I Say This All The Time, But Fruits Basket Means The Entire World To Me. I First Watched The Anime And

I say this all the time, but Fruits Basket means the entire world to me. I first watched the anime and read the manga when I was like 13/14 and now I’m freaking 18 and the feeling still hasn’t changed. I think that as I’ve grown up, and started understanding things more, the more everything shown in this series touches my heart. Thought I’d put it out there before I actually talked about what I wanted to, because this kind of ties into that. 

You see, my mom died when I was eleven, but unlike Tohru, I have siblings and wasn’t really alone. When I watched Fruits Basket for the first time, the fact that Tohru had just recently lost her mom, but was still carrying on, was something that made me love her so much. As the story progressed on, and now that the rest of the manga is being animated, I see a little bit of myself in Tohru. Not the kind-hearted, super sweet person (obviously,) but the Tohru that pushes the pain of her mother’s death aside so that she can get through the day, the Tohru that doesn’t want to come off as some weirdo for always thinking about her mom.

What prompted me to write this actually, was the scene where Tohru visits her grandfather in episode 14. He talks about how he misses her mother and father, and how he wishes he could see them once more, be it as ghosts or whatever. And... I don’t know, but the tears flooded my eyes and fell down my stupid face, and it hurt even more because just yesterday, my aunt and I were going through some old photos, and there were a few people that had passed away through the years, including my grandparents and mom.

You know how Tohru has that picture of her mom, and if something happens to it, she panics, right? Though, I guess that’s not exactly the case with me, but going through those pictures myself, it really hits home that if it weren’t for them, I might not even remember what my mom looks like exactly. And that sends a sense of guilt all over my body, because it feels like I’ve found things more important than her. 

Fruits Basket so beautifully and delicately showcases how after a parent’s death, though one doesn’t necessarily think about it all the time, but when they do, the emotions just come pouring out. And the fact that sometimes certain things happen or people come into your life, that you begin to question whether you really love the person that you’ve lost. So the scene after her visit, where she thinks about her mom, and sees a glimpse of Kyo, also hurt me like a train.

Anyway, this just turned out to be an emotional rant type thing on my part, but honestly, I just thought it was kind of important to let people know, that stuff like anime/manga, tv shows, and fiction in general, is a constant reminder for some people, myself included that, our problems, no matter how small, are valid. It acts as a way to relieve some stress too, I guess, since you can’t always talk about certain feelings with others because you don’t want to annoy them. 

Also, I’m so very sorry for talking about my sob story. Thanks for your time.❤❤❤ 

Broken hearts everywhere... 💔💔

           MCU              DCTV

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 killing off the hero that started it all

AHH, YOU NOTICED IT TOO!! 

literally can’t stop thinking about tohru’s thoughts shifting from kyoko leaving her to kyo leaving her, paralleling how the pain of losing her mother connects to her fear of losing kyo, AND yuki’s mom leaving the hallway right as tohru enters the hallway from the opposite side, representing the difference between yuki’s real mother and the actual mother figure he’s found in tohru

Hanamori, my sweet boy. ❤❤

everybody in episode 1 of Seikaisuru Kado: OH NO. SHINDOU.

me: WHY DOES NOBODY CARE ABOUT HIS FRIEND?!

Literal representation of me catching up on Haikyuu!! and BNHA.