NSFW Alphabet - Gally

NSFW Alphabet - Gally

I've literally been trying to take a nap for about an hour now, but I can't stop thinking about my opinions about Gally. To be blunt, I am a thirsty bitch.

Warning: this gets a bit intense...excuse me while I hardcore blush

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A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Gally's personality does a complete 180 after sex. Soft kisses, cuddles, affirmations, and making sure you had a good time and nothing was too much for you. Literally turns into a giant teddy bear.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His hands, mostly because you love them so much. He likes them because he needs them to do literally anything, especially being a Builder, and he loves the way they look wrapped around your throat. But he also loves whenever you compliment his eyes, it makes him feel special.

As for you, this boy is 100% a thigh guy. He loves squeezing them, and loves being between them. Your ass would be a close second, there is not a day that goes by where he randomly smacks it as he walks past you.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Gally is not afraid to get a little dirty, he'd cum anywhere on your body honestly. He especially loves cumming on your tits or in your mouth, he adores the fact that you swallow.😛

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Sorta can also be part of the cum category, but he's always fantasized about filling every one of your orifices to the brim with his cum, the thought alone never fails to make him pitch a tent.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Not very cause of the whole being trapped in the Glade thing, but he's a very quick learner and loves to learn even more.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

He loves a good doggy style, grabbing your throat from behind and making you arch backward so your face meets his so he can kiss you mmm *chef's kiss*

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Depends on what kind of session you're having, but typically, Gally is super serious during sex.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He doesn't really care to groom down there too often, but he does keep it clean and trims from time to time.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Again, depends, but he absolutely can be super romantic. He loves keeping eye contact, holding your hands, and he can be really delicate when he wants to be.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

If he's super horny and you're not in the mood, he might get himself off sometimes. But he can be really patient and wait until you're into it, just makes for a better session really

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

It'd be easier to list off the things he doesn't like. He loves spanking, hair pulling, choking (on his dick), biting, scratching, slapping, a bit of bondage and blindfolding, slight degradation (he loves calling you his pretty little slut/whore), orgasm denial and edging, and certain types of edgeplay...cough cough...he also loves it when you address him as "Sir" or "Daddy"...cough

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

He prefers the privacy of your own place, he doesn't like the idea of someone catching you guys in the act and seeing you in a way that's meant for his eyes only

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

You could be doing the most innocent thing in the world, and he could get turned on. You could literally just be sitting out in the meadow of the Glade or Safe Haven, admiring the beauty of a flower then all of a sudden, Gally would be dragging you back to your shared hut🤦🏻‍♀️

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Despite being a kinky little shit, Gally would never ever pressure you to do something that you weren't 100% sure about. He would not hurt you if you didn't ask first.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

This man will literally force you to sit on his face (consensually). But, he can't deny how absolutely gorgeous you look with your mouth around his cock. Expect a lot of "good girl" comments to be thrown your way

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Most of the time, he loves it pretty rough, as you could probably tell by his list of kinks. But if you're having a bad day, he would automatically know rough isn't what you need. And if you asked, he'd be slow and gentle for you.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Gally doesn't mind quickies, but he prefers to take his time with you most of the time. If your both having a busy day and can't spend a lot of time together in that way, quickies are a good option for sure.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Gally loves to experiment. At first, he didn't really realize what he liked before you came along. When you two started the sexual side of your relationship, he was pretty eager to try a lot of things and certain things just clicked in his head like "yep, this is what I like." But he loves when you suggest things you want to try, he's always game, but you'll never get away with suggesting things without a bit of teasing from him

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He's pretty strong in general, so he can go at least three rounds. He loves to exhaust you and most of the time, you tap out before he does.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Still, don't think toys exist in the apocalypse, but if they did: Gally would love to use toys on you. He's pretty confident in his ability to please you himself, so trying out toys seemed like a natural evolution of your sex journey together. He can get very creative 😉

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Gally not liking the idea of sneaking around in public, does not mean he wouldn't excessively tease you all day in the Glade and/or Safe Haven. Teasing you is honestly one of his favorite things to do. Flexing his muscles while working is a must, he knows how much it can fluster you. Some ass slaps throughout the day, whispering filthy things in your ear, and sometimes he straight up tries to finger you at the lunch table while keeping up a normal conversation with other guys while your suffering and barely keeping a poker face.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He's not loud in a sense that he moans a lot, but he loves to dirty talk, you might even say it's one of his specialties. Just him talking alone can get you off. He moans when he starts to get close to his release, but he still keeps up the dirty talk with heavy panting breaths until a loud grunt escapes his mouth as he finishes.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

One time, he just spend an entire day dedicated to your pleasure. He planned it all in advance, taking a day off work in the Safe Haven and keeping you inside your shared hut to work his magic on you. You couldn't even see straight by the time he was done with you.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Uh, I think it's kinda obvious. Have you seen the way he walks? Have you seen the way he manspreads while sitting? The dude is packing, for sure.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

It was pretty high even before you came along, so you've just made him worse really

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He always makes sure you fall asleep first, it makes him feel like he's protecting you in a way. He rests easier knowing you're safe in his arms.

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Yikes, that was a lot.🥵🥵🥵Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned greatly. Gally just turns me into a different person, man, I can't explain it

fight with colin bcs he’s always working and high 24/7 but end with a fluff please?? thank you so much, have a great day!

Omg finally a Colin request, I love that handsome junkie. I hope YOU have a great day, and I hope you enjoy, sweet Anon!

Warning: Spoilers for Bandersnatch, drug use, and mentions of suicide

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You huffed tearfully as Colin entered your shared flat, not even giving you a kiss hello before immediately going to his in-home office to get high...again.

This had been going on for quite some time, Colin finding drugs and his work more important than you.

As soon as you started dating Colin, you knew what you were getting yourself into. You knew he was pretty much an almost 24 hour stoner, LSD being a close second in the drugs he loved taking.

It's not like you were a narc or were disapproving, you smoked an occasional doobie when you were feeling stressed or had trouble sleeping, Colin had no trouble providing in that regard.

In the beginning of your relationship, Colin didn't usually get high every single day. He was present, attentive, basically all over you whenever he got off work. You understood that his work was very time consuming and sometimes it stressed him out, but whenever that happened, he'd go to you for comfort, not pot and acid.

The situation definitely fed into your insecurity: what if I'm not good enough? What if you were lacking something that Colin needed? What if he was filling that specific absence with drugs? Was this all your fault?

You'd never get your answers if you did nothing. Though, you weren't that much of a confrontational person, you never were, but this constant cycle was starting to push your buttons. You knew you needed to confront him, whether he likes it or not.

You decided to square up, roughly wiping away your tears and shaking off your nerves. You didn't want to be weepy when you talked to Colin, you wanted to seem confident, aggressive. You needed to be taken seriously.

You took deep breaths as you walked to Colin's office room, doing your best to shut down the part of you that wanted to cry. You barged into his room with no warning, but that didn't seem to phase him as he was already high as a kite.

Colin's eyes were red and glassy, the room strongly smelling of weed. He didn't even seem to notice you, only looking around the room in wonder as he kept smiling giddily. "Colin." You said sternly, only getting a hum in response. "You're high."

"Oh, you noticed?" He laughed to himself, clearly not grasping the fact you were visibly upset.

You stomped past Colin sitting on his couch and over to the record player, harshly turning off whatever music he had currently been listening to. And with the loud record scratch, Colin's head snapped towards you angrily. "Hey! I was listening to that."

"I want you to listen to me!" You snapped, standing in front of Colin with a scowl. "For the past several weeks, you haven't been talking to me. All you do is smoke pot and take acid nowadays. It's like I've been living with a stranger." You stopped midway through your rant only to see Colin not even paying attention, a slight smile on his face as he focused his gaze on a painting on the wall behind you. "Colin!"

"Wha-?" Colin finally snapped his gaze to you and laughed. "You look so silly..."

"You're not even listening to me..." You scoffed, fighting back tears that threatened to fall.

"Nah, I'm...I'm listening, ha." Colin mumbled, swaying back and forth to the music only he could hear.

You huffed, shaking your head. "I can't do this..."

"Woah, what's wrong?" Colin stood up suddenly, genuine concern in his voice, taking your face in his hands.

Colin quickly lost his footing, stumbling and putting all his weight on you in order to try to catch himself, but that only ended with both of you on the floor.

Colin laughed as your tears finally shed, getting up off the floor and speed walked into the living room. You quickly threw on your shoes and coat, quickly grabbing your keys and walking out the front door. You didn't know where you were going, you just couldn't be in that flat anymore, not with Colin there.

Maybe you were overreacting. Maybe you should've tried harder. Maybe you shouldn't have waited until he was fuckin' high to have that conversation. But it didn't matter now, you were gone and you decided you would stay gone until morning. Colin would be going in to work early as usual and you'd have the flat to yourself.

Or so you thought.

You were surprised to see Colin still at the flat, sitting on the couch in the living room with a distressed look on his face.

You quickly turned around to try to leave again, but Colin saw you before you could escape. "Y/n!" He called out, and you could hear his footsteps coming towards you. "Where the fuck have you been? I've been worried sick."

You chuckled bitterly. "Oh really?" You turned around to see his perplexed expression, but you walked past him to your bedroom, but Colin followed.

"You think I wasn't worried about you? Especially after last night?"

"Oh, so you remember, huh?" You were kind of surprised, a part of you hoped he'd forget, but you never were that lucky.

"Of course. What? Were you hoping I'd forget?"

Despite everything, he could always read your mind.

You sighed heavily, rubbing your hands over your face in frustration. You didn't want to have to repeat yourself, but you felt it necessary. "Colin...I feel like you don't love me anymore..."

Colin furrowed his brows, looking at you like you had just said the most ridiculous thing in the universe. "Why? Why would you ever think that?"

"In case you haven't noticed, we barely ever talk to each other anymore. All you do is work and get high, I can't remember the last time we actually had a conversation."

"Y/n, you know how time consuming my job is, and you know I get high all the time."

"When we first started dating, you only smoked pot like, twice a day. Now, you always have a blunt in your mouth, and you take acid almost every night. That didn't happen before, Colin. You can't tell me that you didn't realize that."

Colin sighed, avoiding your gaze. He didn't know what to say.

"Is it because of me?" You finally asked. "Am I the reason you feel the need to get high all the time, is that it? If it is then...you shouldn't have to deal with me."

Colin quickly shook his head, taking your hands in his. "No! No, that's not it at all! It's not..."

"Then why, Colin?"

It's not like Colin could really tell you the truth, you wouldn't understand and he wouldn't want to burden you with that knowledge. He couldn't tell you about everything he's done and seen, then you'd only worry for him more. No, he couldn't tell you the truth, but he could partially.

"I used to have this friend, his name was Stefan. About a month ago, I found out that he killed himself..." Colin sighed. "He was...probably my only friend, and now he's gone."

Your heart sunk, tears immediately coming to your eyes. You felt how much pain Colin must've been in just from him telling you. You quickly enveloped him in a hug, as comforting as you could. "I'm so sorry, Colin. I had no idea."

Colin soon wrapped his arms around you, accepting your warm embrace when he himself felt so cold. "I've been too afraid to talk about it, with anyone. It would just make it more real. I thought...taking all the drugs would help. But no matter how much acid I took, or weed I smoked...those bad feelings would still be there."

You couldn't find the right words to respond with, so you just hugged your love tighter, hoping and praying it might be enough. Colin burying his face in your neck, and you could feel light wet droplets hitting your skin. It would be barely noticeable to most people, but you noticed instantly. You've never seen Colin cry, or show that much emotion, so you couldn't help but feel a sense or relief and honor that he felt comfortable enough to open up and be vulnerable with you. The realization finally forced your tears to fall.

"I'm sorry..." Colin whispered, "I never wanted you to feel like it was something you did."

"You don't have to apologize, love. You're grieving, trying to process what happened. I understand now. And if you'd let me, I'd really like to do whatever I can to help you through this."

Colin looked down sheepishly, slightly playing with the end of your shirt sleeve. "Just stay with me?"

You smiled sympathetically, bringing Colin's head down gently to place a loving kiss on his forehead. "Of course."

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Poor angsty babies

hi i was wondering if you could write a will poulter fic where he comforts the reader (who’s a college senior) because they’re constantly studying and working because they were the forgotten kid and told by their family members that they were lazy and would never amount to anything so they work really hard at school to prove them wrong, so will helps them with their work and tells them that they’re so smart and that he’s proud of them <3

Well that's kind of a little close to home lmao. But of course, sweet Anon😊

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You roughly shut your laptop closed and slammed your palms down on your desk in frustration, immediately feeling the harsh sting from the force of your outburst.

You had been trying to write one of your essays for one of your final classes all day, not getting anywhere but a few paragraphs that you weren't even happy with.

You still had a few days until it was supposed to be turned in, but you thought you'd get an early start and try to finish half of it. For some reason, you just couldn't find the right words and information you needed to get the required amount of pages. You quickly got frustrated, and you just couldn't try anymore.

You looked at the clock on your phone: 8 pm. You started at 2 pm. You really needed to relax, but how could you do that when your future is literally in your hands?

This was typical behavior for you, always stressing out about school and your future.

Ever since you were young, you basically had to raise yourself. Your siblings were always your parents' favorites. You always got the hand-me-downs. Your siblings' were always the ones who got the brand new car for their birthday, always the first ones who are asked where they want to eat, the ones who got financial support when they decided they wanted to go to college. You got none of that.

You didn't know why, but it always felt like your whole existence wasn't welcomed by your parents, even though they made you. They were always so disappointed in you, even though you never though you did anything to earn those feelings from them. Every day, you tried to please them. Every day, you went the extra mile just to try and be as good as your siblings.

You got straight A's in school. From K through 12, you worked your ass off to try and live up to your parents' standards. You were valedictorian, and your parents didn't even blink an eye. They didn't even go to your high school graduation. They always told you that you would go nowhere in life, and they didn't even show up so you could see them proven wrong.

Since you had no support from your family, you managed to get financial aid, which helped a lot. And just like your high school academic career, you kept up your typical straight A status. You kept receiving financial aid, and you even got invited to various sororities/fraternities due to your constant good grades.

Eventually, you met Will, and he was a person who you've never personally encountered before. He was so supportive, and kind, something you never gotten from your family or friends. You had no idea how to react to him at first, you had to get used to thinking that he was just kind naturally with no ulterior motives. He helped you overcome a lot of your insecurities, helped you learn how to live with them, and that meant the world to you.

It didn't take long for the two of you to become a couple. You were so afraid that you were moving too fast, having done that in the past, but Will was so different from people you've dated before. He was so reassuring and didn't pressure you into anything, another rarity.

You remember one day, you got the first B in your entire life. You sobbed all morning. You felt like such a failure. Will didn't understand why it was such a big deal, but he tried to comfort you as best he could until you calmed down. You decided that was the moment you should tell him everything.

He was the only person you opened up to, telling him about your family and upbringing. He was devastated for you, but every day, he made it a habit of telling you how much you meant to him and how much he loved you. When he first started doing that, you couldn't help but be moved to tears. That's when you realized you were in love with him too.

You needed his support right now.

And it's like he read your mind from the other room, or probably just heard the slam of your laptop, and entered your room to see your angered flustered face with your arms crossed rightly across your chest, taking deep breaths. He could almost see the hot steam radiating off the top of your head. "Essay not going well, darling?"

Hearing his calming voice made you ease up a little bit instantly, and you responded with a weary smile. "Obvious, huh?"

"Hopefully you didn't damage your computer." Will chuckled, walking over to you and leaning down to hug you from behind, his chin resting on the top of your head as he interlocked his arms just beneath your neck.

"I'm just getting really frustrated with this essay." You mumbled. "I feel so stupid not knowing how to write this damn thing."

"Hey." Will turned you head to the side to look at him, a serious expression on his face. "You're not stupid, Y/n. You're so incredibly smart, the smartest person I've ever met." He placed a gentle peck on your lips, giving you a reassuring smile. "You're just having an off day, everyone had those. Okay? Maybe stop for tonight, eat something, rest, do whatever, just try to not think about this essay for the rest of the night. You'll get back at it tomorrow with a clear head. And hey, I'll even help you. How about that?"

You chuckled. "You'd help me write this essay?"

A light blush dusted Will's cheeks, a smirk gracing his lips. "Well, I can't say I'd be much help. But I can try my best."

You leaned over to kiss Will sweetly, smiling as you pulled away. "Just being here to talk me down is enough for me, love."

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Man, I wish I had a Will to help me get through difficult essays...

Omg I have an angsty request that I’m sure is going to rip my heart out and light it on fire. It’s a super long and specific request so sorry if I get carried away:

Okay so reader had an unspoken thing in the glade with Gally but then he “died” so over the course of the events of scorch trials she got closer with newt and they start their own unspoken thing. But then in the death cure, newt (realizing he has the flare) starts encouraging her to reconcile with gally because he knows that he’s gonna die and gally will take care of her? But she’s confused on who she loves but kinda clings to what she has with newt because he needs her. And she’s just heart b r o k e n over newt dying but gally helps put her pieces back together in the safe haven and eventually they have their fluffy first time together?

Thanks!

*Fanfare* *Triumphant Music* I finally finished this one! Sorry it took a while, I really wanted this to be perfect. But I think I'm quite happy with how this one turned out! I hope you like it too, sweet Anon. Btw, I know you wanted smut, but I just didn't think it would fit with this one. Sorry, maybe on the next one!

Over 5.2k words, so strap in for a long one y'all

Possible Trigger Warning: Self Harm

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During your time in the Glade, you were practically attached at the hip with Gally.

He was your best friend, your first go to whenever you had any issues, and you were the same to him.

After his supposed death, you felt a void in your soul. You took on a nihilistic attitude, nothing in life making sense anymore. You didn't care about what happened to you or around you, you wished you had died with Gally, the idea of it being welcomed with open arms.

The thought of dying brought no anxiety, no dread. Even the thought of dying painfully didn't scare you, you wanted it. Everyday you thought about that spear going through Gally's chest, wanting to feel what he must've felt. You wanted to feel the same pain and fear, you wanted to feel like you were dying too.

No rational side of you could explain why you felt this way. Perhaps, if you felt the same pain he felt, maybe it would give some sort of closure. Maybe it would make you feel like you were still close to him, even in death.

It wasn't too long before you decided to act on those feelings. You had been only a knife to your chest, right where your heart was, hyping yourself up to push the blade into your skin.

You didn't want to kill yourself, no. You wanted your death to be natural, not forced. You'd suffer your own existence until your time eventually came like it did for everyone else. But Newt didn't know this when he happened upon you that night, just a couple centimeters of a blade shredding its way into your skin.

Newt panicked, immediately stopping your from hurting yourself, his heart racing at the thought of being too late. But thankfully, he wasn't.

You tried to seem somewhat normal, but the laughter bubbling from your chest couldn't be withheld, making Newt fear that you had lost your mind. He wasn't too far off...

He knew how much Gally's death impacted you, he knew you were in pain every second of every day, but he never thought you'd go so far as hurting yourself. He just silently patched you up, fearing anything he would say from a good place would only upset you further.

Eventually, you explained why you had done what you did. It obviously didn't sit right with Newt. He wasn't particularly close with Gally back in the Glade, but he knew well enough that he wouldn't want you to be living with this mindset.

After a while in the Scorch, you stuck by Newt the most and you started to get better. You felt so empty after Gally's death, leaving a hole in your heart. Newt helped lead you out of that void, trying his best to fit that empty space. But you knew nobody could replace Gally, not even Newt. You knew that space could never be filled, but just seeing Newt try to be that person for you, it was too endearing not to pull at what heartstrings you had left.

Then the complications happened, so much time spent believing that Gally was dead came crashing down as he stood in front of you all, very much not dead.

You thought it had to be a dream, could he really be here?

It was strange. You thought you'd run to him, leap into his arms and kiss all over his face, but you didn't. You stood next to your friends awkwardly as he took off his gas mask. To think you'd be more outwardly happy that someone you cared about was still alive. But you couldn't help the guilt that you felt when Gally said that they left him to die. Sure, it might've not been specifically directed to you, but you felt the sharp sting of his words resonate through you. It almost felt like a strong invisible force hit your funny bone, the volt of uncomfortable aching pain spreading throughout your entire body and leaving you in a breathless agony.

For Gally, he was overjoyed to see you alive and well. He so badly wanted to go to you, feel you in his arms again. But he knew he couldn't, how could he after how he treated everyone back in the Glade?

He didn't remember a lot, but he knew he killed Chuck. The blurry memories of that day, he saw it every night in his dreams. He remembered the sound of the gunshot, the sudden pain in his chest and not being able to breathe. He saw Chuck laying beside him, his expressionless eyes trained on the ceiling, unmoving. His chest wasn't rising and falling like it should've been, blood seeping through his layers of clothing. The most purest soul Gally ever met was dead, and it was his fault.

Gally couldn't even bring himself to look in your direction, he was too disgusted with himself.

Thomas punching Gally wasn't a big shock, he knew he deserved it. But Newt quickly came to his rescue, stopping Thomas from acting out irrationally. But a part of Gally didn't want the Greenie to be stopped. Being punched wasn't something he enjoyed, but Gally would willingly endure whatever punishment that would be inflicted and he'd accept that he deserved it. But nothing he could do or say would bring Chuck back...

When Gally did finally force himself to look at you, he wish he hadn't. You looked indifferent, which never happened with you. He instantly thought that you hated him as much as Thomas did, but then again, he deserved it.

It was really tough for Gally to keep a conversation with everyone while he took them to see Lawrence, especially when he noticed how close you stuck by Newt. But, he supposed it was only natural to find another person to be close to when you've lost someone else, he still couldn't help the feeling of jealousy that bubbled up in his chest. He hated how good you and Newt looked together, you seemed...happy.

At the moment, you weren't even close to happy; you were confused, and angry.

It sounded terrible, but a part of you was angry that Gally was actually still alive. You had to go through the mourning process, and you hadn't even finished it and now all of a sudden, he was alive all this time. It put your emotions on haywire, the most you felt was confusion, and if someone would've told you what you were experiencing was some sort of a twisted dream, you would believe them. But your feet were too sore and sunburn too irritating for this all to be a dream.

You sensed Newt's eyes trained on you, you knew he was probably worried, but you couldn't decide what for. Was he worried that you'd go back to Gally? Was he worried you'd replace him now that he was still alive? Knowing Newt, he probably just wanted to talk to you, but even then, you would have no idea what to say. What do people feel or say in situations like this? You were certain not everyone has to go through the loss of a loved one just to find out that they weren't gone, right?

It was late, and you were exhausted, as was everyone else; but you stayed awake, attempting to sleep only causing you to toss and turn, and eventually giving up. But someone else was awake, you were shocked to see that it was Newt. "What're doing awake?" He asked, taking a seat next to you.

"Could ask you the same thing." You replied, only getting a look from Newt in response. "Couldn't sleep." You sighed, caving in to his concerned expression.

"I know it's not my place," Newt started, wringing his hands together nervously, "but, you haven't said a word to Gally." You knew he was going to bring that up, you had that feeling as soon as he saw you were still awake. "I know it was a shock, to all of us. But I thought it'd effect you the most, to be quite honest. You two were pretty close..."

You shrugged weakly, shaking your head. "I don't know what to tell you. Was I supposed to react a certain way? Was I supposed to drop to my knees and burst into tears or something?"

Newt grimaced. "No...of course you're not supposed to act a certain way. It's just a bit strange to me that you haven't tried to speak to him at all."

"I don't even know what I'd say to him." You chuckled bitterly.

"I know you and Gally had something, something special. That sort of thing doesn't just go away. You were absolutely gutted after what happened, this is a chance to reconnect. You care about him, a lot."

"Hey, that doesn't change the way I feel about you. I care about you a lot too."

Newt smiled weakly. "I know, but I really think you should go and talk to him."

You could tell he was being sincere, but you couldn't understand why. You two had grown close over the past several months, so why would he want you to reconnect with someone you used to be even closer with? You weren't really given the time to think over it more before Newt was quickly encouraging you to speak with Gally, telling you where his room was, somehow knowing this conversation would happen and finding out beforehand.

Just a few moments later, you found yourself outside of Gally's door, fist extended out to hover over the worn wood, but you couldn't bring yourself to knock. Thinking back to how hard you tried to avoid Gally when he came back, what if he thought you hated him? What if he didn't want to talk to you?

But before you could chicken out, you forced yourself to knock on Gally's door without thinking, soon hearing the thud of footsteps nearing. With bated breath, you waited for the door to open, anxiety gripping your mind so intensely that it almost triggered your fight or flight response. But Gally's almost hopeful and shocked expression when he saw you waiting relaxed you a little bit. "...hi." Gally voiced, the nervous and confused tone to his voice not going unnoticed by you.

"Hi." You replied, your voice probably just as shaky and nervous as his.

"Uh, come in." He said quickly, moving out of the doorframe, his hands slightly shaking when he motioned you to enter his room.

Your heart was beating out of your chest, so fast and hard that you were worried Gally would be able to hear it. Your hands were shaking, as well as your legs as you walked into his room, it was a miracle you didn't collapse right then and there. You tried not to jump as you heard the click of his door closing, you tried to take deep calming breaths before Gally turned to face you, the two of you almost on complete opposite sides of the room just standing awkwardly.

You stared at Gally, your gaze running up and down his body but ultimately stopping to stare at his chest. Tears quickly came to your eyes as you saw how healthy he looked, like a spear wasn't embedded in his chest months ago. You couldn't stop the flow of whimpers that came from your throat, putting your hands up to cover your face in embarrassment. You felt your face start to burn as you felt Gally's arms wrap around you as soon as you started to cry, but his warmth comforting you only caused you to let out more tears.

You never thought you'd be in his arms again.

Gally stood there silently, holding you and just trying to soothe you as best he could. In the back of his mind, he was astonished that you even let him come near you, you had avoided him altogether up until this moment. But the whimpers he heard coming from you, seeing the tears spilling from your eyes, he instinctively went to hug you. He also couldn't ignore the guilt he felt, thinking that you were crying because of him. He hated it. But you hugged him back tightly, burying your face in his chest and trying to stifle your sobs.

"You're here..." You cried softly, "you're really here..."

Gally's lip trembled, tears of his own brimming his eyes at how much pain you must've been in thinking he was dead all this time, your voice giving away your feelings. He exhaled shakily, "I am here." He placed a kiss to the top of your head. "I'm here."

For a few minutes, you and Gally just held each other silently. You both needed this, understanding how badly you missed one another. Soon, you were able to calm yourself, but you still didn't pull away. Gally only pulled away slightly so he could see your face, frowning when he saw your eyes were puffy and tearstained. "I'm so sorry, Y/n."

You furrowed your brows, shaking your head. "What happened wasn't your fault, Gally." You said genuinely. No matter how much pain and anger you felt about what happened to Chuck, you never once blamed him. You knew W.C.K.D. killed him, and every other Glader who died. But Gally's frown told you everything you needed to know; he still blamed himself.

"I should've gone with you." He whispered, resting his forehead against yours. "How can you even stand the sight of me?"

"Because I know you never would've killed anyone if you weren't stung, especially Chuck."

Hearing Chuck's name out loud made tears brim Gally's eyes once more, tightening his fists in anger at himself. "Chuck deserved so much better...he wasn't supposed to die..." He cried, causing you to pull him back into your embrace, rubbing his back while trying to not to cry again.

"None of us deserved to get experimented on."

Eventually, you lead Gally to sit next to you on his bed, holding his hand. It felt so right to be sitting there with Gally, you missed him so much that you despised ever feeling even the slightest bit of anger when you first saw that Gally was alive. But one emotion did not go away, you still felt confused.

While sitting there with Gally, you couldn't help but think about Newt. He was so adamant about you reconciling with Gally, was he hoping that something would happen between you two? You truly cared a lot about Newt, and you knew he felt the same way, so you couldn't understand why he was acting this way.

You sighed softly when you started to feel sleepy, standing up slowly. "I should probably head back."

Gally quickly stood up with you. "Uh, you could stay here if you want?" He stammered, causing you to smile a little.

"That's okay. I already had a sleeping bag set up for me downstairs, so..."

Gally tried to hide his disappointed frown, choosing to walk up to you until you two were face to face. Maybe it was too soon, but ever since he saw you, Gally had the strongest urge to place his lips on yours. He missed your soft lips that he only had the privilege of feeling a few times back in the Glade before everything happened. He gently grabbed hold of your jaw, tilting your face up and leaning forward slowly.

You wanted him, you wanted him so bad. But before his lips could connect, Newt's face popped up in your mind and you couldn't, you forced yourself to turn away.

You tried not to look at Gally's face, knowing that he'd probably look like a kicked puppy. You couldn't, it would be too painful. "It's Newt." Gally frowned, taking a step back.

Your eyes widened, finally taking a glance over to him to indeed see that his expression was one of disappointment and sadness. "I never said-"

"You didn't have to." Gally interrupted. "I see the way you look at him...it's how you used to look at me." You stayed silent, a feeling of guilt washing over you. "I don't blame you, Y/n, for finding someone else. I'd never expect you to grieve over me forever, that's too selfish."

Hearing this, you had a terrifying thought that you needed to voice out loud. "Did you ever find someone else?" You asked nervously, afraid of his answer.

"No..." He smiled weakly, "No one that could ever compare to you."

You hated that you felt relieved, you were the one who seemed to be selfish. But, you couldn't just drop what you had with Newt now that Gally's still alive. You couldn't say anything else, what could you say to that?

"You should get some sleep." Gally said, opening his door and motioning you to get out.

"Gally..." You whispered.

"Please. Just...we have a busy day tomorrow."

You sighed. You couldn't argue with him.

Newt watched you walk back downstairs, getting into your sleeping bag with a very prominent frown. Doesn't seem like it went well, he thought. He felt relieved and frustrated at the same time. Newt really cared for you, he could even go as far as saying he loved you, but he needed you and Gally to get back together, or become friends again at least.

It wasn't too long ago that Newt found out he had the Flare. He saw the black and purple veins slowly travelling up his arm, and the pain, the pain was the worst part. You had already gotten close to him, so he was heartbroken to know that you'd just lose another person you cared for. After Gally, he knew you wouldn't be able to handle another loss. So when Gally showed up out of the blue, it was like a miracle, Newt's prayers had been answered.

Newt felt jealousy, of course, he wanted to stay with you. He didn't want Gally to take you from him, but what use would he be when he was dead or a Crank? He tried not to be angry with you, it wasn't your fault how you were feeling, but he needed to know you'd be okay when he was gone.

Newt did try talking to you about it, but you always changed the subject or simply didn't answer him. Before you all knew it, it was time to start planning Minho's rescue mission. Thomas didn't want to use Teresa, and hearing that only made Newt's anger bubble to the surface.

It wasn't like Newt to lash out like that, he was always so calm and relaxed. Maybe the stress finally got to him, maybe it was something else...

You immediately followed after Newt when he stormed out after yelling at Thomas, not knowing that Gally's sad eyes were following you. You couldn't think of anything else, you just had to know that Newt was okay.

You found Newt on the roof, sitting on the ledge. "Newt?" You asked, concerned. "Are you okay...?" You stepped closer captiously, finally taking a seat next to him.

Newt only smiled bitterly. "No...no, not really."

You sighed, looking out to the horizon, trying to find the right words to say. "We all thought Teresa was our friend...it's okay to be angry."

Newt shook his head. "It's not that."

You furrowed your brows. "Then, why did you lash out at Thomas?"

Newt bit his lip to keep it from trembling. He never wanted you to find out this way. He didn't even want you to know. But after that scene he made, he knew there was no point in hiding it anymore.

Tears came to your eyes as Newt lifted up his jacket sleeve, revealing his discolored arm. You knew what it was immediately, seeing it on every Crank you came across. "No..." You whispered. "No."

"I know I probably shouldn't have kept it from you, but I was scared. I still am."

"We'll fix it!" You quickly said, it sounding more like a plead. "We'll find another cure!"

Newt only gave you a weak smile. "I don't think that's a possibility right now, love. Besides, Minho needs us."

"No, you're not allowed to give up like that, Newt. We'll find something to help you. If Brenda was cured, so can you. Teresa might-"

"Please, Y/n." Newt voiced sharply. "Please...just stop. I don't need false hope."

Before you could say anything else, you heard the roof access door open, Thomas walking up to the two of you. "Y/n, can I, uh, talk to Newt? Alone?"

You looked to Newt, who nodded, signaling for you to leave. You stood up, speed walking inside and down the stairs. The tears kept falling, blurring your vision, and you had no idea what to do. Newt was dying, and there was nothing that you could do about it, and it didn't seem like he was too eager to try and find a cure. You hoped Thomas could talk some sense into him. But in that moment, your feet subconsciously took you to Gally's little apartment. You stood in front of the door in tears, wishing that you didn't feel the urge to find comfort in him when Newt was sick. But, you knocked on the door, quickly placing yourself in Gally's arms as soon as he was in front of you.

Gally didn't know what was wrong, he barely got a good look at your face before you threw yourself at him. But the way you were shaking and whimpering, he knew you were crying, and he didn't have the heart to pull away from you. He walked backwards and shut his door, leading you to sit down on his bed with him. He just held you as you cried, leaning his head down on top of yours until you calmed down. He finally spoke when your cries were just quiet sniffles. "What happened?"

You exhaled a shaky breath, lifting your head to look at Gally. "Newt has the Flare..."

"W-What...?" Had Gally heard that right? Could his mind be playing tricks on him? He just assumed everyone that was in the Glade was immune, that's why they were there, right? But you repeated what you had said, confirming what Gally thought he heard. "I...I'm so sorry..." That's all Gally could say. He wasn't very well spoken in these types of situations, all he could do was bring you back into another hug.

You finally understood why Newt was pushing you to get close to Gally again; he wanted you to be close to someone when he died.

Yet another situation that had you confused. You knew you loved Gally, you always had, he was your best friend. But now you had Newt, he helped you through everything while in the Scorch, helped you try to overcome your grieve and probably saved your life multiple times. How could you possibly make a decision like this?

You and Gally never put a label on what you had in the Glade, and nobody asked either, not even Alby. You both just knew that you cared for one another, that you'd do anything for the other. But as time went on, you felt guilty knowing what you'd ultimately choose. It was always going to be a lose lose for you.

Newt needed you, and you couldn't leave him when he needed you the most.

Gally, deep down, knew what your decision was going to be. You had a big heart. You never would leave anyone behind, even if they were infected. Back in the Glade, Gally wouldn't have hesitated in sacrificing the few to save the many, but you were never like that. You cared about everyone, especially the people who were closest to you. You never were going to give up on Newt, you couldn't now. You would spend as much time with him as possible, what little time he might've had left. And you did, until he took his final breath.

You felt like you were a glass vase that had been shattered, and every time you tried to pick up the pieces, the glass would just cut deeper and deeper into your skin. It felt like life didn't want you to be put back together. Nothing felt real. Everything that happened in the Last City felt like a fever dream. You hoped that one day you'd wake up and you'd be back in the Glade, everyone was still alive. Maybe if you could go back in time, maybe you could save everyone, maybe you could've convinced Gally to listen to Thomas, maybe you could've held off Newt a bit longer in time for Brenda to give him the cure.

A lot of maybe's, a lot of hopes and prayers, never answered.

Now in the Safe Haven, you felt anything but safe.

You didn't talk to anyone for awhile, not even Gally. You had nothing to say, and you were afraid of breaking down in front of everyone. So, you isolated yourself. And then a couple weeks later, you finally felt everything bubble to the surface.

Sitting down somewhere along the coastline, not too close to the water, but close enough that you could feel the salty breeze of the waves hit you gently as the evening cooled when the sun started to go set.

You tucked yourself up into a ball, your knees as close as you could get them to your chest and your arms wrapped tightly around them. And, you cried. And cried. And cried. And cried. The ugly kind of crying. Your tears weren't coming out one eye at a time in a perfectly straight line down your face like in the movies, you weren't making quiet sniffles or whimpers, you were full on sobbing. Tears came out of your eyes so fast that you could barely make out the sun on the horizon, your shirt sleeves were most definitely covered in snot and whatever salty tears it had the chance to catch. Your throat felt like it was being torn apart by how intense your sobs were. The sobs sounded more like you were having a coughing fit, one of those phlegmy hacking coughs that made you feel like you were going to vomit.

You knew you most likely weren't far enough away from the camp to quiet your weeping, and you knew you were just embarrassing yourself, arranging for yourself to be completely humiliated the next morning when you had to face everybody. But in the moment, you couldn't care less. You loss someone so important to you, it felt like losing Gally all over again. But you knew this time, it was final. No surprise resurrections this time. You felt completely, and utterly, alone.

But you never were.

You felt so dissociated and detached from yourself, the wails of grief too much for your body to handle. You couldn't feel anything around you, not the warmth of the sand, not the slight chill breeze, not even Gally's arms wrapped around you tightly. You didn't realize until you passed out from exhaustion, waking up the next morning in a bed that wasn't yours, and a hut that wasn't yours.

Your vision was still a little bit blurry, all the tears from the night previous crusting to the creases around your eyes, making it a bit of a challenge opening them all the way. But, your other sense were intact enough to tell you that bacon and eggs were next to you on a bedside table. You hadn't eaten the day before, so it was mostly a primal reaction to quickly take the plate and gobble up the food.

You still had to rely on context clues to figure out where you were in the camp. As much as your eyes irritated you, they could now finally work once you were wide awake. You probably should've known immediately who's hut it was, but seeing that familiar grey knitted hoodie settled ungracefully over the backrest of a chair, you knew it was Gally's.

You blushed quickly after that realization. How did he know where you were, and how much did he see? The thought of him seeing you in such a state made you cringe. But what was more horrifying was that Gally was right outside the room, waiting for you to wake up. "Hey..." He voiced, his eyebrows knitted in concern, eyes full of sadness.

You had to look away, the heat rushing to your face making you feel like you were going to pass out again. "Hi." You croaked, your vocal cords still sore and raw.

Gally shifted his weight nervously, taking a step closer to you. "I'm sorry, for bringing you here...I was afraid you were going to hurt yourself." You snapped you gaze back to him in confusion, him quickly blushing, scratching the back of his head. "Uh, Newt told me about what you did to yourself after...after the Maze."

You self-consciously rubbed the spot on your chest where a big scar still remained. "I wasn't trying to...you know, kill myself or anything."

"Forgive me if I don't believe you." He said softly, taking a seat on the bed next to you.

You sighed, crossing your arms. "I just...I didn't know what I was thinking."

Gally gently grabbed ahold of your hand, making you uncross your arms, letting his warm hand take yours. "I'm so sorry, Y/n. Newt should be here with the rest of us. He was a good person."

You nodded as tears came to your eyes again, burning enough to make you whimper, and you leaned your head against Gally's shoulder. "I miss him so much." You cried.

Eventually, you and Gally became close again. He was always there for you. Whenever you had nightmares, whenever you were lonely, whenever you needed anything, Gally would always be there. You started to feel your relationship had almost gotten back to the point where it was in the Glade, it had been almost a year, but you still felt it was too early to be moving on. A part of you didn't want to move on, but you knew that's not what Newt wanted either.

You didn't read the note Newt wrote to you when Thomas first gave it to you. The grief was still too near, and you didn't know if you could handle it. But a couple months after your breakdown, you finally read it. Newt loved you, he had always loved you. And he wanted you to be happy, he didn't want you to be sad that he was gone, even though he knew it would be impossible. But he knew you would be okay, he knew Gally would protect you no matter what. Reading his note was part of the reason you knew it would be okay to be with Gally, it just took you some time.

One day, you and Gally were taking a break from working, just sitting near the forest tree line, and you did it; you kissed him, and you couldn't stop, you didn't want to stop. And you didn't, and neither did Gally.

After that, it was almost impossible to spend any time away from each other.

You never thought you'd smile again, but Gally always found a way. He made you so happy, and it made you cry one night when you finally realized that you were happy, and you knew somewhere out there, it made Newt happy.

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OMG YOU STARTED THE NSFW ALPHABET WITH SOMEONE OTHER THAN GALLY?!?!

Sorry, I was just very surprised by that

Honestly, me too, darlin'😂

Heyyy, I'm turning off my request box for the time being.

I've let the requests I've gotten pile up and there are a bunch, and I also have been wanting to work more on original ideas that I want to put more focus into. Plus, I've been a bit busy in the real world and it wouldn't be fair to those who've sent in requests to receive a half-assed piece of garbage just cause I'm not in it 100%.

Hope y'all understand😊