I Think Theres This Idea In The General Public That The "best" Fanfic Gets Turned Into Real Books Like

i think theres this idea in the general public that the "best" fanfic gets turned into real books like 50 shades of grey. but the truth is that the best fanfic can never be published as an actual book because its intricately woven into the canon material so its inseparable even if you change the names

yesterday when working with my case manager, she went through a long checklist of my comprehensive needs to refresh our treatment plan. as a part of the questions she was asking me, she asked for various areas of my financial struggles, including if i was able to afford social activities such as hanging out with friends, going to the movies, etc. as part of my necessary purchases. the question was specifically phrased as "Do you have enough money every month to be able to afford social activities?"

this was not proposed as a "luxury". the question was not phrased as "Do you have enough money every month to afford luxuries/luxury purchases?" this was listed with the necessities like food, housing, medical needs, transportation, bills, and clothing. this made me burst into tears when i realized it was considered a necessary part of everyone's mental and well being. my case manager told me that not a singular person on this planet deserves to have to "earn" the right to socialize, interact with leisure activities, or to do things that bring you personal fulfillment. your money does not, and should not entirely go toward survival and practicality. it will ruin your mental health.

to any poor person who has ever been told that they don't "need" or "deserve" social or leisure activities or that your money "needs" to go 100% toward survival: they are straight up lying to you. it is a fundamental part of your mental health. don't fucking listen to them.

strugglebus?

Hi. I'm gonna tuck this under a cut, because it deals with major medical issues and depression, but the tldr is that I am struggling, and could use some help -- if you want to donate, my kofi is here.

A couple weeks ago, I had an endometrial biopsy performed. It came back with cells that are considered likely to be cancer. My blood test showed really high prolactin as well as high white blood count, which led to the doctor referring me to a surgical gyn-oncologist. Right now I haven't seen him yet, because lol American medical system, but I am... a mess.

A really bad mess.

I'm still unemployed, and I'm still behind on my commissions, so I don't feel comfortable offering them. Instead, I am just going to ask if anyone can financially help out, I'd appreciate it. This news has been very hard on me, and I am basically living on potato chips and crackers because I just do not have the mental fortitude right now to cook anything to eat; I don't have the mental fortitude to do much of anything.

I don't want people to feel obligated. I will live. If I have to, I can eat canned vegetables and be fine. I THINK my insurance will cover treatment. If it is cancer, it is a highly treatable kind, and I should be fine. Probably. Hopefully. But this is the kind of news that scares the ever living hell out of someone and I am just. A mess.

I suffer from poor person guilt, as in I hate asking for help financially. But if you want to-- my kofi is here.

Thanks for understanding. <3

im proudly ableist if it means people get to experience their personal life struggles differently from me

There’s like 12 different kinds of tension in this image.