshair would follow you to the edge of the universe if you asked him to.

Receiving: Words of Affirmation

↳ This man soaks verbal affections up like a sponge. That's really the only thing that drives the point home that you forgive him for everything he's done, that you love him and that he deserves happiness. You could literally be holding him in your arms and part of him still wonders if you secretly hate him or plan to leave him.

↳ But tell him he means the world to you; that you love him with all your heart and you're holding his heart in your hands. He doesn't even have a snarky comeback, doesn't dare to utter anything that he normally would in order to protect himself from getting hurt; out of fear you might never say something like this to him again.

↳ He's been through a lot and he's still in the beginning phase of finding out what he wants his future to be and who he wants to become, so to hear that you believe in him and that you believe he can do anything he puts his mind to; that he deserves happiness... it means a lot to him.

↳ Being as emotionally scarred as Crosshair is, he's mostly just focusing on taking one step in front of the other, unable to imagine what the future holds for him. But if you're able to do that, if you can broaden his vision a little and give him a little hope, that can go a long way.

↳ For now, there's nothing that Crosshair loves more than hearing you say that you love him. It's so hard for him to believe that he never gets tired of hearing it. It takes him a long while to say it back. He's scared of opening his heart like that even though everyone can tell anyway. Just be patient with him, he'll get there.

↳ There'll be days where he's pessimistic. Where he'll scoff, tell you that you really don't have to pity him and go on about how much of a chore it must be to you to deal with him and his baggage. So you taking his shaking hands into your own and telling him "Not to me. Not if it's you." means so much to him. No he's not crying, he just looked into the sun, that's why there are tears. He quickly wipes them away in hopes that you didn't notice them, but you just pull him into your arms and hold him tightly.

Bonus: Protection

↳ Don't get me wrong here, Crosshair is more than capable to protect himself, but he adores when you go out of your way to defend him. It's something he'd never admit over his dead body, but if you pay attention to his reactions, you can see the light blush on his cheeks.

↳ During the battle on Tantiss you witnessed an Imperial Officer tell Crosshair he's going to be back in his cell in no time and you answered "if any of you put your hands on Crosshair again then so help me god" with a threatening tone in your voice and Crosshair's like "oh 😳" internally.

↳ This could literally have the energy of a chihuahua attempting to defend a man from Godzilla and it'd still have the same effect. It's the thought that counts really. That someone is willing to go out of their way to fight for him.

Stop you're loosing me! Miguel o'hara x wife reader pt3 - "Afterglow"

basically the last part of my stop you're loosing me series where you and miggy break up and get back together pt 1 and 2 are on my profile so go read those if you havent! They’re both on my profile @ultradelusional

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(Readers pov)

you had been trying to forget Miguel. Trying to forget the way he used to hold you, the way he'd make you feel safe, the way he'd kiss you in the middle of the night. no one can quite forget the people they're married to. As you and Miguel where still legally married. The past 4 days back in your dimension had been filled with people from the spider society visiting and comforting you. Jess especially.

Everyone who visited kept trying to get you to move on but fact is you couldn’t. Miguel your husband, your everything. He hadn’t even tried reaching out which was the worst part which made you ponder the fact that this could be the end of your marriage even more.

(Miguel’s pov)

after that dream of you Miguel regretted everything more than he already did. but as peter b had said he was thinking more rationally. so Miguel set Lyla to locate where in the multiverse you where and when she located you off he went. “Lego spiderman you’re in charge while I’m gone” Miguel said to Lego spider man as he disappeared through the portal to your dimension.

(Reader’s pov)

As you where laying in bed in the bedroom of your apartment in your dimension things being eerily quiet. As only a monorail speeding past your window was the only sound. A portal suddenly appeared right on the floor of your bedroom and a tall figure you knew all too well stepped out.

“Miguel?” You said horsely as you noticed how the past 4 days had changed him. He was skinnier, thick dark eye-bags crowded themselves under his deep brown eyes as the whites of his eyes where slightly red from crying. You also noticed a slight stubble on his face from a lack of self care. His brown wavy locks also had a few steaks of grey. “Wow I guess me leaving him had done some…changes” you thought yourself guilty of his negative changes.

“Mi amour I…” Miguel started to say he knew he had to say something meaningful to get you back. Back into his arms and back in his life.

“Hey it’s all me, In my head I’m the one who burned this down but it’s not what I meant sorry that I hurt you I promise I don’t wanna do this to you and I regret everything” he stated tears bellowing out of his eyes.

“Miguel I-“ you started to say before he cut you off

“Don’t. You don’t need to accept an apology. 4 days ago was supposed to be me and Martha’s anniversary that’s why I kept thinking about her in the days leading up. It would’ve been our 10th anniversary.”

“Oh Miguel…I’m so sorry I didn’t know that my love you never talk about your past life.” You say walking up to him cupping his face and wiping his tears away from his cheeks.

“I’m truly sorry y/n, you’re my wife and I never ever regret marrying you, you where the one who lifted my haze of grief and let the light in” Miguel says as he hesitantly kisses your hand. “You’re my light my love, my everything, tu mi vida” he’s now balling his eyes out as he chokes out “will you let me back in? Will you be my wife again?” He says pulling out your wedding ring.

“Oh great heavens yes!!” You say tears coming to your eyes as he slips on your ring fitting perfectly as it always has.

“Let’s go back home” Miguel says picking you up in his arms as you both go through the portal back to HQ “new dress?” He remarks noticing the same green dress from his dream

“Why yes” you reply as the portal engulfs you both and Miguel leaning in for a passionate kiss

The kiss seems to last forever as both your lips fit perfectly in one another after being separate for so so long. you both don’t notice you’re already back at the spider society and many of your friends are watching you two kiss.

“EWWW” hobie calls out making you and Miguel’s lips break apart both your cheeks flushing bright pink with embarrassment.

OK GUYS THATS THE END HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!

Stop you’re loosing me! Miguel o’hara x wife reader pt2 - “Wildest Dreams”

If you haven’t seen pt 1 it’s on my profile @ultradelusional

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Summary: after you left him for a relationship break (talked abt in pt 1) he can’t stop seeing you in his wildest dreams

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It had been 3 days since Miguel and you fought, 3 days that you had be out of his life. At this point he couldn’t take it anymore those 3 days felt like 3 decades to him as a million questions crowded his sleepless nights. “Why did I keep comparing her to Martha she’s nothing like her” “why didn’t I say something when I should’ve” he kept thinking of what he would’ve done different, what he could’ve done different and what he should’ve done different.

But for the past day peter B. Parker had been comforting his loneliness trying to get Miguel to sleep but alas it hadn’t worked yet

“Miguel you really gotta sleep you can think rationally after a good sleep then you can come up with something to get her back” Peter said tiredly as he was tired of Miguel’s resistance to sleep.

“I can’t sleep because why did I do that? Why did I just let her go!” Miguel said tired yearning in his voice

“I know I know Miguel but you gotta slee-“ Peter said as he got a brilliant idea to get Miguel to bed

“How about I make you soup Miguel you’ve barely been eating” Peter said as Miguel had been looking skinnier since you left him

“Sure” Miguel said grimly

After Peter B. Parker had finished the soup when Miguel wasn’t looking he slipped sleep pills and crushed them into the simple carrot soup before serving it to his friend

“Thanks” Miguel said hastily as he hungrily poured the soup into his mouth strong hunger blinding him from the option of using a spoon.

“Feeling anything?” Peter asked as Miguel started looking drowsy

“I feel…I feel tired. Fine. I’ll sleep” Miguel said grumpily as he couldn’t even keep himself upright needing peters help to get into you and Miguel’s shared bedroom.

As Miguel laid in bed the absence of you next to him haunted him as he drifted off to sleep.

Next thing Miguel knew he saw you in front of him in a nice green dress. Sitting on the corner of the bed as he stood in the frame of the bedroom door.

(He was clearly dreaming)

“Y/n I-“ he was speechless as he saw you beautiful as ever in that green dress he had never seen you wear before.

You look up to him a smile on your face “hey honey!” you say standing up to lock your arms around his neck playing with his hear on the back of his head.

Miguel leans his forehead on yours then pulling back to take your right hand to his cheek to kiss it.

“What’s wrong my love?” You say noticing held back tears in his eyes

“Are you still mad?” He asks you tears now streaming down his face

You cup his face whipping his tears as you say “about what?” Concern on your face

“It’s-it’s nothing” Miguel says as he just wants to enjoy your presence “Come to the kitchen mi amour” he says guiding you by your hand in his to the kitchen

“In a dress like that we need to dance to something!” Miguel remarks turning on the radio as Wildest Dreams by Taylor swift coincidentally plays

As you two dance in the kitchen time feels nonexistent Miguel’s eyes only seeing you in his arms not the world around him as the only thing that matters in this perfect moment is you and the music.

Radio: “you’ll see me in hindsight, tangled up with you all night burning it down…someday when you leave me I bet these memories follow you around”

The music starts to fade repeating the words “follow you around” as you start disappearing as well until Miguel’s left in the silent dark kitchen alone.

Miguel instantly wakes up his bare chest full of sweat as his brain’s racing thinking about you as he realizes it was all a dream and you hadn’t forgiven him yet. He needed to get you back.

PT 3 OUT NOW

Step Into The Daylight

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Prompt - "Well, I’m sorry I fell in love with you, okay? But it happened and I can’t do anything about it.” “You... What?” &  "I never wanted anyone to feel bad for me, especially not you"

The sun streaming through the windows did little to fight against the coldness he felt, he knew the room was warm, he knew the cold he felt deep in his bones wasn’t there and yet he couldn’t fight the shivers that wracked his body. It didn’t matter that he could see the small room his brother’s had shown him to once they landed on the planet, in his mind he was still there, still in that cold, small cell with no hope of escaping.

He’d been there for so long, long enough that he had lost track of the days. He could have planned an escape, could have made some attempt to leave their torture but what for? There was nothing waiting for him outside of his cell anymore.

Gone was his relationship with his brothers, gone was the easy back and forth banter with Wrecker, gone were the late night talks with Hunter, gone were the days him and Tech would sit together, his brother’s voice filling the silence without expecting anything back from Crosshair, gone was Echo’s steady presence, at his side whenever he needed it.

Gone were you.

Gone were the early mornings when the rest of his brothers were still asleep, only you and Crosshair awake in the cockpit holding a warm cup of caff and filling the space with softly spoken conversation. Gone were the days spent trying to stick by your side, gone were the stolen glances and lingering touches, gone was sneaking away after missions to explore together, gone were the chances he took to watch you smile, gone was the promise he’d tell you how he felt tomorrow.

Crosshair had run out of tomorrow’s a long time ago.

After all he had done, all the pain he had put his brothers through, the pain he had put you through, this was the least he deserved. 

And so when the chance came to make his escape, to leave the pain and the torture behind he hesitated. The cell door was open, it would be so easy to leave and yet he hesitated. 

If the kid hadn’t been there, if her life didn’t depend on him getting her out he knows he would have stayed where he was, he would have rotted in that cell for as long as they decided he was useful alive.

Now he was free and somehow he felt more confined than ever. It wasn’t just because Hunter wouldn’t take his eyes off him, it wasn’t because Wrecker hovered or the fact Omega had seemed to attach herself to him. It didn’t even have anything to do with the fact that you were here, stars above Crosshair couldn’t think of a time he would ever have ignored your presence and yet now he did everything to stay away from you, not able to face you yet.

No, it wasn’t because of you or his brothers that Crosshair felt confined. It was because he didn’t deserve this freedom, in his head he was still in the cold cell, destined to rot away.

Crosshair stood from the floor, unable to lay there any longer. The room had a bed tucked against the wall but Crosshair had only managed about ten minutes of tossing and turning on it before he gave the bed up for the floor, the bed too soft compared to what he had become used to.

Everyone else was still asleep as he made his way outside, no real destination in mind. His feet carried him through side streets until they grew sore and only then did he make his way back, stopping not too far away from where the others were to sit on the sand, the sun shining blindingly on the water. 

He didn’t deserve to be here.

“I used to come here.” A voice interrupted him some time later, a voice he recognised all too well. “It’s quiet, no one ever comes here.”

Crosshair didn’t turn to look at you, he couldn’t bring himself to do it but when you sat next to him it was too much. He went to stand but your hand softly grabbing his stopped him.

“Please stop running away.” You pleaded softly and Crosshair didn’t have to look at you to know your eyes were teary but he did anyway, his heart aching for having made you this way.

“I can’t do this.” He told you quietly, forcing his gaze away from yours and looking back out at the water. 

“I don’t know what happened to you,” You said after a moment's silence and Crosshair balled his hand into a fist, silently begging you to stop talking. “I don’t know what they did to you and you don’t have to tell me but-”

“But nothing.” He spat angrily, glaring at the sea and instantly hating himself for lashing out at you, so he tried again, softer this time. “But nothing. What they did to me was nothing less than I deserved.”

“Don’t say that.” You said, head shaking as you tried to compose yourself.

“It’s the truth, I tried to kill you, kill my brothers…I hurt you all and for what? For the Empire to throw my loyalty in my face.” Crosshair shrugged. 

“For what it’s worth, I never gave up on you.” You told Crosshair, looking away from him as you spoke. “It didn’t matter what you did, how far you strayed from us, I never gave up on you.”

“You should have.” He muttered. “Everyone else did, Hunter doesn’t trust me, Wrecker wants to but he knows I’m nothing more than a lost cause.”

“That’s not true. Hunter’s just being Hunter, he needs time to adjust, needs time to figure things out in his head and then he’ll want to talk to you. Yeah you’re both gonna throw out words you don’t mean, maybe a punch or two but after that…it’s Hunter, he’s glad you’re back. As for Wrecker he wants to come to you, you know that as much as I do but he’s scared, he doesn’t want to spook you so he’s waiting for you to make the first move.” You explained, keeping your voice soft, not turning to face Crosshair as he turned to look at you.

“What about you?” He finally asked, voice barely above a whisper. 

“I was with Wrecker. I kept my distance and waited to see what your move was. Turns out your move was to avoid everyone.” You laughed and Crosshair felt himself relax a little, the sound one he hadn't heard in so long and it somehow managed to push out some of the cold he felt. “I feel for you, Cross, I do. Stars only know what the Empire did to you but you’re free now, don’t let them win, don’t shut us out.”

“I never wanted anyone to feel bad for me, especially not you.” Crosshair said after a long pause of silence and you laughed again.

“We all feel bad for you, despite everything you’re one of us.” You told him so sincerely that Crosshair felt like he’d been punched in the stomach at the speed his breath was stolen from him.

You turned to face him, a small smile on your face and you hesitated for only a moment before you reached out and took his hand in yours, entwining your fingers together.

“I don’t deserve any of this,” Crosshair forced out and you smiled at him softly. “I don’t deserve you, you should be running away from me, leave me behind and move on.”

“Well, I’m sorry but I fell in love with you, okay?” You told him, watching as his eyes widened in complete disbelief. “It happened and I can’t do anything about it.”

“You…what?” Crosshair choked, for so long he had dreamed of you and him, of a life where you could possibly want him but it was such a far off dream, something that would never become a reality and now you were saying the words he had longed to hear for years.

“You’re stuck with me, Cross, I’m not going anywhere, I’m not running away. You’re it for me, always have been.” You said, laughing as a tear or two managed to slip down your cheek and Crosshair only second guessed himself for a moment before his hand cupped your cheek and he softly brushed the tears away, his thumb caressing your cheek bone.

“I don’t deserve you.” He repeated and you smiled brightly at him. “But I will spend the rest of my life trying.”

“I love you.” You told him again, watching as his eyes became watery and he rested his forehead against yours.

“I love you too, so much.” He choked out and you couldn’t stop yourself from closing the small distance between the two of you, Crosshair not hesitating to meet you in the middle.

Crosshair’s hand on your cheek moved to your hair, pulling you impossibly closer as he kissed you, savouring every second of the feeling, something he had longed for and convinced himself he could never have.

Eventually the two of you needed to pull apart for air, breathing heavily but not going far from each other, foreheads together as you both smiled at the other.

For the first time in so long Crosshair didn’t feel a single bit of cold, his body was warm, his heart racing as he held you close. For the first time in a long time Crosshair didn’t feel numb, he didn’t feel pain or fear.

It felt like he was finally off that awful planet, it felt like he had finally left his cold cell behind and stepped into the daylight, able to feel the sun of Pabu for the first time and it was because of you, you were the source of this warmth, this love, this joy, this overwhelming relief that things would be better.

For the first time in a very long time Crosshair felt like things would be okay, he had you, he swore he’d make amends with his brothers, spend the rest of his life making up for everything, spend the rest of his life proving he was worthy of yours and his brother’s love. It felt easier, it felt doable with you at his side once again.

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