If The Whole World Was Watching I'd Still Dance With YouDrive Highways And Byways To Be There With YouOver

If the whole world was watching I'd still dance with you Drive highways and byways to be there with you Over and over the only truth                                       Everything comes back to you                                    

This chorus is above all. Me, being a person dealing with social anxiety. Its really hard for me to deal with people. But, I know for him I’ll dance.....Just for him, because in front of him nothing else will matter. The lights, tables, chairs, people everything just blur and just him and me.  

In all this chorus today, I’m dedicating to the guy who is made for me JUST FOR ME.

(Sorry, Today nothing came to my mind to write. I was listening to songs and this town by niall horan started to play and I was just starstruck by the lyrics. And suddenly felt the connection with song so came here and wrote out)

Vows Are Just Wows.

Days when I felt sick

Days when I felt tired

Days when I felt my each and every dream is crashing in front of my eyes

Days when I woke up feeling numb

Days when i just felt like giving up on my life

I still lived just for you

Just for you

Just for you

Because in the end my ultimate goal was to meet you, “my husband”  and to just stay with him in all of his wax and wane moments; till death put us apart.

Days when universe didn't made us meet to the day today, here taking my vows with you in front of our beloved ones.

Its always gonna be you no matter what you do. I’ll choose you over and over again.

I know you and me and our forever seems disastrous but I know if situation gets out of track…… We will always make it right for you, for me…..for our forever and then some.

I Love You Forever and ever.

-Eshika Shah

Today I cried a little bit more,

I felt at ease,

But my mind is scolding me like a person who cares for me:

Mind: Didn’t I tell you not to cry today. For fuck sake dear it is your birthday. You cried in front of those who don’t care about you and your feelings.

Me: I’m sorry.

Mind: Don’t be. I know now you gonna regret about it that you cried.

(Ahhhh this was really cringiest thing I ever wrote. But I just felt to let my heart out.)

Love.

 There are so many emotions I haven’t experienced yet...One of them is Love. I haven’t experienced how it feels to fall in love and be in love. I have listened how it feels to be in love, I have read how it feels to be in love but never experienced yet. Each and every person defines love in different ways. Someone said, “Love is something you feel when you are comfortable in your own darkness.”, while some say, “Love is the courage to be with someone in their dark phase”. Though I haven’t experienced love, but the idea of loving and accepting someone for who they are as well as the idea of loved by someone warms my heart. Also, I don’t know how it feels to be embraced by a men. A gentlemen...Sometimes I desperately want to experience how it feels to be in the arms of a men you love, a gentle kiss on eyes, holding hands with him. I know when the right time will come he’ll come (god will send him) to me. I’ll wait for him to come and then maybe I’ll be able to come up with my own definition of love.

Anything I expect from my spouse ; mentally, physically or emotionally, I will have to give it to her in first place.

Love Unrushed ( By Ruhani Gupta on Wattpad)

“I’m going to tell you a secret: You don’t have to believe every thought that pops into your head.”

— B. Dave Walters